Title: Lonely in my heart (1/?)
Author: Michael Dunbar
E-mail: mutant190583@yahoo.com
Category: B/X
Rating: PG14
Summary: Xander.. After 10 years on his own.. He's
changed
Disclaimer: The characters do not belong to me, they
belong to Joss Whedon and Co. Only the story is mine.
Feedback: Most totally dude:)
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The full moon shines down from above providing a little amount of light, a few stars shine around it but a cloud overcastting the city blocks out the rest.
The building before me stands 4 floors high, looking the same as it did in my last memory. The paint worn away in places showing the true colour of the bricks that lie beneath.
My ears catch a sound in the midnight air and I look towards a window that is ajar on the second floor, the wind blows gently across the opening creating a sound not unlike blowing over the top of a half filled glass of wine.
Pulling off my jacket I feel the wind gently caress my arm hair, as the only thing I have on beneath the jacket is a T-shirt saying, "I'm with stupid". Wrapping the jacket around my satchel I place it on my shoulder holding it in place with my right hand.
I rearrange my holster to my hip and walk slowly towards the entrance and I soon am illuminated in the night as a security light above the door switches on.
The door is a dark brown that can only originate from oak; a handle is on each door shaped like an angel and looks to be made of gold.
Nice Angels
I smile and place my hand against the right door rapping my fingers there gently, enough so to get attention but not so much that I would disturb anyone unnecessarily.
The wind picks up around me and it rubs gently against the hairs on the back of my neck making them stand on end and a shiver runs all the way down my spine and back up again.
Footsteps approach the door from within and I hear locks as they are released and the door starts to open.
The light that is above shines slightly down into the entranceway illuminating the figure that stands there.
It is Angel, no doubt about that.
He is wearing a red silk robe with a dragon design on each of the arms; it is tied at the centre. His hair is slightly a mess and he runs his hand through it, as he looks my way.
Then a new sound greets my ears, the now heightened senses that I posses can pick it up easily, a heartbeat and it's coming from Angel.
"Hello.. May I help you?" he asks, as he looks me up and down.
He.. Did get it
Redemption.
The thing he had sought all his souled vampire life, he had finally achieved, yet one thing taunted me in the back of my mind, is Buffy in there? Does he now possess her as well?
Look I chastise myself its got nothing to do with you anyway.. You left, she can be with who she wants.. Except Spike
The shock wears off and I turn my open mouth into a smile and reach out with my hand.
"Angel.."
He does a double take and looks me up and down, from the boots I wear on my feet to the now gruff look that my unshaven face has taken, and as his eyes meet mine I can tell he knows who I am.
"Xan..der?"
I grab his hand and shake it then return it back to my side.
"One and the same" I reply "nice hair"
His mouth upturns into a smile "It's been.."
"10 years.. since you've seen me"
"That long.. Doesn't time fly"
"When your human" I add and I can see his smile widen.
"How do you know.. Buffy tell you?.. You been back to Sunnydale right?"
"No.. I'm kinda on my way there now"
"So.. How?"
"I have my sources and my senses" I say and tap my nose with my index finger.
"Same old Xander" he droll's out.
"Is that an insult?"
"I don't even know.. So what you doing here?"
"Well.. I was planning on returning to Sunnydale tomorrow.. So can I have a place to stay?"
He smiles and steps aside motioning me inside.
"Sure.. Loads of rooms at chez Angel's"
"Was that a joke?"
"Maybe.. I'm too tired"
"I see"
I walk past him into the reception area and hear him close and lock the door behind me then he walks up beside me.
I look around the reception.
The stairs lay dead centre as they travel upwards to the floors above, in the far left corner a reception desk is situated, well it's a hold in the wall that has had wood fitted to it.
A few doors line the same wall.
"You going back to see them?"
I turn and look him straight in the eye.
"More like business"
He nods his head "Want to go to my office.. We have a lot to talk about"
"Maybe" I whisper and follow him as he walks through a wooden door.
We enter his office and I peruse my surroundings.
Two desks are present in the room.
The first is his main desk, it is about waist high and is made of similar oak to that of the front door, a fax machine rests on top as does a notepad with a blue inkjet pen laying on top of that.
He walks behind it and sits in a leather swivel chair and looks my way.
