CHAPTER 2
Author's note: This
chapter is dedicated to Rea. Because she said she was getting tired of the
stories where life is perfect. I know what you mean, Chica J
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Looking back at that day now I realize how completely out of place everything in the
world was.
How unbelievably not right
How extraordinarily wrong.
It should have been a stormy night – it was a
bright sunny afternoon
The world should be drowning in silence – every
living thing seemed to be singing with joy and gratitude
My shirt should have been black– I had a white
one on.
I should have been somber, I should have started mourning – I was laughing with my
best friend at an old, unfunny joke
It should have been the worst day of my life –
it was the happiest one.
But then again I didn't know what will be
brought into our family by that life that barely started.
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Maria entered our
house the same way she always had.
There was no gloomy
music in the background, no sense of dread in the air.
There was nothing
unusual about her cheerful "What's up, girlfriend?" directed at Max, and the
kiss he greeted me with didn't taste any different.
No.
It tasted wonderful.
It tasted like her.
You'd think that
something, anything, would indicate the beginning of the end, that fate would
give us some kind of warning about the oncoming tragedy so that we could
cherish the time we were left with, more.
But would we really?
Would it change anything?
Would it be possible for me to be happier after
those 4 words that came out of her mouth the second we were left alone?
I'll never know
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I remember the change in her eyes when Max left
two hours later.
Emerald turned into spring leaf.
Intensity into confusion.
Love into fear
I have always loved the way her eyes could tell
more then her mouth, but at that particular moment I wished they weren't so
expressive.
She was scaring me. A lot.
She sat down on the sofa in front of me and did
something she had never done before – she avoided my eyes. Never in the history
of our relationship had one of us done anything that wouldn't let us look into
the other one's eyes, so this little thing totally gave her away.
Maria was leaving me.
She had finally awoken and realized that she
was living with an ugly, worthless monster from another planet. That she was
living with Michael Guerin – the alien. That she was living with me.
I didn't realize that she was talking to me
until the pillow hit my arm. I looked
at her and waited for those inevitable words to come out of mouth.
What will she say? "Sorry Spaceboy, it's been
fun but I've met someone, who's actually *human*"? , or maybe "Yup Michael,
Hank was right, you ARE a worthless piece of sh*t"?
"I'm pregnant, Michael" – I head instead.
Man, wasn't that unexpected…..
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Most people think that when faced with a
problem like that I'd get up and leave. And ran as far away from her and the
baby as possible.
Well, most people don't know me at all.
The childhood I had, left me with a void that
needed to be filled with someone else's love, and a heart that desperately
needed to give some of my own love away.
Maria's love for me filled that void.
Maria's love was enough to fill thousands of
voids like mine.
She took care of my other problem too. She was
the one who I could trust enough to give my love without fearing that she'll
throw it away and laugh in my face. She took it and it filled the voids in her heart too
This way we were essential to each other.
As time
has gone by the wounds in my heart
healed and the love I still received from this pixie of mine could finally be
accumulated and sent to the other parts of my body.
To my eyes
My brain
My hands.
It changed me, it made me a better man and did
something everyone thought was impossible.
It grounded me.
So much that I could say in all honesty that those who thought I'd run away
were simply wrong
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I know, Iknow it's awfully short but still it's
better than nothing, right?
So, did you like it?
Am I getting better or worse?
Will you be back for the next parts?