Title: Struggle
Part: 16/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu… up to you to decipher!
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
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2 Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
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Warning: The characters may be OOC.
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Sorry I took so long to post…..exams just over so when out too often!…anyway chapter 16 is here…and do enjoy and C&Cs are welcomed!
5 Words in * * is action
6 Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
6.1 Chapter 16
Rukawa walked silently, his basketball shoes made not a single sound, or perhaps the wind was howling too loudly to hear anything at all. He had nowhere to go, or should it be he had not decided where to go. Rukawa walked thinking about what to do, a sense of helplessness invaded him, making him feel even lonelier. He would love to talk to someone about it, but who, no one, he had no friends or he did not want any in the first place. He had been fine all along without a friend. He had been perfectly fine. But not now, he needed someone to talk to but whom? No one is safe to confine such a secret to? No one? Who had been able to understand him and not despise him for what he is? Who?
Rukawa's mind: NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE!
Rukawa carried on, allowing his legs to carry wherever they wanted…
The doorknob turned, Mitsui froze.
Mitsui: ^Guess I came at the wrong time. I will just leave once the door open. And come back later? ^
With that in mind, Mitsui waited for the door to open with apprehension. He did not want to face Rukawa now, not when ha had done something horrible.
Hanamichi lay in bed, confused and holding his breathe.
Hanamichi: ^No not that fox, not now! Micchy, help me for once… help the Tensai. ^
The door opened to show a chattering Ayako and Ryota.
Mitsui: Ayako! Ryota! *Exclaimed*
Ayako: What? You looked like you have never seen us before.
Ryota: Mitsui, you are leaving already? *stares at bag in Mitsui's hand*
Mitsui: Yah, been here for a while.
Ryota: Right after training?
Mitsui: No, grab a bite before I came.
Ryota: Was looking for you, but you disappeared right after training.
Mitsui: Erm… I was really hungry, so I let earlier to get something to eat.
Hanamichi: Ryota? Ayako? Is that you?
Ayako: Yes.
Hanamichi: You all are here to visit the tensai right?
Ryota: Tensai? Where? You? You can hardly move an inch.
Hanamichi: Once a tensai always a tensai…
Mitsui decided to stay longer since there was no threat for him to leave. The four in the room chatted like old friends.
[After half an hour]
Ayako: Hey, I think I got to go. It is getting late.
Ryota: Yah, me too.
Mitsui: I think I will leave with them.
Hanamichi: Ok, thanks for visiting me!
Hanamichi was in a better mood after cracking some silly jokes with the three, Rukawa was at the far end of his mind and he had clear forgotten about it. He gave a yawn and settled himself into his bed painfully, watching the three leave. Mitsui opened the door, bidding Hanamichi his last goodbye, he turned to walk out of the room only to stared straight into a pair of old blue eyes. Rukawa stood upright, staring back into the pair of brown eyes. Mitsui shivered silently, he had not met such a pair of eyes before, so cold and unfeeling. Mitsui looked away and walked past the raven hair boy.
Ayako: Rukawa? You are here too?
Rukawa: …^why am I here? ^
Ayako: I see you are worried about Hanamichi too. *grins*
Rukawa: … ^yah I am^
Ryota: We are leaving first, bye
Rukawa: …*nods*
Mitsui who had walked a distant ahead had stopped to wait for the two others.
Mitsui: Ryota, Ayako?
Ayako: Coming, why are you so impatient? We were just trying to make conversation with Rukawa.
Mitsui: Yah, conversation, did he even utter a word?
Ayako: Er…no. *Sweat drop*
Mitsui: It is getting late, let's get going.
Ryota: Yah, it is late.
The threesome left the hospital, leaving Hanamichi to face the disaster ahead.
At the word "Rukawa", all the forgotten thoughts flooded back to Hanamichi. He had always found the fox irritating and after Mitsui had told him about Rukawa, Hanamichi did not even want to see him. Cracking his brain for an idea to avoid confrontation. Hanamichi covered himself from head to toe with the blanket.
Hanamichi: ^Safe! ^
Rukawa entered the room to see Hanamichi covered from head to toe.
