Kodomo No Omocha 2 Chapter 3
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha.
A/N: Right. I have decided to write about how Akito and Sana live apart from eachother instead of skipping a year till when Akito comes back to Japan.'
Betrayal
"Well, no we can't. I am going to commit suicide" Gacha-kun says in the calmest voice Sana had ever heard.
"Whaaaaat!!!!!" Sana yells into the phone, "What are you talking about!"
"Well, it's pretty pathetic actually. You see, I realized it after I spoke to you. She was my life. I was doing nothing of any significance except doing good things to make her happy. And now that she dumped me, and she is gone, I have nothing. I have no life. I have nothing to live for. So I am killing myself to prevent further grief."
"...." Sana is speechless. Speechless because of how calm he sounds while saying these horrible things. And also at how well he has thought this through. "Are you...." she says in a low voice.
"Crazy? Oh, no. I am perfectly fine. Actually I am thinking a lot clearer then I have ever thought before. I can finally see it all. How sad I was. How much I loved her...."
"But...you can't kill yourself!" Sana shouts beggining to get her fight back, "You can't!"
"Sure I can. I am going to soon. I am gonna try not to cause such a big commotion by doing it alone, where no one will see. Unfortunatley I can't bury myself after I do it so my body will be discovered after a while. Oh, and I will put that it is not your fault that I commited suicide in my suicide note. If I don't some magazine might start rumors about your radio show. I would hate to do that...."
"What about your parents? How will they feel? Don't you have a sister?" Sana says.
"My parents will not even notice I am dead until my body is found. They don't care about me. They are never home, and when they are, they try to leave as soon as possible. They hate eachother and they hate me."
"What about your sister?" Sana says, but deep in her mind she is beggining to think there's no hope.
"I thought of her. We used to help eachother out. We used to cry on eachothers shoulders and confort eachother. But now, she lost it. She is never home either. Always getting drunk. She has tried to commit suicide a couple of times. If she isn't going to stay for me, why should I stay for her?"
"But..." Sana says but cannot find anything else to say. Then her phone beeps telling her it is almost out of batteries. "Argh, my phone is running out of batteries. Tell me where you are! I need to talk to you face to face."
"I can't do that. I told you I want to do this alone so I won't make a commotion."
"Just tell me!" Sana says. She then notices the sound coming out of her phone along with Gacha-kun's voice. "Are you on a train?"
"Yes, actually. I have to get off now, goodbye."
"Wait wait! I need to ask one more thing then I will let you die!" Sana says. She had to keep him on the phone until she hears the train announcer anounce what stop it is.
"What is it?"
"You have to promise to be honest." Sana says, trying to buy some time.
"Okay"
Sana tries to think of a question that sounds important. "Ummm, how long have your parents been like this?"
"About two years"
"And your sister?"
"About a year"
"So you have been living in this chaos for about a year right?" Sana says as she hears the brakes of the train on the other side of the line.
"Well, yes. I have. Now that I think of it, it's been a pretty long time."
"So what kept you going for that year?" Sana asks in hope for something to change his mind about suicide.
"My girlfriend....."
"Oh" Sana says. 'I forgot about her...' she thinks.
"This is (hmmm, where does Kodocha take place anyway?) Shirohama. This is Shirohama" says the train announcer on the other side of the line.
"Well I have to get off. Good bye." He doesn't seem to notice the train announcer giving away where he was going.
"Wait wait!" Sana shouts but the phone goes dead. For two reasons. One, he probably hung up, but also because Sana's phone went out of batteries.
"WHAT AM I GONNA DO!?" Sana shouts at no one in particular. 'I have to stop him' she thins, 'I have to go to Shirohama and stop him. I can't let him die. I have to stop him!' She then starts running to the nearest train station.
Sana get's to the train station. She buys a ticket and goes to the platform at where the train is going to come. She sits on one of the benches but right when she does, her train comes. So she stands up, takes a deep breath and boards the train. It is not very crowded so she easily sits down. Then she begins to think.
