AN: I think I might write a sequel to this after I write the final chapter!! Ya know, this might be the chapter before the final one!! Hoe!!

Kero: What?! Really?!

Ice: *nods* Yep, but there might be a sequel...I think there will be...90% sure of it ;)

Kero: There better be or I won't get anymore pudding and sweets *cries*

Ice: @.@ Oh right, omg!!! ARIGATOU LEII!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARIGATOU x10000000 FOR THE IMAGE AWARD!!!! I WUV YA!!! My very first one to, I'll always remember you and that award...thank you so much :D:D

Kero: Nehehehehehe! Oh ho ho, the thank you list ~.^

Kero's Thank You List!!~~!!

MEE*->CrazieStarGurl for the green tea cookies, strawberry filled koala cookies, oreos, and chips ahoy!! YUMMIE :)
Kataryn for the magical discount card! WHOOO00ooooo :D
Syaoran'sgurl01 for the century supple of pudding, 10 trillion bags of candy,and icecream the size of Mt.Fuji!
SakuraJade for the ice cream cake! ME LUV!
Leii for one million dollars, and every flavoured jelly bean! Every flavour...sounds dangerous ^.~;;
Toxic Shade for the chocolate statue that looks like wonderful me!!
kitty kat for the large lemon squares, sugar cookies, and the sweets! LOOKS GOOD :D
LilDrummerGirl23 for the chocolate pudding!!!
princessrachel for the mountani of pudding :D
anjali-chan for the giant peice of taffy, but it won't shud me up! MWUHAHAHAH!!
Sakura Bunnie for whatever I want ^^;;;
ChibiMew for the gets infinite candy, pudding, cake, and all other sweets!!!! YAY!!
pinkuser for the...0.o toothbrush, toothpaste, medicine to cure you whenever you have a stomach ache ^^;; Very nice of you!
Anime for the load of treats!!
Yumeko for the $100,000,000 and brownies! *drools*
Merl-chan for the PS 2!! YEAH!! And FF10!!! WHOOO!!!
(nobody) for all the video games and systems in the world! HOLY! YATTA!
Saba-chan for the box of Pocky that refill by emselves :D And a jello house!! ^0^

Ice: Oh and thank you so much for the remote control Saba-chan! Oh ho ho, it'll come in handy ~.^ Well, I guess Kero's done with his thank you list, now onto the 12th chapter ^0^


Disclaimer: No, I don't own CCS and it's character, so pooey. CLAMP owns it -.-

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To Guard our Love
Chapter Twelve: Tears of Love
Written by Enchanted Ice Star










Sakura blinked as they stared at each other for a good whole five minutes. It was silent except for the leaves rustling against each other and the stars seemed to twinkle at them happily.

Syaoran turned red as he looked quickly away. "I mean..."

"...I know what you mean..." Sakura replied softly as she turned to look at the stars herself. "...This is what they call love? Isn't it?"

"..They?"

"I mean, we." Sakura answered quickly.

Syaoran blushed even more as he grasped onto the railing tightly. "...Yes..I guess..."

Sakura turned to him once again, and turned him lightly so they were face to face. "...I've never been in love before...and now I know that it is...a wonderful feeling..." Sakura said in a soft dreamy voice, but then her eyes went slightly watery as she turned away. "...But...but...I can't..."

Syaoran's amber eyes went wide as the words hit him and slowly engraved themselves into his heart.

Sakura turned around quickly and ran off the balcony. "I can't love!!" She cried while her figure disappeared out of sight.


**Syaoran's point of view**

I turned around, slightly pale.I had finally brought up the courage to confess and admit my true feeling to myself and ying fa... how hard it was, and now it's over.

She says "I can't love."

I guess...that means no. She doesn't love me? How stupid was I to think that she would have ever fealt the same way as me? I was a baka...a big baka....now she must hate me, it's all over.

She doesn't love me...this hurts...it really really hurts...but it doesn't feel like the pain of a bruise when I trained when I was little. It doesn't feel like a cut in the skin...it's really painful...this aching feeling...it's my heart...it's breaking..it hurts..

Love hurts...I thought it was suppose to be sweet...and beautiful...but it's all just pain...

Lies and pain, that's all it is...

"I can't love." ...You can't love? ...

Pain...

I feel numb..

I feel...just pain...


**Normal point of view**

Let's face each other
Face to face
Then we can see eath other
The emotion in our eyes

Will it be yes?
Will it be no?
It's all for destiny
To pick and play

It's either a smile
It's either a tear
It's either good
Or it's either bad

It never works out
For everyone
And that's the case
Between you and me

Let's face each other
No more pain
No more tears
Let's just face each other

The emotion between us
Will no longer be hidden
Yet will it be yes?
Or will it be no?

