Jaina's Journal_Entry_18

"The Engagement"

By obi's girl

Summary: The Journal Entry everyone's been waiting for – the official engagement of Jaina Solo and Jagged Fel!

I'm engaged! I'm engaged to Jagged Fel! Jag did announce we were engaged earlier on, but it was only to hurt Zekk. I said it to hurt Zekk but this time, this time it was for real. I just hoped it wasn't all over the HoloNet before I actually have the chance to tell my family. They shouldn't have to hear it from the news, rather than from me. Jag will be released tomorrow, so we'll talk to them then.

I scratched my forehead, walking into the briefing room when the lights turned on before I even reached them and was surprised by the Squadron, Tycho, Gavin, Wedge and the other pilots, Chiss and human. Valis was among the Chiss, an even smile on his face. I bit my lip, smiling weakly. "What is this?"

Wedge shrugged, hugging me, "A surprise engagement party. Welcome to my family." I glanced worriedly at Valis. This wasn't the time --- it was wonderful and thoughtful but I wanted Luke, Mara, my brothers and parents here. "Where's Jag?"

"He's going to be released tomorrow, tomorrow, when we're going to tell the whole family." I mused, trying not to sound angry and ungrateful.

Gavin nodded, "We won't say a word about the engagement, Sticks."

"Thank you," I replied, plopping down on a chair, hiding my face in my arms. Wedge saw I was exhausted; he nodded to Gavin and he chauffeured the pilots out, Valis included.

He sat down on my left and smiled, "What's wrong, Jaina? You seem a bit..."

I looked up, swaying my head slightly, "A little." I stood up, pacing about the room before leaning my back on the wall, "I am happy to be engaged to Jag. I was shocked when he first proposed. I knew we were in love – when the shot accidentally hit his x-wing, I freaked. I thought it was the end; Uncle Luke said I shouldn't feel guilty – my plan worked but it shouldn't have put Jag's life on the line." I huffed, crossing my arms, "When Zekk was here and tried to interfere with our relationship – he wanted to get me back, and Jag saw the letter he left for me on my COM pad outside my quarters...It scares me this feeling inside."

Wedge stood up and braced my shoulders, "It shouldn't scare you, Jaina. It's a good feeling."

"I know, but there are consequences. We're in the middle of a war – anything can happen."

He raised his chin, "Nothing will happen." Wedge paused, smiling, "I don't know if you know this, but remember in the Sims, before you met Jag, he seemed to pick on you exclusively?" I nodded. "Before going up against all the pilots, he checked their profiles to see who was the best and most unique. He saw your name and saw that you were a Jedi Knight; he also thought you were cute and he knew."

I shrugged, "Knew what?"

"Knew that you were special." Wedge shifted his weight to his other leg, "You deserve this, Jaina."

I smiled, hugging Wedge, "Thank you, Wedge, or should I start calling you Uncle Wedge?"

He laughed, mouthing the title, and shrugged, "Why not? I've always considered myself part of your family, anyway."

**

~~ Day 2 ~~

Family? That sort of thing is usually associated with marriage; I would love to have a daughter or son. Correction, Jag would love a son; I would love a daughter. Still, before anything can happen, I have to wait until Jag will be released so we could talk to my family and tell them about the engagement. I glanced at the chrono on the wall. It wouldn't be long until he was released.

Jag, when I saw him before, he said it wasn't my fault. I wanted to believe him but I still can't help but feel somewhat responsible. It was my actions that got him hurt in the first place; I was careless I know I was. But I think Aunt Mara and Uncle Luke were right – it was the Vong's fault. It was a Vong yorik coral that made the shot that hit Jag's X-wing, but still...I should have been looking out for him. It shouldn't have happened. They shouldn't have come here. No one invited them.

"Am I interrupting you?" a voice asked from the doorway of my apartment. I gazed up squinting slightly. I had dimmed the room. He stepped closer and ordered some of the lights on. I smiled, running into his arms, crying furiously. Jag held me tight, patting my back, "Hey, it's okay. I'm fine, really."

I backed away, wiping my tears away, "A few minutes ago you weren't. It scared me..." I started, pacing about, "And it reminded me how vulnerable we really are."

