Title: Struggle
Part: 26/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu...still unknown...
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me......dun sue!!
Warning: The characters may be OOC.
Writer's Note: Hmm there is a bit of change of style here I guess, more narration instead of dialogue. Hope it will be better this way.
Words in * * is action
Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer...^_______^
Chapter 26
Rukawa: No. I am not.
Rukawa almost died from a burst ego when he heard the word " imploring". He, Rukawa Kaede, begged from a red head idiot, why did he have to do that. He would be able to win single-handedly, that is until they met stronger schools and with Mitsui, although he hate to admit, who had better stamina now and Ryota who had definitely become faster and his ability to read the game had improved too. But he knew that with Hanamichi around, it would increase their chances of winning. That was why in the first place he spiked him into learning three-pointers but not to learn from Mitsui, especially Mitsui. A small smile touched Hanamichi's lips.
Hanamichi: And so why? ^Haha. You do need my help don't you, you fox, you need the tensai's help! ^
Rukawa: I don't want to lose.
Hanamichi: And you are imploring my help right.
Rukawa: No, I am not.
Hanamichi: Then you can train up yourself; you don't need my help anyway.
Hanamichi laughed inwardly, he enjoy torturing the fox, he could see the fuming Rukawa through his wall of ice. And it was entertaining. If only Rukawa showed his expression. He would be more likeable, approachable and less irritating. Hanamichi waited for an answer expecting Rukawa to say something. However, Rukawa shrugged, turned, and walked away.
Rukawa: Suit yourself.
Rukawa had enough of him. He did not understand one bit why in the first place he had bothered to try talking to him. It always ended this way, either with him jumping mad or himself walking away, they must be enemies in their previous life, they will never be able to hold a conversation and end with both of them happy.
Hanamichi watched Rukawa walk away; strangely, he did not feel anger. He had probably gotten use to Rukawa walking away when he could not find anything else to say. He knew that Rukawa had long ago wanted to treat him as a friend, but for the both of them, it was a difficult task. For the two people whom fought on the very first meeting. For the two people who had never know to cooperate with one another until the very last moment. For the two who secretly admired one another but was held back by pride. Hanamichi broke into his usual laughter.
Hanamichi: Haha. The fox had wanted my help!
From the changing room, Rukawa could hear the mad laughter of Hanamichi, followed by the words that rang in his ears.
Rukawa: ^That idiot. Didn't I just deny that I am not imploring him? Which part of my speech does he not understand? ^
Rukawa sat with his fist clenched. Then as he tired hard to control his anger, a devilish Rukawa appeared on his left shoulder.
Devil: Of course, you are imploring his help.
The devil gave a smile and stared at Rukawa, waiting for a reply from him. Rukawa glared at the devil on his shoulder and found the smile especially irritating. If he could, he had wanted to wipe it off his face. As he opened his mouth to speak, another small figure appeared on his right shoulder. An angelic Rukawa sat on his shoulders with a look of depression.
Rukawa: Can the two of you leave me alone?
Angel: We cannot, we are you.
Rukawa: Whatever. Just disappear and stay hidden.
Angel: But we are here to help you.
The angel gave a sad smile and Rukawa could only feel his anger increase.
Rukawa: ^ I don't need your pity! ^
Angel: Oh no, I am not pitying you, I just feel sad for you-
Devil: No matter how angry you appeared to be, you still like him a lot, you are just trying to find excuses to make yourself dislike him. It is not going to work.
Rukawa: ...
Rukawa kept his mouth shut. He knew what that devil had said was true. And it was exactly what he was trying to do and he hated it. The devil gave a smirk and continued
Devil: There is no point keeping quiet, we can read our thoughts.
Rukawa remained silent, he had not depended on anyone before and he was not going to change the fact. Even in basketball, he had become what he was today because he had trained hard and through his own observant learnt. But before the red head idiot, he did not know who was the bigger idiot. He suspects he was acting strange and to himself, strange means acting like a total idiot. Rukawa had no idea how he was to tackle the problem. But he did not want any help, he was certain. But wait a moment, didn't the angel said that they were him. So, if he got help from them then it would not be getting help from someone. Yet, there was a reluctant to ask, to pour his troubles out to someone, or simply the fact of saying it out. Frustration caught him and cradled him in their arms; as of he was a lost young child. After much thought, Rukawa knew that he needed help, but to ask for it was difficult. All the while, while he was silent, the two small figures did not go, they stayed with
him and kept quiet. They knew this boy since young and knew that it was only a matter of time before he asked for help.