Rukawa: *coughs*
Hanamichi: I am asleep. ^That should keep him away. ^
Rukawa: yah, you are sleep talking.
Hanamichi: *red in face* ^Damn, if I am asleep I cannot talk! Guess I have no choice but to entertain that fox. ^
Hanamichi: Fine, I am awake.
Rukawa: So why don't you want to see me.
Hanamichi: Your looks irritate me.
Rukawa: …
[After a short pause]
Rukawa: Have you considered my proposal?
Hanamichi: What proposal?
Rukawa: The one I mentioned at your house.
Hanamichi: Oh. I have, and decided that I the tensai will not accept.
Rukawa: I see. Why?
Hanamichi: I already said, because I find you irritating.
Rukawa: Is that so and not because of what Mitsui sempai told you?
Hanamichi: *Red in face* Wh…what did he tell me?
Rukawa: Are you sure, you want me to say it out?
Hanamichi: Yeah, go ahead. *Challenges Rukawa*
Rukawa: That I like you.
Hanamichi: *Face turn redder* haha, you are wrong! Micchy will never say this stuff to me. How would he know if you like me or not?
Rukawa: This I do not know. But I don't. I only want to be your friend.
Hanamichi: You don't? *Relief*
Rukawa: No, I don't.
Hanamichi: Then maybe I can reconsider your proposal.
Rukawa: I will come again tomorrow. Rest well.
Rukawa turned to go. He breath freely away, the tense moments were finally over. Rukawa replayed the moments again in his mind. As he recalled himself telling Hanamichi that no, he don't like him. He could feel an unbearably pain, sadness. But Rukawa knew that it was the only way to get Hanamichi to become his friend.
[Next day]
It was an autumn Sunday. The day was getting cooler as it drew nearer to winter. All the trees were in shades of red, brown and yellow, though some trees still have shades of green in them. Hanamichi laid bed, watching people walking along the pathways.
Hanamichi: This is boring! Is there anything else to do other than lying in bed!
Nurse: Yes, here take your medicine.
A nurse walked towards him.
Hanamichi: Medicine?
Nurse: Yes.
Hanamichi: Why do I need it, I am the tensai I will be fine soon!
Nurse: Er…well you need to take the medicine if you want to do other stuff other than lying in bed!
Hanamichi: I hate medicines I do not want any.
Nurse: But he had been in the hospital before haven't you? Don't you have to take medicine?
Hanamichi: Yes and no, I don't take medicine, I just undergo some therapy. The medicine I used was those that are applied externally.
Nurse: But this time you need medicine, your injury is more serious this time.
Hanamichi: What! More serious, how long will it take me to recover?
Nurse: It will take about 3 months to recover fully and don't think about doing any strenuous exercises during this period or else you will take even longer to recover!
Hanamichi was dumbstruck, not knowing anything to say. Reluctantly, he was helped by the nurse into sitting position. It hurt tremendously but he did not have much of a choice. He took the medicine and the nurse tried to shift him into lying position again, but Hanamichi refused, preferring to sit upright. Unable to change his mind, the nurse left him to his own thoughts.
Hanamichi: ^ I will not be able to make it for the winter championships. ^
The nurse words came haunting him and he recalled what Ayako said.
"Don't think about doing any strenuous exercises during this period or else you will take even longer to recover!"
"You might not be able to play basketball again"
The words swirled in his mind and he knew that he will not touch a basketball in another three more months and Hanamichi was frustrated. He did not want this to happen, he had only just recovered and he was going back to training soon. Just a few more days, and after waiting so long, he was hit by another blow.
Hanamichi: ^Great just great, I will never touch a ball again until early winter. Wait if it is early winter and I make a speedy recovery maybe I will be in time for the games! Maybe I can make it! ^
Hanamichi's spirit lifted only to be sent tumbling down.
Hanamichi: ^ Yah and then with my present shooting, they had be better off without me.^
Hanamichi debated with himself and knew that all the thoughts were only possible if he recovered fast enough.
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To be continued…
Hmm ok chapter 16 is done…try to post soon…^^;;;
Part: 16/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu… up to you to decipher!
