Title: Forsaken
Author: Akima The Stampede Maxwell
Date begun: March 30, 2002
Anime: where does Knives and the gang come from?....oh yeah! Trigun!!!! What about Dryden and Millerna?....Escaflowne
Pairings: no comment
Rating: NR for some REALLY suggestive themes and Knivishness…and SEXUALITY!!! AHHHH!!!
Disclaimers: nope. Own none of them.
***Yo! Tis me! This chapter is shorter probably than the rest b/c I felt that there had to be an angsty chapter for Knives and Meryl where they…tehe! You shall see. I do not write graphic scenes right now. This is why it is rated PG-13. Anyways…read on and enjoy! My other chapters really should end up being longer but I keep getting brainstorms. I may finish it sooner than I thought. Enjoy! Enjoy!
Chapter 15: Two Hearts Connect
Meryl recovered pretty quickly from the near choking. She remained relatively quiet. She only spoke when someone asked her something or the situation called for it. Knives was about the same way. Despite his obvious attempt to avoid Meryl they knew better. He watched her constantly. He followed her when she went anywhere. When confronted about it he would say that he was just walking around. Vash knew better. Milly knew better. Legato knew better. Hell….they all knew better. Now it was only a matter of time before they would finally admit it. Unfortunately Knives said that he would be leaving again. He said that he was going after Fenris alone and that they should make sure Meryl is safe. She became upset. She decided that maybe now was a good time to tell him…
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Knives put his hand on the doorknob to his room.
"Knives, can I talk to you?" Meryl asked as she placed her hand on his back. He flinched then he smirked.
"What about?"
"Please…"
"Come in."
He walked in followed closely by Meryl. He sat on the bed. Meryl took a seat behind him. She put her back against his and sighed.
"So what did you want to say?" Knives said, breaking the silence of the room. Meryl took a deep breath.
"…Since we`ve been apart I…I`ve felt even lonelier than I ever had before. I was with more people but I still felt it. I thought that it would eat me up inside…until you showed up yesterday. Before then I`ve been thinking…about you."
Knives did not say anything. He remained silent.
"I never could do this with Vash. I…I think that I`m in love with you."
She reached over and placed her hand over his which was planted at his side. She cupped her fingers around his hand. She let go and turned around. She wrapped her arms around him and ran her fingers along his chest. She laid her head against his back and closed her eyes. She kissed the back of his neck. She felt his hand come up and grab a hold of her right hand. He pushed her hand away and did the same to the other hand. He stood up. She yelped as she fell back. He turned to face her. His eyes were wide. The look of confusion scared Meryl.
"Knives…say something."
"…Do me a favor and don`t love me."
Meryl blinked in surprise. She felt her heart breaking.
"You hardly know me. You have become foolishly obsessed with me." he continued "I killed a lot of people. I would of killed you…I could still kill you right now."
"…You won`t shoot me."
He pulled out his gun and pointed it at her. They stared at eachother. His hand shook. He dropped the gun. His lips twitched. She took a step towards him. When he did not back up she took another step the another until she stood in front of him. She embraced him.
"How can you say that you don`t feel something for me when you can`t even shoot me?"
She felt one of his hands come up and rest on her back.
"You would be in danger, you know….all the time. People are beginning to hear things about me. Vash and I will soon have the same bounties on our heads. You are not the type of person to be able to travel around without settling down. I do not want to settle like a human. How could you handle that?"
"I don`t care. I don`t care as long as I`m with you."
Knives pushed her roughly away. His face twisted into agitation. Every excuse he threw at her only proved to make her more desperate. He shook his fist at her.
"Have you not been listening to me?! I said that you would be in danger! I`m already wanted! I should be travelling alone! You`ll just get in the way!"
"No I won`t! I have powers too! I`m like Fenris! I could handle myself! Maybe I`ll be wanted too then it won`t matter! We can be together…as partners!"
"What are you saying?! You want to be pursued for the rest of your life?! I can deal with that but you have friends that care about you and need you! Stay with them! You have no place next to someone like me! I hate to say it but Vash would be a better choice than me."
