Would you hold my hand if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand if I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day,
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven.
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'You are my Angel, Seifer Almasy.'
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Seifer held Zell up against the wall with one hand, threatening to mutilate him with his gunblade should he try to get away, or call for help.
"What are you talking about...!?" Zell was trying to squirm out of Seifer's grasp. This was happening to him a lot lately.
"You know what I'm talking about." Seifer growled, "I know what you did, and I want to hear it from you."
Zell was hit with realisation as he stopped squirming, and looked into Seifer's eyes. He'd almost be sexy if he wasn't constantly taunting people, and picking fights. But how could he know? Know about what happened...? "You...you know what...?"
"C'mon" Seifer interrupted bitterly, "Continue..."
'Chickenwuss doesn't have feelings anyways. No one with any sense of humanity could sleep with his best friends girlfriend and feel nothing but fear and reluctancy. He knew what he had gotten himself into, but he didn't care about Squall.'
The smaller blonde went limp. He felt so evil. He loved Squall, as his best friend, and maybe even something more. How could he have brought himself to do what he did, he really doesn't know himself. All he knows is he'd rather die than face Squall again. Especially after that incident in Squall's dorm.
Seifer let go of him. He fell, and sat crumpled on the ground,
"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." Zell began, hanging his head in shame,
"I didn't know what...well we were both drunk...and..." He continued saying random things, just letting it all out, telling Seifer everything...he had to tell someone.
He looked up.
Seifer was looking down at him, he's anger somewhat subsided due to the one he so fondly calls Chickenwuss' weak state.
"And I don't know what to do or say. And I feel...so bad." Zell's voice quivered, from fear, sadness, confusion, and guilt, "He committed suicide because of me."
"He 'tried' to commit suicide because of you. And Rinoa." Seifer added between gritted teeth, "I wouldn't be surprised if she wasn't drunk." He muttered more quietly.
Zell looked up at Seifer in silence, and his eyes began to well up with tears.
'Here come the waterworks.' Seifer was almost taken aback by that thought. He felt so sorry for Zell, he didn't know why exactly, he pretty much deserved what he got.
'But does anyone really deserve to despise themselves?'
He knew Zell was on the brink of suicide. Not surprisingly, Rinoa was faring considerably better.
He began crying, "All...I ever wanted...was for someone...to care about me."
Seifer nodded, understandingly. All he wanted was an apology, he got so much more. He had underestimated the young martial artist.
"And...I was...drunk." He was forcing the words out between tears and gasping for air, "and I really... only...I've only ever... loved Squall..."
Zell's eyes widened as he realised what he had just admitted to, and Seifer's widened in shock.
'He loves...Squall?'
'My...Squall?' Seifer's mouth dropped open but as soon as he realised it he quickly clamped it shut and stared at Zell, trying to contemplate what he might be thinking.
They sat in stunned silence for a while before Seifer said, "...Go on."
"I...you don't hate me?" Zell shook that thought away, "I mean you're not going to tease me?"
Seifer scrunched up his face in confusion, "Why would I?"
"Well...because...you're you." Zell blabbed on, "And I'm gay..."
And Seifer understood. He thought Seifer was so stunned because he was gay. Seifer might have if he wasn't the way he was...but even so...it's a preferation, a state of mind. There was nothing wrong with being gay. He was convinced of that. So was Quistis, who he had gone to for advice before...when he was having the fantasies about Squall...before the suicide incident.
'He doesn't know...and if this were a normal situation...' Seifer began to battle with himself, on whether or not to tell Zell about himself.
"And aren't you going to say something?" Zell asked, fresh tears filling his eyes.
"So am I."
"What?!" Zell gasped.
"So'm I." Seifer leaned up against the wall and sighed.
"You're what?" Zell asked again, not believing his ears.
"I'm gay, goddamnit Zell are you that dense?!" Seifer stood up straight only to be greeted by numerous gasps behind him. He turned around, and there, standing at Zell's dorm's doorway, were Irvine, Selphie, Rinoa, and a very smug Quistis.
"Seifer?" Selphie asked slowly.
And Seifer's cheeks flushed a deep crimson and he rushed out of the room.
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Author's Note: *bum bum bum!*
I know this was really short but for 1 scene it was my longest, it would just sorta ruin the effect if i continued this chapter.
Well plz R&R!!
