Title: Struggle
Part: 30/31
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu…coming to light …
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
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2 Please ignore any typo errors/ grammar mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
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Warning: The characters may be OOC.
Writer's Note: Hello again! Okay, I know I have been doing a lot of "Hello" in the past 29 chapters… but bear with me it is ending soon! After the epilogue then it will all end! Hmm so for now read on, enjoy, and don't fall asleep. Well bye for now, see you in the last chapter!
4 Words in * * is action
5 Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
5.1 Chapter 30
Mitsui was familiar with the house, he had been there before, not often, but enough to know the house well. He made his way towards the couch and settled himself down. Ryota stood by the door stunned. He had not expected Mitsui to just enter the house like a gush of cold wind.
Mitsui: Miyagi, you can close the door now, it is getting close.
Mechanically, Ryota shut the door behind him.
Mitsui: Erm Miyagi, would you mind coming over, I have something to discuss.
Like a robot, he moved to the couch and sat down. His eyes were glassy and blank. Finally Mitsui could not bear the "block of wood in front of him", he gave him a hard shake. And that seemed to shake him out of his trance.
Ryota: Yes what do you want? And you can stop shaking me.
Ryota came to his senses again. Mitsui shifted in his seat and cleared his throat preparing to speak.
Mitsui: Miyagi, you should know why I am here. But in case, you don't. I am here to ask you to stay. I hate to say this, but the team needs you and this is not the right time to go. There is only another 6 months to go before you can officially retire. You just have to stay for six more months. And the team, I will not see the downfall of Shohoku. And we are heading towards that. Without you, there will only be Rukawa and Hanamichi left. Don't you see, you are important and the team has to be led.
Ryota: Mitsui, did you realise that my parents are not around. They had already left and I had already done what I could by staying behind for a month more. It is time for me go.
Mitsui: No, you cannot just leave. Who will lead the team after you?
Ryota: I am sure, there will be someone. Rukawa, Hanamichi or someone else.
Mitsui: It will be different!
Ryota: No, it is still the Shohoku team.
Mitsui: It will never be the same.
Ryota: Please Mitsui leave me alone, let me go.
Mitsui: Miyagi, please consider at the least.
Ryota: Mitsui-
Mitsui: All right, I have got to go…
Mitsui did not wait for Ryota to finish but left the other boy with his mouth half-opened, trying to convey his thoughts. The door shut tightly behind, keeping out the wind. And Ryota stood as he had before, his mind swirling.
The dark of the night engulfed Mitsui as he hurried along walkway. His mind was filled with images of a successful Rukawa, a happy couple, a broken himself. He hated being out of control and sadly this time he felt powerless. What could he do other than praying for the best? He had to move faster, he had something to attend to, another problem to settle this winter.
Rukawa and Hanamichi walked along the pathway as they headed for a drink in one of the coffeehouse. Hanamichi was in no mood for a drink, but he came along anyway. Maybe it would be better to talk it over with someone. But Rukawa? He did not seemed like the right person to talk to. Rukawa simply did not talk. Hanamichi pushed the thought away; he was simply trying to be nice. And the point is that he had been "nice" to him throughout the whole tournament period.
Hanamichi: ^He must be feeling guilty about the past. ^
The thought occurred to Hanamichi putting him more at ease. He was after all not used to a "nice" Rukawa.
Rukawa was feeling tense all over. He was reciting his "script" mentally over and over again as the two of them walked in silent. Every time he thought of what he had planed ahead, his heart skip a beat.
Rukawa: ^Damn clam down Rukawa Kaede! ^
Angel: Yeah clam down; don't worry too much just go ahead as planned
An angelic Rukawa sat on his shoulder and gave him a wink before vanishing. Rukawa was getting tired of the sudden appearance of his so-called guardians. They interrupted his thoughts, yet they gave him hope, too much maybe. But now he needed as much as he could. Only hope kept him insight, kept him sane. He did not know how he would react if his mission failed. He had no experience in this field and he knew not failure. Rukawa felt alone although Hanamichi was beside him. They were so close to one another, yet, they seemed so far away, like a river flowing between them and there seemed to be no bridge insight. He would have built a bridge all by himself, he would if he had the chance. But it was not his choice; he had to wait till he chanced upon a shallower part of the river. But until now, the river seemed swift and troubled, water moving so quickly; he will be washed away if he tried.
