Authors Note: this ones gonna be a bit more long, around 1000 words atleast. Get yer popcorn and soda now!

Serenity Uprising: chapter 3: you don't know who you are


 The cool winds of Macalania disheveled Tidus' strange array of hair. It was cold, windy, and somewhat damp. Yet Tidus moved on. The weather did not wear down his determination. Motivation was running through his veins, causing him to feel warm, and level headed. Nothing could stop him.

He inhaled deeply, savoring the feeling of comfort. Soon, he would be with Yuna. Soon, they could start a new life together. A tear formed in his eye then, thinking these thoughts. There would be many more blitzball games. There would be many more party's, victory's, and inevitably..losses. There would be love, hate, perseverence, trial, and happiness--because now, more than ever, he was alive.

And he could not wait to begin the life he had dreamed of ever since he was informed of his previous existance.

He chuckled outloud to himself.

look at me,' he whispered outloud. He was walking in shorts and a light short sleeved jacket, by himself, in the middle of the night--in mountains covered with a white blanket of snow. Any person that saw him would know he was competely insane. But he wasn't. He was just in love. Puppy love, as they call it.

He then wiped his brain clean of all thoughts, worries, and emotions, and focused on his purpose.

There was but one.

Get to Bevelle. Find some form of transportation to get to Besaid. Yuna.

 It was a sub-conscious goal, one he didn't need to think about. His body just moved. Mentally, he was blank. So blank, that he failed to notice the small figure running twords him.


* * *

The blue spiked ball bounced to the ground, leaving a small imprint in the sand. Wakka picked it up, and tossed it back to Datto, whom easily caught it. Datto passed it to Jassu, who effortlessly performed a sphere shot to keepa. Keppa caught the ball, releasing a grin from Wakka.

That was better, boys. Keep goin'. Since the defeat of Yu Yevon, Wakka had a sense of accomplishment and confidence. He did not have to strive for fame anymore through blitzball; for he was Sir Wakka. This releaved some of the pressure, and caused him to be completely focused.

And it had been paying off.


The Aurochs had been number 1 for two straight seasons now, never losing a game. In fact, the won every game by atleast 4 points.

Yet there was something missing.

There was no athletic, handsome blitzball heart-throb getting the audience pumped. There was no Jecht shot the last 5 seconds of the game. There were no new goals, no pep talks--atleast not by Tidus.

It had been hard on Wakka, his disappearence.

Tidus had been the brother to him that Chappu never could be. He accepted Wakka's help, and with great gratitude.

Wakka thought of Tidus as a brother. Nothing less.

Thought.

A past tense. For it was...the past. Tidus was gone, along with Chappu. To where, no one knew. Wakka recalled Yuna trying many times to summon Tidus at the farplane. Needless to say, she failed--always.

Alright, time for drills. Wakka announced, releasing droans from several of the players. He didn't understand why they weren't enthusiastic about drills, for they were the cause of their winning streak--atleast, that's what he thought.

Wakka withdrew his thoughts of Tidus from his mind, and tried once again to focus in on the game. He lead his team over to the water, where he motioned an entrance. The team sprinted and dove into the sea.

Go deep! the burly man shouted, pointing to the sun-lit horizon.

Wakka heard a light chuckle from behind him. As he turned, he saw Yuna, a fake smile spread acrosst her shadowed face.

You look tired. y'ok? He asked, crossing his arms and examining her.

I'm fine.. She responded.

Wakka knew the answer before he even asked the question. Yuna always looked a little tired. She looked awful, most of the time. Since Tidus' disappearence, she had become weak..voulnerable...and depressed. He knew there was nothing he could do to change it.

But he tried.

As did Lulu, and Kimahri, and Rikku--the aurochs, the goers, everyone--the whole world tried to cheer Yuna up. But the task was impossible, as was the only thing that could indeed bring an end to her empty heart.


***

Wakka and Yuna headed back to the camp shortly after practice, greeted by warm smiles and urging faces. Yuna wanted more than anything to be happy again--not for herself, but she knew it would give the others a sense of accomplishment.

She wished, so hard, that she could just put away the past, as he would have wanted her to. But she couldn't. Her feelings were too strong, her emotions so uncontrolled. She wanted to just see him once more. Just to feel him, to hold him, and to love him.

Yet another impossibility.

She cried outloud.


Lulu turned quickley to her.

Are you alright? She asked, tucking yuna's delicate hair behind her ear.

The summoner burst into tears. She hated herself. She was the cause of suffering. She was the cause everyone else fussing over her, going out of their way to help her.

She just wanted Tidus!


Was that so damned much to ASK!? ONE PERSON. She'd kill five people just to have Tidus back.


And that was obsession. It was a demon in her, driving her madd. It was a snake eating away at her. It slithered inside her, destroying any hope.


Lulu grieved at the pain in Yuna's eyes.

This can't go on. She said. You can't stay depressed like this forever, Yuna!! She was nearly shouting. You are endangering yourself. You are becoming a monster. For heavens sake, Yuna, just let GO!

The mage regretted the words, it was so out of character for her. She had scolded Yuna. Insulted her. Asked of her an unthinkable task.

She spoke again, this time, in a much calmer voice. I'm sorry. But Yuna, try to focus on the good things. We defeated sin. Ended suffering.

But I can't...I just can't.. She stated, weaping.

And it's not like that maester lector is helpin' much, ya? Wakka stated, raising an eyebrow.


Lector.

The very name sent trembles down Yuna's spine. She hated the man. She hated how he looked, how he acted, how he treated her. Endless nights of beatings and rape. He was insane. She didn't doubt that.

Sometimes, she asked herself why she was marrying him. She always told herself it was for Spira--but was it?

She didn't know. She couldn't even analyze herself.

she just wanted to die.



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A sharp pain flinched through Tidus' heart. Something was wrong. Yuna was in danger.




(and far off, in the middle of the night, Maester Lector stepped off of his boat and onto the sand of besaid.)



Authors note: hoo...creepy. Lector is a bad bad man, foos. You wait and see. Next chapter should be posted by thursday...I think. The reunion is shortly away, and you will learn more about lector soon.