Rukawa: I...
Rukawa tried to ask; yet, the words seemed to be stuck at his throat as if they were got behind his voice box. The angel and devil look expectantly at the boy. Their stare made Rukawa uncomfortable. Was his secret safe in their hands, or will it will make known to all. Rukawa clamped up again, searching again for an answer. The devil smirked while the angel looked disappointed. Eventually, Rukawa spoke up.
Rukawa: What should I do?
Rukawa finally asked the question, the question that had been bothering him ever since he did not know when. The devil grinned while the angel gave a smile.
Angel: You have finally decided to say it out.
Devil: That was an improvement!
The devil declared rather too happily, he was met by the cold Rukawa stare that even the devil could not help but shudder. The angel however was so glad that he was hoping around Rukawa's shoulder, which was irritating.
Rukawa: Can the both of you stop celebrating? There is nothing to celebrate about!
Devil: Fine, clam down; we will help you, since you ask.
Angel: We will help even if you did not ask.
Rukawa did not speak, but waited for an answer to his question. A solution to solve his frustration to guide the child backs onto the right path. He waited looking at the two figures alternately. Finally, the devil spoke up.
Angel: I think it is time to tell him the truth. I don't think he is that stupid. I am sure he sees that you are acting weird these days.
Rukawa: ^Of course he does, even blind man can. ^
Devil: Well so, tell him!
Rukawa: I cannot. He will despise me afterwards.
Angel: Who knows, maybe he doesn't, maybe you will reach your aim.
Rukawa: At this rate, I won't.
Devil: You never knew until you try.
The devil persuaded the raven boy hair. Rukawa had a look of discomfort craved sharply on his face. This was unusual. Finally, he addressed his discomfort.
Rukawa: How?
Angel: How? How what?
Rukawa: How do I tell him? You cannot hint to him, he is too dense.
Devil: Well tell him straight then.
Rukawa: But I need the least the plan.
Devil: Here, I have one! The devil gave a grin and started whispering into Rukawa's ear.
The look on Rukawa's face was gone. Suddenly, he felt himself much at ease. He was after all troubled for some 6 months and it was a horrible feeling. With a plan in mind and his thoughts organised, Rukawa saw an aim. Something he obscure from his view sometime ago. With the plan sorted out, the two small figures disappeared with a `poof'.
However, Rukawa knew that he had to settle something else before he told him. And he would have to wait for a more suitable time to tell him and it was not until the tournament is over. He did not want this problem to affect their game. It was unfair to the team, to Hanamichi and to himself. With that, he left the changing room with slightly lighter steps.
Hanamichi watched as Rukawa walked out from the changing room. There was something different about this Rukawa. He appeared to be back to normal, not the one he saw a while back. The Rukawa he knew will never ask him to do anything. Yet, he understood why he was doing it. Akagi was gone, the team was weaker without their centre and it was very much up to him to fill his shoes, should he be unable to do so, it will probably cost the team when they met better teams. Hanamichi knew that Rukawa had only done so, so that he can keep them winning and he, Hanamichi is not going to disappoint the team. He will prove to that fox that he could be as good as he was.
The night grew deeper and the day for the match drew nearer. But Hanamichi continued to stay on the basketball court. He already had the moves made by Rukawa impressed onto his mind.
To be continued...
Hmm so finally, the winter championships are drawing near. Took sometime doing this chapter, was going into depression. So, do give me your C&C's, or else I might not continue, I need to know people are reading... if not what is the point of posting... ^^... hmm sorry for outburst...tired and brain dead after all the typing. Thanks for reading and hope you have enjoyed. I will be trying to end everything in four chapters and an epilogue so there the story is ending and for those that have been reading since July 2000 a very big thank you. Yes, I will stop torturing all of you, I will tell you the pairing. That is all for now!
Part: 26/?
