Title: Lonely in my heart (2/?)
Author: Michael Dunbar
E-mail: mutant190583@yahoo.com
Category: B/X
Rating: PG14
Summary: Xander.. After 10 years on his own.. He's
changed
Disclaimer: The characters do not belong to me, they
belong to Joss Whedon and Co. Only the story is mine.
Feedback: Most totally dude:)
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The sun's rays greet me as my eyelids ascend and I awake from my slumber, I pull myself up stretching my arms and yawning as I get my bearings.
Letting my eyes roam my surroundings, mainly the room and the memories of the nights previous events come flooding back,
"Comfy bed" I mumble as I pull myself free from the covers preparing to dress.
I run my hand along my jaw feeling the stubble there and rubbing it gently "could do with a shave. And a wash" I grab my satchel from the place I had thrown it the night before, the side of the bed.
Placing it on the bed I undo it and let the contents spill out.
"Most of my worldly possession.. Good job some of it's money," I say smiling as I check the bills in there counting every single one, I pull my clothes from beneath the money and lay them out at the side of the satchel.
Some leather trousers, a blue T-shirt with the Nike symbol on it in the centre that was slightly ripped on one sleeve and a pair of silk blue boxers.
"Maybe I should buy some clothes," I say as I look at the clothes that are dirty on the floor at the side of my feet "Naa better not I was told this money was for Sunnydale only.. I have no idea why though, never needed money before"
Placing the money back in the satchel I bend down picking up my clothes and dump them in afterwards tieing it up.
I pull on my clothes fast though I have difficulty with the trousers.
"Must have put on some weight.. Damn trousers"
Making the bed quickly I grab my satchel and run out the door towards the stairs.
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Descending the stairs I scan the room with my eyes and ears but hear nothing, no one is awake yet.
Good makes it easier to leave
Before I make it to the door however I hear someone outside and soon a key is placed in the keyhole and is turned, the light floods into the reception and I raise my arm to see the unknown guest, but from her footsteps I should have guessed.
"Xan..der" Cordelia spurts out, her mouth slightly open and the light still shining around her frame from the open door behind her.
"Cordelia" I reply smiling "How's it been"
She turns to close the door before she makes a step forward and tries to slap me across the face; I grab her hand smiling at her.
"Sorry Cordy.. But I'm sensitive to been hit, it hurts" I release her hand and she rubs her wrist then looks up at me, I see a lone tear descend her left cheek.
"Xander what happened" she asks.
I suppose its story telling time
"Okay Cordy, come with me.. You see it all started on the day of Buffy's funeral..."
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"You could have called or something.. They were worried" She says a frown on her face after I had told her my story.
"I needed time"
Cordelia is sat in Angel's chair while I am sat in the same one I had the night before looking in her direction.
"I was worried"
"I can take care of myself.." I reply "I suppose it's time to change the subject.. I heard you have a significant other?"
Her face brightens up for the first time since she had seen me her eyes seem to drift as she looks my way and she had obviously missed my changing of the subject.
"Yea, he's great, Cameron"
"He better look after you.." I say warningly although from the look on her face she is oblivious to my tone.
"He does, very well"
"Well good"
I tap my fingers gently on the desk and scan the pictures finding the one of Angel with his kid.
Who'd have thought, 15 years ago they were inseparable now he has a kid with someone else.. Man if he'd just have fallen in love with someone else earlier
"I really missed you" she says out of the blue and I see a tear descend her cheek following the other one from earlier, I reach for her hand and squeeze it gently before standing up and pulling her around the desk into my hug.
"I missed you all too, I still do but I couldn't come back my life.. it revolved around something else after and still does.. I love you all.. Even Angel"
I hear a giggle from my shoulder and she pulls back and wipes her eyes with the back of her hand.
"Never thought I'd hear you say that" she says smiling.
"Me neither" I reply dryly "So any plans for today?"
"Well we have a research party planned this morning that's why I'm here so early and later on is pretty empty I might go shopping"
"Who does the fighting now that Angel's all human and stuff?"
"Mostly Wesley and Gunn, although Angel himself isn't soft"
"Wow.. Wesley" I say and smile
She rolls her eyes and smiles.
"So what's your life revolve around now.. If not us?"
"I suppose I could call it a job"
"Is it well paid?" she says
Same Cordy
"I knew you'd say that" I reply and smirk "It's a crap wage but I like the job"
She nods understandingly then looks around and finally back at me.
"What are you doing here anyway?" she asks
"Just passing through.. Angel let me stay"
"Passing through?.. Sunnydale?" she asks and I nod "I would have guessed"
"Yea well talking about Sunnydale I really must go.. Got to get there early"
I stand up and prepare to leave but she grabs my hand and I turn towards her.
"Don't leave yet.. Can we talk some more; you don't have to go this early do you? You could come shopping with me later" she pleads and gives me the puppy dog eyes that I mastered so long ago.
"Sure Cordy I can stay till a bit later.. Just a bit"
Just a bit.. Damn I'm such a softy
She smiles and we sit again, she decides to tell me all that had happened since I left and I listen to her rambling which makes me smile.
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"You see this shop it's good for snake skin shoes and bags and other stuff like that.. And this one is good for versace dresses"
Oh god.. I really should have declined
"Are you listening Xander?"
"Umm yea.. What were you saying"
We had left Angel's hotel just under an hour ago after I helped them find there demon in the books, right now Wes, Gunn and Angel were out trying to find it's nest.