His other desk is a computer desk and just has that on top, with a few CD's scattered across the top of the desk.
A filing cabinet is on each side of his main desk with paper littering the top of each.
2 shelves are attached to the wall and have pictures on them, but two in particular catches my attention.
The first is where Angel is in a tuxedo next to a woman in a wedding dress.
He's married.. And not to Buffy
The woman is pretty, blonde and nearly as tall as he is.
On the second photo the same blonde is there but this time she is holding a baby in the hospital.
Oh my god
I walk up placing the satchel down at the side of a wooden chair opposite Angel and take a seat.
"Your married"
It was a statement not a question.
"Yes"
"Wow.. Congratulations"
"Thanks"
"You got a kid too"
Again it was a statement
"Yes"
"Congratulations the sequel"
He taps his fingers gently on the desk then looks directly into my eyes.
"They miss you"
"Of Course they do.. I'm a fun guy"
He smiles.
"I mean.. Really"
"Yea.. I missed them too.. Still do but I now have a life"
"So why you going back?"
"Well it seems my new life needs me to go to Sunnydale"
"Oh.. They'll be disappointed"
"Oh no" I chuckle "Anyway.. Less about me more about you… who's the unlucky woman?"
"Her names.. Kate"
"Kate eh.." then it hits me "that police woman?"
"One and the same"
"Wow.. She hated you.. Almost as much as me"
"Yea.. But I love her"
"Good for you.. Everyone needs someone to love"
"Do you?"
"I'm the exception"
"Yea.. Well anyway.. It was three years ago.. Just before I gained my redemption.. I was still a vampire and we got closer and well.. You know the rest of the story"
"What no gory details?"
"Nope"
"Ah well.. I'll live.. What about your redemption?"
"Okay.. This is how it went"
////////////////// Flashback ///////////////
"Wesley.. attack NOW"
Angel dodges a hit by a large behemoth of a demon and rolls under the arm that was sent his way then jumps up behind it and spin kicks it in the back of the head.
This demon was no ordinary demon, it was conjured by Wolfram and Hart to bring about the apocalypse, but Angel wasn't about to let that happen.
They had a plan, Cordelia and Gunn were performing a spell to create a portal to a known Hell world and Wesley and Angel were to distract it until it opened and push the demon into it.
It was taking way too long.
The demon stood 12 feet tall, it was a dark blue colour with deep red eyes and 2 horns protruding from its head, it was fast but not as fast as Angel.
But what it lacked in speed it made up for in strength.
Right now Angel has a hole in his side from a punch he didn't manage to dodge in time, blood was pouring from a cut on his forehead and he could barely see out of his right eye.
The demon didn't seem to tire one bit and kept on trying to hit the two buffoons who think they can hurt him.
Angel kept looking behind him at Gunn and Cordelia waiting for the signal to push the demon back.. But so far no luck.
Hurry up
He dodged a hit by the demon and jumped up kicking it in the gut while kicking off and spinning in mid-air then returning gracefully to the ground.
Wesley attacked from behind but he almost instantaneously was shoved away like an insect into the nearby wall.
Good job were in this car park
Wesley was now out of the game, so the demon turned and faced Angel.. One on one.
He charged towards Angel and Angel just barely jumped out of the way letting the demon bang straight into a concrete post.
That had to...
He didn't carry on that line of thinking as the demon just turned and shook its head and carried on towards Angel.
Ahh crap
He turned and started running towards a wall whilst looking out of the corner of his eye.
The demon was closing, as he reached the wall he jumped and kicked off flying backwards and hitting the Demon Square in the jaw with one of his flailing feet.
Turning he dropped to the floor to face the demon that had by now turned.
"YOU will DIE" it screamed.
He turns his head and sees Cordelia nodding her head.
Great all I have to do is get him over to the stair case
It headed towards him and he started backing off quickly making his way to the staircase.
Fantastic.. He's an idiot
It was following him as planned he stopped just in front of the staircase and now the demon was 3 feet from him.
It continued on its path to tackle Angel, but he sidestepped him sending him into the portal.
YES
But then he turned as he saw something out of the corner of his eye.
The demon was pulling himself back out by ramming his fist into the wall.
He tried to kick the demons hand but it was futile.. Looking at his watch it red 11:58.
If it reached 12 and the demons till existed then there would be no hope.. He had to do something.