He nodded, "I thought we agreed it wasn't your fault?"

I turned to him and sighed, "I won't deny I feel somewhat responsible for what happened; I do – I just don't want anything bad to happen to you. You're so special to me you have no idea. I love you so much; it scared me when you're hurt."

Jag braced my arms and smiled. He leaned down and kissed my forehead, "You know I don't blame you, Sticks, for what happened. No one does. But I understand how you feel. In war, there aren't a lot of certainties." He paused, shifting his weight, "Let me put it this way, you didn't fire the shot that my X-wing. The Vong did. It was the Vong that invaded the galaxy without permission and enslaved several core planets. Whatever tiny accident that happens here, is nothing compared to the damage they've created." He raised his right hand and stroked my cheek like a child, "Feel any better?"

"A little, and you're right. It was the Vong that fired that shot. Not me," I smiled, wrapping my arms around and kissed him, "How about we deal with that engagement now?"

He shrugged, kissing my forehead again. "Now, you're talking." Jag extended his arm to me and I took it, as he led me out.

**

It took some time gathering everybody together in the Pilot's Lounge, but when we finally did, I was more than ready to make the announcement myself. Wedge, Gavin and Typho Celchu came in together. Typho nodded to Luke and hugged the Jedi Master. Gavin nodded to me before sitting down; Wedge walked over to us and hugged Jag, winked at me and joined Gavin.

Everybody was there, except my two brothers. Anakin and Jacen were still needed on Yavin. Luke and Mara offered to give them a ride over, but the Solo brothers decided to stay on Yavin to keep order amongst Kyp's faction and their Uncles.

Well, at least they're trying to help. I glanced at Jag; he nodded and I stepped forward. Since he announced our engagement last time, he figured it was only fair for me to have a shot at it too.

"Thank you all for coming. I, um – I don't know if you all have been listening to the Holo Net; they may or may have not reported on this already, I don't know." I glanced back at Jag; he only smiled, urging me on.

"I – a day ago, something horrible happened. Jag, I thought – when he was hit, my mind was reeling. I didn't want to accept death as an option because it is NEVER an option, but life is." Before I could continue, the doors leading to the lounge opened.

Anakin walked in and while I was expecting Jacen not to be far behind, what I saw, I was definitely not expecting my brother kissing Danni Quee! Okay, that is totally unfair Jace! This is my party; I'm the center of attention – not you! Jacen stopped and smiled at every body else, quietly walking inside, Danni holding his hand. She smiled at every one as the two of them sat down next to Anakin.

I rolled my eyes, slightly pissed off. Slightly isn't even the word for it. If there weren't any witnesses, I would drag my older brother out of the lounge and lecture him and yell at him so hard; he'd wish he hadn't shown up unexpectedly. Calm down, girl. This is yours and Jag's day.

"Anyway, like I was saying, we've been through a lot and in times like these, it's always good to have some one to lean on." Forget the speech; just get to the point before they start ignore you! "Jag proposed to me two days ago. I was reluctant at first because there were a lot of factors to consider but after thinking it over, and thinking about the many ways on how to phrase my name as a married woman, I said yes!"

Jag stood up, from leaning against the bar and hugged me from behind. "And in case she didn't mention, this is the engagement party."

Everybody laughed. I turned to Jag and kissed him before several of my family members stepped up to congratulate us. Luke hugged me, smiling, "I told you everything would be all right." He hugged Jag, and then went to talk to Wedge and Gavin.

Next came my parents. Mom was too much in tears to say anything. She just hugged me as dad rolled his eyes, nodding to Jag, "Take care of her, Jag. The last thing you want is to deal with her brothers, and me." He extended his hand to the young man. Jag took it, smiling back at him. I nodded to him as the moved on as I met both my brothers. Jacen was first, followed closely by Danni.

I hugged Jacen; he smiled, "One day, when you look back on this day, it's going to be a very funny story..." I let go, planting my fists on my waist, tapping my finger. He frowned, "Or not. Congratulations, Jaina. And Jag, I've watched the of you two flirt with each other from the very beginning – glad to see it paid off."

I'm glad too, Jacen.

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