Ch.23- Realizations
Oliver had lost all track of time. Finally Madame Pomfrey came in to check on him. "Oliver I think that you need to go rest. You don't look so good." Oliver just looked at her, and his eyes looked hollow. She shivered, and backed out of the room. He knew that he needed to sleep, but he probably couldn't. He was hungry, thirsty, a tired (and he needed to take a shower). He stood to his feet, and gently put Sarah's hand on the bed. He slowly walked away from her, and once he couldn't see her anymore he looked at his feet. He walked out of the infirmary. Madame Pomfrey wanted to stop him, but she wouldn't allow herself.
He walked to the Great Hall, and Professor McGonnagal saw him. "Oliver would you like to rest?" Oliver shook his head. "I want to eat first." He sat at one of the tables, and she conjured up some food for him. He ate a little bit of the bread, but he couldn't bring himself to eat anymore.
"Thank you Professor, but I think I'm ready to sleep." She nodded her head, and led him out of the Great Hall. Oliver felt like he wasn't in his body. Like he was watching him walk down the hallway. He didn't even know where they were going, but still he followed. She stopped, and opened a door. "In here." He thanked her, and went inside. The room had a bed, and that was all he needed. He walked over to the bed, and he sat down and took off his shoes. He threw them across the room at the wall. He lay his head on the pillow. He tried to get his mind to get off of the events that had taken place that night. He lay there for hours, and never finding a peaceful sleep.
Eventually his body gave in due to exhaustion. He had a dream. In this dream he was walking around the lake, and it was foggy. He pulled out his wand, and said, "Lumos!" The small flame didn't help much, but he appreciated the little bit of comfort that it gave him. He kept walking for what seemed like forever, and eventually he needed to rest so he sat by a large tree. He put his wand out (a/n I don't know what they say to do that). He heard someone coming. He didn't know who it was so he didn't make a sound. This person was apparently waiting for someone, because he/she was pacing nervously. And out of nowhere some else walked up. They greeted each other with a hug. Who are they? One of them pulled out their wand, and cried, "Lumos!" He then saw the face that he hated the most. Draco Malfoy. He wanted to attack him, but something held him back. The other person did the same with their wand. Oliver saw the face and gasped... Sarah! What is she doing with him?
They walked off, leaving Oliver alone in the dark. He ran after them, but he didn't find anything. "Sarah! Sarah, where are you? Sarah don't leave me! Please..." He had lost her... He sat straight up. This is what he had feared all along. He was in a cold sweat. He didn't sleep anymore that night. 'Malfoy loved her.'
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Draco eventually got control over his emotions, and walked back to the school. Waiting there at the entrance was Harry. "How long have you been watching me?" Harry reached into his robes, and pulled out a letter. "That's not important. Here this is yours." Draco took the letter from him. "Thank you." Harry nodded his head, and walked away. "Wait! I need to ask you something." Harry turned around. "What?" Draco's body began to tremble. "Why did she do it? Why? Do you know? You of all people!? Why you?" Harry tried to keep a calm and collected tone. "You ask me all the questions I don't have the answers for. She did it because she... needed to. She saved me because she thought that I could do something great. She saved me because I would have done the same for her." Harry had watery eyes. He walked away from Draco with an urgent stride. Draco just stood there with a questioning look in his face. 'Would she have done that for me? More importantly; would I have done it for her?'
He walked into the castle, and breathed in the muggy scent of its walls. He walked until he found himself in the library. It was empty, and he was glad. He walked to the back, and slid down the wall. He sat there for a while, and then took out the letter. He opened it, and began to read.
Draco,
How do I say this? You have helped me more than you will ever know. You helped me realize my destiny. And for that I love you. Remember you asked me if I believed in fate or destiny? Well I do now.
I know that you won't understand why I did what I did for a long time, but please don't blame Harry (or yourself). You are one of the greatest people that I know, and I am very lucky to have gotten to know you.
Do you remember on the train? I was so flirting with you. "I may want to be in Slytherin, if all the guys in there are as cute and charming as you." Man, am I a sap or what?
The diary that you gave me is waiting for you. I want you to have it. Sorry about the teacup (I don't think that I told you about that). It is broken. Sorry that the rest of your coupons will have expired. I always knew that I gave bad gifts.
I want you to go on with your life. But don't forget that I loved you, and that I will always be with you. I don't want you to remember the pain that I caused you. I want my memory to be a good one.
Don't dwell on things that might have been. In all actuality you will probably think me a coward. I killed myself instead of choosing between you and Oliver.
About that, I could never have made a decision. I love you both in very different ways, and if I would have chosen one of you I would have missed the other terribly.
I know that you've had a bad life, but just think of what you can do make someone else's better. I know that that sounds really corny, but you know me. Just kidding.
Seriously, I love you. I am really scared about what I have to do. I wish that I could tell you before I have to, but then you would stop me. Just know that this is what I have been created to do. You helped me realize that. And for that I am eternally grateful. I am forever in your debt.
If there is anything that I want to you do will you do it? Please? I want you to be (at least) civil with Oliver. I know that this may seem a lot to ask, but for my sake. I hope that one day you will be as happy as you have made me.
Your lunch buddy,
Sarah Bellows
He folded up the letter, and tucked it safely away in his robes. "We're even."
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Notes- Yeah, I know it's sappy. But I had to. Oh well. This is really short (sorry).
Thanks:
Juvenus- yeah I like fluff also. Sometimes I find that fluffy chapters are the best. ^__^ Don't worry I will be getting to Oliver's letter real soon.
Little Ray of Moonlight05- I really love your stories, so hurry up and update!