Rukawa walked ahead, his mind brooding over the Hanamichi. Hanamichi walked ahead, his mind brooding over the team. The two boys were deep in thoughts and thoughts alone filled their mind. Then the rhythm of their strides was broken. Rukawa halted. Hanamichi walked on and only realised that Rukawa was no longer waling by his side. He stopped and turned back to see Rukawa standing solitarily on the already dark road, illuminated by the streetlamp.
Rukawa was silent for a while; he waited for Hanamichi to walk up to him. He had been running through the lines he had prepared in his mind. Hanamichi walked right up to him as he wanted, but before he could say a word, Hanamichi spoke up.
Hanamichi: Anything wrong? I think I will just head for home instead of the drink. I want to be alone. Sorry about that.
Not waiting a reply from Rukawa, Hanamichi turned and left. He was in no mood for one of the weird "Rukawa sessions" that was happening one too many. He was not in the mood and too tired to think. He wanted a warm bath and a soft bed. The thought was more tempting then a "chat" with the fox boy. Rukawa did not know where to start, or rather; he had too much to say. He heard nothing from Hanamichi but when he saw he was leaving he knew he had to take action.
Rukawa: I love you.
Rukawa blurted out just loud enough to be heard by Hanamichi He waited for a reaction. And Hanamichi did react. Yet, he could not make out the expression on his face in the dark. He was back facing the source of light, and he could not see a thing. Yet, he seemed to move closer, and his face showed up under the streetlamp. It was blank. Nothing. Empty. Then Rukawa knew he had no chance. He had failed. Yet, Hanamichi showed no anger, something he had not expected. Instead, he revealed a tired look, a look of exhaustion. As if telling Rukawa he was tired of the game he had been playing. But was he glad that it had ended? He did not revealed. He stood staring into the fox boy's eyes, as if expecting an explanation.
Then the lines he had memorised the night before came to him, like the doors of the floodgate being opened. All the word, all the sentences came to him and before he knew it, he had babbled everything out in one long breath.
Rukawa: Sakuragi, I have something to tell you, something serious. You might be angry, disgusted or even hate me afterwards but please let me finish with what I have to say. I love you. And that is true; it had been so for a long time. From the time when you got injured, I guessed. Why? You had asked. I don't know either. I had asked myself the same question a million times, yet each time I did not get an answer. I simply like you for who you are and what you are. And yes, I lied at the hospital; I was not prepared to tell you.
When Rukawa finally stopped, Hanamichi stood stock-still; he did not know how to react. If that was a girl, he had known he would have rejected her in the nicest possible way or jump for joy. But this is a boy standing in front, looking as if he made such an effort and put in so much courage, the courage he never found to confess. His mind was swirling, he need to think. The fox like him. The fox, did he like the fox? He did not know. Do you consider enjoying one on ones as liking, do you consider secretly admitting his talent as liking. Do you consider… the list ran on. He was at lost.
Rukawa stood in the cold, no knowing what to do. He had made his stand and was no longer sure what was his next move. He only felt his hope diminished as time dragged on. Then finally Hanamichi spoke.
Hanamichi: Rukawa, I do not know how to react. I knew you had being acting weird this few months, the reason why, now I know. Maybe you had chosen the right day to tell me. If I had not been so tired, I had bashed you up a few months back, when I was still at the hospital. A guy-guy relationship you are suggesting is not at all appealing to me then. But in those months in the hospital, I have thought about lots of stuff. Including the time when Micchy told me about you liking me. I was thinking about how impossible a relationship was between two guys. I was paranoid then. But as the days go by, I begin to see differently, sort of saw things in a different light. Maybe things are possible if they were truly in love... but between you and me, I have more to thing and for tonight, I cannot reply you. I need time to rest and later think.
Hanamichi waited for no reply, he had never talked to anyone about what he thought about in the hospital. Many had thought he was thinking about the winter championships. Yes, he had been but there was more to it. He walked into the black of the chilly night, leaving Rukawa in suspense and a diminishing hope.
To be continue…
One more epilogue to go… so do give me your comments!
Issei_kun_@hotmail.com
Part: 30/31
Author: Issei
Genre: Yaoi
Paring: MitHanaRu…coming to light …
Rating: PG
Archive: Sdfic ML and Jem's homepage!
