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Leigh got out of the car slowly, she looked around, everything seemed to be the same. Slowly she walked towards the house. She saw a chip in the paint on the wall, she cringed when she remembered why it was there. Slowly she made her way to her bedroom, she had to move slowly- it was all she was capable of.
"You want me to bring you anything?" Coach asked
Leigh just shook her head and continued on to her room. She heard someone walk in behind her, no doubt it was Gerry. He sat down on the bed as she looked in the mirror, studying herself for any differences. She sighed. Nothings changed.
"It'll be ok." Gerry promised.
"I've heard that one so many times, I'm beginning to think it's a curse." Leigh sits gingerly on the bed.
"That's not the Leigh I know." Gerry moves closer to her.
"That Leigh is gone." She answers looking out the window.
"I want you to be happy."
"I want you to be happy too…….why? Gerry why are you still with me?" Leigh asks cautiously
"Because I love you, and you're sweet and amazing, and beautiful and funny, that's why."
"I haven't done anything since I came here except cause trouble. I tried to leave, that's why I came back here today to get my things. I can't do anything right, I screw up everyone's lives…….this isn't life, it's torture." Leigh says listlessly
"How can you say that, you mean so much to me, to your family, the guys-"
"What family?" Leigh cuts in "Coach and Cheryl aren't my real family, a cousin and an uncle, my dad well….that's pretty self-explanatory."
"What about your mom?" Gerry asks gingerly
"My mom……." She takes a deep breath "My mom saw my dad in one drunken rage and he hit her once and she took off and never even looked back."
"So she left you alone with your father? And just took off by herself" Gerry asks surprised
"No she took off and left me some cash and said she'd be back." Leigh snaps "She said she had to make a life before she tore up mine…..She tore up my life that second she walked out of that door."
"You said coach is like your father."
"Yea exactly, he is LIKE my father, he's not my father though."
"I think you need to count your blessings and see how truly blessed you are, you have a lot going for you. Sleep on it." Gerry says softly as he kisses her then walks out of her room.
"He doesn't know crap." Leigh mutters as she flounces onto her bed. She sees a newspaper sticking out from under her bed, she had to look up current events last week. She picked up the paper and saw a story about a girl who had committed suicide in the next town over, the girl took a bottle of pills and cut her wrist. Leigh flinched that had to hurt.
Leigh put down the paper and walked into the bathroom, she had no control over her life, she opened the cabinet and saw a razor in there she took hold of it playing with it between her fingers. She sat on the floor thinking to herself……..
A minute later Leigh stood up and put the razor back in the closet, flushed the toilet, brushed her teeth then went back into her room. Strangely enough a sense of relief ran through her.
The next morning Leigh left her room, she skipped breakfast and left a note saying she left early for school. She felt light as anything inside and didn't even notice the chip in the paint on the wall.
Leigh made it to school in record time and saw Coach Boone on his way in, he nodded a hello but kept moving. Leigh looked up at the school, suddenly it seemed to big. She pulled out the apple she had brought with her and ate it quickly enough. A sinking feeling came over to her as she hurried to find the nearest bathroom.
"Leigh hey! How you doing today? I didn't think you'd be in school today from what Sunshine told me." Dana announced as she approached Leigh's locker.
"I'm feeling better." Leigh smiled
"You look a little pale is you ask me" Dana replied in a motherly tone. "Did you get any sleep last night?"
"Yes" Leigh answered
"How about something to eat…did you eat?"
"Oh course I did. Do you think I'd starve myself over something like this? I can't let this get to me….besides Gerry was right…I just needed to think about all of my blessings."
"Good, cause I think it's time you got your life together, all this stuff happening to you….only good can come out of it now right?"
"Let's hope so." Leigh agrees
"Here's something that will brighten your day now." Dana nods her head Leigh turns and sees Gerry and Sunshine walking over.
"Hey there." Leigh slings her arms around Gerry's neck.
"Hey yourself….feeling better?"
"As a matter of fact I am"
"Watch out last time she felt better she ran away." Sunshine jokes
"I'm not going anywhere." Leigh smiles giving Gerry a kiss
"Good cause I wouldn't let you go anywhere." He replies kissing her back.
"You want to go out tonight?" Leigh asks taking hold of Gerry's hand
"Like where? Dinner?"
"No like driving around, just doing nothing at all."
"You really are feeling better." Gerry laughs "All right, I'll pick you up at 6."
"It's a date." Leigh turns back to her locker. "Later Sunshine."
"Later" Sunshine called as Leigh went off with Dana to their next class.
"She's happy." Sunshine comments to Gerry.
"I know, you don't think she's going to snap again and run away do you?"
"Let's hope not." Sunshine says as they go to class.
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"Hey Julius" Leigh smiles as she plops down next to him on the grass that day at practice where he is stretching out.
