Kodomo No Omocha 2 Chapter 4
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha.
A/N: My god! I was supposed to write a chapter every week for this but I have been so lazy! That and school. But anyway, I finally finished this chapter. The next one may take even longer. Anyway please R+R!
Sana stops as she reaches Shirohama station. She spots the three story vacant apartment. She looks up at it and notices it is actually pretty run down. The paint is peeling and the windows are boarded up. The door must have been boarded up but there was a hole in it that was small, but most people could probably crawl through it. Probably the work of some teenagers to get a kick out of something.
Sana walks up to the building and looks up at it one more time before entering. It is pretty dark inside but there are shards of light creeping through the little spaces in the windows where there was no wood. The person had not done a very good job in boarding them up.
Sana checks each room and then walks up the stairs. Again, she checks around to find nothing and goes up the the third floor. Again, nothing. She looks up and there is a unstable looking ladder leading up to the roof.
'Maybe he's not here' Sana thinks as she slowly climbs up the ladder. She reaches the top with no problem and get's onto the roof. She looks around and sees A boy sitting on the roof looking in the opposite direction of her.
"Gacha-kun!" Sana shouts.
The figure turns around and is met by a smack from The "Mysterious Appear out of nowhere" Hammer.
"Sana-chan..?" Gacha-kun says a bit confused and shocked.
"What are you doing! You can't kill yourself. We have to talk first!" Sana says and then suddenly gasps as she sees blood coming out of his wrist.
Suprisingly Gacha-kun tries to cover his wrist up and clean the blood off.
"Sana-chan, I told you not to come... How did you find me anyway?"
"Gacha-kun, your wrist!" Sana shouts.
"My name is Ryo" Gacha-kun says.
"Ryo-kun your wrist!" Sana shouts again.
"Just Ryo is fine. Or you can call me by my last name Nishino."
"That doesn't matter! Your wrist!" Sana shouts getting frustrated, "We have to get you to a hospital, c'mon. Then we can talk."
"I'm sorry, this is why I didn't want you to come. Nothing can change my mind. Not you, not my parents, not my sister, not me. I am dying now. And that's the end of it."
"...You can't..." Sana says with tears in her eyes, "You can't! What about your girlfriend? We ca-"
"Ex-girlfriend" Ryo corrects.
"Whatever! What about her? We can go talk to her."
"I don't want to talk to her. I don't care. Please Sana-chan just leave."
"No" Sana says, "I'll leave if you come with me.."
"No"
"Please?" Sana says, now crying, thinking the situation is getting more and more hopeless.
"No, look Sana-chan. You aren't going to change my mind. You can't make me. You can't make me live. You can sit here and argue with me until I die but it won't make me live. You can't force me to do anything. If I want to die, I want to die. And that's that. So just leave. I know you Sana-chan. I am a really big fan of you and I know how cheerfull and everything you are. I know something like this will hurt you a lot. So just leave and pretend you never saw anything." Ryo says softly, "Please, leave."
"Ryo...kun..." Sana says calmly "That's....That's really really selfish. If you know me you should have known the reaction that I would have if someone told me they were going to commit suicide. And I think you did know that. And deep inside you want to be saved. You wanted me to come here and talk you out of it. So just please, come with me to a hospital. And then we will talk and if things are still hopeless for you after that, you can commit suicide."
"....."
Sana stares at Ryo, and Ryo back at her. Both of them are speechless. Both of them are stubborn.
"And If I go with you now the next time, and there will be a next time, I commit suicide you won't stop me?" Ryo asks.
"Yes, just please come with me" Sana responds.
"Fine....." Ryo says and starts to get up.
Sana goes to help him but Ryo declines.
"Let's go" Ryo says as he walks toward the ladder leading down.
Sana walks next to him cautiously making sure he doesn't fall.
"You go down first so if I fall you can help me" Ryo says a little demanding.
"Fine" and with that Sana starts to climb down the ladder. Halfway down she yells to him "You can start climbing down now!"
