*Trish's POV*
I got up from the balcony and went to open the door. "Hey Jeff... Didn't expect to find you at my door in the middle of the night." I stepped to the side letting me in. "So, what's up?"
"Hey... I can't stand being with Matt any more." He blurted out.
I looked at him questioning what he had just said. "You mean you guys are going to break up?" I wasn't sure what he meant by he can stand being around Matt any more. I Guess I should get the whole story and tell him what I think.
"No, its not like that. We just got into a fight..." Jeff looked really upset by this.
"Okay, how about we order a pizza and rent some movies, then you can tell me all about your fight." I smiled and grabbed the phone book. "What do you like on your pizza?" I could tell he didn't want to go back to his room any time soon.
"Pepperoni is good. "He said plopping on the bed next to me.
I ordered the pizza quickly. I could really tell Jeff was upset and I wanted to figure out why. Jeff doesn't get upset over little trivial things. Besides, it gave me great confidence that he had come to me to talk about it. We were really good friends, and I want to do my best to preserve that. "So what's up?" I asked hanging up the phone.
"It's just Matt doesn't think I can trust you. He's telling me you'll turn on me and blah, blah, blah, I just got sick of it and him and Lita always showing affection, then yelling at me every time I even get near a woman outside of Team Xtreme." He sighed.
I saw what this was about. Matt and Lita saw that Jeff and I had been real good friends from the past few days and we were showing little signs of affection. I wasn't planning on hurting Jeff or something, so they really had nothing to worry about.
"He keeps bringing up your past friends like Vince, Test and Albert. I think those are all just bad examples." He said. I could tell that he, for some reason, was scared that this might come in-between our friendship.
"Well, Matt is just being the overprotective big brother. I can understand that. I also agree with you, He shouldn't judge me before he knows me. But I have had very bad past relationships. Test and Albert and Vince were merely business partners. I never talked to them outside of shows. But you're different. You not my business partner. Your my close personal friend, and I would never intentionally hurt you." I tried as best as I could to explain myself. At the times those things happened though, I was a manipulative bitch, and I admit that. But I didn't want Jeff to think that. So about a week ago, I finally decided to do things on my own, and if I didn't get to the top that way, I didn't deserve to be at the top.
He smiled at me, and he had a world of trust you could see in his eyes. I smiled back and held out my arms to embrace him. That was the warmest hug I can remember. "You trust me right?" I whispered. I wanted to be sure that look he gave me, was a look of trust.
He turned his head to look at me. "With my life." He said, continuing with the hug.
Then there was a light knock on the door. We slowly pulled apart. "Oooh.... pizza." I said racing to the door. He was one step behind me.
The guy handed me the pizza and Jeff the Mountain Dew and I gave him the money. I set the pizza on the floor in front of the TV.
We didn't even watch the movie we rented. We sat up talking instead. "Jeff, I really didn't give Matt a reason to trust me. You can't expect him to just because you do." I really wanted to give Matt credit, he was just looking out for Jeff. I don't think I would trust me either if I was in his place.
"Have you changed since you were with test and Albert? You don't seem like the same person." Jeff asked.
I was surprised by this. I hadn't given the word "change" a second thought, but I guess I have changed when I look back at it. It just happened without a second thought after I became friends with Jeff.
"Well, I used to think that the easiest way to the top was to be a manipulative bitch..." I laughed trying to shove off any feelings I had in whatever I was about to say. Last thing I need is to cry in front of him. "So I did that. Now, I realize that the only way to deserve to be at the top, is to earn it. I've been trying so hard to do that, and people still don't trust me for what I did in the past."
I guess people thought that I didn't have feelings or that I was hard as a rock. I know I was a bitch, but I've been making a real effort to not be, and people didn't seem to acknowledge it. Everyone still doesn't talk to me, afraid that if they do I might help them then turn on them. "I have almost no friends because all the friends I had when I was selfish and wrong, acted the same way. Those weren't the kinds of friends I wanted. So I decided to stay away from them. But people like Lita, who are just opposite from that, don't trust me."
He smiled at me. "These things just take time. Lita will trust you after you gain her trust back, and your making a big improvement toward that. I am really proud of you." He kissed my forehead. "I am your friend and I gave you a chance. Now all you have to do is convince other people that I'm not crazy for doing it."
I wiped a tear from my eye and sniffed. I wasn't crying, my eyes just welled up from being so emotional, but I managed to keep most of it back. "You're always crazy..." I managed a slight grin.
We ended up falling asleep together on the floor, watching TV. He laid on his side with his stomach facing me and I was curled up in a ball in front of him. He had his arm draped over me.
For once, I was happy. Jeff inspired a hope in me to keep going the way I had been before. I keep remembering how he kissed my forehead. That was what made me truly feel special.
He stretched then got up and looked at the clock. "Shit..."
"What is it?" I asked.
"I didn't want to stay all night. Now I have an earful from Matt if he noticed I was gone." Jeff pulled his shoes on.
I got up looking at the clock. 9:00.
I ran to my suitcase and picked out clothes. "I have an autograph session at 9:30..." I got dressed in a hurry and managed to look nice. I walked Jeff to his room since the elevator was on the way. I gave him a quick hug. "Thanks..." I whispered."
I could feel him smiling during the hug. "No, thank you. I'll see you tonight at the gym, okay?"
"Yeah, bye" I confirmed heading out. I watched him stick his key in the door before the elevator shut. He was going to have an earful from Matt for staying out all night with me when Matt had specifically told him how he felt. It was my job to assure him I wasn't as bad as he made me out to be. How the hell was I supposed to do that?