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
1
2 Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
3
Warning: The characters may be OOC.
4
Sorry I took so long to post…..exams just over so when out too often!…anyway chapter 16 is here…and do enjoy and C&Cs are welcomed!
5 Words in * * is action
6 Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
6.1 Chapter 16
Rukawa walked silently, his basketball shoes made not a single sound, or perhaps the wind was howling too loudly to hear anything at all. He had nowhere to go, or should it be he had not decided where to go. Rukawa walked thinking about what to do, a sense of helplessness invaded him, making him feel even lonelier. He would love to talk to someone about it, but who, no one, he had no friends or he did not want any in the first place. He had been fine all along without a friend. He had been perfectly fine. But not now, he needed someone to talk to but whom? No one is safe to confine such a secret to? No one? Who had been able to understand him and not despise him for what he is? Who?
Rukawa's mind: NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE!
Rukawa carried on, allowing his legs to carry wherever they wanted…
The doorknob turned, Mitsui froze.
Mitsui: ^Guess I came at the wrong time. I will just leave once the door open. And come back later? ^
With that in mind, Mitsui waited for the door to open with apprehension. He did not want to face Rukawa now, not when ha had done something horrible.
Hanamichi lay in bed, confused and holding his breathe.
Hanamichi: ^No not that fox, not now! Micchy, help me for once… help the Tensai. ^
The door opened to show a chattering Ayako and Ryota.
Mitsui: Ayako! Ryota! *Exclaimed*
Ayako: What? You looked like you have never seen us before.
Ryota: Mitsui, you are leaving already? *stares at bag in Mitsui's hand*
Mitsui: Yah, been here for a while.
Ryota: Right after training?
Mitsui: No, grab a bite before I came.
Ryota: Was looking for you, but you disappeared right after training.
Mitsui: Erm… I was really hungry, so I let earlier to get something to eat.
Hanamichi: Ryota? Ayako? Is that you?
Ayako: Yes.
Hanamichi: You all are here to visit the tensai right?
Ryota: Tensai? Where? You? You can hardly move an inch.
Hanamichi: Once a tensai always a tensai…
Mitsui decided to stay longer since there was no threat for him to leave. The four in the room chatted like old friends.
[After half an hour]
Ayako: Hey, I think I got to go. It is getting late.
Ryota: Yah, me too.
Mitsui: I think I will leave with them.
Hanamichi: Ok, thanks for visiting me!
Hanamichi was in a better mood after cracking some silly jokes with the three, Rukawa was at the far end of his mind and he had clear forgotten about it. He gave a yawn and settled himself into his bed painfully, watching the three leave. Mitsui opened the door, bidding Hanamichi his last goodbye, he turned to walk out of the room only to stared straight into a pair of old blue eyes. Rukawa stood upright, staring back into the pair of brown eyes. Mitsui shivered silently, he had not met such a pair of eyes before, so cold and unfeeling. Mitsui looked away and walked past the raven hair boy.
Ayako: Rukawa? You are here too?
Rukawa: …^why am I here? ^
Ayako: I see you are worried about Hanamichi too. *grins*
Rukawa: … ^yah I am^
Ryota: We are leaving first, bye
Rukawa: …*nods*
Mitsui who had walked a distant ahead had stopped to wait for the two others.
Mitsui: Ryota, Ayako?
Ayako: Coming, why are you so impatient? We were just trying to make conversation with Rukawa.
Mitsui: Yah, conversation, did he even utter a word?
Ayako: Er…no. *Sweat drop*
Mitsui: It is getting late, let's get going.
Ryota: Yah, it is late.
The threesome left the hospital, leaving Hanamichi to face the disaster ahead.
At the word "Rukawa", all the forgotten thoughts flooded back to Hanamichi. He had always found the fox irritating and after Mitsui had told him about Rukawa, Hanamichi did not even want to see him. Cracking his brain for an idea to avoid confrontation. Hanamichi covered himself from head to toe with the blanket.
Hanamichi: ^Safe! ^
Rukawa entered the room to see Hanamichi covered from head to toe.
