Some of you may remember the way I kept saying that no matter how many
people will or will not like this story I'll continue writing it. I also
said that I have a reason to behave like it and that I'll tell you this
reason after the end of the story....
So...here I am....
At first this fic meant almost nothing to me - it was just a product of a very bad day and an awful break-up.... I didn't know what I wanted to do with it or even if I wanted to ANYTHING with it. But then I started getting positive reviews and decided that I'm gonna make it special by turning this story in a tribute to a very special couple.
You see there was this married couple in my neighborhood, quite young, in their early thirties maybe, and madly in love with each other.
Their love was simply overwhelming - they were always kissing holding hands, behaving like they were the only people on earth.... I remember rolling my eyes at them and wondering why they act this way. "Can't they keep their hands off each other for a while? Wait with the smoochies till they get home? They have their whole lives ahead. The world will not end if they won't kiss every single second." - I was always saying.
I was wrong. They did NOT have eternity ahead of them.
Anna got pregnant and Tomasz was in seventh heaven - he was going to become a father...I had never seen the guy as happy as then.... But then, one Sunday during the mass, Anna fainted. She was brought to the hospital and examined. She told her husband that it was nothing serious - she was simply exhausted... The rest of pregnancy went seemingly smooth..."seemingly" because they weren't the same since then. Not Anna at least. She was smiling but there was always some sadness in her eyes. Like...I don't know like what...At that time I didn't think about her that often....
Anyways she went into labour in the middle of eight month. She died giving birth to her baby daughter Kasia.
Why it all happened the way it did was revealed during the burial services at our church when Tomek gave his "speech"
He said that at the beginning of the sixth month Anna told him she had leukemia. She found out about it when she was at the hospital that day when she fainted the doctors said that if she didn't start the chemical treatment soon she wouldn't survive. But the treatment would kill the baby. She asked the doctors not to tell him and they had to obey...The pregnancy exhausted her even more, her body didn't have the strength to fight the cancer when it had to support the life inside of her as well. Tomek said that he asked her why did she lie for such long time...Her answer was simple "Because I didn't want you to try and persuade me to have an abortion." Sixth month was too late to do anything. The rest of pregnancy she spent at home - lying in bed for most of the time - and under the watchful eye of a friend who was a doctor...At the beginning of eight month she was really weak, Tomek, said he knew then that she wouldn't survive. But he kept hoping. He thought that his love for her and God's love for Anna would be enough.
It wasn't.
When asked if he'll be able to live with and love Kasia knowing that she was the reason why Anna didn't try to save herself Tomek answered: "I can't NOT love Kasia. I love her with all my heart and soul. She's the only thing I have now. She's Anna's greatest gift"
So, that's the story behind Sometimes Love is not enough and while separate parts were dedicated to various other people the WHOLE FIC is dedicated to Anna M, who, in spite of everything, showed me that LOVE IS ENOUGH after all.
Magda
So...here I am....
At first this fic meant almost nothing to me - it was just a product of a very bad day and an awful break-up.... I didn't know what I wanted to do with it or even if I wanted to ANYTHING with it. But then I started getting positive reviews and decided that I'm gonna make it special by turning this story in a tribute to a very special couple.
You see there was this married couple in my neighborhood, quite young, in their early thirties maybe, and madly in love with each other.
Their love was simply overwhelming - they were always kissing holding hands, behaving like they were the only people on earth.... I remember rolling my eyes at them and wondering why they act this way. "Can't they keep their hands off each other for a while? Wait with the smoochies till they get home? They have their whole lives ahead. The world will not end if they won't kiss every single second." - I was always saying.
I was wrong. They did NOT have eternity ahead of them.
Anna got pregnant and Tomasz was in seventh heaven - he was going to become a father...I had never seen the guy as happy as then.... But then, one Sunday during the mass, Anna fainted. She was brought to the hospital and examined. She told her husband that it was nothing serious - she was simply exhausted... The rest of pregnancy went seemingly smooth..."seemingly" because they weren't the same since then. Not Anna at least. She was smiling but there was always some sadness in her eyes. Like...I don't know like what...At that time I didn't think about her that often....
Anyways she went into labour in the middle of eight month. She died giving birth to her baby daughter Kasia.
Why it all happened the way it did was revealed during the burial services at our church when Tomek gave his "speech"
He said that at the beginning of the sixth month Anna told him she had leukemia. She found out about it when she was at the hospital that day when she fainted the doctors said that if she didn't start the chemical treatment soon she wouldn't survive. But the treatment would kill the baby. She asked the doctors not to tell him and they had to obey...The pregnancy exhausted her even more, her body didn't have the strength to fight the cancer when it had to support the life inside of her as well. Tomek said that he asked her why did she lie for such long time...Her answer was simple "Because I didn't want you to try and persuade me to have an abortion." Sixth month was too late to do anything. The rest of pregnancy she spent at home - lying in bed for most of the time - and under the watchful eye of a friend who was a doctor...At the beginning of eight month she was really weak, Tomek, said he knew then that she wouldn't survive. But he kept hoping. He thought that his love for her and God's love for Anna would be enough.
It wasn't.
When asked if he'll be able to live with and love Kasia knowing that she was the reason why Anna didn't try to save herself Tomek answered: "I can't NOT love Kasia. I love her with all my heart and soul. She's the only thing I have now. She's Anna's greatest gift"
So, that's the story behind Sometimes Love is not enough and while separate parts were dedicated to various other people the WHOLE FIC is dedicated to Anna M, who, in spite of everything, showed me that LOVE IS ENOUGH after all.
Magda