A Million Pieces
Shattered
Shattered in a million pieces on the floor
The fragile thing that was our relationship
The light bounces off the crystal pieces
Sending a rainbow of colors dancing across the kitchen
Across the floor at my feet
Each tiny rainbow a memory
Each memory dancing across the walls of my mind
I want to reach out and catch those rainbows
Hold them in my hand and never let them go
But the light slowly shifts as still I stand here
And the rainbows begin to move then fade.
Fade into nothing, like us
We are nothing. The rainbows are us and we are the rainbows.
Nothing.
Nothing in a million pieces on the floor
The cold hardwood floor
The light doesn't dare touch us anymore.
Our time for rainbows and somethings is over
The shards of our broken promises cut as I carefully pick them up
My blood bleeds onto the crystal pieces
Our relationship hurts me more then it hurts you
You walked away and left me to pick it up
Left it to cut me. And it cuts me and I bleed and you are gone.
I put the pieces in the garbage. I want to salvage them.
Glue them together and tell you it's ok.
But the pieces are too small, too broken, too lost.
It wouldn't ever hold anything again
There are too many pieces missing. The missing pieces are us and we are the missing pieces
Missing
Missing in a million pieces on the floor
Something was, I don't know what was
The light couldn't find us if it tried
And rainbows and pieces and dreams
There is nowhere left for the broken thing that was us
Nothing left, all gone, empty and lost
Broken and bruised. And you're with him and you're ok
And I'm alone and you left me to pick up the mess and you don't care
And I want to find your new rainbows and drown them out in sunlight
I want to take them away from you and shatter them on the floor
I want you to pick up the pieces and cut your hands on them
I want you to never find all of them. I want to take some of them and hide them from you
Mostly I just want you to help me pick up this mess
I want you to help me catch our now vanished rainbows and put them back into the crystal mess
I want you to glue it together and tell me it's fine. That it will hold us again.
That the liquid puddle around it is still salvageable.
Lie
Lies shattered in the nothing missing on the floor
I don't care anymore if that's all we are. Are we?
Don't you hurt too? I think you may have hurt your foot on the way out.
There's a spot that didn't come from me. Your blood.
Your blood and mine mixing on the floor with the crystal mess.
Come back and catch our rainbows before they all disappear.
Help me glue this together. It will hold. I know it will hold.
And he is not that important to you. You don't love him like you loved me.
You did love me and I know you loved me and I don't understand why you left me
And why you are with him and I don't know and it hurts and I'm bleeding and you're bleeding
And we are bleeding together. Lies and nothings and rainbows and crystal pieces
All shattered on the floor in a matrix of colors and lights and sounds and feelings
All running together and bleeding together
Together
Together in a million pieces on the floor