1
2 Please ignore any typo errors/ grammar mistakes.
Disclaimer: the characters do not belong to me……dun sue!!
3
Warning: The characters may be OOC.
Writer's Note: Hello again! Okay, I know I have been doing a lot of "Hello" in the past 29 chapters… but bear with me it is ending soon! After the epilogue then it will all end! Hmm so for now read on, enjoy, and don't fall asleep. Well bye for now, see you in the last chapter!
4 Words in * * is action
5 Words in ^ ^ is character's thoughts
Words in [ ] refer to the setting
Words in ( ) are words by writer…^_______^
5.1 Chapter 30
Mitsui was familiar with the house, he had been there before, not often, but enough to know the house well. He made his way towards the couch and settled himself down. Ryota stood by the door stunned. He had not expected Mitsui to just enter the house like a gush of cold wind.
Mitsui: Miyagi, you can close the door now, it is getting close.
Mechanically, Ryota shut the door behind him.
Mitsui: Erm Miyagi, would you mind coming over, I have something to discuss.
Like a robot, he moved to the couch and sat down. His eyes were glassy and blank. Finally Mitsui could not bear the "block of wood in front of him", he gave him a hard shake. And that seemed to shake him out of his trance.
Ryota: Yes what do you want? And you can stop shaking me.
Ryota came to his senses again. Mitsui shifted in his seat and cleared his throat preparing to speak.
Mitsui: Miyagi, you should know why I am here. But in case, you don't. I am here to ask you to stay. I hate to say this, but the team needs you and this is not the right time to go. There is only another 6 months to go before you can officially retire. You just have to stay for six more months. And the team, I will not see the downfall of Shohoku. And we are heading towards that. Without you, there will only be Rukawa and Hanamichi left. Don't you see, you are important and the team has to be led.
Ryota: Mitsui, did you realise that my parents are not around. They had already left and I had already done what I could by staying behind for a month more. It is time for me go.
Mitsui: No, you cannot just leave. Who will lead the team after you?
Ryota: I am sure, there will be someone. Rukawa, Hanamichi or someone else.
Mitsui: It will be different!
Ryota: No, it is still the Shohoku team.
Mitsui: It will never be the same.
Ryota: Please Mitsui leave me alone, let me go.
Mitsui: Miyagi, please consider at the least.
Ryota: Mitsui-
Mitsui: All right, I have got to go…
Mitsui did not wait for Ryota to finish but left the other boy with his mouth half-opened, trying to convey his thoughts. The door shut tightly behind, keeping out the wind. And Ryota stood as he had before, his mind swirling.
The dark of the night engulfed Mitsui as he hurried along walkway. His mind was filled with images of a successful Rukawa, a happy couple, a broken himself. He hated being out of control and sadly this time he felt powerless. What could he do other than praying for the best? He had to move faster, he had something to attend to, another problem to settle this winter.
Rukawa and Hanamichi walked along the pathway as they headed for a drink in one of the coffeehouse. Hanamichi was in no mood for a drink, but he came along anyway. Maybe it would be better to talk it over with someone. But Rukawa? He did not seemed like the right person to talk to. Rukawa simply did not talk. Hanamichi pushed the thought away; he was simply trying to be nice. And the point is that he had been "nice" to him throughout the whole tournament period.
Hanamichi: ^He must be feeling guilty about the past. ^
The thought occurred to Hanamichi putting him more at ease. He was after all not used to a "nice" Rukawa.
Rukawa was feeling tense all over. He was reciting his "script" mentally over and over again as the two of them walked in silent. Every time he thought of what he had planed ahead, his heart skip a beat.
Rukawa: ^Damn clam down Rukawa Kaede! ^
Angel: Yeah clam down; don't worry too much just go ahead as planned
An angelic Rukawa sat on his shoulder and gave him a wink before vanishing. Rukawa was getting tired of the sudden appearance of his so-called guardians. They interrupted his thoughts, yet they gave him hope, too much maybe. But now he needed as much as he could. Only hope kept him insight, kept him sane. He did not know how he would react if his mission failed. He had no experience in this field and he knew not failure. Rukawa felt alone although Hanamichi was beside him. They were so close to one another, yet, they seemed so far away, like a river flowing between them and there seemed to be no bridge insight. He would have built a bridge all by himself, he would if he had the chance. But it was not his choice; he had to wait till he chanced upon a shallower part of the river. But until now, the river seemed swift and troubled, water moving so quickly; he will be washed away if he tried.