Sakura sat on the bed, hugging her knees tightly, a ruby eyed girl standing next to her with a worried look shown across her face. Her face was hidden in her knees, but she could feel the other girl's presence near her.

"Sakura? Are you ok?" Meiling asked.

"I don't know..." Sakura replied in a muffled voice. "I'm so confused...I've never fealt this weird feeling before..."

Meiling stared at her for a moment, then sighed as she walked over to Sakura and lifted her head so she could see her face. "Sakura, this is exactly what I told Xiaolang, and I think I have to tell you the same thing. Don't hide your feelings, it causes much more pain. Don't hide anything, just show it, bring it out to the light."

Sakura sniffed and whiped away some tears that had rolled down the side of her cheeks. "Hiding my feelings? But I'm not trying to..it's just...doing that by itself..I just don't know what's happening...Syaoran..he, I don't know!"

"He loves you Sakura! You know that, don't you? He told you didn't he?"

"...I guess...he did...in a odd way..." Sakura answered in a hoarse voice. "It's just..that, it can't be!"

"..What can't be?! If you love him, and he loves you, it'll work perfectly like a fairy tale!" Meiling exclaimed, but her ruby eyes showed a hint of sadness. "If only...it was like that with me and him..." She said softly.

Sakura lifted her head a bit, and tilted it. "...Hoe?"

"...I loved him, Sakura. But...he didn't love me, he loved you. I let him go, so he could find happiness, you can't turn him down..." Meiling looked at Sakura hard. "For me? For your own future? Xiaolang is a great guy! He might seem cold at times, but he's got a big heart..."

Sakura glanced down at her feet, and sighed. "I know that...he's nice, he's sweet, he's everything! Demo...demo...it will never work out between him and me."

"...Why?! It works perfectly!" Meiling exclaimed in confusion.

"Hmm..it's hard to explain..." Sakura answered lightly. "Let's just say...water and fire. When there is water, there can be no fire. When there is fire, there can be no water. They deminish each other." Sakura replied.

Meiling blinked, and a look of puzzlement crossed her face. "...But...but that makes no sense..."

"It makes perfect sense except for the fact that you are missing a peice to the puzzle," Sakura giggled softly and stood up from the bed. "Thanks for being there when I needed someone to talk to Meiling."

"..Er no problem," Meiling answered.

Sakura smiled, "It helped alot...and I feel...lighter now." Sakura took in a deep breath and sighed. "I just don't know what to do now."

"...Go give Syaoran an answer...he can't live without knowing if it's yes or no," Meiling suggested.

"...I...I need to think about it..." Sakura closed the door behind her and left.

Meiling just shook her head disappointingly. "Those two are so...impossible."



Two days went by, and Sakura was getting a weird feeling in her stomach everytime she was near Syaoran. Syaoran didn't speak to her, and whenever she wanted to start a conversation, he would just sort of walk away. Sakura sighed sadly as she took her seat in front of Syaoran to begin today's morning.

Tomoyo looked over at Sakura, and then glanced over at Syaoran who's face was hidden behind a text book. She frowned, she could sense something was wrong between the two...they seemed so tense.

"Sakura? Is something wrong?" Tomoyo asked worridly.

Sakura sighed again and smiled meekly, "...No, nothing's wrong Tomoyo-chan."

Tomoyo raised an eyebrow and gave her an 'as if' look, but she decided to drop it since Sakura didn't seem like talking about it. She saw Sakura turned herself around and peek over Syaoran's text book.

"Shaoran...?" Sakura started, but Syaoran just growled and lifted his text book higher. Sakura stepped back, her emerald eyes showed hurt as she turned around again when the teacher came in.

"Settle down class, you can do your talking at recess," Mrs. Chow said while placing her books on her desk.

For Sakura, the whole lesson went by as a dream, everything seemed blurry, and everything seemed unreal. She wondered what was wrong with Syaoran, it seemed like..he didn't want her around.

Does he hate me now? Why?? Did I do something...wrong?> Sakura thought through the whole afternoon until the bell rung.

She wanted to walk home with Syaoran and ask him what was wrong, but the minute the bell rung he was out the door. Sakura ran after him, but he was much faster and soon was to far to catch up too.

Sakura frowned as she made her way into the Li Mansion minutes after Syaoran. She walked by his closed door, and stopped in front of it hesitiantly.

She couldn't hear any sound coming from the room, but she knew he was in there. She knew him to well now.

"...Sy.." Sakura lifted her hand to knock, but then she paused, wondering what to say if he did answer the door. She took a deep breath, and knocked twice.

There was no answer.

She knocked again.

"I'm busy." Replied a flat voice.