Ryo looks down and then slowly positions himself to the climbing position. He then starts to go down. By the time he is a quarter way down Sana is already at the bottom.
'I hope he doesn't fall.... Will I be able to catch him...." Sana thinks as she nervously watches Ryo.
Ryo looks down at Sana and then says "Watch out"
"??"
Ryo then starts stamping on the ladder and within a few seconds the bottom part of the ladder falls. He uses the hand that is uninjured to lift himself up so his legs reach the remaining part of the ladder. He then climbs back up and looks down at Sana to make sure she is okay.
"Ryo-kun!" Sana yells dusty, but in one piece.
"I'm sorry Sana-chan but I have made up my mind. Please don't call the police. If I hear them I will jump off this building. Don't call them, just go home and pretend this never happend. I don't want to make a commotion out of this." Ryo says and then disapears from sight as he walks onto the roof.
"Wait! Wait!! RYO-KUN!!!!!" Sana shouts.
No answer.
"Ryo-kun!!"
.........
"Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun!!!!!!!!!!" Sana shouts loudly.
.......
She begins to panic.
"Ryo-kuuuuuuuun!!!!!!!!!!!"
Her shouts were met only by silence.
She then falls to her knees and closes her eyes. She starts tries to think of a way to get up to the roof but her panic abd fear for Ryo blocks her thoughts. And as the thoughts begin to overwhelm her, her eyes slowly start to tear.
'I couldn't save him' was all she could think.
She shuts her eyes close in an attempt to stop the tears and the thoughts but to no avail. Instead she envisions mental pictures of her version the reactions of various people if she told them what happend.
She could see Rei-kun and her mother shaking their heads slowly ashamed of her.
She saw Tsuyoshi and Aya saying "Why did you go down the ladder first"
She could see Fuuka saying "What good is your radio station if you can't save the people who really need help"
All her friends, ashamed of her. Ashamed of what she did. Ashamed of how stupid she was.
And last she saw Akito just staring down at the ground with a blank look. She never could read what he was thinking... He then slowly looks up at her and mutters "Baka..."
At this point she was beginning to sob.
"Baka..." Akito continued "Do you really think that's what they would say?"
Sana then heres a thump from above and she suddenly opens her eyes.
'He must have fallen unconscious' she thinks and then stands up. 'What am I doing... Why am I giving up!'
Sana then runs down the stairs and out of the house. She thinks for a moment and then runs to the police station that she previously went to. The whole way there she was mentally kicking herself for not asking the police officer for help. Or borrowing a phone.
'Why am I so stupid when I'm worried' she thinks as she reaches the station and runs in.
A different officer was there this time and she explained herself to him. At first the officer doesn't believe her. Then she recognizes her as Kurata Sana.
"Are you Kurata Sana?"
"Yes, but that's not the point. My friend is on the roof of a-"
"I don't think Kurata Sana would lie, would she?"
"Huh?"
"I will get an ambulance and then we'll go there."
Sana's face lights up at these words. She then deeply bows and says "Thank you!" at least a thousand times.
The officer calls the hospital and asks for an ambulance. He asks Sana for the address and she just tells him "It's right near Shirohama station"
After a minute the officer hangs up and then says "Alright let's go"
The two of them go the the building. The ambulance isn't here yet. The officer insists that Sana stays out of the building but she persists and he finally gives up. They both go to the third floor and to the spot where the ladder used to be. There were drops of blood on the floor. He must have fell unconcious near the ladder.
"The blood is coming from the boy I am guessing?" the officer asks.
Sana nods slowly and tries not to think about Ryo-kun lying unconcious on the roof with blood dripping out of his wrist.
The officer quickly looks around the room for another way up and then comes back to Sana.
"There's no other way up. I am going to call the fire department. They can get him down."
"That will take too long!" Sana says.
"There isn't another way. I am going to go call them now." He then begins to walk down the stairs, "Are you coming?"
"Can I stay with him..." Sana says softly.
"Sure" the officer replies and then taking one last look at Sana he walks down and calls the fire department.