Meryl`s eyes watered. Knives averted his eyes. He did not understand why this girl was in love with him and he did not like the feeling he got thinking about that.
"Just don`t think about me anymore. Forget about me. I`m not the one for you. I`m not the kind of guy who would be the romantic type. You would be miserable."
Meryl left the room with tears running down her cheeks. Knives stood where he was. A single tear fell from his eyes. He wiped it away angrily.
`Damn it!`
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Vash and Dryden grinned at eachother as they collapsed onto the floor of the hotel lobby. The person behind the counter ran over to them. He handed them a glass of water.
"Are you guys okay?"
"Yeah. We just spent a couple of days walking through the desert. No biggie." Vash said as he lapped up the water. Dryden had already finished his. The man running the desk signed them in. They went up to their room. Vash plopped down on his bed.
"Man, I could sleep forever!"
"You said it!"
Dryden sat down on his bed.
"Hey, Vash?"
"What?"
"What do you think that Knives was doing on that airship?"
Vash`s face went serious.
"I`m not sure. I wish that we had caught up to him."
"Where do you think that he was going?"
"Knowing him he probably was just travelling around. Maybe we should have just stayed on the airship and left him alone."
"Maybe."
"We should get some rest. We have a lot of ground to cover tommorow."
Dryden agreed.
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Wolfwood sat down beside Millerna and Legato at the table. He pulled out a cigarette. He lit it up and puffed a couple of times.
"Any luck?"
"No. No one around here has heard of Fenris…at least nothing they are willing to talk about." Millerna said under her breath. Legato said nothing. He noticed Meryl walk by in the hallway. She stopped when she locked eyes with him. He smiled at her.
`Good luck.` he said to her in his mind and directing it towards her. She smiled back then continued on.
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Meryl opened Knives` door slowly. She did not see him as she closed the door behind her. She sat down on the bed and faced the window.
"What are you doing here? Did you not think about what I told you?"
She jumped at his voice. She turned around. She quickled backed up off of the bed. His eyes were glowing.
"…I…wanted to come see you. I also wanted to ask why you`re leaving me again."
"Being around Vash and the disasters he brought along made you too emotional."
She felt the tears spill out again. She trembled.
"Knives…if you are leaving then I can`t stop you but…I…I want you to…."
His eyes narrowed.
"To what?"
"I want you to…with me…"
Knives` eyes stopped glowing. A dead silence filled the room. He stepped out of the shadows. His face was strangely calm.
"Do you know what you are giving up? What if you never see me again? You humans…human types are so easily affected by your emotions…especially affection."
"Then I still got to have you here this one time. Please…for me. Even if I never see you again…we will have this one moment though I am still not sure if you feel the same way."
Knives walked up to her. Meryl felt her cheeks flush as he put a hand against her cheek. He moved his hand to her shoulder. He seemed to be contemplating carefully what she was asking. He met her eyes in a quiet gaze.
"Come on. Don`t be afraid. You and Vash are the last people I would intentionally hurt."
He lead her over to the bed. He pushed her gently down. He crawled over to her. She trembled when his face was only about an inch away from her own.
"Are you sure that you want this?"
"…Yes."
He leaned forward and kissed her. She could not do much else but sit in awe. He stopped. He glared at her with frustration.
"You ask me for this…practically beg me and now you are just going to sit there?"
Meryl trembled violently. He sat back. He looked her over.
"You are not ready."
"…I…I need to hear that you care about me."
He raised an eyebrow.
"Why?"
"I can`t feel comfortable until you say it."
"Do you know who you are talking to?"
Meryl looked away from him. He crept forward again. He kissed her more fiercely this time. Meryl gave in. She closed her eyes and kissed him back. She did not object when both of their clothes started coming off. All she thought about was how gentle he was being and that she felt more comfortable as the night drifted on.
