AN: The final chapter?! Yep, that's right, this is the final chapter to this fic...*cries* I feel sad actually! It was a really fun fic to write, and I think I like writing fics alot now!!
Kero: *cries a thousand hours* NOO! That means...no more sweets? No more pudding? No more...GOODIES?! NOOO!!
Ice: ...Ya know what Kero? For once I'm sad with you...*cries*
Kero: Wait! But I think there will be a sequel right right?!
Sakura: Hai!!
Syaoran: Absolutely!!
Meiling: Totally~!
Tomoyo: Yeah!!
Ice: *sweatdrop* Yeah, so there will probably be a sequel because the ending is...kind of, not complete! So I wanna make a sequel ;)
Kero: YATTA! MORE SWEETS FOR ME! NONE FOR SUPPI THOUGH! AHAHAHAHA!
Ice: Ok..onto the...final...chapter....final...chapter...*cough*
ok, me stop now ^^;;
Disclaimer: No, I don't own CCS and
it's character, so pooey. CLAMP owns it -.-
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Chapter Thirteen: My One and Only Star
Written by Enchanted Ice Star
Sakura landed softly into Syaoran's arms, and the time seem to freeze around them. Hearts beating were the only sound, as both were in each other's arms.
Syaoran smiled, and Sakura wished he would do that more often. "...I really love you Sakura..." He mumbled.
Sakura felt warm and light as she was held in the arms of Syaoran. She forgot all about her duty, rules, responsibility, she just wanted to be held forever, in her room, in the warm embrace of Li Syaoran.
Just then, she felt her chin being lifted gently, and Syaoran leaned closer. Sakura did so to, as she had watched many humans do this..they were inches apart, and Sakura closed her emerald eyes, wondering what it was like.
Closer and closer...they...leaned... so close...and then all of a sudden a blinding white right exploded out of no where which caused Sakura and Syaoran to tumble back.
"Nani (what)?!" They both said in unison as they got up and saw that the room had disappeared and they were standing in a white empty void of space.
"Shaoran...where are we?!" Sakura cried, as she tried to walk towards Syaoran, but something was holding her back.
Syaoran was trying to do the same, but a weird force held them both back from each other. "I can't reach you Sakura!!"
"Syao-kun!!" Sakura screamed.
"Sakura..."
Sakura and Syaoran both froze, and looked around for the source of the voice. To Sakura, the voice sounded familiar...
"...Selissia?!" Sakura guessed.
"Sakura, you know you have just made a very big mistake."
Sakura's eyes widened in horror as she looked around. "I didn't know! I forgot all about the rules! I am so sorry..."
"...Who are you talking to Sakura?" Syaoran asked with wide eyes. "I can hear the voice...but who's Selissia?!"
"Li Syaoran, you do not need to know. It is best if you don't." Came Selissia's voice.
"Sakura, you know that you can't be with Li Syaoran. You know very well that you are not suppose to fall in love with the person whom you must guard. That is against all gods rules, and you have broken it."
Sakura felt her eyes water slightly as she looked at the empty floor shamefully. "Gomen nasai...I really just forgot...my feelings...just took over me...I was confused..." Sakura mumbled softly.
"No Sakura, you knew you were falling in love, you just didn't know what this feeling was called," Selissia's voice echoed softly in the empty area. "And now Sakura..you know what you must face..."
Syaoran watched Sakura's expression turn to one of angst. "Sakura...what's happening?! What rules?!"
Sakura lifted her head, "But I don't want to leave him! I won't!" Sakura forcefully tried to break the force that held her back from Syaoran.
Syaoran did to, and they both stretched out their hands, their fingers ever so close...brushing against each other...and then..a powerful force pulled Sakura back.
"SHAORAN!!!!" Sakura screamed.
Syaoran watched in horror as Sakura's hand slowly slipped away and she was getting farther and farther. "SAKURA!! NOO! SAKURA!!"
He could see Sakura smile faintly. "I don't want to leave you with a frown, I'll leave you with a smile. I'll always always try to remember you ok Syaoran? I will try my best...take care...I'll always guard our love in my heart, it was the most important memory and feeling to me in all my life...arigatou..." And then she was gone...
Syaoran stumbled forward, and he
found himself back in Sakura's old room. "...Sakura...?" He said numbly.
