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Disclaimers: still the same
Ken's POV:
I can't remember how I managed to keep my composure but I did it. I excused myself and left the park quickly. When I was back in the streets I could feel my eyes watering. I wasn't going to cry in public, I told myself. So I ran. I ran until I was in the safety of my own room.
My tears were now flowing freely. I had cried for what seemed like eternity to me but my tears were still coming. I was tired and my head and my eyes hurt but I wouldn't stop. It was the only thing I could do at that moment. I couldn't think of anything else to do. It was too late anyways. Oh, how I wanted to turn back time. I searched desperately for a possibility to escape my awaiting death. I really thought that this would be my end, that I would be dying after I had lost both of them. I knew that they would leave me behind. They didn't need me any longer. They had everything you could ever dream of. I knew from the beginning that I wasn't strong enough to live without their help. It was impossible! I wasn't even strong enough to endure all this pain they were causing in my heart. Or to be more exact, in the broken remains of what once had been my heart. Now the sharp edges of those broken shards were cutting into my flesh like razors and tore me apart from the inside. It
was killing me and there was nothing I could do but waiting. I felt so helpless but I knew that it was my own fault. I already knew that I was weak and vulnerable but I let them get close anyways. In my desperate attempt to leave my past behind I also forgot all the useful things I had learned. Like never opening your heart for other people or they will see your weakness. I realized that after Sam's death but then I after my defeat I doubted myself. I ignored my own advise by letting my guard down. How stupid I have become. They are only humans so it really isn't their fault. They had to hurt me sooner or later without ever wanting to do so. It's the human nature, so I can't blame them. If you see it that way you could say that I had once been the almost perfect human being. I was cruel, selfish and demanding. That's how humans tend to be. I was close to perfection and look what I am now. There is only one word to describe me: pathetic.
I'm no longer strong or independent. No more flying to the sky, playing between the stars, now that my wings are gone. Forcefully ripped from my back and only the burning pain and the hot blood on my pale skin are left. How could you do this to me? You showed me how helpless I really am and then you left me behind. I felt like a little child, lost and confused and I don't have the words to express what I think. But still, I hope and I wish that you will be happy, that each of you will be able to live a bright and careless life without the doubt and sorrows I have to fight each day of my wasted life. You deserve it unlike me.
My tears had stopped a long time ago. I still felt like crying till the end of time but there were no more tears that could be shed. The first thing I noticed when I opened my bloodshot eyes was the sky outside. The deep but still bright blue colour had been replaced by a dark sky, not quite black but in the darkest shades of blue. But even in this endless sea of darkness there was still light. The moon was always there, bright and forgiving. So were the stars. They are never as bright as the shinning moon but their dim light is always friendly and understanding. Even in the darkest days they will be with you.
A small sigh escaped my lips as my thoughts kept going back to Kari and Davis. Could you imagine a night sky without moon or stars? A depressing thought, isn't it? I couldn't accept that my life should be like that but what could I do? I didn't know and I had no idea where to ask for help. So I kept staring through the window, watching the pale moon. I wanted to ask Sam for advise but that was impossible. I know that he is always by my side but that was no help at that moment.
But then it was no longer necessary anyway. Suddenly everything was so clear. I had found the perfect solution. A solution that was going to satisfy everybody.
I grabbed my phone and dialled Davis' number. Soon everything would be okay and I would never be alone again.
***
I was sick when I wrote that part so please be gentle.
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Disclaimers: still the same
Ken's POV:
I can't remember how I managed to keep my composure but I did it. I excused myself and left the park quickly. When I was back in the streets I could feel my eyes watering. I wasn't going to cry in public, I told myself. So I ran. I ran until I was in the safety of my own room.
My tears were now flowing freely. I had cried for what seemed like eternity to me but my tears were still coming. I was tired and my head and my eyes hurt but I wouldn't stop. It was the only thing I could do at that moment. I couldn't think of anything else to do. It was too late anyways. Oh, how I wanted to turn back time. I searched desperately for a possibility to escape my awaiting death. I really thought that this would be my end, that I would be dying after I had lost both of them. I knew that they would leave me behind. They didn't need me any longer. They had everything you could ever dream of. I knew from the beginning that I wasn't strong enough to live without their help. It was impossible! I wasn't even strong enough to endure all this pain they were causing in my heart. Or to be more exact, in the broken remains of what once had been my heart. Now the sharp edges of those broken shards were cutting into my flesh like razors and tore me apart from the inside. It
was killing me and there was nothing I could do but waiting. I felt so helpless but I knew that it was my own fault. I already knew that I was weak and vulnerable but I let them get close anyways. In my desperate attempt to leave my past behind I also forgot all the useful things I had learned. Like never opening your heart for other people or they will see your weakness. I realized that after Sam's death but then I after my defeat I doubted myself. I ignored my own advise by letting my guard down. How stupid I have become. They are only humans so it really isn't their fault. They had to hurt me sooner or later without ever wanting to do so. It's the human nature, so I can't blame them. If you see it that way you could say that I had once been the almost perfect human being. I was cruel, selfish and demanding. That's how humans tend to be. I was close to perfection and look what I am now. There is only one word to describe me: pathetic.
I'm no longer strong or independent. No more flying to the sky, playing between the stars, now that my wings are gone. Forcefully ripped from my back and only the burning pain and the hot blood on my pale skin are left. How could you do this to me? You showed me how helpless I really am and then you left me behind. I felt like a little child, lost and confused and I don't have the words to express what I think. But still, I hope and I wish that you will be happy, that each of you will be able to live a bright and careless life without the doubt and sorrows I have to fight each day of my wasted life. You deserve it unlike me.
My tears had stopped a long time ago. I still felt like crying till the end of time but there were no more tears that could be shed. The first thing I noticed when I opened my bloodshot eyes was the sky outside. The deep but still bright blue colour had been replaced by a dark sky, not quite black but in the darkest shades of blue. But even in this endless sea of darkness there was still light. The moon was always there, bright and forgiving. So were the stars. They are never as bright as the shinning moon but their dim light is always friendly and understanding. Even in the darkest days they will be with you.
A small sigh escaped my lips as my thoughts kept going back to Kari and Davis. Could you imagine a night sky without moon or stars? A depressing thought, isn't it? I couldn't accept that my life should be like that but what could I do? I didn't know and I had no idea where to ask for help. So I kept staring through the window, watching the pale moon. I wanted to ask Sam for advise but that was impossible. I know that he is always by my side but that was no help at that moment.
But then it was no longer necessary anyway. Suddenly everything was so clear. I had found the perfect solution. A solution that was going to satisfy everybody.
I grabbed my phone and dialled Davis' number. Soon everything would be okay and I would never be alone again.
***
I was sick when I wrote that part so please be gentle.
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