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Knives sat awake in bed with Meryl beside him sleeping soundly. She had her arms wrapped around his waist. He stared off to the other side of the room. He reached down and unwrapped her arms from around his waist. He stood up. He walked and stood in front of the window completely nude. He looked out. The sun would be coming up soon. He looked back at Meryl. His eyes softened for a moment then went back to indifference. He collected his clothing from around the room. He put them on. He grabbed his gun from next to the table. He stopped. His eyes once again fell on Meryl. He put his hand against her cheek then put the gun in his holster.
"I`ll be back." he said. He left.
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Legato smiled as he stood across from the hotel. Knives stopped when he noticed him.
"What are you doing out here?"
"Fresh air…and I was just thinking about how you gave into that girl."
"She wanted me to do it. She would have kept whining about it anyways."
He got on the bike he had bought yesterday. Wolfwood got his bike back. Legato went up to stand against it. He grinned wider.
"You don`t have to be so uptight. She is not human anyways so it fits better. It`s not like you have to act like you don`t have feelings for her."
"When did you turn local?"
"Since being resurrected. That second chance can make a difference. Trust me. I wouldn`t just leave her like this."
"You are not me so I will ignore that."
"What if something happens to her? What would you do?"
Knives grabbed him by the collar. His eyes glowed.
"Don`t you ever say that again! Nothing will happen to her…do you understand?!"
Legato only smiled. Knives` eyes went back to normal.
"Just to make sure of that I want you to look after her. Make sure she is always safe."
Legato smiled wider. Knives let go of him. He started up the bike and left.
"I will not allow anything to happen to her." he said aloud as Knives disappeared.
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Meryl woke to find that Knives was not there as she had hoped. She sighed.
`I didn`t expect him to be here anyways.`
The door opened and Wolfwood walked in. He was about to say something when he noticed that her clothing was strewn all over the floor. He made eye contact with her. Meryl felt her cheeks flush when she realized that he knew what happened considering this was Knives` room.
"Uh…I can explain…" she began. Wolfwood sat beside her on the bed. He looked at her.
"You don`t need to explain. I can already figure out what happened here anyways."
Meryl smiled nervously.
"However…" he continued "I am more concerned about what will happen now. Now that he left are you at all upset that he would just up and leave? You had to have known that he was going to leave today."
"I did. I wanted this. I asked him to do this. He didn`t force me. He wouldn`t have done it if I hadn`t of pushed him. I am very happy that this happened…even if his heart was not really into it."
"Do you think that it was?"
"….He was very gentle with me. There had to have been something there."
Wolfwood got up.
"Wolfwood?"
"Hmmm?"
"Please don`t tell anyone right now. Now is not the time for this to be spoken of. It could cause complications with how they act around me….especially Vash."
"I promise that I won`t tell."
"Thank you."
"No problem…but I hate keeping secrets."
"Don`t worry. I`m sure that they will make the assumption later or I`ll end up blurting it out."
Wolfwood smiled.
"May the Lord bless you two."
Meryl got up with the sheet wrapped around her. She hugged Wolfwood.
"I`m so glad that you didn`t die. You are such a good friend."
"Hey! I`m glad that I didn`t die either! I hate small places!"
Meryl laughed. Wolfwood put a hand on her shoulder.
"I`ll see you downstairs."
"Okay."
Meryl watched Wolfwood leave. She shut the door behind him. She leaned up against the door. She felt the warm tears run down her cheeks. She smiled through her tears.
`Knives…thank you.`
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Knives stopped the bike at an oasis about a mile from the town. He jumped off of the bike. He stood against the bike. He stared off at the town.
`You better look after her.` he said in his mind with a threatening tone.
`You know that I will.` Legato replied.
`I`m counting on you.`
`I know.`
`Legato, I…`
`Do not apologize. I understand why you sent me to my death. You were confused. I am alive now so let us put the past behind us.`
Knives did not say anything to that. He got back on the bike and drove away.
*He`s leaving again…but this time Meryl knows that he cares about her. Isn`t love grand?(Wow. I`m being corny.) I hope you enjoy this installment!
