Chapter 4
Authors note: Wow! *Is so happy* I didn't think this fic would go this well. ^.^; The good stuff is starting people! Yee-haw!
"Damn it!" Sirius threw down his playing cards and grumbled.
"I win again! Sirius, you used to be good at this game, losing your touch?" James collected his prize money from the middle of the table and took a sip of his wine. Sirius looked away from James. There was no way he could tell him *this*. The reason he had not been able to concentrate on *anything* lately was that the only thing on his mind was Remus. Day and night-Remus, Remus, Remus.
"I suppose I am just tired from all the excitement about your wedding." He pulled off a fake smile. "I think I'll go take a nap." James smirked.
"I think that you are lying to me, Sirius." He took another sip of his wine. "But, if you say so…" Sirius shrugged.
"Lying?" He scoffed and took off. "If only he knew." Sirius thought as he headed to his room. "Face it," he said to himself. "You've loved him since the moment you saw him." He walked slowly up the steps then began to walk a little faster. He wanted to see Remus. He wanted to tell him-tell Remus how he felt about him, how much he loved him.
It was about 2:00, and Remus was taking a break by now. Once there, Sirius looked about the first floor. Not a broom, mop or bucket in sight. "Second floor." Sirius murmured as rushed up the steps. There he was. His Remus. Sirius could feel himself begin to blush as he walked slowly towards him. "I cannot do this." Sirius thought to himself, yet he continued to walk, as if his legs had a mind of their own, with a big gulp.
"Good afternoon, Sirius." He didn't reply, only stared. Sirius felt himself melt. Just a few words spoken by Remus made his stomach turn.
"Well," He gulped. "It's now or never…" "I…um…I-uh-I…"
"Is something wrong Sirius?" Remus face formed a look of confusion and concern as Sirius continued to stare at him. Sirius could feel his heart pounding against his chest. Could he really go through with this? Maybe it was better not to say anything at all. "What if he doesn't feel the same way about me, I don't think I could go through such pain after meeting so many power-hungry wretches and *now* finally finding someone I truly love." His heart pounded harder, telling him to tell Remus how he felt, to tell him he loved him and how badly he wanted him. Yet, his mind was telling him the opposite. "Be rational!" It seemed to say to him. "What would Remus think? You *are* male after all-what would one think to such an idea?" His heart and mind kept arguing with each other-back and forth, back and forth. To and fro, to and fro! His heart was yelling at him now, coming in louder and clearer then his mind. "Tell him, damn it!" It seemed to scream.
Sirius felt like this inner argument had lasted hours when it had only been a few seconds.
"Sirius…?" Remus whispered, with a small hint of worry. Sirius' felt like his mind was a whirlwind. He wanted to speak, yet couldn't find the right words. Sirius decided to do as he always did-act on impulse.
Remus gasped in shock as Sirius wrapped his arms around him and pulled him closer to him. Before he had a chance to protest he felt Sirius lips upon his.
"What's going on?" Remus wondered. Was this man kissing him? The one he had just admitted to himself, just the night before, that he loved. Remus began to feel dizzy-as if lost in this kiss. His arms moved to embrace Sirius, pulling him closer to him. He never wanted this moment to end. How wonderful it was, to be kissed by his prince.
Sirius pulled away franticly, still holding Remus.
"Damn it, Sirius," Sirius cursed himself. "I'm sorry, Remus-,"
"Don't be…" He replied breathlessly.
"Really, I did not mean-huh?"
"I said don't be sorry." Remus began to blush as he noticed he was still holding Sirius.
They stared at each other in an awkward silence of what seemed like an eternity for the both of them. Both either lost in thought or confused.
"I…I…" Sirius stammered. Remus fixed his glance on the floor, trying not to look into Sirius' deep, midnight blue eyes.
"I love you." Remus glance shot up to meet Sirius' in shock.
"Wha….um..I…I love you too…" Remus replied quietly as his heart skipped a beat, and he blushed even more fiercely. Sirius smiled with a thoughtful look.
"It looks like…I have finally found my maiden."
" 'Maiden'?" Sirius hugged Remus closer to him.
(A.N.-As if they're not close enough already. ^.~)
"Yes." Remus smiled, wanting to kiss him again and hold him just like this forever.
"Sirius! Dear!" They both looked towards the steps. Remus could tell Sirius had become annoyed. He looked back at Remus.
"Mother calls," He sighed. "I will meet you later."
"I hope later is soon." Sirius smiled and turned to leave, leaving Remus full of happiness and delight.
"Did that just happen?" Sirius thought to himself. He felt ecstatic as he skipped two steps each while walking downstairs.
"Sirius, dear-,"
"Yes, mother?" Sirius her hands and began dancing with her in a circle, humming some tune that he did not even recognize.
"What is this all about? Why are you so happy?"
"Nothing, mother, nothing at all!" He dipped her and twirled her around.
"Eee! Sirius! Well, -uh-now that the wedding is halfway to completion-,"
"Yes, mother?" Sirius continued to hum as he danced in a little circle by himself.
"Uh-I thought it would be a good time to start introducing you to some more young maidens. And if all goes as well as I hope-well, we may end up with a double wedding!" Queen Melinda's eyes began to sparkle. Sirius froze.
"What? Now? Why not wait until after James and Lily are married? A double wedding would be so much trouble-"
"Oh, you speak nonsense, boy! Besides, you *need* to start thinking of your own wedding."
"*My* wedding?"
"Yes! You know I've already started planning it! Now all you need is a bride! Which is why I've invited..." Queen Melinda went on, walking into the kitchen.
"I think I'll go take that nap now." He said to himself. Sirius smirked. Going upstairs was another good excuse to see Remus. He rushed up the stairs, forgetting all about his mother's talk of weddings and brides.
