Well here I am, writing my first Evangelion fic, and it's a songfic. It's set to "Epiphany" by "Staind" It's a very slow and angsty song, so I figured it would fit Shinji pretty well. I hope you enjoy it. Now on with the fic:

Lyrics in Italics

Shinji lay on his bed with his head covered by his pillow, in an attempt to block the outside world, and hoping to have some time with only his thoughts. 'Asuka, why are you like this, why do you act the way you do, I try to be nice but you only insult me, why?'

Your words to me a whisper

Your faces so unclear I try to pay attention, your words just disappear.

Shinji then began to think back to all of the times when Asuka yelled at him. Everytime he did, he saw nothing but anger in her eyes, like she could only show anger.

Cause it's always raining in my head. For get all the things I should

Have said.

Shinji then thought to all of the times he ever had interacted with people. Only causing him to experience pain and suffering.

So I speak to you in riddles, because my words get in my way.

I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away.

Shinji then thought of how he had ran away from NERV the first time, only to return to Misato, the only person to accept him

Cause I can't take anymore of this. I wanna come apart. Or dig a little hole inside your precious heart.

Shinji slowly rose from his bed and opened his door, only to come face to face with Asuka whom had just come from her room.

He was about to speak when Asuka interrupted him, as only she knew how. "What're you doing out here idiot, hoping to peek in on me and satisfy your perverted thoughts?" Asuka shouted at Shinji.

Cause it's always raining in my head.

 Forget all the things I should have said.

Unaffected by Asuka's barbs, Shinji walks past her and retrieves his SDAT radio from

The coffee table and goes back to his room, this time with his head filled with the same melodic tunes of tracks 25 and 26. Shinji's thoughts then went to the last person he would ever think of, himself.

I am nothing more, than a little boy inside who cries out for attention. Yet

I always try to hide, and I talk to you like children.

Shinji then thought back to that one fateful day to when his father abandoned him, and to how he reacted when Misato caught him looking at his father's burnt hands, desperately trying to hide, but drawing attention anyways.

But I don't know how I feel, but I know I'll do the right thing, if the right thing is revealed.

Shinji then thought back to the defeat of the tenth angel, and how

His father praised him for his efforts, one of the only times when he felt like he was Worth anything in the fight against the angels.

But it's always raining in my head,

Forget all the things I should have said.

Shinji slowly turns over on his bed, now looking at the all to familiar ceiling of his room.

He begins to think of all that had transpired in his mind tonight. Slowly, he falls into sleep, letting his thoughts take over.

I'll accept flames as this is my first venture into the Eva world, and I expect to do badly on my first attempt. I do have other songfics in mind, but we'll see if I get around to them.