Author: Akima The Stampede Maxwell
Date begun: March 30, 2002
Anime: where does Knives and the gang come from?....oh yeah! Trigun!!!! What about Dryden and Millerna?....Escaflowne
Pairings: no comment
Rating: NR for some REALLY suggestive themes and Knivishness…and SEXUALITY!!! AHHHH!!!
Disclaimers: nope. Own none of them.
***Yo! Tis me! This chapter is shorter probably than the rest b/c I felt that there had to be an angsty chapter for Knives and Meryl where they…tehe! You shall see. I do not write graphic scenes right now. This is why it is rated PG-13. Anyways…read on and enjoy! My other chapters really should end up being longer but I keep getting brainstorms. I may finish it sooner than I thought. Enjoy! Enjoy!
Chapter 15: Two Hearts Connect
Meryl recovered pretty quickly from the near choking. She remained relatively quiet. She only spoke when someone asked her something or the situation called for it. Knives was about the same way. Despite his obvious attempt to avoid Meryl they knew better. He watched her constantly. He followed her when she went anywhere. When confronted about it he would say that he was just walking around. Vash knew better. Milly knew better. Legato knew better. Hell….they all knew better. Now it was only a matter of time before they would finally admit it. Unfortunately Knives said that he would be leaving again. He said that he was going after Fenris alone and that they should make sure Meryl is safe. She became upset. She decided that maybe now was a good time to tell him…
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Knives put his hand on the doorknob to his room.
"Knives, can I talk to you?" Meryl asked as she placed her hand on his back. He flinched then he smirked.
"What about?"
"Please…"
"Come in."
He walked in followed closely by Meryl. He sat on the bed. Meryl took a seat behind him. She put her back against his and sighed.
"So what did you want to say?" Knives said, breaking the silence of the room. Meryl took a deep breath.
"…Since we`ve been apart I…I`ve felt even lonelier than I ever had before. I was with more people but I still felt it. I thought that it would eat me up inside…until you showed up yesterday. Before then I`ve been thinking…about you."
Knives did not say anything. He remained silent.
"I never could do this with Vash. I…I think that I`m in love with you."
She reached over and placed her hand over his which was planted at his side. She cupped her fingers around his hand. She let go and turned around. She wrapped her arms around him and ran her fingers along his chest. She laid her head against his back and closed her eyes. She kissed the back of his neck. She felt his hand come up and grab a hold of her right hand. He pushed her hand away and did the same to the other hand. He stood up. She yelped as she fell back. He turned to face her. His eyes were wide. The look of confusion scared Meryl.
"Knives…say something."
"…Do me a favor and don`t love me."
Meryl blinked in surprise. She felt her heart breaking.
"You hardly know me. You have become foolishly obsessed with me." he continued "I killed a lot of people. I would of killed you…I could still kill you right now."
"…You won`t shoot me."
He pulled out his gun and pointed it at her. They stared at eachother. His hand shook. He dropped the gun. His lips twitched. She took a step towards him. When he did not back up she took another step the another until she stood in front of him. She embraced him.
"How can you say that you don`t feel something for me when you can`t even shoot me?"
She felt one of his hands come up and rest on her back.
"You would be in danger, you know….all the time. People are beginning to hear things about me. Vash and I will soon have the same bounties on our heads. You are not the type of person to be able to travel around without settling down. I do not want to settle like a human. How could you handle that?"
"I don`t care. I don`t care as long as I`m with you."
Knives pushed her roughly away. His face twisted into agitation. Every excuse he threw at her only proved to make her more desperate. He shook his fist at her.
"Have you not been listening to me?! I said that you would be in danger! I`m already wanted! I should be travelling alone! You`ll just get in the way!"
"No I won`t! I have powers too! I`m like Fenris! I could handle myself! Maybe I`ll be wanted too then it won`t matter! We can be together…as partners!"
"What are you saying?! You want to be pursued for the rest of your life?! I can deal with that but you have friends that care about you and need you! Stay with them! You have no place next to someone like me! I hate to say it but Vash would be a better choice than me."
