First Love Chapter 4: Uncertainty, a london's burning fanfic

LONDON'S BURNING
First Love

CHAPTER THREE
Uncertainty

Kirsty

He introduced me to his friends, his work colleagues. He wanted to show me off. I didn't mind. Perhaps I'd introduce him to Naz and my friends soon.

Since his parents were home, I suggested we go to my flat. I chucked my flat mate, Stacey, out for the evening.

She grinned when I told her my plans.

"Oh yeah, quiet night in eh? Candles, romantic music, bottle of wine…."

"Shut up" I told her.

She still hadn't gone out when he came round. I knew she just wanted to be nosey. I'd have to repay the favour sometime.

She beat me to the door.

"You must be the fireman! Kirsty has told me all about you!"

He looked a bit puzzled and embarrassed.

"Come in" I told him, glaring at Stacey. "Just ignore her, she's on her way out!"

"Am I?" Stacey seemed to be enjoying herself. "Oh yeah! Have fun won't you?!" she winked at us.

I glared at her and pointed in the direction of the door. Stacey chuckled and left the flat.

"My flat mate, she's a bit…"

He smiled.

"Make yourself at home then. Dinner will be served shortly."

I let him go into the front room where the table had been set. Stacey had added some flowers and candles, I hadn't had chance to get rid of them.

He looked uncertain as to what I had in mind. I was uncertain of what I had in mind! I made a hasty retreat into the kitchen!

Hi-Ho

I didn't know what she was planning. Did she want a romantic evening? I was sure of it. It was the climax I was unsure of!

What if she didn't understand?

I sat down on the sofa and looked around the room as she made herself busy in the kitchen.

"Smells nice" I tried complimenting.

She popped her head round the door. "Well I've got a fireman on stand by in case I burn it!"

"Oh? You won't need me then!"

She grinned. "Ignore the candles, Stacey's idea of a joke!"

I seemed relieved by that. But it left me wondering just what she did have in mind!

"It's a nice touch."

She just nodded and quickly disappeared again.

I think I may have said the wrong thing there. I didn't know what she had in mind. I didn't know what I had in mind either!

Kirsty

I felt a bit scared now, not knowing what he wanted. Or what I should do. I took a deep breath and took the meal through.

We ate and chatted about my day, his day, I said my work was pretty boring to talk about, he said his was much the same. We paused, using eating as an excuse not to talk.

We finished. He said it was a nice meal and offered to wash up. I told him there was no need as we had a dishwasher. He loaded it up.

I didn't know what to do next. Neither did he. I think I felt a bit relieved by that! But also felt a bit stupid. Maybe I could kiss him… I did but he pulled away. I tried apologising feeling stupid again.

He said it didn't matter.

"I have something to tell you" he sounded serious.

Hi-Ho

I felt I had to admit to my past experience in the bedroom department, which was easy to list. None. I asked if she minded if we wait, I didn't want to jump straight into bed with her.

Then I thought that sounded like an insult! But she knew what I meant, she didn't mind. She felt the same!

We didn't have to get married or anything, just wait until it felt right.

She totally agreed. I knew she meant it. I was so relieved. A weight had been lifted. Any reservations I'd had about her or the evening had gone straight out of the window

She was the one, I was sure of it, but I wanted everything to feel right. I wanted to get to know her properly, know all her likes and dislikes. She felt exactly the same.

I was just so relieved to hear that.

We settled for snogging on the sofa!

Kirsty

Phew! Snogging on the sofa will do fine! Nice and slowly will be perfect! He's so soft and passionate. I lay in his arms, we watched a film. I was relieved that he felt the same way I did.

The evening was perfect, after the small hiccups! I knew this wouldn't be a relationship where we'd go to bed and I'd never see him again.

I just knew it wasn't going to work out that way.