I got up from the balcony and went to open the door. "Hey Jeff... Didn't expect to find you at my door in the middle of the night." I stepped to the side letting me in. "So, what's up?"
"Hey... I can't stand being with Matt any more." He blurted out.
I looked at him questioning what he had just said. "You mean you guys are going to break up?" I wasn't sure what he meant by he can stand being around Matt any more. I Guess I should get the whole story and tell him what I think.
"No, its not like that. We just got into a fight..." Jeff looked really upset by this.
"Okay, how about we order a pizza and rent some movies, then you can tell me all about your fight." I smiled and grabbed the phone book. "What do you like on your pizza?" I could tell he didn't want to go back to his room any time soon.
"Pepperoni is good. "He said plopping on the bed next to me.
I ordered the pizza quickly. I could really tell Jeff was upset and I wanted to figure out why. Jeff doesn't get upset over little trivial things. Besides, it gave me great confidence that he had come to me to talk about it. We were really good friends, and I want to do my best to preserve that. "So what's up?" I asked hanging up the phone.
"It's just Matt doesn't think I can trust you. He's telling me you'll turn on me and blah, blah, blah, I just got sick of it and him and Lita always showing affection, then yelling at me every time I even get near a woman outside of Team Xtreme." He sighed.
I saw what this was about. Matt and Lita saw that Jeff and I had been real good friends from the past few days and we were showing little signs of affection. I wasn't planning on hurting Jeff or something, so they really had nothing to worry about.
"He keeps bringing up your past friends like Vince, Test and Albert. I think those are all just bad examples." He said. I could tell that he, for some reason, was scared that this might come in-between our friendship.
"Well, Matt is just being the overprotective big brother. I can understand that. I also agree with you, He shouldn't judge me before he knows me. But I have had very bad past relationships. Test and Albert and Vince were merely business partners. I never talked to them outside of shows. But you're different. You not my business partner. Your my close personal friend, and I would never intentionally hurt you." I tried as best as I could to explain myself. At the times those things happened though, I was a manipulative bitch, and I admit that. But I didn't want Jeff to think that. So about a week ago, I finally decided to do things on my own, and if I didn't get to the top that way, I didn't deserve to be at the top.
He smiled at me, and he had a world of trust you could see in his eyes. I smiled back and held out my arms to embrace him. That was the warmest hug I can remember. "You trust me right?" I whispered. I wanted to be sure that look he gave me, was a look of trust.
He turned his head to look at me. "With my life." He said, continuing with the hug.
Then there was a light knock on the door. We slowly pulled apart. "Oooh.... pizza." I said racing to the door. He was one step behind me.
The guy handed me the pizza and Jeff the Mountain Dew and I gave him the money. I set the pizza on the floor in front of the TV.
We didn't even watch the movie we rented. We sat up talking instead. "Jeff, I really didn't give Matt a reason to trust me. You can't expect him to just because you do." I really wanted to give Matt credit, he was just looking out for Jeff. I don't think I would trust me either if I was in his place.
"Have you changed since you were with test and Albert? You don't seem like the same person." Jeff asked.
I was surprised by this. I hadn't given the word "change" a second thought, but I guess I have changed when I look back at it. It just happened without a second thought after I became friends with Jeff.
"Well, I used to think that the easiest way to the top was to be a manipulative bitch..." I laughed trying to shove off any feelings I had in whatever I was about to say. Last thing I need is to cry in front of him. "So I did that. Now, I realize that the only way to deserve to be at the top, is to earn it. I've been trying so hard to do that, and people still don't trust me for what I did in the past."
I guess people thought that I didn't have feelings or that I was hard as a rock. I know I was a bitch, but I've been making a real effort to not be, and people didn't seem to acknowledge it. Everyone still doesn't talk to me, afraid that if they do I might help them then turn on them. "I have almost no friends because all the friends I had when I was selfish and wrong, acted the same way. Those weren't the kinds of friends I wanted. So I decided to stay away from them. But people like Lita, who are just opposite from that, don't trust me."
He smiled at me. "These things just take time. Lita will trust you after you gain her trust back, and your making a big improvement toward that. I am really proud of you." He kissed my forehead. "I am your friend and I gave you a chance. Now all you have to do is convince other people that I'm not crazy for doing it."
I wiped a tear from my eye and sniffed. I wasn't crying, my eyes just welled up from being so emotional, but I managed to keep most of it back. "You're always crazy..." I managed a slight grin.
We ended up falling asleep together on the floor, watching TV. He laid on his side with his stomach facing me and I was curled up in a ball in front of him. He had his arm draped over me.
For once, I was happy. Jeff inspired a hope in me to keep going the way I had been before. I keep remembering how he kissed my forehead. That was what made me truly feel special.
He stretched then got up and looked at the clock. "Shit..."
"What is it?" I asked.
"I didn't want to stay all night. Now I have an earful from Matt if he noticed I was gone." Jeff pulled his shoes on.
I got up looking at the clock. 9:00.
I ran to my suitcase and picked out clothes. "I have an autograph session at 9:30..." I got dressed in a hurry and managed to look nice. I walked Jeff to his room since the elevator was on the way. I gave him a quick hug. "Thanks..." I whispered."
I could feel him smiling during the hug. "No, thank you. I'll see you tonight at the gym, okay?"
"Yeah, bye" I confirmed heading out. I watched him stick his key in the door before the elevator shut. He was going to have an earful from Matt for staying out all night with me when Matt had specifically told him how he felt. It was my job to assure him I wasn't as bad as he made me out to be. How the hell was I supposed to do that?