And stay tuned for the next chapter of:
"Paralysed"
Same FF time
Same FF channel
*bumbumbum!*
'
Would you help me stand if I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day,
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
'You are my Angel, Seifer Almasy.'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Seifer held Zell up against the wall with one hand, threatening to mutilate him with his gunblade should he try to get away, or call for help.
"What are you talking about...!?" Zell was trying to squirm out of Seifer's grasp. This was happening to him a lot lately.
"You know what I'm talking about." Seifer growled, "I know what you did, and I want to hear it from you."
Zell was hit with realisation as he stopped squirming, and looked into Seifer's eyes. He'd almost be sexy if he wasn't constantly taunting people, and picking fights. But how could he know? Know about what happened...? "You...you know what...?"
"C'mon" Seifer interrupted bitterly, "Continue..."
'Chickenwuss doesn't have feelings anyways. No one with any sense of humanity could sleep with his best friends girlfriend and feel nothing but fear and reluctancy. He knew what he had gotten himself into, but he didn't care about Squall.'
The smaller blonde went limp. He felt so evil. He loved Squall, as his best friend, and maybe even something more. How could he have brought himself to do what he did, he really doesn't know himself. All he knows is he'd rather die than face Squall again. Especially after that incident in Squall's dorm.
Seifer let go of him. He fell, and sat crumpled on the ground,
"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." Zell began, hanging his head in shame,
"I didn't know what...well we were both drunk...and..." He continued saying random things, just letting it all out, telling Seifer everything...he had to tell someone.
He looked up.
Seifer was looking down at him, he's anger somewhat subsided due to the one he so fondly calls Chickenwuss' weak state.
"And I don't know what to do or say. And I feel...so bad." Zell's voice quivered, from fear, sadness, confusion, and guilt, "He committed suicide because of me."
"He 'tried' to commit suicide because of you. And Rinoa." Seifer added between gritted teeth, "I wouldn't be surprised if she wasn't drunk." He muttered more quietly.
Zell looked up at Seifer in silence, and his eyes began to well up with tears.
'Here come the waterworks.' Seifer was almost taken aback by that thought. He felt so sorry for Zell, he didn't know why exactly, he pretty much deserved what he got.
'But does anyone really deserve to despise themselves?'
He knew Zell was on the brink of suicide. Not surprisingly, Rinoa was faring considerably better.
He began crying, "All...I ever wanted...was for someone...to care about me."
Seifer nodded, understandingly. All he wanted was an apology, he got so much more. He had underestimated the young martial artist.
"And...I was...drunk." He was forcing the words out between tears and gasping for air, "and I really... only...I've only ever... loved Squall..."
Zell's eyes widened as he realised what he had just admitted to, and Seifer's widened in shock.
'He loves...Squall?'
'My...Squall?' Seifer's mouth dropped open but as soon as he realised it he quickly clamped it shut and stared at Zell, trying to contemplate what he might be thinking.
They sat in stunned silence for a while before Seifer said, "...Go on."
"I...you don't hate me?" Zell shook that thought away, "I mean you're not going to tease me?"
Seifer scrunched up his face in confusion, "Why would I?"
"Well...because...you're you." Zell blabbed on, "And I'm gay..."
And Seifer understood. He thought Seifer was so stunned because he was gay. Seifer might have if he wasn't the way he was...but even so...it's a preferation, a state of mind. There was nothing wrong with being gay. He was convinced of that. So was Quistis, who he had gone to for advice before...when he was having the fantasies about Squall...before the suicide incident.
'He doesn't know...and if this were a normal situation...' Seifer began to battle with himself, on whether or not to tell Zell about himself.
"And aren't you going to say something?" Zell asked, fresh tears filling his eyes.
"So am I."
"What?!" Zell gasped.
"So'm I." Seifer leaned up against the wall and sighed.
"You're what?" Zell asked again, not believing his ears.
"I'm gay, goddamnit Zell are you that dense?!" Seifer stood up straight only to be greeted by numerous gasps behind him. He turned around, and there, standing at Zell's dorm's doorway, were Irvine, Selphie, Rinoa, and a very smug Quistis.
"Seifer?" Selphie asked slowly.
And Seifer's cheeks flushed a deep crimson and he rushed out of the room.
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Author's Note: *bum bum bum!*
I know this was really short but for 1 scene it was my longest, it would just sorta ruin the effect if i continued this chapter.
Well plz R&R!!
And stay tuned for the next chapter of:
"Paralysed"
Same FF time
Same FF channel
*bumbumbum!*
'