"...What...what happened?!"
Sakura found herself in heaven once again, her wings back on her back, and she was now standing in the grand hall way of the guardian angels.
Selissia sat at the very top, with a sad look on her face. Other head guardian angels stood along side her, and they all had an expressionless face.
"Sakura Kinomoto, you know that you have broken the most important rule for guardian angels." Selissia said in a stern voice. "Human and angel can not be together, for one is alive and one is only a living spirit."
"I understand...but...I couldn't...help it...I don't know..." Sakura stuttered.
"Shameful, how could she be a guardian angel in the first place?" Someone muttered from the crowd.
Sakura frowned as Selissia continued, "In god's order, you know what the punishment is don't you Sakura?"
"...Hai..." Sakura felt tears forming in her eyes as they rolled down her cheeks in round pearly tears. She lifted her head, her emerald eyes showed sorrow and pain.
Selissia sighed softly, "I am very sorry Sakura, I can't help you this time, no one can go against the rules of god."
"I know that..." Sakura whispered.
"Then, are you ready?" Selissia asked.
Sakura took a breath, "Can...can I say one last good bye?"
Selissia stared at Sakura, as if she was trying to see into her, and then she finally nodded. "Very well, but you have exactly two mintues."
"..Ar..Arigatou!" Sakura exclaimed
as Selissia transported her back to the one she loved.
Syaoran was in the back of the Li Mansion, looking at the lotuses that floated over the small river in their garden. It was a garden in a chinese style, with a bridge going over the river and on the other end, flowers greeted you.
But, Syaoran was in no mood to stare at flowers, well, he kind of did. He wanted to stare at his flower, his cherry blossom.
"What happened...? Where did you go? Rules? What rules? Face it? ...There's something you're hiding from me..." Syaoran thought out loud with a sigh.
"You're right Syaoran, I am hiding something from you."
Syaoran turned around with wide eyes and saw Sakura standing there, in a long flowing white gown, and beautiful pearly pink wings on her back. She looked...like an angel, glowing lightly, and she had an angelic aura around her. He wondered how he never sensed this aura around her...
"S..Sakura...?!" Syaoran exclaimed.
Sakura tilted her head, locks of auburn hair tumbling over her shoulder. "Li Syaoran, I am your guardian angel."
Syaoran felt a breeze go by him, gentle, but warm. A cherry blossom petal got caught in the breeze, and Syaoran just felt numb and shocked. The girl he loved, the first girl he ever loved, the girl standing before him, was his guardian angel.
Sakura giggled slightly, but then a frown spread across her face. "Let me correct that, I was your guardian angel. Not anymore though Syaoran..not anymore..." Sakura said sadly.
Syaoran was still shocked, but he was recovering from it. He stepped forward slowly, and reached out a hand to touch Sakura's cheek, but his hand went right through her. "...What...?"
Sakura smiled sadly, "I can no longer protect you Syaoran, even though I did a lame job of it. But please, take care of yourself...I want you to be safe...and live a good long happy life, and have a happy family.."
"Sakura...but...but I want to be with you..." Syaoran uttered.
"But..we can't, human and angels lives in completely seperate worlds. We have different rules, different responsibilities, everything is different," Sakura said softly, tears were starting to form in her eyes.
Syaoran looked at the grass sadly, he felt his world crumbling around him. "...Sakura, you were the first person I ever fell in love with..I never learned how to love, but you taught me how..."
Sakura's eyes widened, "...You did to...you taught me how human's lived now, so did Tomoyo, Chiharu, Meiling! All of them were very great friends...and tell them that I will miss them. But just say that I moved back to Japan ok?"
"...Ok...." Syaoran's voice came out strained.
"I have to go now Syaoran..." Sakura started fading and Syaoran's head snapped up. "NO!" Syaoran reached out for Sakura's hand but he felt nothing but air. "AISHITERU!!" His cry was filled with pain and sadness, as he watched the one he loved slowly fade.
Sakura smiled at him, and placed one hand to her chest and nodded, then she vanished. Syaoran felt numb then, he felt empty, and the only thing he felt was a breeze go around him. That same warm breeze.
"To guard our love, in our hearts...Aishiteru..."
He heard a soft faint voice say as the wind picked up and left.
"Now, are you ready?" Selissia asked as she unrolled a peice of parchment.