There's only one way
Turning around a tear falling down his cheek he looks over to Cordelia and Gunn.
"Tell Kate.. I love her"
And he jumps colliding with the demon sending them both into hell.
//////////////// Flashback ////////////////
"Wow.. So you've been to hell twice now"
"Yea.. And it's not nice.. Well anyway the PTB pulled me out but this time they said I had earned my redemption then bala bing bala boom I'm a human.. Then a year later along comes Bethany"
"Bethany?"
"The baby"
"Well.. Congratulations again" I reiterate
"Yea.. So what's your story?" he asks eyeing me
"Story?"
"Leaving.. And coming back"
"Oh that.. It's nothing really.. Pointless talking about it"
"Fine.. Fine"
I tap my fingers gently on the desk.
"How's Cordelia?" I ask
He smiles "She's fine.. Long term relationship.. Aspiring actress still"
"Wow.. You think she'd give up"
"Yea but you know Cordy"
"That I do.. So how's the rest of the LA crew?"
"Wesley tied the knot.. and Gunn is Gunn"
"Ahh.. Well good for them lot"
"Business?" he says them words and I look at him questioningly.
"What?"
"You said you were going to Sunnydale on business.. What business?"
"Nothing big.. About 7"4.. So can I have a room.. I got to get going early in the morning"
"Sure.. Any room on the third floor is yours"
"Okay. Thanks Angel"
I stand up picking up my satchel then turn walking out of the door hearing Angel mutter "7 foot 4" as I make my way up the stairs and I laugh.
I make my way up the stairs to the third floor and quickly choose the first room I come to stepping inside.
Looking around I scan the room.
A bed lays dead centre, it is a single bed with a red quilt and pillow set on top, two bedside tables stand at each side of the bed.
A wardrobe stands to my left while a chest of drawers is to my right, a window is on the left wall and it looks out upon LA.
Quickly stripping to my boxers I jump under the covers.
Comfiest place I've slept in.. In a while
An image passes in front of my eyes, an image of one person, the same person I have thought of since I left my old home.
Buffy.
"Everyone needs someone to love" I mutter and my eyes close as I drift off into complete slumber.
Author: Michael Dunbar
E-mail: mutant190583@yahoo.com
Category: B/X
Rating: PG14
Summary: Xander.. After 10 years on his own.. He's
changed
Disclaimer: The characters do not belong to me, they
belong to Joss Whedon and Co. Only the story is mine.
Feedback: Most totally dude:)
-------
The full moon shines down from above providing a little amount of light, a few stars shine around it but a cloud overcastting the city blocks out the rest.
The building before me stands 4 floors high, looking the same as it did in my last memory. The paint worn away in places showing the true colour of the bricks that lie beneath.
My ears catch a sound in the midnight air and I look towards a window that is ajar on the second floor, the wind blows gently across the opening creating a sound not unlike blowing over the top of a half filled glass of wine.
Pulling off my jacket I feel the wind gently caress my arm hair, as the only thing I have on beneath the jacket is a T-shirt saying, "I'm with stupid". Wrapping the jacket around my satchel I place it on my shoulder holding it in place with my right hand.
I rearrange my holster to my hip and walk slowly towards the entrance and I soon am illuminated in the night as a security light above the door switches on.
The door is a dark brown that can only originate from oak; a handle is on each door shaped like an angel and looks to be made of gold.
Nice Angels
I smile and place my hand against the right door rapping my fingers there gently, enough so to get attention but not so much that I would disturb anyone unnecessarily.
The wind picks up around me and it rubs gently against the hairs on the back of my neck making them stand on end and a shiver runs all the way down my spine and back up again.
Footsteps approach the door from within and I hear locks as they are released and the door starts to open.
The light that is above shines slightly down into the entranceway illuminating the figure that stands there.
It is Angel, no doubt about that.
He is wearing a red silk robe with a dragon design on each of the arms; it is tied at the centre. His hair is slightly a mess and he runs his hand through it, as he looks my way.
Then a new sound greets my ears, the now heightened senses that I posses can pick it up easily, a heartbeat and it's coming from Angel.
"Hello.. May I help you?" he asks, as he looks me up and down.
He.. Did get it
Redemption.
