Title: How It Should Be
Part 3, Can't trust Myself
Author: Ziko
Rating: PG-13(to be safe)
Summary: Reactions after "Run Away Little Boy"
Author's Notes: Sorry this took so long, I was busy over the holidays and now school is a pain in the a**. This is to the reviewers. I love the reviews but try to be nice this is basically me raging cause I REALLY didn't like that episode. I know that Rory wouldn't act like she is and neither would Tristan, but it is MY story.
Part 3, Can't Trust Myself:
Rory sat on her porch, absently staring into the steaming mug of coffee in front of her. The past couple of weeks had been an extreme emotional roller coaster ride for her and now she was exhausted. One day she would be on top of the world on cloud nine, but in another instant she would be steaming mad, or depressed. She didn't know what was going on. *Well I know what's going on, but i don't understand why. I mean it's only Tristan!!* The worst part of it was that she had no idea who to turn to to help her out. *Lane? Nope that's no good. She would ask to many questions, and I'm not ready for that. Mom? I don't know if I could sit her down for a serious conversation but she would have the best advice. OK mom it is.*
She stood up, trying to work the tension out of her muscles before heading inside. Lorelei being Lorelei had been spying on Rory the whole time. When Rory came in she saw her mom trying to look busy.
"It's ok mom. I knew you were spying on me."
"What me spy on my only child??" Lorelei exclaimed with exaggerated innocence. Rory arched her eyebrow. "Ok so I was. But you've been all mopey lately. Well not ALL mopey. SOmetimes you'd be really happy and then you'd go back to being mopey!!" Rory laughed.
"It's ok mom, it's just been a weird couple weeks for me. I do need to talk with you about it though." At this lorelei got really excited.
"Ooh, girl talk!! You stay here and get comfortable while I get popcorn and coffee!!" Rory shook her head, laughing at her mom's antics.
Finally Lorelei returned bowl and mug in hand. She set both down so she got get to the task of getting comfortable on the couch. "OK, so what's the what??" Rory launched into her story, by the end her mom looked thoughtful.
"Why is this so confusing?? That's where you lost me."
"There's no way for me to make a decision!!" Rory exclaimed.
"Why not??" Lorelei looked perplexed.
"Because I can't trust myself. I mean I have Dean who loves me so much and he's great, but then there's Tristan, who exciting and challenging. Aggravating all the same but definetly exciting. The problem is that he shouldn't even be a choice at all!! I mean 1, he tormented me all last year and made my life hell and 2, he's at military school!! I don't even know if I'll ever see him again!!" Rory was starting to get hysterical. Lorelei quickly put down the popcorn and wrapped her arms around her daughter who was now sobbing. "I c-can't trust m-myself because what if I make the wrong decision? I don't know what I'd do!!"
"Hey calm down. Just do what your heart says. It'll be hard but in th end it will be the right choice."
"Thanks mom. I just wish that there was something to make this easier."
"I know hun, I know." Lorelei let her eyes scan the living room, where they sat. She noticed an envelope poking out from underneath a pile of magazines. She slapped her head.
"What's wrong?"
"Well I might have something to help your decision." Slowly she reached for the letter. "Tristan did get sent to military school in North Carolina didn't he?"
"Yeah he did. Why?" Asked Rory, getting suspicious.
"Well you might have gotten a letter a couple days ago from him." Rory gasped in shock. In Lorelei's hand was indeed a letter from Tristan.
"Mom!! Why didn't you give the to me sooner?"
"Well when you got it you were in serious mopey mod, so I put it on the coffee table. I wanted to make some coffee, but the coffee machine wasn't working-"
"Plugging it in helps."
"Quiet you. As I was saying, so then I had to go to Lukes but Lo he wouldn't give me any.. Then came the inevitable argument followed by begging and a steaming mug full of coffee. Then when I came home we decided to watch movies."
"So basically you forgot."
"Just kinda." Lorelei replied sheepishly.
"Well thanks for remembering now. The only problem is that i don't know if I can do this." Her mom patted her shoulder.
"Take all the time you need. I'm gonna look over some stuff for the inn so I'll leave you alone." As she stood up she kissed Rory on the forehead. "Just remember, let your heart decide.
"THanks mom." Lorelei smiled, and continued onto the kitchen.
Rory sat silently tracing her fingers over the address. Mustering up her courage she flipped it over. Though she was nervous she couldn't help but laugh as she saw that MARY had been carefully srawled on the back of the envelope.
Her hands began to tremble as she moved to open the letter. *Breathe Rory. You can do this. It's just a letter. Just calm down and breathe.* With that though planted firmly in her head she tore open the envelope.
End Part 3, Can't Trust Myself.
AN: I know that was a bad place to end, but I was writing this at midnight and my idea ran out.