'I should have went back home and told Rei-kun and Mama. Rei-kun could have drove me there... Why didn't I? Or call them from a public phone... I was thinking straight....' Sana then rests her head on her hand. 'What am I going to do...." Sana thinks, ' Maybe I should go back and tell someone.. No. I need to stop him as soon as possible.' She then looks up at the train map. Shirohama was pretty far. 'Twenty three stops...' She thinks, and then starts to doze of to sleep.
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"She'll be here"
"Yeah she's probably late"
"She usually is"
"She'll be here"
This was Tsuyoshi, Aya, and Fuuka talking to Akito at Hamburger Harry's. Of course. the girl they are talking about is Sana.
"Don't worry Akito-kun, she's be here" Tsuyoshi says.
"I am not worried" Akito says cooly. "If she can't make it, she can't make it."
"She's going to make it. Don't worry." Fuuka says.
"I'm not worried!" Akito says louder getting frustrated, obviously worried.
Aya, Tsuyoshi, and Fuuka all look at eachother and decide to shut up.
"Let's get food" Fuuks says to get everyone's mind off of Sana.
"Sure!" Aya says.
"Alright, let's go." Tsuyoshi says.
"I am not hungry" Akito says.
They all look at Akito, and then at eachother. They each knew what the other was thinking but decided not to say anything.
"Okay then, we'll be on line." Fuuka says and walks over to the line to get food followed by Tsyoshi and Aya.
Akito looks at the three of them as they walk over to the line and start talking to eachother. Then he takes out the small box out of his backpack and examines it. He opens to box and stares at the necklace before shutting it tightly and throwing it back into his bag. He then puts his head down and drifts off to sleep.
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"This is Shirohama, this is Shirohama" The train announcer says.
"Huh.." Sana says slowly waking up, "Wha.... What!!!" She then get's up and runs off the train just in time.
"Phew, good thing I made it" Sana says, relieved. Now, I should call Rei-kun. She walks over to a public phone and reaches into her pocket for her wallet.
"......"
".............."
"........................."
"Uh oh" Sana says after a while of searching all of her pockets. "Oh, no......"
Her wallet had fell out of her pocket while she was sleeping on the train.
"Noooooooooooooooooo!" She shouts attracting the attention of many people. Then she suddenly remembers that she is famous, stops shouting, and runs out of the station before anyone can get a clear look at her. After she gets outside she looks around and starts to think.
'So now what....' She thinks to herself while looking for any traces of where Gacha-kun could have gone. 'I can't call Rei-kun to come so I guess I have to find him and stop him myself..... Now let's see... He said somewhere alone....'
Sana looks around. This was the middle of a city.
'I was thinking a forest or mountain or something would be around here...' Sana thought, 'Well, I guess I will just walk around'
Sana starts walking, careful not to show her face too much and looks around.
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"Akito-kun, wait. She'll be here!" Tsuyoshi says as Akito get's up to leave.
"Yeah" Aya says, "Come one, you know she wouldn't miss seeing you unless there was a good reason!"
"I have to go" Akito said firmly, "I am going to miss my plane".
"Just wait five more minutes" Fuuka says.
"No. I have to leave now" Akito says again and walks out.
The three of them sigh and sit down.
"She could have called..." Aya says.
"I wonder what happend, she wouldn't miss this for anything..." Tsuyoshi says.
Fuuka just sits there thinking about Sana and Akito. Then she stands up and says "I am going with him"
"What?" Tsuyoshi says.
"I am going to the airport with him. There some... things I want to ask him" Fuuka says and runs after Akito.
"Wonder what she's talking about.." Tsuyoshi says.
"She's probably going to try to make things better with him and Sana-chan" Aya replies.
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After a little while of walking Sana sees a police station. For a split second she thinks she should tell the police but the thought suddenly diminishes when she thinks about Gacha-kun's feelings. She then get's an idea and walks into the police station. (A/N: I don't know if people know what I am talking about, but when I say police station I mean the ones in Japan that are really small and have only one or two policemen inside.)
"Excuse me?" Sana says as she get's in and sees a policeman.
"Yes? Can I help you?" The policeman responds.
"Well, you see..." Sana starts and then takes off her hood, "I'm Kurata Sana."