The thing he had sought all his souled vampire life, he had finally achieved, yet one thing taunted me in the back of my mind, is Buffy in there? Does he now possess her as well?
Look I chastise myself its got nothing to do with you anyway.. You left, she can be with who she wants.. Except Spike
The shock wears off and I turn my open mouth into a smile and reach out with my hand.
"Angel.."
He does a double take and looks me up and down, from the boots I wear on my feet to the now gruff look that my unshaven face has taken, and as his eyes meet mine I can tell he knows who I am.
"Xan..der?"
I grab his hand and shake it then return it back to my side.
"One and the same" I reply "nice hair"
His mouth upturns into a smile "It's been.."
"10 years.. since you've seen me"
"That long.. Doesn't time fly"
"When your human" I add and I can see his smile widen.
"How do you know.. Buffy tell you?.. You been back to Sunnydale right?"
"No.. I'm kinda on my way there now"
"So.. How?"
"I have my sources and my senses" I say and tap my nose with my index finger.
"Same old Xander" he droll's out.
"Is that an insult?"
"I don't even know.. So what you doing here?"
"Well.. I was planning on returning to Sunnydale tomorrow.. So can I have a place to stay?"
He smiles and steps aside motioning me inside.
"Sure.. Loads of rooms at chez Angel's"
"Was that a joke?"
"Maybe.. I'm too tired"
"I see"
I walk past him into the reception area and hear him close and lock the door behind me then he walks up beside me.
I look around the reception.
The stairs lay dead centre as they travel upwards to the floors above, in the far left corner a reception desk is situated, well it's a hold in the wall that has had wood fitted to it.
A few doors line the same wall.
"You going back to see them?"
I turn and look him straight in the eye.
"More like business"
He nods his head "Want to go to my office.. We have a lot to talk about"
"Maybe" I whisper and follow him as he walks through a wooden door.
We enter his office and I peruse my surroundings.
Two desks are present in the room.
The first is his main desk, it is about waist high and is made of similar oak to that of the front door, a fax machine rests on top as does a notepad with a blue inkjet pen laying on top of that.
He walks behind it and sits in a leather swivel chair and looks my way.
His other desk is a computer desk and just has that on top, with a few CD's scattered across the top of the desk.
A filing cabinet is on each side of his main desk with paper littering the top of each.
2 shelves are attached to the wall and have pictures on them, but two in particular catches my attention.
The first is where Angel is in a tuxedo next to a woman in a wedding dress.
He's married.. And not to Buffy
The woman is pretty, blonde and nearly as tall as he is.
On the second photo the same blonde is there but this time she is holding a baby in the hospital.
Oh my god
I walk up placing the satchel down at the side of a wooden chair opposite Angel and take a seat.
"Your married"
It was a statement not a question.
"Yes"
"Wow.. Congratulations"
"Thanks"
"You got a kid too"
Again it was a statement
"Yes"
"Congratulations the sequel"
He taps his fingers gently on the desk then looks directly into my eyes.
"They miss you"
"Of Course they do.. I'm a fun guy"
He smiles.
"I mean.. Really"
"Yea.. I missed them too.. Still do but I now have a life"
"So why you going back?"
"Well it seems my new life needs me to go to Sunnydale"
"Oh.. They'll be disappointed"
"Oh no" I chuckle "Anyway.. Less about me more about you… who's the unlucky woman?"
"Her names.. Kate"
"Kate eh.." then it hits me "that police woman?"
"One and the same"
"Wow.. She hated you.. Almost as much as me"
"Yea.. But I love her"
"Good for you.. Everyone needs someone to love"
"Do you?"
"I'm the exception"
"Yea.. Well anyway.. It was three years ago.. Just before I gained my redemption.. I was still a vampire and we got closer and well.. You know the rest of the story"
"What no gory details?"
"Nope"
"Ah well.. I'll live.. What about your redemption?"
"Okay.. This is how it went"
////////////////// Flashback ///////////////
"Wesley.. attack NOW"
Angel dodges a hit by a large behemoth of a demon and rolls under the arm that was sent his way then jumps up behind it and spin kicks it in the back of the head.
This demon was no ordinary demon, it was conjured by Wolfram and Hart to bring about the apocalypse, but Angel wasn't about to let that happen.
They had a plan, Cordelia and Gunn were performing a spell to create a portal to a known Hell world and Wesley and Angel were to distract it until it opened and push the demon into it.
