Hey I'm back for some more chapters lol took me a while I know. Please R&R for me thanx! Cause I love to hear what ya all think.
Leigh snaps her diary shut and lays back onto her bed, thinking about the night she and Gerry had just had. They had spent the night just talking about anything and everything….well almost everything. Gerry had mentioned the subject of the recent events but Leigh had managed to get him off the subject fast. Deep down inside she knew what she was doing-her way of dealing wasn't right, but it was the only thing she was capable of.
Leigh sighs and turns out the lights.
Yoast in the room over sat quietly thinking about the recent events, he didn't know exactly what to make of it. His brother was in jail, his niece was placed to full custody of him, he felt undeniably confused about everything and could only hope for the best, since Leigh was refusing to talk to anyone about it.
"Coach?" Cheryl walks in sleepily "I can't sleep" She says softly
"Why not?" Yoast asks as she sits down on his bed.
"Well, Leigh is kind of like my sister now right?" She asks
"Yes."
"Well then why ain't she acting like she's happy about it? Her Daddy can't bother her no more and she seems as sad as ever." Cheryl says, a young girl to wise for her age.
"I don't know Cheryl, sometimes things are just really hard for some people, and they can't handle it."
"So you Leigh isn't strong enough?"
"I'm not so sure at this point."
"She was always so strong though and happy you know? She never acted like anything was wrong." Cheryl reasons
"I think it's that everything is caving in now. And she has to deal with everything at once."
"So…what are we going to do?" Cheryl asks
"You know when the last time it was you asked me that question?" Yoast asks
Cheryl ponders the question "When we found out Coach Boone was going to be head coach."
"Right and how did that turn out?"
"We haven't lost a single game and brought a school together."
"Exactly, we didn't think this could work out, but it did, give this time and it will as well."
Leigh sighs sitting by the door in her room, where she could hear their voices drifting out and could hear the entire conversation. "What am I going to do?" She wonders
********************
Leigh woke with a start the next morning and a cramp in her neck, she had fallen asleep sitting by her door. She scrambled to get ready for school. And got to the bus stop just in time.
Leigh's heart was pounding by the time she had made it to her locker.
"Leigh what's up?" Julius asks walking over.
"Nothing, tired." Leigh answers
"Stay out late with Bertier huh?" Julius smiles, she doesn't return the smile "What is it?"
"Nothing"
"You're not a very good liar, you never have been."
"Why do you act like you know what's going on with me? Why can't you just let things be?"
"For someone who says nothings wrong, you sure seem upset."
"Your right, is that what you want to hear? I've been playing this game time and time again and each time I end up at square one. All right?"
Leigh studies his face. "You can't even try to tell me everything will be all right, cause that's proven to be wrong every time. But don't worry I'm not going anywhere that didn't get me anywhere. Right?…..Julius?" Leigh asks
"Come with me." Julius grabs her arm and walks down the hall and out of the school and goes to his car. He points to the car window. "What do you see?"
"Me." Leigh shrugs
"Look deeper."
"Failure."
Julius sighs "That wasn't the right answer."
"It's what I see, I'm a screw-up."
"What did your father think of himself?"
Leigh looks at him strangely "He thought he was some sort of king, his way or no way."
"What did your father think of you?"
"That's not the point." Leigh argues her face getting flushed
"It's exactly the point, you have this vision of yourself as some failure, I think that your father used to beat you down with words. And you don't know how to deal and you get angry. You know how I know? It's called persecution."
Leigh glances warily at Julius
"You know why I know Leigh? Cause I'm black. B-L-A-C-K, black. People see me and think I'm worthless they think I don't have an opinion, they don't want to hear it. Then something, someone changed my life. You know who it was?"
Leigh shrugs uncomfortably
"Coach Boone, he made all of us realize, including Coach Yoast, that we're all the same. We're all people, equal and not to let anyone tell us differently. The world told us know and we said yes and we now have a perfect record for our season."
"So what are you sayin' Julius?"
"I'm saying that I know it's not easy and I know it's no fun. But I do know it's possible to overcome and get past and live normally. I've done it, almost every guy on the team's done it. Including your family. Your situation may be different, but you're living the same experience Leigh."
Leigh leans back against his car, his words sinking in. Slowly a smile creeps across her face. "You're right."
"I am?" Julius repeats "I mean your not saying that and then going to have a mental breakdown again?"