"Wow, the real thing?" The policeman says, "You are! My god, I am such a big fan of yours."
"Well, I was wondering if you could help me?" Sana asks.
"Yes, sure. Anything." The policeman says.
"Umm... There's this new show. And in it there's someone who commits suicide. So we need a place for us to shoot the scene. I was wonering if there's somewhere around here that seems like a place someone would go if they wanted to commits suicide?" Sana says while thinking 'I am so sorry for lying. I will tell you the truth after this is all over'.
"Well...." The policeman says, "I guess I could reccomend a few places.... Well, if you are shooting at night you could try the beach at the other side of town?"
"I think it's going to be in the day." Sana says.
"Hmmm, there aren't many places where someone could be alone here.. You could try the real estate across the street and see if there are any vacant homes around here." the policeman says.
"Okay, I'll do that. Thanks for your help?" Sana replies and starts to walk out.
"Wait, I'll come with you so you don't have to explain to them the show and everything. Your not supposed to expose too much about it right?" The policeman asks.
"Huh? Oh, umm, yeah...." Sana says uncertainly.
"Alright" The policeman says and walks across the street with Sana.
"And why do you need this information?" The woman at the real estate office says.
"Umm.." Sana replies glancing over at the policeman. She had her hood on again.
"It's police business" The policeman says.
The woman looks up at the policeman a little suspiciously but checks for the houses anyway.
"Well, let's see... There's two on the edge of town, that's pretty far from here.. Oh, there's two near the train station..."
"Which station?" Sana asks.
"Hara" The woman says.
"Oh..."
"There's... another one near the Shirohama station" The woman says.
"Okay" Sana says suddenly "I think that will be enough, thanks".
The woman looks up at Sana and then says "Alright" and closes the book she was looking through.
Sana walks out of the office with the police officer. Once they are out she tells him, "Thanks for everything. I think I will go now"
"Okay, umm" The policeman says.
"Yes?" Sana asks.
"Can I have your autograph?" The police officer asks under his breath while holding out a piece of paper.
Sana looks startled and then smiles. "Sure" She says and signs the piece of paper he was holding and then gives it to him.
"Thanks!" The officer says happily.
"No problem. Well, goodbye" Sana says.
"Bye" The policeman says and goes back to the station.
Sana starts walking back toward the station, her gloomy mood returning...
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"Aki!" Fuka shouts out at Akito as he put's his bag into the Taxi. He looks up and sees Fuuka.
Fuuka runs up to Akito and stops a moment to catch her breath. Then she says "Can I come with you to the airport?"
"I want to be alone" Akito says.
"I need to talk to you" Fuuka says.
"...."
"Please?" Fuuka persists, "It's really important".
"It's going to be about Sana. I will figure it out myself, don't get yourself into it" Akito says.
"No you won't. Just please, let me talk to you."
At this point the Taxi driver looked like he was getting a little annoyed so Akito finally gave in and told her that she could come with him. They both get into the Taxi.
"Well?" Akito says as they are driving.
"Huh?" Fuuka says looking over at Akito.
'What did you want to tell me?"
"Oh.." Fuuka says looking away from Akito and staring forward, "Are you mad at her?"
Akito starts to stare out the window, thinking, and after a while says "Not really"
"I see...." Fuuka says still not looking at him.
There is an uneasy silence between them. Suprisingly the one to break it was Akito.
"Maybe a little..."
"She should have called" Fuuka says.
Akito turns his eyes away from the window and looks over at Fuuka a little suprised. He then looks back out the window and says "I guess..."
There was silence for the rest of the ride. They arrive at the airport and Akito paid the driver for the trip here and the trip back for Fuuka. Fuuka insisted she could pay but Akito declined.
"Well, goodbye" Akito says.
"Aki" Fuua says softly.
"Hm?" Akito says.
"I...I still love you Aki" Fuuka says, "I love you more than Sana. And I would never do anything to hurt you."
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A/N: Right. Not such a great place to end it but hey.. I reread it afterwards and felt the whole "Looking for Gacha-kun" was getting old. I wanted to end it more dramatically with Fuuka confesing her love to Akito but I felt that would be ooc. Well anyway, what a confusing chapter.... Good Bye!