"So it's true after all, Leigh is up and about." He jokes with her.
"Not to mention ready willing and as strong as ever." She smiled back.
"So you're really ok?" Julius asks in a more serious tone.
"Getting there. Gerry's right about my needing to count my blessings I mean without Coach or Cheryl even you guys I'd be lost. But I don't know if the fact that both of my parents completely deserted me will ever leave me, I have to live with that forever."
"So do they. They're the ones that gave you up. Their loss."
"I know." Leigh smiles and looks down thoughtfully
Coach Yoast is standing in the background with Coach Boone, they both heard everything. Boone pats Yoast on the back. "She's a smart girl, you obviously did something right."
"Well somebody did." Yoast agrees as they walk onto the field.
"Hey coach." Leigh calls jogging over to him. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry for everything, and thank you." She says softly
"Why are you apologizing? Nothing is your fault."
"Everything happened because I came here, no matter where I could have been it probably would of happened, but it happened here and affected both yours and Cheryl's lives and you guys have put up with so much and still haven't kicked me out, so just wanted to say thanks." Leigh walks away before Yoast could get a word in edgewise.
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Later that night Leigh sat in Gerry's car, she silently thought about the day, she felt so much better more alive and in control she finally had stability over something in life. She couldn't tell anyone though, they wouldn't understand. They would think that she thought she was fat or something and she knew better then that. 114 pounds was nothing to complain about. No one would understand, she told herself. She threw up 3 times today, and once last night. It's no big deal though, she would make sure she didn't do anything stupid enough to get into another hospital and she's be fine.
"What's on your mind?" Gerry interrupted her thoughts
"Stability" She answers
"What about it?" He asks not taking his eyes off the road.
"I finally have some in my life."
"So that's a good thing then."
"Yes, a very good thing."
"Good, then I'm happy for you and to celebrate…." Gerry swung into a parking lot. "Look"
Leigh leaned forward in her seat and saw they were at a quiet park overlooking the town. She gasps "This was where we had our first official date."
Gerry smiles "And our first kiss." He leans over to kiss her.
Leigh smiles and lays in Gerry's arms as he strokes her hair, listening to his voice tell her about his day. *Maybe I got more stability in my life then I thought* She thinks to herself, realizing how great the day was.
To be continued….soon please R&R and no I'm not letting the bulimia thing slip by unnoticed you'll see….lol
Leigh got out of the car slowly, she looked around, everything seemed to be the same. Slowly she walked towards the house. She saw a chip in the paint on the wall, she cringed when she remembered why it was there. Slowly she made her way to her bedroom, she had to move slowly- it was all she was capable of.
"You want me to bring you anything?" Coach asked
Leigh just shook her head and continued on to her room. She heard someone walk in behind her, no doubt it was Gerry. He sat down on the bed as she looked in the mirror, studying herself for any differences. She sighed. Nothings changed.
"It'll be ok." Gerry promised.
"I've heard that one so many times, I'm beginning to think it's a curse." Leigh sits gingerly on the bed.
"That's not the Leigh I know." Gerry moves closer to her.
"That Leigh is gone." She answers looking out the window.
"I want you to be happy."
"I want you to be happy too…….why? Gerry why are you still with me?" Leigh asks cautiously
"Because I love you, and you're sweet and amazing, and beautiful and funny, that's why."
"I haven't done anything since I came here except cause trouble. I tried to leave, that's why I came back here today to get my things. I can't do anything right, I screw up everyone's lives…….this isn't life, it's torture." Leigh says listlessly
"How can you say that, you mean so much to me, to your family, the guys-"
"What family?" Leigh cuts in "Coach and Cheryl aren't my real family, a cousin and an uncle, my dad well….that's pretty self-explanatory."
"What about your mom?" Gerry asks gingerly
"My mom……." She takes a deep breath "My mom saw my dad in one drunken rage and he hit her once and she took off and never even looked back."
"So she left you alone with your father? And just took off by herself" Gerry asks surprised
"No she took off and left me some cash and said she'd be back." Leigh snaps "She said she had to make a life before she tore up mine…..She tore up my life that second she walked out of that door."
"You said coach is like your father."
"Yea exactly, he is LIKE my father, he's not my father though."
"I think you need to count your blessings and see how truly blessed you are, you have a lot going for you. Sleep on it." Gerry says softly as he kisses her then walks out of her room.
"He doesn't know crap." Leigh mutters as she flounces onto her bed. She sees a newspaper sticking out from under her bed, she had to look up current events last week. She picked up the paper and saw a story about a girl who had committed suicide in the next town over, the girl took a bottle of pills and cut her wrist. Leigh flinched that had to hurt.