Rukawa: *coughs*
Hanamichi: I am asleep. ^That should keep him away. ^
Rukawa: yah, you are sleep talking.
Hanamichi: *red in face* ^Damn, if I am asleep I cannot talk! Guess I have no choice but to entertain that fox. ^
Hanamichi: Fine, I am awake.
Rukawa: So why don't you want to see me.
Hanamichi: Your looks irritate me.
Rukawa: …
[After a short pause]
Rukawa: Have you considered my proposal?
Hanamichi: What proposal?
Rukawa: The one I mentioned at your house.
Hanamichi: Oh. I have, and decided that I the tensai will not accept.
Rukawa: I see. Why?
Hanamichi: I already said, because I find you irritating.
Rukawa: Is that so and not because of what Mitsui sempai told you?
Hanamichi: *Red in face* Wh…what did he tell me?
Rukawa: Are you sure, you want me to say it out?
Hanamichi: Yeah, go ahead. *Challenges Rukawa*
Rukawa: That I like you.
Hanamichi: *Face turn redder* haha, you are wrong! Micchy will never say this stuff to me. How would he know if you like me or not?
Rukawa: This I do not know. But I don't. I only want to be your friend.
Hanamichi: You don't? *Relief*
Rukawa: No, I don't.
Hanamichi: Then maybe I can reconsider your proposal.
Rukawa: I will come again tomorrow. Rest well.
Rukawa turned to go. He breath freely away, the tense moments were finally over. Rukawa replayed the moments again in his mind. As he recalled himself telling Hanamichi that no, he don't like him. He could feel an unbearably pain, sadness. But Rukawa knew that it was the only way to get Hanamichi to become his friend.
[Next day]
It was an autumn Sunday. The day was getting cooler as it drew nearer to winter. All the trees were in shades of red, brown and yellow, though some trees still have shades of green in them. Hanamichi laid bed, watching people walking along the pathways.
Hanamichi: This is boring! Is there anything else to do other than lying in bed!
Nurse: Yes, here take your medicine.
A nurse walked towards him.
Hanamichi: Medicine?
Nurse: Yes.
Hanamichi: Why do I need it, I am the tensai I will be fine soon!
Nurse: Er…well you need to take the medicine if you want to do other stuff other than lying in bed!
Hanamichi: I hate medicines I do not want any.
Nurse: But he had been in the hospital before haven't you? Don't you have to take medicine?
Hanamichi: Yes and no, I don't take medicine, I just undergo some therapy. The medicine I used was those that are applied externally.
Nurse: But this time you need medicine, your injury is more serious this time.
Hanamichi: What! More serious, how long will it take me to recover?
Nurse: It will take about 3 months to recover fully and don't think about doing any strenuous exercises during this period or else you will take even longer to recover!
Hanamichi was dumbstruck, not knowing anything to say. Reluctantly, he was helped by the nurse into sitting position. It hurt tremendously but he did not have much of a choice. He took the medicine and the nurse tried to shift him into lying position again, but Hanamichi refused, preferring to sit upright. Unable to change his mind, the nurse left him to his own thoughts.
Hanamichi: ^ I will not be able to make it for the winter championships. ^
The nurse words came haunting him and he recalled what Ayako said.
"Don't think about doing any strenuous exercises during this period or else you will take even longer to recover!"
"You might not be able to play basketball again"
The words swirled in his mind and he knew that he will not touch a basketball in another three more months and Hanamichi was frustrated. He did not want this to happen, he had only just recovered and he was going back to training soon. Just a few more days, and after waiting so long, he was hit by another blow.
Hanamichi: ^Great just great, I will never touch a ball again until early winter. Wait if it is early winter and I make a speedy recovery maybe I will be in time for the games! Maybe I can make it! ^
Hanamichi's spirit lifted only to be sent tumbling down.
Hanamichi: ^ Yah and then with my present shooting, they had be better off without me.^
Hanamichi debated with himself and knew that all the thoughts were only possible if he recovered fast enough.
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To be continued…
Hmm ok chapter 16 is done…try to post soon…^^;;;