Sana was devasted. It had already been too long. Every second that goes by Ryo's life was slipping away farther and farther. She had to get up there and help him. She had to do SOMETHING.
She then looked around and say nothing she could use. Some old furniture, shattered glass, garbage and old books. That was about it. She then looked toward the furniture and then at the bookshelf. She then looked up at the roof.
'I have to do something' and with that she went over and emptied the bookshelf of its remaining contents. She then pushed the bookshelf to where the ladder had been. It was not tall enough. She looked at the remaing furniture and walked over to the 2 sturdiest looking chairs. She picked them both up and brought them over to the shelf. She put one on the floor next to the shelf. She picked up the other chair and climbed onto the chair that was on the floor. She then put the chair she was holding and put it on the top of the shelf. She then started to climb the shelf when the chair under her broke and she fell off of it. She landed on her hand and knee.
"Oooooooooooooooww!" She shouted as she rubbed her wrist. It may have been sprained. She looked at her knee and there was a gash there. It looked pretty deep. Sana slowly got up and wobbled over to the shelf. She tried to climb it but she was unable to with one foot. She then wobbled over to another chair and brought it over. She slowly climed that one and then onto the shelf.
Blood was dripping onto the chair from the roof which made Sana's eyes tear. 'Every second more blood is dripping out' was all she thought about. She climbed ontop of the shelf and then positions the chair right. Slowly she got ontop of the chair, shifting her weight careful. The shelf was creaking and seemed like it could break at any second. She started to stand on the chair but immediatly stopped when she heard a crack. The shelf was giving away. She slowly got up again, with each inch she rose another crack. When she was just about standing she jumped up and reached for the ladder. As she did so the bookshelf gave way and fell to the floor along with the chair.
Sana grabbed onto the ladder but when she did the ladder broke and she fell to the ground. She fell onto the floor, hit her head, and when unconcious.
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"I...I still love you Aki" Fuuka says, "I love you more than Sana. And I would never do anything to hurt you."
Akito was a little stunned to say the least. He had expected she had these thoughts in her head but he had not expected her to same them.
"Fuuka.." he says trying to think of something to say.
"Aki, she's not worth it. All the tears, all the woes, it isn't good for you. You don't need that. You can do better."
"Fuuka..." Akito repeated still unable to say anything else.
Fuuka just stared at Akito waiting for an answer. Akito just stared back speachless. After a while he decided to say something.
"I thought you and Sana had it all figured out" Akito finally said.
"What do you mean?"
"You two... you talked and figured everything out with me and yourselves. And you reached an agreement" Akito elaborated.
"I...we did.. But I can't choose who I love. Little reasons aren't going to make me stop loving someone and neither is guilt. If I love someone I love someone, under any circumstances."
"Even if he's your best friend's boyfriend?" Akito asked.
"I would rather she be happy but not at the expense of your feelings."
Akito sighed, opened his mouth to say something, but then sighed again.
"What happend today probably has a legitimate reason. She probably had work or something." Akito said.
"Why do you think of her as so perfect? Maybe she forgot about you? Maybe her feelings aren't as strong as you are imagining?"
Akito was getting a little angry now. She was talking bad about his girlfriend and she was also getting through to him. She was getting him to be angry at Sana.
"Look" He said a little fiercely, "I have to leave. My plane is leaving. I will figure out what happend today with Sana. Sana and only Sana. It is our business and you don't have to be involved in it. As for you, you know I love her. This is not going to change that no matter how hard you try. I am going now. "
"....."
Akito walks away with his luggage and goes into the airport. Fuuka stands there and watches him until he is out of sight, then gets on the cab, and goes home. Akito keeps walking at a fast pace to the gate where his plane is. The whole time all he could think was 'Why didn't she call...'
He reaches the gate. He boards the plane and finds his seat. It is an aisle seat so he wouldn't have to look out the window. He puts his bad under his chair and then seats in it. He fastens his seat belt, closes his eyes, and goes to sleep.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha.