Sakura frowned, the tone in his voice wasn't the usual friendly voice she was use to. She knocked again.

"I told you, I'm busy," Replied the same flat voice, but this time, it was slightly more annoyed.

Sakura bit the bottom of her lip as she dropped her hand back to her side. "...Shaoran...what's wrong?"

"...What's wrong? You know very well what's wrong," Came the reply.

Sakura gripped onto the end of her uniform skirt tightly, her emerald eyes starting to water. "...But..but I don't know what I did wrong...I really don't. What did I do Syaoran? What did I do?" Sakura asked shakily.

There was silence and no reply but then the door clicked and it opened, revealing a Syaoran with a glare on his face.

"Don't act stupid Kinomoto," He muttered.

Sakura stepped back slightly at the words, they were simple words, but they sounded harsh against his lips. "...Syaoran..? Something's wrong, and I really don't know why you're so angry at me, and why you keep ignoring me, I just don't know why!" Sakura cried.

"...You.." Syaoran started.

"I what?!" Sakura couldn't control the odd pain in her body. "I didn't do anything wrong did I?! I gave up all my magic so you could see the world again. I deserve a rightful reason why you're acting this way to me!"

It was Syaoran's turn to be surprised, he had never seen Sakura yell, espeically to him. Even if he had been mean to her before, she would just giggle and act as if nothing had just happened. "...You...You hurt me..." He mumbled.

Sakura's anger died away, and her eyes just glistened as a round teardrop rolled down her cheek and hit the carpet, making it darker.

"You hurt me..." Syaoran repeated. "It's so painful Sakura, it's really painful..." He uttered.

Sakura listened to the words entering her mind, "It's painful". Painful? What's painful...?> She wanted to ask, but she felt that she should know why Syaoran was in pain. It's...it's my fault? It must be...my fault..?>

Sakura lowered her head, her auburn bangs falling into her eyes. "...It's my fault...isn't it?" She mumbled. "That you're in pain? I'm...I'm sorry..." Sakura lifted her head again and turned around. "I'm sorry...for causing you so much pain...so much trouble...I'm sorry...that I jumped into your life all of a sudden...I'm sorry..."

She walked away quickly without turning back, but Syaoran could have swore he heard four words escape her lips.

"I can't love you..."

Syaoran didn't know what to do just then, as he watched Sakura's figure disappear down the hallway. He could hear his heart beating in his chest, and that was basically the only sound that was heard around the house.

He didn't like seeing the hurt look in Sakura's eyes, it pained him...that it was he who caused the look in her eyes. But then, she had done the same thing to him, and caused him pain he had never felt before.

"Why is love...so painful?" Syaoran mumbled under his breath.

He stepped back inside his room, but then he paused. He thought again, and decided...to visit the room at the end of the hall, Sakura's room...


Sakura was trying to do her homework, but she couldn't even see what she was writing because the tears just kept on coming back.

She wiped them away quickly, but they just covered her eyes again and some of the tears dropped onto her assignment staining it with her tears. "..Stupid tears...won't go away...stop crying!!"

She didn't notice her door opening as she continued to try and write her homework, but then a pair of hands covered her eyes. She gasped but then she heard a familiar voice say, "Guess who?"

"...Syaoran?" Sakura pushed the hands gently away from her eyes as she turned around from her seat. "Syaoran...?"

Syaoran looked down at the floor as Sakura got up from her chair. "Ok, I'm sorry Sakura. I know I shouldn't be mad at you, it was my own fault that I fell in love with you. And so the pain I am enduring now, is my own fault.."

Sakura quickly wiped away the new tears in her eyes, as she gave Syaoran a hug by leaping into him. He was startled and so he stumbled back, but he accepted the warm feeling as he wrapped his own arms around Sakura.

"I am so sorry, it's not you fault!!" Sakura cried into his shoulder. "It really should be my fault, I'm suppose to be protecting you and..I just cause you pain..."

"Protecting me? Why?" Syaoran questioned.

Sakura paused and shook her head no. "No..I can't tell you...gomen...but...but..."

"..." There was a second of silence and then Sakura stepped back a bit so they could see each other's face. Sakura's eyes sparkled, and Syaoran's amber eyes flared.

"A..Aishiteru!!" Sakura cried.




AN: The word above that you just read means 'I love you'. I didn't want to put brackets and ruin the moment! ^^;; Just be prepared..the next chapter isn't going to be all...happy ever after...you'll see ^.~

Kero: I don't care how those two are happily ever after, I'm just happily ever after with my sweets and goods! ^0^

Ice: ¬¬;

Kero: Well, stay tooned for Ch. 13 ~.~

Ice: And tell me what you guys think, sequel or no sequel??