Read stories by my friend Charmkin. (Returning the favor)
The ride home with Clark was uncomfortable. More for him then me. I hate to admit it but I once had sex in a bathroom stall, with no door, at a very crowded club. I was very drunk at the time but the point is Clark seeing me in a rather tame compromising position did not embarrass me as much as it embarrassed him.
"Clark it's ok. Are you never going to look me in the eye again or what?"
"Sorry."
"Don't be sorry Clark."
"Sorry."
"Clark."
"Sorry."
I gave up. My mind focused on what happened and what would happen if Clark hadn't come in. Was I ready for a relationship with a Luthor?
Clark was right The Kent's were asleep and had been since 10:15. I had tomorrow night to look forward to but a long day also. I couldn't sleep. Every time I shut my eyes I saw Lex's smooth skin, felt his lips. I was becoming obsessed. The next morning I was yawning. Clark still had trouble looking directly at me. Though he has stopped saying he was sorry. On the bus to school Chloe wanted to know what happened, Clark blushed.
"It was really nice, we watched TV, ate popcorn, talked…it was the total opposite of our first date. More relaxed, unexpected."
"Unexpected?"
"Well have you ever seen Lex relax?"
"Did you kiss him?"
"More then once." And again Clark didn't look my way. Chloe didn't notice and continued with her investigation.
"So what now?" With someone with her own new boyfriend Chloe wanted to know a lot about Lex and me. Gossip, news, just being a teenage girl. I wasn't use to being so talkative about my dates. "Well I see him again tonight."
"Wow."
"Why is that a wow?"
"It's just that Lex is usually really busy, it's just wow that he has two night in a row free."
She was right. That was a wow. I never really though of that. Even Clark only saw him once or twice a week and they were best friends. Lex Luthor was making time for me. It really did mean something. Not like marriage or anything, I wasn't that delusional but at least it was a real relationship though I still had a hard time putting Lex and boyfriend in the same sentence. I wondered if I was falling in love. I had never done that before but I couldn't wait until school was over. I couldn't wait until tonight. Chloe reminded me to met her at the torch during study. I was going to help her with the layout for this weeks issue.
Clark was still acting weird around me. I hated the feeling that somehow he was angry with me. Clark was something I could deal with right now though. At lunch I sat next to him.
"Clark, listen I know you are embarrassed about seeing Lex and I …"
"It's not that Dori."
"What then Clark and look at me."
"Can I talk to you privately?"
"Sure." We walked into the deserted hallways of the school. I led him into the music room. "What's going on Clark?"
"I…"His eyes darted around the room until I grabbed his chin and pulled his face down so that he was looking at me. "I was kind of turned on." He mumbled.
Not quite what I was expecting but "That's normal Clark I mean just the thought of sex probably…"
Clark was shaking his head. "No I mean I wanted to be Lex, doing those things to you, touching you." Again his eyes started to dart around the room and his voice was low and mumbly.
"Clark I thought we talked about this. I thought you said you were alright with me going out with Lex."
"Yeah but it didn't get me to stop thinking about it."
"Clark, it's not going to happen, if you were older, if we weren't…"
"Soon to be related?"
"Yeah and then there's Lex."
"How can I compete?" He tried to joke, tried to smile.
I pulled his head down and pressed my forehead against his. "Don't ever think that you couldn't Clark. There are dozens of girls who would throw themselves at you if you simply smiles at them."
"But none of them know who I am." I understood what he meant.
He went to kiss me and I pulled away.
"Clark."
"Let me Dori please?" Why does he have to say please? Why does he have to be so Clark? Then I realized that I had already fallen in love. With Clark. But it was a love that wasn't like what I felt for Lex. But still it was love. So I let him.
I felt his lips against mine. He kissed me soft then harder, pressing against me and holding me like he didn't want to let go, like he couldn't. Clark opened his mouth as I ran my fingers in his hair and in the back of my mind I shouted no. But my mouth opened without my permission. His tongue played with mine and a soft whine escaped me. Which only made him press a little harder until we finally had to break to breath.
"Clark it can't happen." His head was on my shoulder.
