Title: Struggle
Part: 15/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu… but who with who…up to you to decipher!
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
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2 Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
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Warning: The characters may be OOC.
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5 Words in * * is action
6 Words in ^ ^ is characters thinking
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
6.1 Chapter 15
Hanamichi: But…that can't be true, we are both guys… we can't be together…
Mitsui: Do you mean that if one of you were a girl you would accept him?
Hanamichi: No! I will never like that fox, everyone knows that I like Haruko except well, herself…
Mitsui: Are you sure you still do, or have you change your mind?
Hanamichi: Why are you asking me all these?
Mitsui: Because I can read you like a book… when was the last time you brush Haruko aside? Never until recently, what does this show? Ask yourself.
Hanamichi: But this is impossible, I mean I will never like that fox...it is just…
Mitsui: ^Me, what about me? ^ Impossible…is it impossible? ^Is it impossible between you and me? ^ I will leave you to think for yourself…maybe you had come up with a decision later in the evening…I will be here, him too, after training I will come again…anything you want me to bring?
Hanamichi: No nothing…Hey thanks Micchy, thanks for letting me know.
Mitsui: You are welcome, always be there for you.
Mitsui left the hospital, the hospital, that whiteness which had been so familiar to him. He left the familiar building behind and took a short walk to school. It was a Saturday, no school for him only training in the afternoon, even if there is lesson, he is not in the mood for it.
Mitsui: ^Yah, I will always be there for you, what are you up to Mitsui! What are doing? You are pushing someone you like terribly much towards another person? What is wrong with you, that was not what you planned, you had wanted to tell him, to confess about loving him, why are you backing out now, why? Why are you just acting as his brother, his guardian…you are no angel you don't have to do this, Mitsui! ^
Mitsui strolled along the streets, his duffle bag over his shoulders. Watching the autumn leaves, slowly drop to the ground. But each time before it falls, it will give a wonderful performance of grace and beauty. Grace and beauty before a fall…
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[Shohoku High School, basketball-changing room]
Rukawa was changing into his training stuff when a listless Mitsui entered. Then as if by magic, Mitsui snapped out of it.
Mitsui: Rukawa, may I have a word with you after the training?
Rukawa: Me? Ok sempai. ^What does he want from me, blackmail? ^
Rukawa left the changing room puzzled.
[After training, changing room]
Mitsui: At the Danny's…half an hour…
Mitsui did not wait for Rukawa to reply. He was on the streets the next second. Anxiety. How would Rukawa react if he told him that he told Hanamichi about Rukawa's little secret? Would he live to see tomorrow? Mitsui wondered to himself. Yet, he felt the need to tell Rukawa, it would be cruel to him. In less than 10 minutes, Mitsui had fund a comfortable seat in the corner of the small café. He sits sipping a cold drink, waiting…
Rukawa turned to reply, but no one was there.
Rukawa: ^ Was it the wind speaking to him? Was I dreaming? But I thought I heard Mitsui sempai…^
Ryota: Mitsui?
Ryota turned around looking for Mitsui.
Ryota: I thought I saw him in here just a moment ago, how come he is gone.
Rukawa: ^He was here, than what I heard must be real… half an hour, I think I better hurry. ^
A tall raven hair boy entered the café. His eyes searched the crowd, slowly, looking for something amidst the crowd. His gaze fell on a guy about his age partly covered by a pot of plant. He approached the boy with haste, then settle himself into the chair opposite the boy.
Mitsui: you are finally here
Rukawa: …^What do you want from me? ^
Mitsui: I have a question to ask you-
Rukawa: No need to ask, I will answer you. I do as I please. ^ I know what you have in mind. You are going to ask me about this morning. ^
Mitsui: How do you know what I was going to ask, I have not finished asking?
Rukawa: You are going to ask about this morning…I know…
Mitsui: No, you are wrong.
Rukawa: … ^Wrong? ^
Mitsui: Did you like Sakuragi?
Rukawa stared at the boy opposite him, as if hit by a wave.
Was he out of his mind, why did he ask such a question? How did he know? A million thoughts were flashing through Rukawa's mind, a million questions.
Rukawa: How did you know? *Rukawa thinks a loud*
Shocked by himself, he had spoken that aloud, he haven't meant to, he haven't, no, he has to be that ice cold Rukawa everyone knows, not this Rukawa that is confused, unsure of himself.
Rukawa: Damn!
Mitsui: Got you haven't I. *smiles at Rukawa*
Mitsui have not since such a Rukawa before, full of expressions and frustration on his face. In fact, he was amused. He knew that it was inappropriate to feel light about the situation they were in, but he just cannot help it. Then Rukawa became himself again, the ice cold Rukawa. He had managed to control himself again. Not speaking a single word, Rukawa turned to leave.