"No I really mean it. This entire time I figured I was alone in this only one going through it. I lived on the words my father used, the way he tore me down I couldn't leave them behind." Leigh explains "I think I may be able to now."
"So no mental breakdown?"
"Not this time, I think the past few days I've managed to screw myself up more then my father ever did. I have barely eaten anything, and when I do I throw up. I couldn't deal, I couldn't handle it so I wanted to find a way to."
"Did it work?"
"No."
"Didn't think so."
"So what's to say I don't screw up again?"
"Do you plan on it?"
"No"
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Then don't worry about anything."
Leigh smiles "If you say so."
"I do, now let's get back to class." Julius leads her back into the school.
"I'll be right there, I want to talk to someone first." Leigh promises "Tell Gerry I'll see him in lunch."
************
"Do you mind if I sit down?" Leigh asks
He looks up into a pair a beautiful blue eyes, and long brown hair. "Sure, sure sit."
"You're not going to like me in a few minutes." Leigh warns sitting down in the library with him "Do you know who I am?"
"You look familiar…."
"I'm Leigh…Yoast." She introduces herself
"Your that Leigh? Yoast's niece? Bertier's girl?"
"Those are a few ways to put it, but I prefer Leigh." She smiles
"So why did you want to talk to me."
"Actually I had a question. But like I said, if I ask you, you wont like me anymore."
He smiles assuringly "I highly doubt that."
"You got kicked off the team."
"I left the team." He interrupts
"Gerry kicked you off." Leigh replies quietly "You were kicked off because you refused to get along with certain teammates, things you said to them. Your actions alone, I was at camp I saw you. You didn't even open up when others were." Leigh looks down "What did they ever do to you to deserve what you gave them?"
"That was what you wanted to ask me?" He exclaims angrily
"You don't understand, I want to know why."
"Why?" He demands "What could you possibly know about it?"
"My father treated me the same way you treated them and he had even less reason too and he still did, I don't get it."
He sits down taking a breath to calm himself. "Your father abused you?"
"That's why I moved out here."
"You don't deserve it."
"Those guys didn't either." Leigh replies evenly "I just wanted to know why you did what you did, what made you do it?"
"I don't know if I could explain it." He sighs
"Ray" Leigh says softly "Try."
To be continued please R&R for me so I can see what you all think. Thanx!
Leigh snaps her diary shut and lays back onto her bed, thinking about the night she and Gerry had just had. They had spent the night just talking about anything and everything….well almost everything. Gerry had mentioned the subject of the recent events but Leigh had managed to get him off the subject fast. Deep down inside she knew what she was doing-her way of dealing wasn't right, but it was the only thing she was capable of.
Leigh sighs and turns out the lights.
Yoast in the room over sat quietly thinking about the recent events, he didn't know exactly what to make of it. His brother was in jail, his niece was placed to full custody of him, he felt undeniably confused about everything and could only hope for the best, since Leigh was refusing to talk to anyone about it.
"Coach?" Cheryl walks in sleepily "I can't sleep" She says softly
"Why not?" Yoast asks as she sits down on his bed.
"Well, Leigh is kind of like my sister now right?" She asks
"Yes."
"Well then why ain't she acting like she's happy about it? Her Daddy can't bother her no more and she seems as sad as ever." Cheryl says, a young girl to wise for her age.
"I don't know Cheryl, sometimes things are just really hard for some people, and they can't handle it."
"So you Leigh isn't strong enough?"
"I'm not so sure at this point."
"She was always so strong though and happy you know? She never acted like anything was wrong." Cheryl reasons
"I think it's that everything is caving in now. And she has to deal with everything at once."
"So…what are we going to do?" Cheryl asks
"You know when the last time it was you asked me that question?" Yoast asks
Cheryl ponders the question "When we found out Coach Boone was going to be head coach."
"Right and how did that turn out?"
"We haven't lost a single game and brought a school together."
"Exactly, we didn't think this could work out, but it did, give this time and it will as well."
Leigh sighs sitting by the door in her room, where she could hear their voices drifting out and could hear the entire conversation. "What am I going to do?" She wonders
********************
Leigh woke with a start the next morning and a cramp in her neck, she had fallen asleep sitting by her door. She scrambled to get ready for school. And got to the bus stop just in time.
Leigh's heart was pounding by the time she had made it to her locker.
"Leigh what's up?" Julius asks walking over.
"Nothing, tired." Leigh answers
"Stay out late with Bertier huh?" Julius smiles, she doesn't return the smile "What is it?"