"I know."
I knew to. So why did I feel like crying?
When I saw Chloe she picked up right away that I was acting odd.
"What's going on with you?"
"Just thinking about relationships. How are things going with you and Todd?" Divert her attention.
"Really good. We are going out on Friday. He's taking me out to eat." She looked very pleased.
"He's a year younger then you right?"
"Yes, 15 why?"
"Does it make a difference?"
"Not really it's only a year."
"What would you think about dating someone four years younger?" Dancing on thin ice should be an Olympic sport.
"That would make the guy like 12 so I'm thinking no. Are you talking about you and Lex? Because it's different for a guy to date a younger girl. Sexist remark I know but a society truth."
I didn't answer and she didn't ask any more, she became more interested in the articles submitted to the torch.
"Where's mine?"
"Oh right here. I'm thinking front page. There's the picture too." She pointed over to the table.
I read through it. "Chloe you can't print this." I couldn't believe what she said in the article. She talked about my parents, that I don't remember telling her much about, how they died, how I ran away from government help, she spoke in detail that I could only guess she got from old newspapers about my arrest for drugs. If Chloe was any thing she was thorough. "I thought this was going to be a don't run away from home article not let's tell all of Smallville I was a drug taking slut."
"It doesn't say that",
"Not in so many word but Chloe come on. Dorinda had to find her way around the streets turning to clubs for a sudo-family that only offered unsafe sex and an escape through drugs."
"I just wanted to paint a real picture."
"You have to change it."
"Dori…"
"Chloe. Either write it again or leave it out." I threw down the paper and left.
This was a day of confusion. I was mad at Chloe, frustrated with Clark, I couldn't find Pete anywhere; he was usually good to talk to. I needed to see Lex. Maybe he could help me figure this whole mess out. I wondered how he would react when he found out Clark kissed me again. Either I would tell him or Clark would. I knew Clark needed someone to talk as much as I did and he usually either turned to Lex or me and since I was the source, Lex would be the solution. I was right. Clark wasn't on the bus home and I assumed he was on his way to Lex's.
The ride home with Clark was uncomfortable. More for him then me. I hate to admit it but I once had sex in a bathroom stall, with no door, at a very crowded club. I was very drunk at the time but the point is Clark seeing me in a rather tame compromising position did not embarrass me as much as it embarrassed him.
"Clark it's ok. Are you never going to look me in the eye again or what?"
"Sorry."
"Don't be sorry Clark."
"Sorry."
"Clark."
"Sorry."
I gave up. My mind focused on what happened and what would happen if Clark hadn't come in. Was I ready for a relationship with a Luthor?
Clark was right The Kent's were asleep and had been since 10:15. I had tomorrow night to look forward to but a long day also. I couldn't sleep. Every time I shut my eyes I saw Lex's smooth skin, felt his lips. I was becoming obsessed. The next morning I was yawning. Clark still had trouble looking directly at me. Though he has stopped saying he was sorry. On the bus to school Chloe wanted to know what happened, Clark blushed.
"It was really nice, we watched TV, ate popcorn, talked…it was the total opposite of our first date. More relaxed, unexpected."
"Unexpected?"
"Well have you ever seen Lex relax?"
"Did you kiss him?"
"More then once." And again Clark didn't look my way. Chloe didn't notice and continued with her investigation.
"So what now?" With someone with her own new boyfriend Chloe wanted to know a lot about Lex and me. Gossip, news, just being a teenage girl. I wasn't use to being so talkative about my dates. "Well I see him again tonight."
"Wow."
"Why is that a wow?"
"It's just that Lex is usually really busy, it's just wow that he has two night in a row free."
She was right. That was a wow. I never really though of that. Even Clark only saw him once or twice a week and they were best friends. Lex Luthor was making time for me. It really did mean something. Not like marriage or anything, I wasn't that delusional but at least it was a real relationship though I still had a hard time putting Lex and boyfriend in the same sentence. I wondered if I was falling in love. I had never done that before but I couldn't wait until school was over. I couldn't wait until tonight. Chloe reminded me to met her at the torch during study. I was going to help her with the layout for this weeks issue.