Sakura took a deep breath, and nodded, "I am ready..." I'll always love you, I'll try to remember you...> She repeated in her head over and over again.
She heard Selissia start the spell, but all she could think about was leaving Syaoran. We might never see each other again!> She closed her eyes, as she felt the swirl of magic spin around her, memories slowly slipping away.
..What?...Where am I again?? No!! I can't forget...Syaoran..Li Syaoran...> She repeated over and over, but she could feel the memories going away..
And then she could feel herself changing...and then at last...
It was all darkness to her...
Swirling lights...
Around and around...
Bright lights, very bright...
Syaoran...Syaoran...who's...Syaoran??>
Syaoran stared aimlessly outside his window, the green curtains were pulled back to reveal the rain pouring down and hitting the sidewalks. The sound was nice, it comforted him, but still the pain was overwhelming.
Guardian angel...she's my guardian angel?> Syaoran was still shocked, but amazed at the same time. No wonder...she didn't know a thing about motorcycles...or skiing...>
He sighed as he watched the rain continue to pour as he glanced up at the cloudy skies. "...I wonder...if you're up there..."
"Who's up there?"
Syaoran frowned as he heard the familiar voice of Meiling as she plopped herself beside him. "Where's Sakura? I thought we were going to the mall today!"
Syaoran felt a pang of sadness as he looked up at the sky. Meiling noticed the look in his eyes...yearning for something...yet he couldn't get it..."...Xiaolang, something's wrong? Isn't it?"
"Hm?"
"I know something's wrong, that look in your eyes tell me everything," Meiling chuckled.
Syaoran growled under his breath and shrugged, "I was just...wondering...if an angel was up there.." He said sadly.
Meiling blinked, her ruby's eyes showed confusion. "...When did you start believing that there were angels?!"
He turned to look at Meiling, with a sad but mischevious look in his eyes. "Oh, there are such things Meiling. There really are."
She just blinked again, in utter puzzlement. "What?! And you still didn't answer me, where's Sakura?" And then he saw a flash of great sadness go over Syaoran's amber eyes. "...What happened?"
"..She's gone," Syaoran mumbled and buried his head in his hands.
"...What...?"
"She moved...back to Japan," Syaoran wished that was the truth, at least then he could still visit her.
Meiling's eyes widened, "What?! She moved back?! Without telling me?!"
"...Yes..." Syaoran lefted his head,
a distant look in his eyes. Meiling sighed, and got up, she would leave
him alone for once...for she had a feeling he wanted to be left alone.
One last good bye
Is all I wanted to say
To tell you how you really meant
to me
That you were the special one
Syaoran glanced around his room,
it seemed bare without the cheery sound of Sakura, and her sillyness of
turning on the wrong water taps. A small smile went on his lips, as he
remembered those nice times with her...
In all my life
You were the one
So many memories we shared
Yet this good bye...was the most
painful
He stood up slowly and went into the bathroom, and glanced down at the water taps. Flapping gently against the breeze that was let in by the open window in the washroom, was two yellow sticky notes.
"Hot..." Syaoran mumbled. "...Cold..."
He could imagine Sakura giggling
right now, that giggle that was the sound of music to his ears. How he
wish she was still here, how he wished at least he had a picture of her.
One last good bye
You leave me with nothing here
Just beautiful memories
And a broken heart
Secrets of the pass
All reveal to me so quickly
Why didn't you say so sooner?
...I miss you dearly...
You were my special one
My number one
You caught me when I needed you
And I caught you when you needed
me
Is this how a fairy tale would
end?
No not at all...
Where's the happy end?
Why must we be a ending of dispair?
You could be in the sky
You could be right by my side
Yet you choose to leave me?
Why?
You say you love me
I say I love you
But in the end
Our differences still seperate
us
Syaoran ran out of the bathroom and down the stairs, out the front doors and into the pouring rain. It was bitter cold, but he felt numb, and the cold didn't matter.
He ran to where his feet wanted to take him, he didn't know where, he just wanted to run. Run and leave the pain behind, run and forget everything.
But then he found himself in front of Tomoyo's house, and he stopped in front of the mansion panting. "Daidouji-chan..." He walked up the front pathway and knocked on the door.