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha.
A/N: Right. I have decided to write about how Akito and Sana live apart from eachother instead of skipping a year till when Akito comes back to Japan.'
Betrayal
"Well, no we can't. I am going to commit suicide" Gacha-kun says in the calmest voice Sana had ever heard.
"Whaaaaat!!!!!" Sana yells into the phone, "What are you talking about!"
"Well, it's pretty pathetic actually. You see, I realized it after I spoke to you. She was my life. I was doing nothing of any significance except doing good things to make her happy. And now that she dumped me, and she is gone, I have nothing. I have no life. I have nothing to live for. So I am killing myself to prevent further grief."
"...." Sana is speechless. Speechless because of how calm he sounds while saying these horrible things. And also at how well he has thought this through. "Are you...." she says in a low voice.
"Crazy? Oh, no. I am perfectly fine. Actually I am thinking a lot clearer then I have ever thought before. I can finally see it all. How sad I was. How much I loved her...."
"But...you can't kill yourself!" Sana shouts beggining to get her fight back, "You can't!"
"Sure I can. I am going to soon. I am gonna try not to cause such a big commotion by doing it alone, where no one will see. Unfortunatley I can't bury myself after I do it so my body will be discovered after a while. Oh, and I will put that it is not your fault that I commited suicide in my suicide note. If I don't some magazine might start rumors about your radio show. I would hate to do that...."
"What about your parents? How will they feel? Don't you have a sister?" Sana says.
"My parents will not even notice I am dead until my body is found. They don't care about me. They are never home, and when they are, they try to leave as soon as possible. They hate eachother and they hate me."
"What about your sister?" Sana says, but deep in her mind she is beggining to think there's no hope.
"I thought of her. We used to help eachother out. We used to cry on eachothers shoulders and confort eachother. But now, she lost it. She is never home either. Always getting drunk. She has tried to commit suicide a couple of times. If she isn't going to stay for me, why should I stay for her?"
"But..." Sana says but cannot find anything else to say. Then her phone beeps telling her it is almost out of batteries. "Argh, my phone is running out of batteries. Tell me where you are! I need to talk to you face to face."
"I can't do that. I told you I want to do this alone so I won't make a commotion."
"Just tell me!" Sana says. She then notices the sound coming out of her phone along with Gacha-kun's voice. "Are you on a train?"
"Yes, actually. I have to get off now, goodbye."
"Wait wait! I need to ask one more thing then I will let you die!" Sana says. She had to keep him on the phone until she hears the train announcer anounce what stop it is.
"What is it?"
"You have to promise to be honest." Sana says, trying to buy some time.
"Okay"
Sana tries to think of a question that sounds important. "Ummm, how long have your parents been like this?"
"About two years"
"And your sister?"
"About a year"
"So you have been living in this chaos for about a year right?" Sana says as she hears the brakes of the train on the other side of the line.
"Well, yes. I have. Now that I think of it, it's been a pretty long time."
"So what kept you going for that year?" Sana asks in hope for something to change his mind about suicide.
"My girlfriend....."
"Oh" Sana says. 'I forgot about her...' she thinks.
"This is (hmmm, where does Kodocha take place anyway?) Shirohama. This is Shirohama" says the train announcer on the other side of the line.
"Well I have to get off. Good bye." He doesn't seem to notice the train announcer giving away where he was going.
"Wait wait!" Sana shouts but the phone goes dead. For two reasons. One, he probably hung up, but also because Sana's phone went out of batteries.
"WHAT AM I GONNA DO!?" Sana shouts at no one in particular. 'I have to stop him' she thins, 'I have to go to Shirohama and stop him. I can't let him die. I have to stop him!' She then starts running to the nearest train station.
Sana get's to the train station. She buys a ticket and goes to the platform at where the train is going to come. She sits on one of the benches but right when she does, her train comes. So she stands up, takes a deep breath and boards the train. It is not very crowded so she easily sits down. Then she begins to think.