Rukawa: ^ I have to get out of here! ^
Mitsui: Rukawa! Please hold on. I have something important to tell you.
Rukawa turned to face the scarred boy. He waited for him to speak, to tell him what is so important.
Mitsui: I have told him, and he knows…
Rukawa was in shocked for the third time within the last 5 minutes, shocked by himself and Mitsui.
Rukawa: ^ Why did he have to tell him, why? How in the hell am I going to face him? What were his reactions? Did he accept it, or had he refuse it. If he was to refuse what should I do? Why did that Mitsui spoil my well thought plan. ^
Rukawa however managed to maintain his cool. He simply turned and was out of the café in a minute.
Mitsui collapsed into the seat, wondering if what he had done was right, if he should have interfered. He had no reasons at all, was he trying to break the two of them up for himself or is he trying to get them together, so that he has every reason to say that he was not a gay. What exactly is he doing?
Mitsui: What have you done, Mitsui?
The autumn has only just begun and yet so many things had happened. Hanamichi had only been back to school for less than a week and he was back in the hospital again. Life is unpredictable.
Rukawa wandered aimlessly along the streets…all by himself, except for the cold autumn wind as company. Every step he took, the wind blew, as if hurrying him to somewhere. Rukawa had planned to visit Sakuragi after training, but now all the plans have to be changed.
Rukawa: How was he to face Hanamichi? How?
As Rukawa fought with himself to come to a decision, a certain poor Hanamichi was on the verge of craziness in his bedroom
Hanamichi: ^Like me? The something wrong with the fox? Cannot be? That Micchy must be lying, he won't know, the fox will not tell anyone… but why did he want reconcile with me? There is something wrong with him, but what? Is Mitsui correct? …What is happening… ^
Ever since Hanamichi had been hit by the news, that Rukawa was crazy over him, abnormally crazy. These thoughts had been repeating themselves in his mind, but the worse thing is that Hanamichi can't even move to vent his frustration, every movement no matter how little, how simple, would cause a nerve racking pain shot up his spine and it was not the most pleasant sensation. But what troubled Hanamichi most was how to deal with Rukawa when he visited? To act totally blur and thick, not knowing anything or simply chase him out of the room so that he can avoid any embarrassment or ask him for he truth or just wait for him to explain himself?
Hanamichi: What am I suppose to do?
Before he could make up his mind, however, the doorknob turned.
Hanamichi: Oh no someone is here… don't let it be the fox…*chants*
The door was pushed opened.
Hanamichi: Not the fox please, I haven't thought of how to face him!
A guy slightly taller than 1.8 m entered the room and Hanamichi breathed again.
Hanamichi: Micchy you gave me a fright! I thought it was going to be that fox!
Mitsui: Haha, clam down, you mean he haven't come here yet?
Hanamichi: What do you mean by have not come here yet?
Mitsui: Oh, I met him… *stops himself*
Hanamichi: What Micchy?
Mitsui: I think I better go, in case he comes.
Mitsui turned to leave, but was stopped by an angry Hanamichi shouts.
Hanamichi: Stop right there, what were you planning to say? *Shouts at the top of his voice*
Mitsui: Nothing, just rest well.
Hanamichi: Nothing? You met him right? What did you say and what did he say?
Mitsui: Fine, stop shouting. I am going deaf in a minute. I told him that you knew that he liked you –
Hanamichi: Micchy!
Mitsui: Clam down…from the looks of it he does…I think he will come tonight, I thought he had already been here. guess not, I better go before he comes.
Hanamichi: Wait, what am I going to say if he comes?
Mitsui: Just tell him how you feel… ^Just tell him how you feel, Mitsui… ^
Hanamichi: But I don't know…
Mitsui: Then tell him that!
Hanamichi: But…
Mitsui moved towards the door ignoring Hanamichi, he had wanted to help him, he would love to ask him to reject Rukawa, but who was he to ask, who was he? A lowly coward that only know how to hide in others shadow, not daring to tell him the truth, taking someone younger than him to be the guinea pig, to test out Hanamichi's reaction? What was he doing?
Mitsui gripped the doorknob tightly, letting his frustration out, uncovering his real feelings behind the jolly mask he put on in front of Hanamichi.
But before Mitsui could turn the knob, he felt it turn in his own hand.
Mitsui: He is here…
To be continued…
Chapter 15!!! Ah I finished this!!! Cannot believe this!! Hmm ok…. enough gloating…^^;;;…hope all of you enjoyed it!