Meryl`s eyes watered. Knives averted his eyes. He did not understand why this girl was in love with him and he did not like the feeling he got thinking about that.
"Just don`t think about me anymore. Forget about me. I`m not the one for you. I`m not the kind of guy who would be the romantic type. You would be miserable."
Meryl left the room with tears running down her cheeks. Knives stood where he was. A single tear fell from his eyes. He wiped it away angrily.
`Damn it!`
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Vash and Dryden grinned at eachother as they collapsed onto the floor of the hotel lobby. The person behind the counter ran over to them. He handed them a glass of water.
"Are you guys okay?"
"Yeah. We just spent a couple of days walking through the desert. No biggie." Vash said as he lapped up the water. Dryden had already finished his. The man running the desk signed them in. They went up to their room. Vash plopped down on his bed.
"Man, I could sleep forever!"
"You said it!"
Dryden sat down on his bed.
"Hey, Vash?"
"What?"
"What do you think that Knives was doing on that airship?"
Vash`s face went serious.
"I`m not sure. I wish that we had caught up to him."
"Where do you think that he was going?"
"Knowing him he probably was just travelling around. Maybe we should have just stayed on the airship and left him alone."
"Maybe."
"We should get some rest. We have a lot of ground to cover tommorow."
Dryden agreed.
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Wolfwood sat down beside Millerna and Legato at the table. He pulled out a cigarette. He lit it up and puffed a couple of times.
"Any luck?"
"No. No one around here has heard of Fenris…at least nothing they are willing to talk about." Millerna said under her breath. Legato said nothing. He noticed Meryl walk by in the hallway. She stopped when she locked eyes with him. He smiled at her.
`Good luck.` he said to her in his mind and directing it towards her. She smiled back then continued on.
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Meryl opened Knives` door slowly. She did not see him as she closed the door behind her. She sat down on the bed and faced the window.
"What are you doing here? Did you not think about what I told you?"
She jumped at his voice. She turned around. She quickled backed up off of the bed. His eyes were glowing.
"…I…wanted to come see you. I also wanted to ask why you`re leaving me again."
"Being around Vash and the disasters he brought along made you too emotional."
She felt the tears spill out again. She trembled.
"Knives…if you are leaving then I can`t stop you but…I…I want you to…."
His eyes narrowed.
"To what?"
"I want you to…with me…"
Knives` eyes stopped glowing. A dead silence filled the room. He stepped out of the shadows. His face was strangely calm.
"Do you know what you are giving up? What if you never see me again? You humans…human types are so easily affected by your emotions…especially affection."
"Then I still got to have you here this one time. Please…for me. Even if I never see you again…we will have this one moment though I am still not sure if you feel the same way."
Knives walked up to her. Meryl felt her cheeks flush as he put a hand against her cheek. He moved his hand to her shoulder. He seemed to be contemplating carefully what she was asking. He met her eyes in a quiet gaze.
"Come on. Don`t be afraid. You and Vash are the last people I would intentionally hurt."
He lead her over to the bed. He pushed her gently down. He crawled over to her. She trembled when his face was only about an inch away from her own.
"Are you sure that you want this?"
"…Yes."
He leaned forward and kissed her. She could not do much else but sit in awe. He stopped. He glared at her with frustration.
"You ask me for this…practically beg me and now you are just going to sit there?"
Meryl trembled violently. He sat back. He looked her over.
"You are not ready."
"…I…I need to hear that you care about me."
He raised an eyebrow.
"Why?"
"I can`t feel comfortable until you say it."
"Do you know who you are talking to?"
Meryl looked away from him. He crept forward again. He kissed her more fiercely this time. Meryl gave in. She closed her eyes and kissed him back. She did not object when both of their clothes started coming off. All she thought about was how gentle he was being and that she felt more comfortable as the night drifted on.
