Disclaimer: not mine if it was There would be many many more scenes like the one in female trouble with Michael Weatherly wearing only black boxers!
Thanks for all the reviews!!!!!!!!! As Max calls it this chapter is "sad fluff" there should be a few more chapters like this before it gets back to happy.
Chapter 7: the cemetary
"Hey Syl, sorry it took me so long to come see you. I miss you so much, Krit does too of course. He loves you so much Syl. Krit told me that you got to hold Isobel, and that you named her before you died. So you know how beautiful she is. They have been living with us for two weeks now and Issy has gotten cuter each day. Although she does seem to miss you too." Max was standing in front of a headstone in a little cemetery just outside San Francisco. The headstone read simply,
Syl
2000-2026
Loving wife and mother
This world was a better place
because she was part of it.
It was three in the afternoon. She had been there since one but hadn't been able to talk for the first two hours. "I went to your apartment the other day. Krit hadn't been back since you passed. I am going to go back this afternoon before I go back home. I want to get some pictures of you Krit only has this one that he always keeps with him. I want to get a bunch of them to show to Issy. And maybe a wedding video or something like that. And I am going to get her some of the toys you guys got for her that I saw. And the answering machine tape, it may just be an outgoing message, but at least she will be able to hear your voice. I would know better what to look for but I didn't want to talk about it yet with Krit, it still seems to hurt him too much. I know he hasn't come to see you since the funeral, I just think it's hard enough for him to deal with you being gone, seeing your grave again would kill him." She sat down and started running her fingers through the grass on the ground beside her while she talked. "He's a great father, you would be so proud of him. He loves Issy so much, he's so caring and gentle and loving with her. I hate the fact that you can't see how great he is with her." She got up and started to pace. Tears were slipping from her eyes running down her cheeks. She made no attempt to wipe them away, she didn't even realize that she was crying. Her voice had been normal before but now it was filled with such bitterness and pain. "And I hate that I never get to see you again. And that you don't get to see your daughter grow up. And that she will never get to know you. She will never know how much you loved her, and what you gave up for her. I hate the fact that she wont even have one memory of you. I hate the fact that there is nothing I can do to fix this. Oh god Syl I don't know what to do." She collapsed back onto the ground now crying more "I am just trying to make it through each day now, and help Krit do the same. But beyond that there is nothing we can do. I can't do anything to make this better, and it hurts so bad I struggle to breathe. And I know that Isobel will always hurt because she never got to know you, because I do. I hate the fact that I never got to know you beyond all of our soldier shit. I hate the fact that I never told you that I love you little sister. I want to know why. Is this punishment for what we did years ago, or what we are? I want to know why you had to die, just when life was going to be completely perfect." The bitterness was gone from her voice, now she just sounded completely defeated. She didn't even hear the other person enter the cemetery.
"There is no reason Maxie." Max turned to see Krit walking closer to her. "Work called I got worried, and Logan told me where you were." He explained before she got the chance to ask the question. He came and sat down next to her. "There is no reason Maxie sometimes bad things just happen. You of all people should know that. Your a good person your not being punished for anything, neither am and neither was Syl. It just happened, it was pointless and horrible, but it's not annoys fault. I am sorry you have to go through this you have had to do it too many times. You have been there to see too many of your siblings die or be taken, or lost. Logan told me what happened with Zack. And how you had to let them take Brin, then to see her as one of them later. And how you held Tinga after she died. And you saw them kill Ben."
"No I didn't." Max interrupted him suddenly. "I didn't watch them kill Ben, I killed him." She said in the smallest voice. "He was killing people I fought him. I broke his leg, then we heard them coming he wanted me to take him with me, but we both would have been captured. I couldn't let them take him, so I had him tell me about the high place, and I held him. And I snapped his neck. I killed him, and now I am being punished."
"I'm sorry Logan didn't tell me." Krit said in a voice even smaller then the one she was speaking in.
"He didn't know, I never told him. I could never even say it out loud before."
"Max it wasn't your fault, it was the right thing to do. And I know that we have both done bad things before, but we are good people. We aren't being punished, I promise you that." Krit put his arm around his sister they were both crying now.
"Then why did this happen?" She looked up at him her eyes so full of pain and confusion.
"Like I said Max there is no reason, it just happened." Krit leaned over and hugged her tightly. "I love you Maxie."
"Oh god Krit I'm sorry. I know what you are going through is so much worse than what I am going through. I should be there to comfort you, you shouldn't have to be the strong one for me." Max said as if suddenly she realized what she was saying, and who she was talking to.
"Max I'm sorry, I have been depending on you so much relying on you to be strong, I haven't given you a chance to grieve at all, to let this all out. Tell you what how about from now on, no more brave faces for each other. We can grieve together ok?" He put his arm back around her comfortingly.
"Sounds good." She said now crying on his shoulder. Max and Krit stayed there at Sly's grave a little longer. They didn't speak until the got up to leave.
"Bye Syl I will come again soon I love you sis." With that Max walked away leaving Krit alone.
"Hey darling, I miss you so much. It's like a part of me is gone too. Our daughter is really beautiful, and I am doing my best at taking care of her. I love you so much darling. I six years ago yesterday, I will love you and only you, not just till death do us part, but forever. And It's true. I love you even more today then I ever did. It doesn't matter that your not here, I love you anyway. I love you so much It's killing me to not be able to be with you. If it wasn't for Isobel I don't think that I would still be alive. Thank you so much for Isobel besides you she is the best thing that ever happened to me. So I got to go back to her now, but I will come visit more often." He leaned over and kissed the top of the headstone. "I love you Syl." Then he turned and walked away.