Part: 15/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu… but who with who…up to you to decipher!
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
1
2 Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
3
Warning: The characters may be OOC.
4
5 Words in * * is action
6 Words in ^ ^ is characters thinking
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
6.1 Chapter 15
Hanamichi: But…that can't be true, we are both guys… we can't be together…
Mitsui: Do you mean that if one of you were a girl you would accept him?
Hanamichi: No! I will never like that fox, everyone knows that I like Haruko except well, herself…
Mitsui: Are you sure you still do, or have you change your mind?
Hanamichi: Why are you asking me all these?
Mitsui: Because I can read you like a book… when was the last time you brush Haruko aside? Never until recently, what does this show? Ask yourself.
Hanamichi: But this is impossible, I mean I will never like that fox...it is just…
Mitsui: ^Me, what about me? ^ Impossible…is it impossible? ^Is it impossible between you and me? ^ I will leave you to think for yourself…maybe you had come up with a decision later in the evening…I will be here, him too, after training I will come again…anything you want me to bring?
Hanamichi: No nothing…Hey thanks Micchy, thanks for letting me know.
Mitsui: You are welcome, always be there for you.
Mitsui left the hospital, the hospital, that whiteness which had been so familiar to him. He left the familiar building behind and took a short walk to school. It was a Saturday, no school for him only training in the afternoon, even if there is lesson, he is not in the mood for it.
Mitsui: ^Yah, I will always be there for you, what are you up to Mitsui! What are doing? You are pushing someone you like terribly much towards another person? What is wrong with you, that was not what you planned, you had wanted to tell him, to confess about loving him, why are you backing out now, why? Why are you just acting as his brother, his guardian…you are no angel you don't have to do this, Mitsui! ^
Mitsui strolled along the streets, his duffle bag over his shoulders. Watching the autumn leaves, slowly drop to the ground. But each time before it falls, it will give a wonderful performance of grace and beauty. Grace and beauty before a fall…
______________________________________________________________________
[Shohoku High School, basketball-changing room]
Rukawa was changing into his training stuff when a listless Mitsui entered. Then as if by magic, Mitsui snapped out of it.
Mitsui: Rukawa, may I have a word with you after the training?
Rukawa: Me? Ok sempai. ^What does he want from me, blackmail? ^
Rukawa left the changing room puzzled.
[After training, changing room]
Mitsui: At the Danny's…half an hour…
Mitsui did not wait for Rukawa to reply. He was on the streets the next second. Anxiety. How would Rukawa react if he told him that he told Hanamichi about Rukawa's little secret? Would he live to see tomorrow? Mitsui wondered to himself. Yet, he felt the need to tell Rukawa, it would be cruel to him. In less than 10 minutes, Mitsui had fund a comfortable seat in the corner of the small café. He sits sipping a cold drink, waiting…
Rukawa turned to reply, but no one was there.
Rukawa: ^ Was it the wind speaking to him? Was I dreaming? But I thought I heard Mitsui sempai…^
Ryota: Mitsui?
Ryota turned around looking for Mitsui.
Ryota: I thought I saw him in here just a moment ago, how come he is gone.
Rukawa: ^He was here, than what I heard must be real… half an hour, I think I better hurry. ^
A tall raven hair boy entered the café. His eyes searched the crowd, slowly, looking for something amidst the crowd. His gaze fell on a guy about his age partly covered by a pot of plant. He approached the boy with haste, then settle himself into the chair opposite the boy.
Mitsui: you are finally here
Rukawa: …^What do you want from me? ^
Mitsui: I have a question to ask you-
Rukawa: No need to ask, I will answer you. I do as I please. ^ I know what you have in mind. You are going to ask me about this morning. ^
Mitsui: How do you know what I was going to ask, I have not finished asking?
Rukawa: You are going to ask about this morning…I know…
Mitsui: No, you are wrong.
Rukawa: … ^Wrong? ^
Mitsui: Did you like Sakuragi?
Rukawa stared at the boy opposite him, as if hit by a wave.
Was he out of his mind, why did he ask such a question? How did he know? A million thoughts were flashing through Rukawa's mind, a million questions.
Rukawa: How did you know? *Rukawa thinks a loud*
Shocked by himself, he had spoken that aloud, he haven't meant to, he haven't, no, he has to be that ice cold Rukawa everyone knows, not this Rukawa that is confused, unsure of himself.
Rukawa: Damn!
Mitsui: Got you haven't I. *smiles at Rukawa*
Mitsui have not since such a Rukawa before, full of expressions and frustration on his face. In fact, he was amused. He knew that it was inappropriate to feel light about the situation they were in, but he just cannot help it. Then Rukawa became himself again, the ice cold Rukawa. He had managed to control himself again. Not speaking a single word, Rukawa turned to leave.