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Knives sat awake in bed with Meryl beside him sleeping soundly. She had her arms wrapped around his waist. He stared off to the other side of the room. He reached down and unwrapped her arms from around his waist. He stood up. He walked and stood in front of the window completely nude. He looked out. The sun would be coming up soon. He looked back at Meryl. His eyes softened for a moment then went back to indifference. He collected his clothing from around the room. He put them on. He grabbed his gun from next to the table. He stopped. His eyes once again fell on Meryl. He put his hand against her cheek then put the gun in his holster.
"I`ll be back." he said. He left.
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Legato smiled as he stood across from the hotel. Knives stopped when he noticed him.
"What are you doing out here?"
"Fresh air…and I was just thinking about how you gave into that girl."
"She wanted me to do it. She would have kept whining about it anyways."
He got on the bike he had bought yesterday. Wolfwood got his bike back. Legato went up to stand against it. He grinned wider.
"You don`t have to be so uptight. She is not human anyways so it fits better. It`s not like you have to act like you don`t have feelings for her."
"When did you turn local?"
"Since being resurrected. That second chance can make a difference. Trust me. I wouldn`t just leave her like this."
"You are not me so I will ignore that."
"What if something happens to her? What would you do?"
Knives grabbed him by the collar. His eyes glowed.
"Don`t you ever say that again! Nothing will happen to her…do you understand?!"
Legato only smiled. Knives` eyes went back to normal.
"Just to make sure of that I want you to look after her. Make sure she is always safe."
Legato smiled wider. Knives let go of him. He started up the bike and left.
"I will not allow anything to happen to her." he said aloud as Knives disappeared.
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Meryl woke to find that Knives was not there as she had hoped. She sighed.
`I didn`t expect him to be here anyways.`
The door opened and Wolfwood walked in. He was about to say something when he noticed that her clothing was strewn all over the floor. He made eye contact with her. Meryl felt her cheeks flush when she realized that he knew what happened considering this was Knives` room.
"Uh…I can explain…" she began. Wolfwood sat beside her on the bed. He looked at her.
"You don`t need to explain. I can already figure out what happened here anyways."
Meryl smiled nervously.
"However…" he continued "I am more concerned about what will happen now. Now that he left are you at all upset that he would just up and leave? You had to have known that he was going to leave today."
"I did. I wanted this. I asked him to do this. He didn`t force me. He wouldn`t have done it if I hadn`t of pushed him. I am very happy that this happened…even if his heart was not really into it."
"Do you think that it was?"
"….He was very gentle with me. There had to have been something there."
Wolfwood got up.
"Wolfwood?"
"Hmmm?"
"Please don`t tell anyone right now. Now is not the time for this to be spoken of. It could cause complications with how they act around me….especially Vash."
"I promise that I won`t tell."
"Thank you."
"No problem…but I hate keeping secrets."
"Don`t worry. I`m sure that they will make the assumption later or I`ll end up blurting it out."
Wolfwood smiled.
"May the Lord bless you two."
Meryl got up with the sheet wrapped around her. She hugged Wolfwood.
"I`m so glad that you didn`t die. You are such a good friend."
"Hey! I`m glad that I didn`t die either! I hate small places!"
Meryl laughed. Wolfwood put a hand on her shoulder.
"I`ll see you downstairs."
"Okay."
Meryl watched Wolfwood leave. She shut the door behind him. She leaned up against the door. She felt the warm tears run down her cheeks. She smiled through her tears.
`Knives…thank you.`
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Knives stopped the bike at an oasis about a mile from the town. He jumped off of the bike. He stood against the bike. He stared off at the town.
`You better look after her.` he said in his mind with a threatening tone.
`You know that I will.` Legato replied.
`I`m counting on you.`
`I know.`
`Legato, I…`
`Do not apologize. I understand why you sent me to my death. You were confused. I am alive now so let us put the past behind us.`
Knives did not say anything to that. He got back on the bike and drove away.
*He`s leaving again…but this time Meryl knows that he cares about her. Isn`t love grand?(Wow. I`m being corny.) I hope you enjoy this installment!