Disclaimer-J.K. Rowlings owns everything in this fic. I only own the plot.
The Journal of Dean Thomas
Chapter 2-Tuesday
Tuesday
I talked to Hermione yesterday in the common room when nobody else was in the room. She said that she didn't mind too much when people ask her for advice. If people bother her too much for advice she gets a little bit upset with them, especially if she's studying. At least that's what she says. I don't think that she was telling me the whole truth. I sensed that she isn't as patiently awaiting love as she lets on. I'm sure she has a crush on someone. But who? I guess I'll find out whom she likes when the time is right. For now, I don't think that I'll ask her for any more advice. I know how she must feel. Ginny was sitting alone in the common room today, so I sat down next to her and asked her how her day was going. Let me tell you, this was a very dumb thing for me to ask. She went on forever about how Harry had blown her off today when she went to watch him at quidditch practice. I don't understand why she obsesses over him so much. I like her, but you don't see me following her around everywhere trying to get her to notice me. I don't blame Harry for ignoring her. I probably would do the same thing if she followed me around like she follows him. He never gets to see the sweet side of Ginny. The side that makes you want to smile every time you see her. She acts so much different around Harry than she does around me. I really don't like the other side of her. The one she shows when she is around Harry. I think it's just an act. She just wants him to notice her. I wonder what she would say if I told her that I didn't like the way she acts when she's around Harry. She acts like a little puppy, you know, they always follow you around all of the time. I hate it when she does that. You would think that she would feel stupid. I know I would. I wonder what she would say if I started following her around like she follows Harry. I know she'd hate it and she'd tell me to stop. There are some things that I like about her, but there are some things that I truly hate. I'd never try to change her. I don't think I could, she's a very stubborn girl. But I wish she'd open her eyes a little bit and see how she's portraying herself. I don't think she would like what she saw. I know I don't like what I see when I watch her change herself to try and getting Harry to like her. You know, I think I'm starting to like her less and less. Wow, where did that come from? I didn't know I thought that way until I just wrote that. That's strange.
Sometimes it seems like Ginny is the sweetest, most beautiful girl in the world, but other times she seems whiny and self-centered. I wonder how much of what I like about her is in my head. She is gorgeous. I know I'm not imagining that, but is she really as sweet as I think she is? She can be sometimes, usually when she's not talking about Harry, which seems to be what she is doing most of the time. I think that I'm just being hard on her because I'm upset. She is sweet and she does talk about other things than Harry. I like talking to her about classes and about what's happening in school. I just get frustrated with her sometimes. Is there something wrong with me? Are my feelings for her changing?