"Nothing"
"You're not a very good liar, you never have been."
"Why do you act like you know what's going on with me? Why can't you just let things be?"
"For someone who says nothings wrong, you sure seem upset."
"Your right, is that what you want to hear? I've been playing this game time and time again and each time I end up at square one. All right?"
Leigh studies his face. "You can't even try to tell me everything will be all right, cause that's proven to be wrong every time. But don't worry I'm not going anywhere that didn't get me anywhere. Right?…..Julius?" Leigh asks
"Come with me." Julius grabs her arm and walks down the hall and out of the school and goes to his car. He points to the car window. "What do you see?"
"Me." Leigh shrugs
"Look deeper."
"Failure."
Julius sighs "That wasn't the right answer."
"It's what I see, I'm a screw-up."
"What did your father think of himself?"
Leigh looks at him strangely "He thought he was some sort of king, his way or no way."
"What did your father think of you?"
"That's not the point." Leigh argues her face getting flushed
"It's exactly the point, you have this vision of yourself as some failure, I think that your father used to beat you down with words. And you don't know how to deal and you get angry. You know how I know? It's called persecution."
Leigh glances warily at Julius
"You know why I know Leigh? Cause I'm black. B-L-A-C-K, black. People see me and think I'm worthless they think I don't have an opinion, they don't want to hear it. Then something, someone changed my life. You know who it was?"
Leigh shrugs uncomfortably
"Coach Boone, he made all of us realize, including Coach Yoast, that we're all the same. We're all people, equal and not to let anyone tell us differently. The world told us know and we said yes and we now have a perfect record for our season."
"So what are you sayin' Julius?"
"I'm saying that I know it's not easy and I know it's no fun. But I do know it's possible to overcome and get past and live normally. I've done it, almost every guy on the team's done it. Including your family. Your situation may be different, but you're living the same experience Leigh."
Leigh leans back against his car, his words sinking in. Slowly a smile creeps across her face. "You're right."
"I am?" Julius repeats "I mean your not saying that and then going to have a mental breakdown again?"
"No I really mean it. This entire time I figured I was alone in this only one going through it. I lived on the words my father used, the way he tore me down I couldn't leave them behind." Leigh explains "I think I may be able to now."
"So no mental breakdown?"
"Not this time, I think the past few days I've managed to screw myself up more then my father ever did. I have barely eaten anything, and when I do I throw up. I couldn't deal, I couldn't handle it so I wanted to find a way to."
"Did it work?"
"No."
"Didn't think so."
"So what's to say I don't screw up again?"
"Do you plan on it?"
"No"
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Then don't worry about anything."
Leigh smiles "If you say so."
"I do, now let's get back to class." Julius leads her back into the school.
"I'll be right there, I want to talk to someone first." Leigh promises "Tell Gerry I'll see him in lunch."
************
"Do you mind if I sit down?" Leigh asks
He looks up into a pair a beautiful blue eyes, and long brown hair. "Sure, sure sit."
"You're not going to like me in a few minutes." Leigh warns sitting down in the library with him "Do you know who I am?"
"You look familiar…."
"I'm Leigh…Yoast." She introduces herself
"Your that Leigh? Yoast's niece? Bertier's girl?"
"Those are a few ways to put it, but I prefer Leigh." She smiles
"So why did you want to talk to me."
"Actually I had a question. But like I said, if I ask you, you wont like me anymore."
He smiles assuringly "I highly doubt that."
"You got kicked off the team."
"I left the team." He interrupts
"Gerry kicked you off." Leigh replies quietly "You were kicked off because you refused to get along with certain teammates, things you said to them. Your actions alone, I was at camp I saw you. You didn't even open up when others were." Leigh looks down "What did they ever do to you to deserve what you gave them?"
"That was what you wanted to ask me?" He exclaims angrily
"You don't understand, I want to know why."
"Why?" He demands "What could you possibly know about it?"
"My father treated me the same way you treated them and he had even less reason too and he still did, I don't get it."
He sits down taking a breath to calm himself. "Your father abused you?"
"That's why I moved out here."
"You don't deserve it."
"Those guys didn't either." Leigh replies evenly "I just wanted to know why you did what you did, what made you do it?"
"I don't know if I could explain it." He sighs
"Ray" Leigh says softly "Try."
To be continued please R&R for me so I can see what you all think. Thanx!