Tomoyo answered, and worry was written all over her face when she saw how Syaoran looked. "Li-kun! What happened?" Tomoyo moved aside for Syaoran to drag himself in.
"...You, you taped Sakura didn't you? You have tapes of her?" Syaoran asked deperately.
Tomoyo nodded slowly, "They're up in my room...I'll go get them." She headed up the stairs but then looked over her shoulder. "Why?"
"..." Syaoran's head was drooped, and Tomoyo couldn't see the expression on his face. "She's gone." Was all he said.
Tomoyo let a little gasp out, and tears formed in her eyes. "What do you mean gone?!"
"She...moved back to Japan this morning," Syaoran mumbled.
Tomoyo shook her head, "That can't be true! Sakura-chan would tell me if she moved! She was like a best friend to me! A sister practically!"
Syaoran lifted his head, "And I thought she was more to me than the world..." He whispered but Tomoyo could still hear it.
She looked at him with sadness and then headed up to her room to get the couple of tapes she had taped of Sakura dancing with Syaoran, and other little things.
Syaoran ended up staying at Tomoyo's house for the rest of the evening, both of them watching tapes of Sakura. Syaoran watched the Sakura and Syaoran on the screen dance, and the crowd around them smiling.
"A happy ending...that would've been..." He thought in a soft voice.
Tomoyo turned to look at him, "What did you say Li-kun?"
"...Nothing at all..." Syaoran stood up to go looked at the dark sky. The clouds had cleared, to reveal a dark navy blue sky that looked like velvet.
The stars were up, twinkling gently against the blue background, yet one of the stars seemed to be the biggest of all. Shining radiantly with all its might, to Syaoran, it seemed like the star was smiling at him, winking at him too.
"Sakura...you'll always be my star...my
one and only star..."
AN: What?! S+S not together in the end???!! Ahh! No flames!!! *hides* Ok, I'll come out again ^0^ Don't worry, there is going to be a SEQUEL! Do I need to repeat that? A SEQUEL! And more about what happened to Sakura will be revealed, since it wasn't clear in this chapter. I did that on purpose by the way :P
Kero: If there's a sequel...nehehehehe! MORE SWEETS~!
Ice: ¬¬ Well, I hope you enjoyed this fic, mind you my very first one :P It was really fun to write and thanks to all your support that kept me writing~!!! It was all thanks to you guys, I love ya all!!!!
Kero: And to my grand thank list of goodies and sweets~~-->>
Kero's Wonderful Thank You List!!!
SakuraMoon for all the pudding
that can fill the Grand Canyon...whoa...
Saiera for the chocolate
rainbow sherbert on a stick! Never heard of that before...^^;;
ChibiMew for twelve dozen
cookies, raining kandy, cotton candy clouds, and a big bowl of pudding!!
YUMME~!
Wallcrawler86 for da truckload
of vanilla pudding :D
!!!Speedo!!! for the strawberry
shortcakes!!!
UnicornHime for the magic
pudding stick hat?? Hahahaha, thx!!
SakuraJade for the Missippi
Mud Pie :):)!!
LadyGatomon for 500 boxes
of pudding!!
Choco-Drops for ten tons
of suga~!!
MEE*->CrazieStarGurl for
the Doritos, chips, strawberry filled chocolates, sourballs, homemade blueberry
muffins...and er a toothbrush, toothpaste, breath mints, and the mint flavoured
gum :P Thanks, no more cavities for good ol me :D
skatersakura^-^
for the...EEEEWWW! FROG LEGS AND GROSS FOOD! *PUKE*!!!
Sweet Anime Fan for the vanilla
pudding :D!!!
No name for the sweets and
pudding, tra lalalalala!!
Sylphina for the great pudding!!
princessrachel for a school
filled with sweets and pudding :D YAY!
Sakura Bunnie for the..Brat..doll...AHAHAHAHAH!!
God of Death's Little Angel
for the cookies, whip cream, and chocolate milk!!! YATTA!!
Kachimineo for the pudding
pool the size of US...holy!!
Ice: And thanks MEE*->CrazieStarGurl
for the plaque and everything!! Arigatou!!! And thanks everyone for
the food...lol ^^;; Well I hope you guys stay tooned for the sequel of
"To Guard our Love" and thank you again for all the support! Ice and everyone
in the cast says thank you!!!