A/N: My god! I was supposed to write a chapter every week for this but I have been so lazy! That and school. But anyway, I finally finished this chapter. The next one may take even longer. Anyway please R+R!
Sana stops as she reaches Shirohama station. She spots the three story vacant apartment. She looks up at it and notices it is actually pretty run down. The paint is peeling and the windows are boarded up. The door must have been boarded up but there was a hole in it that was small, but most people could probably crawl through it. Probably the work of some teenagers to get a kick out of something.
Sana walks up to the building and looks up at it one more time before entering. It is pretty dark inside but there are shards of light creeping through the little spaces in the windows where there was no wood. The person had not done a very good job in boarding them up.
Sana checks each room and then walks up the stairs. Again, she checks around to find nothing and goes up the the third floor. Again, nothing. She looks up and there is a unstable looking ladder leading up to the roof.
'Maybe he's not here' Sana thinks as she slowly climbs up the ladder. She reaches the top with no problem and get's onto the roof. She looks around and sees A boy sitting on the roof looking in the opposite direction of her.
"Gacha-kun!" Sana shouts.
The figure turns around and is met by a smack from The "Mysterious Appear out of nowhere" Hammer.
"Sana-chan..?" Gacha-kun says a bit confused and shocked.
"What are you doing! You can't kill yourself. We have to talk first!" Sana says and then suddenly gasps as she sees blood coming out of his wrist.
Suprisingly Gacha-kun tries to cover his wrist up and clean the blood off.
"Sana-chan, I told you not to come... How did you find me anyway?"
"Gacha-kun, your wrist!" Sana shouts.
"My name is Ryo" Gacha-kun says.
"Ryo-kun your wrist!" Sana shouts again.
"Just Ryo is fine. Or you can call me by my last name Nishino."
"That doesn't matter! Your wrist!" Sana shouts getting frustrated, "We have to get you to a hospital, c'mon. Then we can talk."
"I'm sorry, this is why I didn't want you to come. Nothing can change my mind. Not you, not my parents, not my sister, not me. I am dying now. And that's the end of it."
"...You can't..." Sana says with tears in her eyes, "You can't! What about your girlfriend? We ca-"
"Ex-girlfriend" Ryo corrects.
"Whatever! What about her? We can go talk to her."
"I don't want to talk to her. I don't care. Please Sana-chan just leave."
"No" Sana says, "I'll leave if you come with me.."
"No"
"Please?" Sana says, now crying, thinking the situation is getting more and more hopeless.
"No, look Sana-chan. You aren't going to change my mind. You can't make me. You can't make me live. You can sit here and argue with me until I die but it won't make me live. You can't force me to do anything. If I want to die, I want to die. And that's that. So just leave. I know you Sana-chan. I am a really big fan of you and I know how cheerfull and everything you are. I know something like this will hurt you a lot. So just leave and pretend you never saw anything." Ryo says softly, "Please, leave."
"Ryo...kun..." Sana says calmly "That's....That's really really selfish. If you know me you should have known the reaction that I would have if someone told me they were going to commit suicide. And I think you did know that. And deep inside you want to be saved. You wanted me to come here and talk you out of it. So just please, come with me to a hospital. And then we will talk and if things are still hopeless for you after that, you can commit suicide."
"....."
Sana stares at Ryo, and Ryo back at her. Both of them are speechless. Both of them are stubborn.
"And If I go with you now the next time, and there will be a next time, I commit suicide you won't stop me?" Ryo asks.
"Yes, just please come with me" Sana responds.
"Fine....." Ryo says and starts to get up.
Sana goes to help him but Ryo declines.
"Let's go" Ryo says as he walks toward the ladder leading down.
Sana walks next to him cautiously making sure he doesn't fall.
"You go down first so if I fall you can help me" Ryo says a little demanding.
"Fine" and with that Sana starts to climb down the ladder. Halfway down she yells to him "You can start climbing down now!"