To all of you who read this and don't review- please, review! *gets on knees and begs*
Oliver had lost all track of time. Finally Madame Pomfrey came in to check on him. "Oliver I think that you need to go rest. You don't look so good." Oliver just looked at her, and his eyes looked hollow. She shivered, and backed out of the room. He knew that he needed to sleep, but he probably couldn't. He was hungry, thirsty, a tired (and he needed to take a shower). He stood to his feet, and gently put Sarah's hand on the bed. He slowly walked away from her, and once he couldn't see her anymore he looked at his feet. He walked out of the infirmary. Madame Pomfrey wanted to stop him, but she wouldn't allow herself.
He walked to the Great Hall, and Professor McGonnagal saw him. "Oliver would you like to rest?" Oliver shook his head. "I want to eat first." He sat at one of the tables, and she conjured up some food for him. He ate a little bit of the bread, but he couldn't bring himself to eat anymore.
"Thank you Professor, but I think I'm ready to sleep." She nodded her head, and led him out of the Great Hall. Oliver felt like he wasn't in his body. Like he was watching him walk down the hallway. He didn't even know where they were going, but still he followed. She stopped, and opened a door. "In here." He thanked her, and went inside. The room had a bed, and that was all he needed. He walked over to the bed, and he sat down and took off his shoes. He threw them across the room at the wall. He lay his head on the pillow. He tried to get his mind to get off of the events that had taken place that night. He lay there for hours, and never finding a peaceful sleep.
Eventually his body gave in due to exhaustion. He had a dream. In this dream he was walking around the lake, and it was foggy. He pulled out his wand, and said, "Lumos!" The small flame didn't help much, but he appreciated the little bit of comfort that it gave him. He kept walking for what seemed like forever, and eventually he needed to rest so he sat by a large tree. He put his wand out (a/n I don't know what they say to do that). He heard someone coming. He didn't know who it was so he didn't make a sound. This person was apparently waiting for someone, because he/she was pacing nervously. And out of nowhere some else walked up. They greeted each other with a hug. Who are they? One of them pulled out their wand, and cried, "Lumos!" He then saw the face that he hated the most. Draco Malfoy. He wanted to attack him, but something held him back. The other person did the same with their wand. Oliver saw the face and gasped... Sarah! What is she doing with him?
They walked off, leaving Oliver alone in the dark. He ran after them, but he didn't find anything. "Sarah! Sarah, where are you? Sarah don't leave me! Please..." He had lost her... He sat straight up. This is what he had feared all along. He was in a cold sweat. He didn't sleep anymore that night. 'Malfoy loved her.'
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Draco eventually got control over his emotions, and walked back to the school. Waiting there at the entrance was Harry. "How long have you been watching me?" Harry reached into his robes, and pulled out a letter. "That's not important. Here this is yours." Draco took the letter from him. "Thank you." Harry nodded his head, and walked away. "Wait! I need to ask you something." Harry turned around. "What?" Draco's body began to tremble. "Why did she do it? Why? Do you know? You of all people!? Why you?" Harry tried to keep a calm and collected tone. "You ask me all the questions I don't have the answers for. She did it because she... needed to. She saved me because she thought that I could do something great. She saved me because I would have done the same for her." Harry had watery eyes. He walked away from Draco with an urgent stride. Draco just stood there with a questioning look in his face. 'Would she have done that for me? More importantly; would I have done it for her?'
He walked into the castle, and breathed in the muggy scent of its walls. He walked until he found himself in the library. It was empty, and he was glad. He walked to the back, and slid down the wall. He sat there for a while, and then took out the letter. He opened it, and began to read.
Draco,
How do I say this? You have helped me more than you will ever know. You helped me realize my destiny. And for that I love you. Remember you asked me if I believed in fate or destiny? Well I do now.
I know that you won't understand why I did what I did for a long time, but please don't blame Harry (or yourself). You are one of the greatest people that I know, and I am very lucky to have gotten to know you.
Do you remember on the train? I was so flirting with you. "I may want to be in Slytherin, if all the guys in there are as cute and charming as you." Man, am I a sap or what?
The diary that you gave me is waiting for you. I want you to have it. Sorry about the teacup (I don't think that I told you about that). It is broken. Sorry that the rest of your coupons will have expired. I always knew that I gave bad gifts.
I want you to go on with your life. But don't forget that I loved you, and that I will always be with you. I don't want you to remember the pain that I caused you. I want my memory to be a good one.
Don't dwell on things that might have been. In all actuality you will probably think me a coward. I killed myself instead of choosing between you and Oliver.
About that, I could never have made a decision. I love you both in very different ways, and if I would have chosen one of you I would have missed the other terribly.
I know that you've had a bad life, but just think of what you can do make someone else's better. I know that that sounds really corny, but you know me. Just kidding.
Seriously, I love you. I am really scared about what I have to do. I wish that I could tell you before I have to, but then you would stop me. Just know that this is what I have been created to do. You helped me realize that. And for that I am eternally grateful. I am forever in your debt.
If there is anything that I want to you do will you do it? Please? I want you to be (at least) civil with Oliver. I know that this may seem a lot to ask, but for my sake. I hope that one day you will be as happy as you have made me.
Your lunch buddy,
Sarah Bellows
He folded up the letter, and tucked it safely away in his robes. "We're even."
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Notes- Yeah, I know it's sappy. But I had to. Oh well. This is really short (sorry).
Thanks:
Juvenus- yeah I like fluff also. Sometimes I find that fluffy chapters are the best. ^__^ Don't worry I will be getting to Oliver's letter real soon.
Little Ray of Moonlight05- I really love your stories, so hurry up and update!
To all of you who read this and don't review- please, review! *gets on knees and begs*