Please please review! I have a sort of idea with what I want to happen but I am very open to suggestions so let me know what you think and what you would like to see happen.
Thanks for all the reviews!!!!!!!!! As Max calls it this chapter is "sad fluff" there should be a few more chapters like this before it gets back to happy.
Chapter 7: the cemetary
"Hey Syl, sorry it took me so long to come see you. I miss you so much, Krit does too of course. He loves you so much Syl. Krit told me that you got to hold Isobel, and that you named her before you died. So you know how beautiful she is. They have been living with us for two weeks now and Issy has gotten cuter each day. Although she does seem to miss you too." Max was standing in front of a headstone in a little cemetery just outside San Francisco. The headstone read simply,
Syl
2000-2026
Loving wife and mother
This world was a better place
because she was part of it.
It was three in the afternoon. She had been there since one but hadn't been able to talk for the first two hours. "I went to your apartment the other day. Krit hadn't been back since you passed. I am going to go back this afternoon before I go back home. I want to get some pictures of you Krit only has this one that he always keeps with him. I want to get a bunch of them to show to Issy. And maybe a wedding video or something like that. And I am going to get her some of the toys you guys got for her that I saw. And the answering machine tape, it may just be an outgoing message, but at least she will be able to hear your voice. I would know better what to look for but I didn't want to talk about it yet with Krit, it still seems to hurt him too much. I know he hasn't come to see you since the funeral, I just think it's hard enough for him to deal with you being gone, seeing your grave again would kill him." She sat down and started running her fingers through the grass on the ground beside her while she talked. "He's a great father, you would be so proud of him. He loves Issy so much, he's so caring and gentle and loving with her. I hate the fact that you can't see how great he is with her." She got up and started to pace. Tears were slipping from her eyes running down her cheeks. She made no attempt to wipe them away, she didn't even realize that she was crying. Her voice had been normal before but now it was filled with such bitterness and pain. "And I hate that I never get to see you again. And that you don't get to see your daughter grow up. And that she will never get to know you. She will never know how much you loved her, and what you gave up for her. I hate the fact that she wont even have one memory of you. I hate the fact that there is nothing I can do to fix this. Oh god Syl I don't know what to do." She collapsed back onto the ground now crying more "I am just trying to make it through each day now, and help Krit do the same. But beyond that there is nothing we can do. I can't do anything to make this better, and it hurts so bad I struggle to breathe. And I know that Isobel will always hurt because she never got to know you, because I do. I hate the fact that I never got to know you beyond all of our soldier shit. I hate the fact that I never told you that I love you little sister. I want to know why. Is this punishment for what we did years ago, or what we are? I want to know why you had to die, just when life was going to be completely perfect." The bitterness was gone from her voice, now she just sounded completely defeated. She didn't even hear the other person enter the cemetery.
"There is no reason Maxie." Max turned to see Krit walking closer to her. "Work called I got worried, and Logan told me where you were." He explained before she got the chance to ask the question. He came and sat down next to her. "There is no reason Maxie sometimes bad things just happen. You of all people should know that. Your a good person your not being punished for anything, neither am and neither was Syl. It just happened, it was pointless and horrible, but it's not annoys fault. I am sorry you have to go through this you have had to do it too many times. You have been there to see too many of your siblings die or be taken, or lost. Logan told me what happened with Zack. And how you had to let them take Brin, then to see her as one of them later. And how you held Tinga after she died. And you saw them kill Ben."
"No I didn't." Max interrupted him suddenly. "I didn't watch them kill Ben, I killed him." She said in the smallest voice. "He was killing people I fought him. I broke his leg, then we heard them coming he wanted me to take him with me, but we both would have been captured. I couldn't let them take him, so I had him tell me about the high place, and I held him. And I snapped his neck. I killed him, and now I am being punished."
"I'm sorry Logan didn't tell me." Krit said in a voice even smaller then the one she was speaking in.
"He didn't know, I never told him. I could never even say it out loud before."
"Max it wasn't your fault, it was the right thing to do. And I know that we have both done bad things before, but we are good people. We aren't being punished, I promise you that." Krit put his arm around his sister they were both crying now.
"Then why did this happen?" She looked up at him her eyes so full of pain and confusion.
"Like I said Max there is no reason, it just happened." Krit leaned over and hugged her tightly. "I love you Maxie."
"Oh god Krit I'm sorry. I know what you are going through is so much worse than what I am going through. I should be there to comfort you, you shouldn't have to be the strong one for me." Max said as if suddenly she realized what she was saying, and who she was talking to.
"Max I'm sorry, I have been depending on you so much relying on you to be strong, I haven't given you a chance to grieve at all, to let this all out. Tell you what how about from now on, no more brave faces for each other. We can grieve together ok?" He put his arm back around her comfortingly.
"Sounds good." She said now crying on his shoulder. Max and Krit stayed there at Sly's grave a little longer. They didn't speak until the got up to leave.
"Bye Syl I will come again soon I love you sis." With that Max walked away leaving Krit alone.
"Hey darling, I miss you so much. It's like a part of me is gone too. Our daughter is really beautiful, and I am doing my best at taking care of her. I love you so much darling. I six years ago yesterday, I will love you and only you, not just till death do us part, but forever. And It's true. I love you even more today then I ever did. It doesn't matter that your not here, I love you anyway. I love you so much It's killing me to not be able to be with you. If it wasn't for Isobel I don't think that I would still be alive. Thank you so much for Isobel besides you she is the best thing that ever happened to me. So I got to go back to her now, but I will come visit more often." He leaned over and kissed the top of the headstone. "I love you Syl." Then he turned and walked away.
Please please review! I have a sort of idea with what I want to happen but I am very open to suggestions so let me know what you think and what you would like to see happen.