'I should have went back home and told Rei-kun and Mama. Rei-kun could have drove me there... Why didn't I? Or call them from a public phone... I was thinking straight....' Sana then rests her head on her hand. 'What am I going to do...." Sana thinks, ' Maybe I should go back and tell someone.. No. I need to stop him as soon as possible.' She then looks up at the train map. Shirohama was pretty far. 'Twenty three stops...' She thinks, and then starts to doze of to sleep.
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"She'll be here"
"Yeah she's probably late"
"She usually is"
"She'll be here"
This was Tsuyoshi, Aya, and Fuuka talking to Akito at Hamburger Harry's. Of course. the girl they are talking about is Sana.
"Don't worry Akito-kun, she's be here" Tsuyoshi says.
"I am not worried" Akito says cooly. "If she can't make it, she can't make it."
"She's going to make it. Don't worry." Fuuka says.
"I'm not worried!" Akito says louder getting frustrated, obviously worried.
Aya, Tsuyoshi, and Fuuka all look at eachother and decide to shut up.
"Let's get food" Fuuks says to get everyone's mind off of Sana.
"Sure!" Aya says.
"Alright, let's go." Tsuyoshi says.
"I am not hungry" Akito says.
They all look at Akito, and then at eachother. They each knew what the other was thinking but decided not to say anything.
"Okay then, we'll be on line." Fuuka says and walks over to the line to get food followed by Tsyoshi and Aya.
Akito looks at the three of them as they walk over to the line and start talking to eachother. Then he takes out the small box out of his backpack and examines it. He opens to box and stares at the necklace before shutting it tightly and throwing it back into his bag. He then puts his head down and drifts off to sleep.
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"This is Shirohama, this is Shirohama" The train announcer says.
"Huh.." Sana says slowly waking up, "Wha.... What!!!" She then get's up and runs off the train just in time.
"Phew, good thing I made it" Sana says, relieved. Now, I should call Rei-kun. She walks over to a public phone and reaches into her pocket for her wallet.
"......"
".............."
"........................."
"Uh oh" Sana says after a while of searching all of her pockets. "Oh, no......"
Her wallet had fell out of her pocket while she was sleeping on the train.
"Noooooooooooooooooo!" She shouts attracting the attention of many people. Then she suddenly remembers that she is famous, stops shouting, and runs out of the station before anyone can get a clear look at her. After she gets outside she looks around and starts to think.
'So now what....' She thinks to herself while looking for any traces of where Gacha-kun could have gone. 'I can't call Rei-kun to come so I guess I have to find him and stop him myself..... Now let's see... He said somewhere alone....'
Sana looks around. This was the middle of a city.
'I was thinking a forest or mountain or something would be around here...' Sana thought, 'Well, I guess I will just walk around'
Sana starts walking, careful not to show her face too much and looks around.
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"Akito-kun, wait. She'll be here!" Tsuyoshi says as Akito get's up to leave.
"Yeah" Aya says, "Come one, you know she wouldn't miss seeing you unless there was a good reason!"
"I have to go" Akito said firmly, "I am going to miss my plane".
"Just wait five more minutes" Fuuka says.
"No. I have to leave now" Akito says again and walks out.
The three of them sigh and sit down.
"She could have called..." Aya says.
"I wonder what happend, she wouldn't miss this for anything..." Tsuyoshi says.
Fuuka just sits there thinking about Sana and Akito. Then she stands up and says "I am going with him"
"What?" Tsuyoshi says.
"I am going to the airport with him. There some... things I want to ask him" Fuuka says and runs after Akito.
"Wonder what she's talking about.." Tsuyoshi says.
"She's probably going to try to make things better with him and Sana-chan" Aya replies.
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After a little while of walking Sana sees a police station. For a split second she thinks she should tell the police but the thought suddenly diminishes when she thinks about Gacha-kun's feelings. She then get's an idea and walks into the police station. (A/N: I don't know if people know what I am talking about, but when I say police station I mean the ones in Japan that are really small and have only one or two policemen inside.)
"Excuse me?" Sana says as she get's in and sees a policeman.
"Yes? Can I help you?" The policeman responds.
"Well, you see..." Sana starts and then takes off her hood, "I'm Kurata Sana."
"Wow, the real thing?" The policeman says, "You are! My god, I am such a big fan of yours."