Rukawa: ^ I have to get out of here! ^
Mitsui: Rukawa! Please hold on. I have something important to tell you.
Rukawa turned to face the scarred boy. He waited for him to speak, to tell him what is so important.
Mitsui: I have told him, and he knows…
Rukawa was in shocked for the third time within the last 5 minutes, shocked by himself and Mitsui.
Rukawa: ^ Why did he have to tell him, why? How in the hell am I going to face him? What were his reactions? Did he accept it, or had he refuse it. If he was to refuse what should I do? Why did that Mitsui spoil my well thought plan. ^
Rukawa however managed to maintain his cool. He simply turned and was out of the café in a minute.
Mitsui collapsed into the seat, wondering if what he had done was right, if he should have interfered. He had no reasons at all, was he trying to break the two of them up for himself or is he trying to get them together, so that he has every reason to say that he was not a gay. What exactly is he doing?
Mitsui: What have you done, Mitsui?
The autumn has only just begun and yet so many things had happened. Hanamichi had only been back to school for less than a week and he was back in the hospital again. Life is unpredictable.
Rukawa wandered aimlessly along the streets…all by himself, except for the cold autumn wind as company. Every step he took, the wind blew, as if hurrying him to somewhere. Rukawa had planned to visit Sakuragi after training, but now all the plans have to be changed.
Rukawa: How was he to face Hanamichi? How?
As Rukawa fought with himself to come to a decision, a certain poor Hanamichi was on the verge of craziness in his bedroom
Hanamichi: ^Like me? The something wrong with the fox? Cannot be? That Micchy must be lying, he won't know, the fox will not tell anyone… but why did he want reconcile with me? There is something wrong with him, but what? Is Mitsui correct? …What is happening… ^
Ever since Hanamichi had been hit by the news, that Rukawa was crazy over him, abnormally crazy. These thoughts had been repeating themselves in his mind, but the worse thing is that Hanamichi can't even move to vent his frustration, every movement no matter how little, how simple, would cause a nerve racking pain shot up his spine and it was not the most pleasant sensation. But what troubled Hanamichi most was how to deal with Rukawa when he visited? To act totally blur and thick, not knowing anything or simply chase him out of the room so that he can avoid any embarrassment or ask him for he truth or just wait for him to explain himself?
Hanamichi: What am I suppose to do?
Before he could make up his mind, however, the doorknob turned.
Hanamichi: Oh no someone is here… don't let it be the fox…*chants*
The door was pushed opened.
Hanamichi: Not the fox please, I haven't thought of how to face him!
A guy slightly taller than 1.8 m entered the room and Hanamichi breathed again.
Hanamichi: Micchy you gave me a fright! I thought it was going to be that fox!
Mitsui: Haha, clam down, you mean he haven't come here yet?
Hanamichi: What do you mean by have not come here yet?
Mitsui: Oh, I met him… *stops himself*
Hanamichi: What Micchy?
Mitsui: I think I better go, in case he comes.
Mitsui turned to leave, but was stopped by an angry Hanamichi shouts.
Hanamichi: Stop right there, what were you planning to say? *Shouts at the top of his voice*
Mitsui: Nothing, just rest well.
Hanamichi: Nothing? You met him right? What did you say and what did he say?
Mitsui: Fine, stop shouting. I am going deaf in a minute. I told him that you knew that he liked you –
Hanamichi: Micchy!
Mitsui: Clam down…from the looks of it he does…I think he will come tonight, I thought he had already been here. guess not, I better go before he comes.
Hanamichi: Wait, what am I going to say if he comes?
Mitsui: Just tell him how you feel… ^Just tell him how you feel, Mitsui… ^
Hanamichi: But I don't know…
Mitsui: Then tell him that!
Hanamichi: But…
Mitsui moved towards the door ignoring Hanamichi, he had wanted to help him, he would love to ask him to reject Rukawa, but who was he to ask, who was he? A lowly coward that only know how to hide in others shadow, not daring to tell him the truth, taking someone younger than him to be the guinea pig, to test out Hanamichi's reaction? What was he doing?
Mitsui gripped the doorknob tightly, letting his frustration out, uncovering his real feelings behind the jolly mask he put on in front of Hanamichi.
But before Mitsui could turn the knob, he felt it turn in his own hand.
Mitsui: He is here…
To be continued…
Chapter 15!!! Ah I finished this!!! Cannot believe this!! Hmm ok…. enough gloating…^^;;;…hope all of you enjoyed it!