Ryo looks down and then slowly positions himself to the climbing position. He then starts to go down. By the time he is a quarter way down Sana is already at the bottom.
'I hope he doesn't fall.... Will I be able to catch him...." Sana thinks as she nervously watches Ryo.
Ryo looks down at Sana and then says "Watch out"
"??"
Ryo then starts stamping on the ladder and within a few seconds the bottom part of the ladder falls. He uses the hand that is uninjured to lift himself up so his legs reach the remaining part of the ladder. He then climbs back up and looks down at Sana to make sure she is okay.
"Ryo-kun!" Sana yells dusty, but in one piece.
"I'm sorry Sana-chan but I have made up my mind. Please don't call the police. If I hear them I will jump off this building. Don't call them, just go home and pretend this never happend. I don't want to make a commotion out of this." Ryo says and then disapears from sight as he walks onto the roof.
"Wait! Wait!! RYO-KUN!!!!!" Sana shouts.
No answer.
"Ryo-kun!!"
.........
"Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun! Ryo-kun!!!!!!!!!!" Sana shouts loudly.
.......
She begins to panic.
"Ryo-kuuuuuuuun!!!!!!!!!!!"
Her shouts were met only by silence.
She then falls to her knees and closes her eyes. She starts tries to think of a way to get up to the roof but her panic abd fear for Ryo blocks her thoughts. And as the thoughts begin to overwhelm her, her eyes slowly start to tear.
'I couldn't save him' was all she could think.
She shuts her eyes close in an attempt to stop the tears and the thoughts but to no avail. Instead she envisions mental pictures of her version the reactions of various people if she told them what happend.
She could see Rei-kun and her mother shaking their heads slowly ashamed of her.
She saw Tsuyoshi and Aya saying "Why did you go down the ladder first"
She could see Fuuka saying "What good is your radio station if you can't save the people who really need help"
All her friends, ashamed of her. Ashamed of what she did. Ashamed of how stupid she was.
And last she saw Akito just staring down at the ground with a blank look. She never could read what he was thinking... He then slowly looks up at her and mutters "Baka..."
At this point she was beginning to sob.
"Baka..." Akito continued "Do you really think that's what they would say?"
Sana then heres a thump from above and she suddenly opens her eyes.
'He must have fallen unconscious' she thinks and then stands up. 'What am I doing... Why am I giving up!'
Sana then runs down the stairs and out of the house. She thinks for a moment and then runs to the police station that she previously went to. The whole way there she was mentally kicking herself for not asking the police officer for help. Or borrowing a phone.
'Why am I so stupid when I'm worried' she thinks as she reaches the station and runs in.
A different officer was there this time and she explained herself to him. At first the officer doesn't believe her. Then she recognizes her as Kurata Sana.
"Are you Kurata Sana?"
"Yes, but that's not the point. My friend is on the roof of a-"
"I don't think Kurata Sana would lie, would she?"
"Huh?"
"I will get an ambulance and then we'll go there."
Sana's face lights up at these words. She then deeply bows and says "Thank you!" at least a thousand times.
The officer calls the hospital and asks for an ambulance. He asks Sana for the address and she just tells him "It's right near Shirohama station"
After a minute the officer hangs up and then says "Alright let's go"
The two of them go the the building. The ambulance isn't here yet. The officer insists that Sana stays out of the building but she persists and he finally gives up. They both go to the third floor and to the spot where the ladder used to be. There were drops of blood on the floor. He must have fell unconcious near the ladder.
"The blood is coming from the boy I am guessing?" the officer asks.
Sana nods slowly and tries not to think about Ryo-kun lying unconcious on the roof with blood dripping out of his wrist.
The officer quickly looks around the room for another way up and then comes back to Sana.
"There's no other way up. I am going to call the fire department. They can get him down."
"That will take too long!" Sana says.
"There isn't another way. I am going to go call them now." He then begins to walk down the stairs, "Are you coming?"
"Can I stay with him..." Sana says softly.
"Sure" the officer replies and then taking one last look at Sana he walks down and calls the fire department.
