She was scared. Petrified was more the word. Every night she found herself thinking

about him. She forced herself not to think of him that way. They were friends and that's

it. Nothing more. Don't get her wrong, she would kill to be more with him, but it just

wasn't possible. It hurt inside too much. She couldn't help it. So what if she was

hopelessly head over heels for him. It's not like anyone would know her dirty little secret.

But then again, there are those nosey people who always butt into somebody's business.

She just was scared to be around him. The feeling in her stomach of wanting to kiss him

or tell him how she felt was intense. He had always been in the back of her mind, but

now he was taking over. Her whole body longed for him, for him to love her just like she

loved him. If only he felt that way! Life would be so much easier. Being around him

would be so much easier. Only in her greatest dreams would this happen. He hurt her so

bad with his feelings. He was the only thing that she wanted. Maybe he knew how she

felt, maybe he didn't. She, of course knew exactly how he felt. He felt nothing for her.

Nothing but a "friend connection." Her whole body ached with the thought of him. She

hadn't slept in days, for every time she closed her eyes she saw him. But every time she

had her eyes open she also saw him, which was just as painful. Gosh, she hated herself

for allowing herself to fall into this trap. She couldn't stand being away from him. It

killed her to be around him and it killed her to he apart from him. She found herself

calling him for no apparent reason but just to hear the sound of his sweet voice. Just to

see him smile was worth everything. Just to hear him say her name was all that she

needed. He was her everything. They talked about so many simple nothings. But all those

nothings meant more to him then so many somethings. He was so beautiful that it hurt

just to look at him. She was so afraid each time they met that she wouldn't be able to

control her feelings. She was scared that at any moment her words would slip, exposing

her true self, exposing her desire. The desire to hold him in her arms, the desire to touch

him and kiss him, the desire of him loving her. She was driving herself crazy with all

these thoughts. She couldn't take being alone anymore. She couldn't stand not having

him love her exactly the way she loved him. What she would give to have Will Tippin.