"Well, I was wondering if you could help me?" Sana asks.
"Yes, sure. Anything." The policeman says.
"Umm... There's this new show. And in it there's someone who commits suicide. So we need a place for us to shoot the scene. I was wonering if there's somewhere around here that seems like a place someone would go if they wanted to commits suicide?" Sana says while thinking 'I am so sorry for lying. I will tell you the truth after this is all over'.
"Well...." The policeman says, "I guess I could reccomend a few places.... Well, if you are shooting at night you could try the beach at the other side of town?"
"I think it's going to be in the day." Sana says.
"Hmmm, there aren't many places where someone could be alone here.. You could try the real estate across the street and see if there are any vacant homes around here." the policeman says.
"Okay, I'll do that. Thanks for your help?" Sana replies and starts to walk out.
"Wait, I'll come with you so you don't have to explain to them the show and everything. Your not supposed to expose too much about it right?" The policeman asks.
"Huh? Oh, umm, yeah...." Sana says uncertainly.
"Alright" The policeman says and walks across the street with Sana.
"And why do you need this information?" The woman at the real estate office says.
"Umm.." Sana replies glancing over at the policeman. She had her hood on again.
"It's police business" The policeman says.
The woman looks up at the policeman a little suspiciously but checks for the houses anyway.
"Well, let's see... There's two on the edge of town, that's pretty far from here.. Oh, there's two near the train station..."
"Which station?" Sana asks.
"Hara" The woman says.
"Oh..."
"There's... another one near the Shirohama station" The woman says.
"Okay" Sana says suddenly "I think that will be enough, thanks".
The woman looks up at Sana and then says "Alright" and closes the book she was looking through.
Sana walks out of the office with the police officer. Once they are out she tells him, "Thanks for everything. I think I will go now"
"Okay, umm" The policeman says.
"Yes?" Sana asks.
"Can I have your autograph?" The police officer asks under his breath while holding out a piece of paper.
Sana looks startled and then smiles. "Sure" She says and signs the piece of paper he was holding and then gives it to him.
"Thanks!" The officer says happily.
"No problem. Well, goodbye" Sana says.
"Bye" The policeman says and goes back to the station.
Sana starts walking back toward the station, her gloomy mood returning...
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"Aki!" Fuka shouts out at Akito as he put's his bag into the Taxi. He looks up and sees Fuuka.
Fuuka runs up to Akito and stops a moment to catch her breath. Then she says "Can I come with you to the airport?"
"I want to be alone" Akito says.
"I need to talk to you" Fuuka says.
"...."
"Please?" Fuuka persists, "It's really important".
"It's going to be about Sana. I will figure it out myself, don't get yourself into it" Akito says.
"No you won't. Just please, let me talk to you."
At this point the Taxi driver looked like he was getting a little annoyed so Akito finally gave in and told her that she could come with him. They both get into the Taxi.
"Well?" Akito says as they are driving.
"Huh?" Fuuka says looking over at Akito.
'What did you want to tell me?"
"Oh.." Fuuka says looking away from Akito and staring forward, "Are you mad at her?"
Akito starts to stare out the window, thinking, and after a while says "Not really"
"I see...." Fuuka says still not looking at him.
There is an uneasy silence between them. Suprisingly the one to break it was Akito.
"Maybe a little..."
"She should have called" Fuuka says.
Akito turns his eyes away from the window and looks over at Fuuka a little suprised. He then looks back out the window and says "I guess..."
There was silence for the rest of the ride. They arrive at the airport and Akito paid the driver for the trip here and the trip back for Fuuka. Fuuka insisted she could pay but Akito declined.
"Well, goodbye" Akito says.
"Aki" Fuua says softly.
"Hm?" Akito says.
"I...I still love you Aki" Fuuka says, "I love you more than Sana. And I would never do anything to hurt you."
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A/N: Right. Not such a great place to end it but hey.. I reread it afterwards and felt the whole "Looking for Gacha-kun" was getting old. I wanted to end it more dramatically with Fuuka confesing her love to Akito but I felt that would be ooc. Well anyway, what a confusing chapter.... Good Bye!