It was taking way too long.
The demon stood 12 feet tall, it was a dark blue colour with deep red eyes and 2 horns protruding from its head, it was fast but not as fast as Angel.
But what it lacked in speed it made up for in strength.
Right now Angel has a hole in his side from a punch he didn't manage to dodge in time, blood was pouring from a cut on his forehead and he could barely see out of his right eye.
The demon didn't seem to tire one bit and kept on trying to hit the two buffoons who think they can hurt him.
Angel kept looking behind him at Gunn and Cordelia waiting for the signal to push the demon back.. But so far no luck.
Hurry up
He dodged a hit by the demon and jumped up kicking it in the gut while kicking off and spinning in mid-air then returning gracefully to the ground.
Wesley attacked from behind but he almost instantaneously was shoved away like an insect into the nearby wall.
Good job were in this car park
Wesley was now out of the game, so the demon turned and faced Angel.. One on one.
He charged towards Angel and Angel just barely jumped out of the way letting the demon bang straight into a concrete post.
That had to...
He didn't carry on that line of thinking as the demon just turned and shook its head and carried on towards Angel.
Ahh crap
He turned and started running towards a wall whilst looking out of the corner of his eye.
The demon was closing, as he reached the wall he jumped and kicked off flying backwards and hitting the Demon Square in the jaw with one of his flailing feet.
Turning he dropped to the floor to face the demon that had by now turned.
"YOU will DIE" it screamed.
He turns his head and sees Cordelia nodding her head.
Great all I have to do is get him over to the stair case
It headed towards him and he started backing off quickly making his way to the staircase.
Fantastic.. He's an idiot
It was following him as planned he stopped just in front of the staircase and now the demon was 3 feet from him.
It continued on its path to tackle Angel, but he sidestepped him sending him into the portal.
YES
But then he turned as he saw something out of the corner of his eye.
The demon was pulling himself back out by ramming his fist into the wall.
He tried to kick the demons hand but it was futile.. Looking at his watch it red 11:58.
If it reached 12 and the demons till existed then there would be no hope.. He had to do something.
There's only one way
Turning around a tear falling down his cheek he looks over to Cordelia and Gunn.
"Tell Kate.. I love her"
And he jumps colliding with the demon sending them both into hell.
//////////////// Flashback ////////////////
"Wow.. So you've been to hell twice now"
"Yea.. And it's not nice.. Well anyway the PTB pulled me out but this time they said I had earned my redemption then bala bing bala boom I'm a human.. Then a year later along comes Bethany"
"Bethany?"
"The baby"
"Well.. Congratulations again" I reiterate
"Yea.. So what's your story?" he asks eyeing me
"Story?"
"Leaving.. And coming back"
"Oh that.. It's nothing really.. Pointless talking about it"
"Fine.. Fine"
I tap my fingers gently on the desk.
"How's Cordelia?" I ask
He smiles "She's fine.. Long term relationship.. Aspiring actress still"
"Wow.. You think she'd give up"
"Yea but you know Cordy"
"That I do.. So how's the rest of the LA crew?"
"Wesley tied the knot.. and Gunn is Gunn"
"Ahh.. Well good for them lot"
"Business?" he says them words and I look at him questioningly.
"What?"
"You said you were going to Sunnydale on business.. What business?"
"Nothing big.. About 7"4.. So can I have a room.. I got to get going early in the morning"
"Sure.. Any room on the third floor is yours"
"Okay. Thanks Angel"
I stand up picking up my satchel then turn walking out of the door hearing Angel mutter "7 foot 4" as I make my way up the stairs and I laugh.
I make my way up the stairs to the third floor and quickly choose the first room I come to stepping inside.
Looking around I scan the room.
A bed lays dead centre, it is a single bed with a red quilt and pillow set on top, two bedside tables stand at each side of the bed.
A wardrobe stands to my left while a chest of drawers is to my right, a window is on the left wall and it looks out upon LA.
Quickly stripping to my boxers I jump under the covers.
Comfiest place I've slept in.. In a while
An image passes in front of my eyes, an image of one person, the same person I have thought of since I left my old home.
Buffy.
"Everyone needs someone to love" I mutter and my eyes close as I drift off into complete slumber.