Sana was devasted. It had already been too long. Every second that goes by Ryo's life was slipping away farther and farther. She had to get up there and help him. She had to do SOMETHING.
She then looked around and say nothing she could use. Some old furniture, shattered glass, garbage and old books. That was about it. She then looked toward the furniture and then at the bookshelf. She then looked up at the roof.
'I have to do something' and with that she went over and emptied the bookshelf of its remaining contents. She then pushed the bookshelf to where the ladder had been. It was not tall enough. She looked at the remaing furniture and walked over to the 2 sturdiest looking chairs. She picked them both up and brought them over to the shelf. She put one on the floor next to the shelf. She picked up the other chair and climbed onto the chair that was on the floor. She then put the chair she was holding and put it on the top of the shelf. She then started to climb the shelf when the chair under her broke and she fell off of it. She landed on her hand and knee.
"Oooooooooooooooww!" She shouted as she rubbed her wrist. It may have been sprained. She looked at her knee and there was a gash there. It looked pretty deep. Sana slowly got up and wobbled over to the shelf. She tried to climb it but she was unable to with one foot. She then wobbled over to another chair and brought it over. She slowly climed that one and then onto the shelf.
Blood was dripping onto the chair from the roof which made Sana's eyes tear. 'Every second more blood is dripping out' was all she thought about. She climbed ontop of the shelf and then positions the chair right. Slowly she got ontop of the chair, shifting her weight careful. The shelf was creaking and seemed like it could break at any second. She started to stand on the chair but immediatly stopped when she heard a crack. The shelf was giving away. She slowly got up again, with each inch she rose another crack. When she was just about standing she jumped up and reached for the ladder. As she did so the bookshelf gave way and fell to the floor along with the chair.
Sana grabbed onto the ladder but when she did the ladder broke and she fell to the ground. She fell onto the floor, hit her head, and when unconcious.
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"I...I still love you Aki" Fuuka says, "I love you more than Sana. And I would never do anything to hurt you."
Akito was a little stunned to say the least. He had expected she had these thoughts in her head but he had not expected her to same them.
"Fuuka.." he says trying to think of something to say.
"Aki, she's not worth it. All the tears, all the woes, it isn't good for you. You don't need that. You can do better."
"Fuuka..." Akito repeated still unable to say anything else.
Fuuka just stared at Akito waiting for an answer. Akito just stared back speachless. After a while he decided to say something.
"I thought you and Sana had it all figured out" Akito finally said.
"What do you mean?"
"You two... you talked and figured everything out with me and yourselves. And you reached an agreement" Akito elaborated.
"I...we did.. But I can't choose who I love. Little reasons aren't going to make me stop loving someone and neither is guilt. If I love someone I love someone, under any circumstances."
"Even if he's your best friend's boyfriend?" Akito asked.
"I would rather she be happy but not at the expense of your feelings."
Akito sighed, opened his mouth to say something, but then sighed again.
"What happend today probably has a legitimate reason. She probably had work or something." Akito said.
"Why do you think of her as so perfect? Maybe she forgot about you? Maybe her feelings aren't as strong as you are imagining?"
Akito was getting a little angry now. She was talking bad about his girlfriend and she was also getting through to him. She was getting him to be angry at Sana.
"Look" He said a little fiercely, "I have to leave. My plane is leaving. I will figure out what happend today with Sana. Sana and only Sana. It is our business and you don't have to be involved in it. As for you, you know I love her. This is not going to change that no matter how hard you try. I am going now. "
"....."
Akito walks away with his luggage and goes into the airport. Fuuka stands there and watches him until he is out of sight, then gets on the cab, and goes home. Akito keeps walking at a fast pace to the gate where his plane is. The whole time all he could think was 'Why didn't she call...'
He reaches the gate. He boards the plane and finds his seat. It is an aisle seat so he wouldn't have to look out the window. He puts his bad under his chair and then seats in it. He fastens his seat belt, closes his eyes, and goes to sleep.