Paybacks
Chapter 7
So, here is the deal. I tried to quote some of the other episodes in this chapter, but since I have never seen the episode in which Faith tells Bosco the truth about having the abortion I just kinda made some stuff up. I'll change it someday when I know what he really said.
Character's thoughts
"Faith, where are you? FAAAIITH!" The gunshot rang out, and as the bullet impacted with his vest Bosco bolted upright in his bed. He turned on the bedside lamp, and tried to calm himself before his heart pounded right out of his chest. He wiped the sweat off his brow and dropped back onto the pillows. The sudden movement had not helped his already aching head.
What is wrong with me? Why do I keep having this nightmare? I know why she wasn't there to back me up. She was sick from the pain medication…from the cancer. I know that. I forgave her. OK, so I never actually told her in those words, but she knows I don't blame her.
He ran his hand through his hair, took a deep breath and reached to turn off the light; he stopped. Maybe I'll try sleeping with it on this time. he settled back into a fitful sleep.
"I know I just wanted to explain."
"No. You said you were sick. I shouldn't have pushed you. Right? You weren't feelin' well."
"I have cancer."
Once again Bosco woke with a start. His heart was racing, and he was trembling. He went into the bathroom and splashed water on his face; he looked at his reflection in the mirror. Why didn't she tell me sooner? Am I that bad of a person that she didn't think she could tell me? When did she lose faith in me?
Bosco knew he wouldn't be able to sleep anymore, so he went into the other room and turned on the TV. "Well, since I'm up I might as well make breakfast," he said to himself as he walked into the kitchen. He opened the refrigerator to find a case of beer looking back at him. Bosco didn't even think twice as he pulled out a can.
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"I miscarried."
"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."
"I never shoulda let you get outta the car. It's my fault. You shoulda been doing the driving."
"You lied to me! I felt sorry for you!"
"All the things that we've learned we can't control in this world, and you're gonna surprise me with this."
"I just didn't wanna be dumpin' my stuff on anybody."
"It's me. Faith. It's me. I'm not anybody."
Faith woke up with tears rolling down her face. What have I done? He's my partner and my best friend, and I kept him in the dark. I really blew it this time, but he seemed OK with everything. I thought we were past it. I guess I don't know him as well as I thought. It's too late now. Things will never be like they were. I'm sorry Bos.
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He opened the beer, and started to take a drink. What the hell am I doing? Bosco dumped the beer down the sink. That's not going to solve anything.
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There was a knock on her door. Who could that be? She opened the door; it was Bosco. He looked up at her with a shy, nervous smile; his hands jammed as far down his pockets as possible.
"Hey."
"Hey yourself," she replied softly.