Clark was still acting weird around me. I hated the feeling that somehow he was angry with me. Clark was something I could deal with right now though. At lunch I sat next to him.
"Clark, listen I know you are embarrassed about seeing Lex and I …"
"It's not that Dori."
"What then Clark and look at me."
"Can I talk to you privately?"
"Sure." We walked into the deserted hallways of the school. I led him into the music room. "What's going on Clark?"
"I…"His eyes darted around the room until I grabbed his chin and pulled his face down so that he was looking at me. "I was kind of turned on." He mumbled.
Not quite what I was expecting but "That's normal Clark I mean just the thought of sex probably…"
Clark was shaking his head. "No I mean I wanted to be Lex, doing those things to you, touching you." Again his eyes started to dart around the room and his voice was low and mumbly.
"Clark I thought we talked about this. I thought you said you were alright with me going out with Lex."
"Yeah but it didn't get me to stop thinking about it."
"Clark, it's not going to happen, if you were older, if we weren't…"
"Soon to be related?"
"Yeah and then there's Lex."
"How can I compete?" He tried to joke, tried to smile.
I pulled his head down and pressed my forehead against his. "Don't ever think that you couldn't Clark. There are dozens of girls who would throw themselves at you if you simply smiles at them."
"But none of them know who I am." I understood what he meant.
He went to kiss me and I pulled away.
"Clark."
"Let me Dori please?" Why does he have to say please? Why does he have to be so Clark? Then I realized that I had already fallen in love. With Clark. But it was a love that wasn't like what I felt for Lex. But still it was love. So I let him.
I felt his lips against mine. He kissed me soft then harder, pressing against me and holding me like he didn't want to let go, like he couldn't. Clark opened his mouth as I ran my fingers in his hair and in the back of my mind I shouted no. But my mouth opened without my permission. His tongue played with mine and a soft whine escaped me. Which only made him press a little harder until we finally had to break to breath.
"Clark it can't happen." His head was on my shoulder.
"I know."
I knew to. So why did I feel like crying?
When I saw Chloe she picked up right away that I was acting odd.
"What's going on with you?"
"Just thinking about relationships. How are things going with you and Todd?" Divert her attention.
"Really good. We are going out on Friday. He's taking me out to eat." She looked very pleased.
"He's a year younger then you right?"
"Yes, 15 why?"
"Does it make a difference?"
"Not really it's only a year."
"What would you think about dating someone four years younger?" Dancing on thin ice should be an Olympic sport.
"That would make the guy like 12 so I'm thinking no. Are you talking about you and Lex? Because it's different for a guy to date a younger girl. Sexist remark I know but a society truth."
I didn't answer and she didn't ask any more, she became more interested in the articles submitted to the torch.
"Where's mine?"
"Oh right here. I'm thinking front page. There's the picture too." She pointed over to the table.
I read through it. "Chloe you can't print this." I couldn't believe what she said in the article. She talked about my parents, that I don't remember telling her much about, how they died, how I ran away from government help, she spoke in detail that I could only guess she got from old newspapers about my arrest for drugs. If Chloe was any thing she was thorough. "I thought this was going to be a don't run away from home article not let's tell all of Smallville I was a drug taking slut."
"It doesn't say that",
"Not in so many word but Chloe come on. Dorinda had to find her way around the streets turning to clubs for a sudo-family that only offered unsafe sex and an escape through drugs."
"I just wanted to paint a real picture."
"You have to change it."
"Dori…"
"Chloe. Either write it again or leave it out." I threw down the paper and left.
This was a day of confusion. I was mad at Chloe, frustrated with Clark, I couldn't find Pete anywhere; he was usually good to talk to. I needed to see Lex. Maybe he could help me figure this whole mess out. I wondered how he would react when he found out Clark kissed me again. Either I would tell him or Clark would. I knew Clark needed someone to talk as much as I did and he usually either turned to Lex or me and since I was the source, Lex would be the solution. I was right. Clark wasn't on the bus home and I assumed he was on his way to Lex's.