Authors note: Wow! *Is so happy* I didn't think this fic would go this well. ^.^; The good stuff is starting people! Yee-haw!
"Damn it!" Sirius threw down his playing cards and grumbled.
"I win again! Sirius, you used to be good at this game, losing your touch?" James collected his prize money from the middle of the table and took a sip of his wine. Sirius looked away from James. There was no way he could tell him *this*. The reason he had not been able to concentrate on *anything* lately was that the only thing on his mind was Remus. Day and night-Remus, Remus, Remus.
"I suppose I am just tired from all the excitement about your wedding." He pulled off a fake smile. "I think I'll go take a nap." James smirked.
"I think that you are lying to me, Sirius." He took another sip of his wine. "But, if you say so…" Sirius shrugged.
"Lying?" He scoffed and took off. "If only he knew." Sirius thought as he headed to his room. "Face it," he said to himself. "You've loved him since the moment you saw him." He walked slowly up the steps then began to walk a little faster. He wanted to see Remus. He wanted to tell him-tell Remus how he felt about him, how much he loved him.
It was about 2:00, and Remus was taking a break by now. Once there, Sirius looked about the first floor. Not a broom, mop or bucket in sight. "Second floor." Sirius murmured as rushed up the steps. There he was. His Remus. Sirius could feel himself begin to blush as he walked slowly towards him. "I cannot do this." Sirius thought to himself, yet he continued to walk, as if his legs had a mind of their own, with a big gulp.
"Good afternoon, Sirius." He didn't reply, only stared. Sirius felt himself melt. Just a few words spoken by Remus made his stomach turn.
"Well," He gulped. "It's now or never…" "I…um…I-uh-I…"
"Is something wrong Sirius?" Remus face formed a look of confusion and concern as Sirius continued to stare at him. Sirius could feel his heart pounding against his chest. Could he really go through with this? Maybe it was better not to say anything at all. "What if he doesn't feel the same way about me, I don't think I could go through such pain after meeting so many power-hungry wretches and *now* finally finding someone I truly love." His heart pounded harder, telling him to tell Remus how he felt, to tell him he loved him and how badly he wanted him. Yet, his mind was telling him the opposite. "Be rational!" It seemed to say to him. "What would Remus think? You *are* male after all-what would one think to such an idea?" His heart and mind kept arguing with each other-back and forth, back and forth. To and fro, to and fro! His heart was yelling at him now, coming in louder and clearer then his mind. "Tell him, damn it!" It seemed to scream.
Sirius felt like this inner argument had lasted hours when it had only been a few seconds.
"Sirius…?" Remus whispered, with a small hint of worry. Sirius' felt like his mind was a whirlwind. He wanted to speak, yet couldn't find the right words. Sirius decided to do as he always did-act on impulse.
Remus gasped in shock as Sirius wrapped his arms around him and pulled him closer to him. Before he had a chance to protest he felt Sirius lips upon his.
"What's going on?" Remus wondered. Was this man kissing him? The one he had just admitted to himself, just the night before, that he loved. Remus began to feel dizzy-as if lost in this kiss. His arms moved to embrace Sirius, pulling him closer to him. He never wanted this moment to end. How wonderful it was, to be kissed by his prince.
Sirius pulled away franticly, still holding Remus.
"Damn it, Sirius," Sirius cursed himself. "I'm sorry, Remus-,"
"Don't be…" He replied breathlessly.
"Really, I did not mean-huh?"
"I said don't be sorry." Remus began to blush as he noticed he was still holding Sirius.
They stared at each other in an awkward silence of what seemed like an eternity for the both of them. Both either lost in thought or confused.
"I…I…" Sirius stammered. Remus fixed his glance on the floor, trying not to look into Sirius' deep, midnight blue eyes.
"I love you." Remus glance shot up to meet Sirius' in shock.
"Wha….um..I…I love you too…" Remus replied quietly as his heart skipped a beat, and he blushed even more fiercely. Sirius smiled with a thoughtful look.
"It looks like…I have finally found my maiden."
" 'Maiden'?" Sirius hugged Remus closer to him.
(A.N.-As if they're not close enough already. ^.~)
"Yes." Remus smiled, wanting to kiss him again and hold him just like this forever.
"Sirius! Dear!" They both looked towards the steps. Remus could tell Sirius had become annoyed. He looked back at Remus.
"Mother calls," He sighed. "I will meet you later."
"I hope later is soon." Sirius smiled and turned to leave, leaving Remus full of happiness and delight.
"Did that just happen?" Sirius thought to himself. He felt ecstatic as he skipped two steps each while walking downstairs.
"Sirius, dear-,"
"Yes, mother?" Sirius her hands and began dancing with her in a circle, humming some tune that he did not even recognize.
"What is this all about? Why are you so happy?"
"Nothing, mother, nothing at all!" He dipped her and twirled her around.
"Eee! Sirius! Well, -uh-now that the wedding is halfway to completion-,"
"Yes, mother?" Sirius continued to hum as he danced in a little circle by himself.
"Uh-I thought it would be a good time to start introducing you to some more young maidens. And if all goes as well as I hope-well, we may end up with a double wedding!" Queen Melinda's eyes began to sparkle. Sirius froze.
"What? Now? Why not wait until after James and Lily are married? A double wedding would be so much trouble-"
"Oh, you speak nonsense, boy! Besides, you *need* to start thinking of your own wedding."
"*My* wedding?"
"Yes! You know I've already started planning it! Now all you need is a bride! Which is why I've invited..." Queen Melinda went on, walking into the kitchen.
"I think I'll go take that nap now." He said to himself. Sirius smirked. Going upstairs was another good excuse to see Remus. He rushed up the stairs, forgetting all about his mother's talk of weddings and brides.