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu...still unknown...
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
Please ignore any typo errors/ gammer mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me......dun sue!!
Warning: The characters may be OOC.
Writer's Note: Hmm there is a bit of change of style here I guess, more narration instead of dialogue. Hope it will be better this way.
Words in * * is action
Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer...^_______^
Chapter 26
Rukawa: No. I am not.
Rukawa almost died from a burst ego when he heard the word " imploring". He, Rukawa Kaede, begged from a red head idiot, why did he have to do that. He would be able to win single-handedly, that is until they met stronger schools and with Mitsui, although he hate to admit, who had better stamina now and Ryota who had definitely become faster and his ability to read the game had improved too. But he knew that with Hanamichi around, it would increase their chances of winning. That was why in the first place he spiked him into learning three-pointers but not to learn from Mitsui, especially Mitsui. A small smile touched Hanamichi's lips.
Hanamichi: And so why? ^Haha. You do need my help don't you, you fox, you need the tensai's help! ^
Rukawa: I don't want to lose.
Hanamichi: And you are imploring my help right.
Rukawa: No, I am not.
Hanamichi: Then you can train up yourself; you don't need my help anyway.
Hanamichi laughed inwardly, he enjoy torturing the fox, he could see the fuming Rukawa through his wall of ice. And it was entertaining. If only Rukawa showed his expression. He would be more likeable, approachable and less irritating. Hanamichi waited for an answer expecting Rukawa to say something. However, Rukawa shrugged, turned, and walked away.
Rukawa: Suit yourself.
Rukawa had enough of him. He did not understand one bit why in the first place he had bothered to try talking to him. It always ended this way, either with him jumping mad or himself walking away, they must be enemies in their previous life, they will never be able to hold a conversation and end with both of them happy.
Hanamichi watched Rukawa walk away; strangely, he did not feel anger. He had probably gotten use to Rukawa walking away when he could not find anything else to say. He knew that Rukawa had long ago wanted to treat him as a friend, but for the both of them, it was a difficult task. For the two people whom fought on the very first meeting. For the two people who had never know to cooperate with one another until the very last moment. For the two who secretly admired one another but was held back by pride. Hanamichi broke into his usual laughter.
Hanamichi: Haha. The fox had wanted my help!
From the changing room, Rukawa could hear the mad laughter of Hanamichi, followed by the words that rang in his ears.
Rukawa: ^That idiot. Didn't I just deny that I am not imploring him? Which part of my speech does he not understand? ^
Rukawa sat with his fist clenched. Then as he tired hard to control his anger, a devilish Rukawa appeared on his left shoulder.
Devil: Of course, you are imploring his help.
The devil gave a smile and stared at Rukawa, waiting for a reply from him. Rukawa glared at the devil on his shoulder and found the smile especially irritating. If he could, he had wanted to wipe it off his face. As he opened his mouth to speak, another small figure appeared on his right shoulder. An angelic Rukawa sat on his shoulders with a look of depression.
Rukawa: Can the two of you leave me alone?
Angel: We cannot, we are you.
Rukawa: Whatever. Just disappear and stay hidden.
Angel: But we are here to help you.
The angel gave a sad smile and Rukawa could only feel his anger increase.
Rukawa: ^ I don't need your pity! ^
Angel: Oh no, I am not pitying you, I just feel sad for you-
Devil: No matter how angry you appeared to be, you still like him a lot, you are just trying to find excuses to make yourself dislike him. It is not going to work.
Rukawa: ...
Rukawa kept his mouth shut. He knew what that devil had said was true. And it was exactly what he was trying to do and he hated it. The devil gave a smirk and continued
Devil: There is no point keeping quiet, we can read our thoughts.
Rukawa remained silent, he had not depended on anyone before and he was not going to change the fact. Even in basketball, he had become what he was today because he had trained hard and through his own observant learnt. But before the red head idiot, he did not know who was the bigger idiot. He suspects he was acting strange and to himself, strange means acting like a total idiot. Rukawa had no idea how he was to tackle the problem. But he did not want any help, he was certain. But wait a moment, didn't the angel said that they were him. So, if he got help from them then it would not be getting help from someone. Yet, there was a reluctant to ask, to pour his troubles out to someone, or simply the fact of saying it out. Frustration caught him and cradled him in their arms; as of he was a lost young child. After much thought, Rukawa knew that he needed help, but to ask for it was difficult. All the while, while he was silent, the two small figures did not go, they stayed with
him and kept quiet. They knew this boy since young and knew that it was only a matter of time before he asked for help.