Rukawa walked ahead, his mind brooding over the Hanamichi. Hanamichi walked ahead, his mind brooding over the team. The two boys were deep in thoughts and thoughts alone filled their mind. Then the rhythm of their strides was broken. Rukawa halted. Hanamichi walked on and only realised that Rukawa was no longer waling by his side. He stopped and turned back to see Rukawa standing solitarily on the already dark road, illuminated by the streetlamp.
Rukawa was silent for a while; he waited for Hanamichi to walk up to him. He had been running through the lines he had prepared in his mind. Hanamichi walked right up to him as he wanted, but before he could say a word, Hanamichi spoke up.
Hanamichi: Anything wrong? I think I will just head for home instead of the drink. I want to be alone. Sorry about that.
Not waiting a reply from Rukawa, Hanamichi turned and left. He was in no mood for one of the weird "Rukawa sessions" that was happening one too many. He was not in the mood and too tired to think. He wanted a warm bath and a soft bed. The thought was more tempting then a "chat" with the fox boy. Rukawa did not know where to start, or rather; he had too much to say. He heard nothing from Hanamichi but when he saw he was leaving he knew he had to take action.
Rukawa: I love you.
Rukawa blurted out just loud enough to be heard by Hanamichi He waited for a reaction. And Hanamichi did react. Yet, he could not make out the expression on his face in the dark. He was back facing the source of light, and he could not see a thing. Yet, he seemed to move closer, and his face showed up under the streetlamp. It was blank. Nothing. Empty. Then Rukawa knew he had no chance. He had failed. Yet, Hanamichi showed no anger, something he had not expected. Instead, he revealed a tired look, a look of exhaustion. As if telling Rukawa he was tired of the game he had been playing. But was he glad that it had ended? He did not revealed. He stood staring into the fox boy's eyes, as if expecting an explanation.
Then the lines he had memorised the night before came to him, like the doors of the floodgate being opened. All the word, all the sentences came to him and before he knew it, he had babbled everything out in one long breath.
Rukawa: Sakuragi, I have something to tell you, something serious. You might be angry, disgusted or even hate me afterwards but please let me finish with what I have to say. I love you. And that is true; it had been so for a long time. From the time when you got injured, I guessed. Why? You had asked. I don't know either. I had asked myself the same question a million times, yet each time I did not get an answer. I simply like you for who you are and what you are. And yes, I lied at the hospital; I was not prepared to tell you.
When Rukawa finally stopped, Hanamichi stood stock-still; he did not know how to react. If that was a girl, he had known he would have rejected her in the nicest possible way or jump for joy. But this is a boy standing in front, looking as if he made such an effort and put in so much courage, the courage he never found to confess. His mind was swirling, he need to think. The fox like him. The fox, did he like the fox? He did not know. Do you consider enjoying one on ones as liking, do you consider secretly admitting his talent as liking. Do you consider… the list ran on. He was at lost.
Rukawa stood in the cold, no knowing what to do. He had made his stand and was no longer sure what was his next move. He only felt his hope diminished as time dragged on. Then finally Hanamichi spoke.
Hanamichi: Rukawa, I do not know how to react. I knew you had being acting weird this few months, the reason why, now I know. Maybe you had chosen the right day to tell me. If I had not been so tired, I had bashed you up a few months back, when I was still at the hospital. A guy-guy relationship you are suggesting is not at all appealing to me then. But in those months in the hospital, I have thought about lots of stuff. Including the time when Micchy told me about you liking me. I was thinking about how impossible a relationship was between two guys. I was paranoid then. But as the days go by, I begin to see differently, sort of saw things in a different light. Maybe things are possible if they were truly in love... but between you and me, I have more to thing and for tonight, I cannot reply you. I need time to rest and later think.
Hanamichi waited for no reply, he had never talked to anyone about what he thought about in the hospital. Many had thought he was thinking about the winter championships. Yes, he had been but there was more to it. He walked into the black of the chilly night, leaving Rukawa in suspense and a diminishing hope.
To be continue…
One more epilogue to go… so do give me your comments!
Issei_kun_@hotmail.com