Leigh put down the paper and walked into the bathroom, she had no control over her life, she opened the cabinet and saw a razor in there she took hold of it playing with it between her fingers. She sat on the floor thinking to herself……..
A minute later Leigh stood up and put the razor back in the closet, flushed the toilet, brushed her teeth then went back into her room. Strangely enough a sense of relief ran through her.
The next morning Leigh left her room, she skipped breakfast and left a note saying she left early for school. She felt light as anything inside and didn't even notice the chip in the paint on the wall.
Leigh made it to school in record time and saw Coach Boone on his way in, he nodded a hello but kept moving. Leigh looked up at the school, suddenly it seemed to big. She pulled out the apple she had brought with her and ate it quickly enough. A sinking feeling came over to her as she hurried to find the nearest bathroom.
"Leigh hey! How you doing today? I didn't think you'd be in school today from what Sunshine told me." Dana announced as she approached Leigh's locker.
"I'm feeling better." Leigh smiled
"You look a little pale is you ask me" Dana replied in a motherly tone. "Did you get any sleep last night?"
"Yes" Leigh answered
"How about something to eat…did you eat?"
"Oh course I did. Do you think I'd starve myself over something like this? I can't let this get to me….besides Gerry was right…I just needed to think about all of my blessings."
"Good, cause I think it's time you got your life together, all this stuff happening to you….only good can come out of it now right?"
"Let's hope so." Leigh agrees
"Here's something that will brighten your day now." Dana nods her head Leigh turns and sees Gerry and Sunshine walking over.
"Hey there." Leigh slings her arms around Gerry's neck.
"Hey yourself….feeling better?"
"As a matter of fact I am"
"Watch out last time she felt better she ran away." Sunshine jokes
"I'm not going anywhere." Leigh smiles giving Gerry a kiss
"Good cause I wouldn't let you go anywhere." He replies kissing her back.
"You want to go out tonight?" Leigh asks taking hold of Gerry's hand
"Like where? Dinner?"
"No like driving around, just doing nothing at all."
"You really are feeling better." Gerry laughs "All right, I'll pick you up at 6."
"It's a date." Leigh turns back to her locker. "Later Sunshine."
"Later" Sunshine called as Leigh went off with Dana to their next class.
"She's happy." Sunshine comments to Gerry.
"I know, you don't think she's going to snap again and run away do you?"
"Let's hope not." Sunshine says as they go to class.
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"Hey Julius" Leigh smiles as she plops down next to him on the grass that day at practice where he is stretching out.
"So it's true after all, Leigh is up and about." He jokes with her.
"Not to mention ready willing and as strong as ever." She smiled back.
"So you're really ok?" Julius asks in a more serious tone.
"Getting there. Gerry's right about my needing to count my blessings I mean without Coach or Cheryl even you guys I'd be lost. But I don't know if the fact that both of my parents completely deserted me will ever leave me, I have to live with that forever."
"So do they. They're the ones that gave you up. Their loss."
"I know." Leigh smiles and looks down thoughtfully
Coach Yoast is standing in the background with Coach Boone, they both heard everything. Boone pats Yoast on the back. "She's a smart girl, you obviously did something right."
"Well somebody did." Yoast agrees as they walk onto the field.
"Hey coach." Leigh calls jogging over to him. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry for everything, and thank you." She says softly
"Why are you apologizing? Nothing is your fault."
"Everything happened because I came here, no matter where I could have been it probably would of happened, but it happened here and affected both yours and Cheryl's lives and you guys have put up with so much and still haven't kicked me out, so just wanted to say thanks." Leigh walks away before Yoast could get a word in edgewise.
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Later that night Leigh sat in Gerry's car, she silently thought about the day, she felt so much better more alive and in control she finally had stability over something in life. She couldn't tell anyone though, they wouldn't understand. They would think that she thought she was fat or something and she knew better then that. 114 pounds was nothing to complain about. No one would understand, she told herself. She threw up 3 times today, and once last night. It's no big deal though, she would make sure she didn't do anything stupid enough to get into another hospital and she's be fine.
"What's on your mind?" Gerry interrupted her thoughts
"Stability" She answers
"What about it?" He asks not taking his eyes off the road.
"I finally have some in my life."
"So that's a good thing then."
"Yes, a very good thing."
"Good, then I'm happy for you and to celebrate…." Gerry swung into a parking lot. "Look"
Leigh leaned forward in her seat and saw they were at a quiet park overlooking the town. She gasps "This was where we had our first official date."
Gerry smiles "And our first kiss." He leans over to kiss her.
Leigh smiles and lays in Gerry's arms as he strokes her hair, listening to his voice tell her about his day. *Maybe I got more stability in my life then I thought* She thinks to herself, realizing how great the day was.
To be continued….soon please R&R and no I'm not letting the bulimia thing slip by unnoticed you'll see….lol