Rukawa: I...
Rukawa tried to ask; yet, the words seemed to be stuck at his throat as if they were got behind his voice box. The angel and devil look expectantly at the boy. Their stare made Rukawa uncomfortable. Was his secret safe in their hands, or will it will make known to all. Rukawa clamped up again, searching again for an answer. The devil smirked while the angel looked disappointed. Eventually, Rukawa spoke up.
Rukawa: What should I do?
Rukawa finally asked the question, the question that had been bothering him ever since he did not know when. The devil grinned while the angel gave a smile.
Angel: You have finally decided to say it out.
Devil: That was an improvement!
The devil declared rather too happily, he was met by the cold Rukawa stare that even the devil could not help but shudder. The angel however was so glad that he was hoping around Rukawa's shoulder, which was irritating.
Rukawa: Can the both of you stop celebrating? There is nothing to celebrate about!
Devil: Fine, clam down; we will help you, since you ask.
Angel: We will help even if you did not ask.
Rukawa did not speak, but waited for an answer to his question. A solution to solve his frustration to guide the child backs onto the right path. He waited looking at the two figures alternately. Finally, the devil spoke up.
Angel: I think it is time to tell him the truth. I don't think he is that stupid. I am sure he sees that you are acting weird these days.
Rukawa: ^Of course he does, even blind man can. ^
Devil: Well so, tell him!
Rukawa: I cannot. He will despise me afterwards.
Angel: Who knows, maybe he doesn't, maybe you will reach your aim.
Rukawa: At this rate, I won't.
Devil: You never knew until you try.
The devil persuaded the raven boy hair. Rukawa had a look of discomfort craved sharply on his face. This was unusual. Finally, he addressed his discomfort.
Rukawa: How?
Angel: How? How what?
Rukawa: How do I tell him? You cannot hint to him, he is too dense.
Devil: Well tell him straight then.
Rukawa: But I need the least the plan.
Devil: Here, I have one! The devil gave a grin and started whispering into Rukawa's ear.
The look on Rukawa's face was gone. Suddenly, he felt himself much at ease. He was after all troubled for some 6 months and it was a horrible feeling. With a plan in mind and his thoughts organised, Rukawa saw an aim. Something he obscure from his view sometime ago. With the plan sorted out, the two small figures disappeared with a `poof'.
However, Rukawa knew that he had to settle something else before he told him. And he would have to wait for a more suitable time to tell him and it was not until the tournament is over. He did not want this problem to affect their game. It was unfair to the team, to Hanamichi and to himself. With that, he left the changing room with slightly lighter steps.
Hanamichi watched as Rukawa walked out from the changing room. There was something different about this Rukawa. He appeared to be back to normal, not the one he saw a while back. The Rukawa he knew will never ask him to do anything. Yet, he understood why he was doing it. Akagi was gone, the team was weaker without their centre and it was very much up to him to fill his shoes, should he be unable to do so, it will probably cost the team when they met better teams. Hanamichi knew that Rukawa had only done so, so that he can keep them winning and he, Hanamichi is not going to disappoint the team. He will prove to that fox that he could be as good as he was.
The night grew deeper and the day for the match drew nearer. But Hanamichi continued to stay on the basketball court. He already had the moves made by Rukawa impressed onto his mind.
To be continued...
Hmm so finally, the winter championships are drawing near. Took sometime doing this chapter, was going into depression. So, do give me your C&C's, or else I might not continue, I need to know people are reading... if not what is the point of posting... ^^... hmm sorry for outburst...tired and brain dead after all the typing. Thanks for reading and hope you have enjoyed. I will be trying to end everything in four chapters and an epilogue so there the story is ending and for those that have been reading since July 2000 a very big thank you. Yes, I will stop torturing all of you, I will tell you the pairing. That is all for now!