Man wish I was with them.. Kicking some demon booty would be good right about now
I hear the sound of skateboard wheels making its way down the path towards us, turning my head slightly I look at the person.
He is about 18 years old with baggy clothes and has dread locks in his hair, he is headed for us and his eyes remain on Cordelia's Handbag.
When he is about to grab her bag and make off with it I place my arm out making him hit it and fall to the floor with a grunt of pain, leaning down I pull him up and slam him into the wall making him let out another grunt.
I see Cordelia's open mouthed expression and smile at her.
Turning back I see the guy looking at me in fear.
"Okay.. This can go two ways" I whisper as I lean closer "I let you go and you go hand yourself in to that Security guard over there" I point to a big burly guy in a uniform "Or I let you go and you try to attack me with that knife in your pocket in which case I'll break both your arms"
I release the man and turn to grab Cordelia's hand, I hear him reaching for his pocket.
Big mistake
I turn quickly intercepting the stabbing arm and twist violently hearing the bone snap as I press him back hard against the wall, he lunges at me with his other arm but I grab that also inflicting the same damage on it.
"What happened here.." A security guard says as walks up and looks at the man on the floor.
"He tried to steal my friends purse.. I wouldn't let him"
"I'll have to take some statements"
"Sorry" I reply "but I don't have time for statements"
Stepping forward I try to walk off but he intercepts me.
"Then you'll make time," he says, he looks me up and down then grins smugly.
Stupid mistake fat donut eating freak
"LOOK.." I would have said more but Cordelia touched my arm and interrupted me.
"We'd really love to officer.. But we need to get to the hospital, can't we give you our names and addresses and you can get back to us?"
He looks at Cordelia and nearly drools on his shoes as she grins at him, he nods his head and she writes our names and addresses on a piece of paper and hands it to him then we walk off.
"Nice work" I whisper to Cordy as we make our way out of the area.
"I know"
"What now?"
"The perfume shops"
I groan
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We had gone through all the shops and I can't even count how many things she had bought, I sit here surrounded by bags as she has walked off to yet another store.
"Okay.. Her boyfriends rich" I mumble and straighten up as I see her approach with a bag in hand.
"What now.. What haven't you got?"
"Ermm Dinner"
That statement makes me straighten up and I smile at her as she deposits a bigmac in my hand and a coke in the other one.
"You're the best Cordy" I mumble as I take a bite from the burger.
"Don't I know it" she replies and takes a sip of coffee from a Styrofoam cup.
I eat the burger quickly ever so often taking sips of coke from my cup, finishing quickly I turn to see Cordy looking at me.
"What.. do I got a booger?"
She smiles.
"No.. it's just unique"
"What is?"
"How you eat.. simply Xander!
"Should I take that as a compliment?"
"I would" she replies and stands up "Right.. now to get all this home"
"What on? A truck?"
"Funny.. No a Taxi should do"
"Mega sized taxi" I reply in a whisper and smile when she looks at me suspiciously.
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We managed to get all her stuff safely home in a Taxi, most of it piled on top, I was told to watch make sure nothing fell off, I did. For a bit anyway.
We are now sat in Angel's, Cordelia is in the kitchen making something, Wes is in front of me, Gunn is sat at the side and Kate is sat in the chair with the baby on her lap.
"So.." I say breaking the silence "Fighting Wes.. how's that going for you?"
"Good good"
I nod in response then turn to Gunn "you?"
"Hmm okay I guess"
"Good" I reply, raising my arm I look at my watch 2:30 PM.
Whatever happened to going early?
I hear Cordelia return from the kitchen and she has two cups in her hands, I stand up and shake my head.
"I must go.. got to be there for the rai.. something"
She nods and I can see tears threatening to fall.
"Hey don't worry" I assure her "I'll visit you on my way back"
"Your.. Not staying permanently?"
"No.. Why?"
"I just thought.."
"Well no I have other stuff.. now I really must go"
"okay.." she leans in and gives me a peck on the cheek then backs of and smiles.
Shaking all the guys hands and giving Kate a kiss, I head out of the door, satchel in hand and jump on my bike.
"Sunnydale.. I just hope they don't have as much influence as Cordelia.. Or I'm screwed"
I'm screwed
I turn the key letting the engine roar into life and pull free from the curb headed out of LA, towards Sunnydale, towards destiny?
Author: Michael Dunbar
E-mail: mutant190583@yahoo.com
Category: B/X
Rating: PG14
Summary: Xander.. After 10 years on his own.. He's
changed
Disclaimer: The characters do not belong to me, they
belong to Joss Whedon and Co. Only the story is mine.
Feedback: Most totally dude:)
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The sun's rays greet me as my eyelids ascend and I awake from my slumber, I pull myself up stretching my arms and yawning as I get my bearings.
Letting my eyes roam my surroundings, mainly the room and the memories of the nights previous events come flooding back,
"Comfy bed" I mumble as I pull myself free from the covers preparing to dress.
I run my hand along my jaw feeling the stubble there and rubbing it gently "could do with a shave. And a wash" I grab my satchel from the place I had thrown it the night before, the side of the bed.
Placing it on the bed I undo it and let the contents spill out.
"Most of my worldly possession.. Good job some of it's money," I say smiling as I check the bills in there counting every single one, I pull my clothes from beneath the money and lay them out at the side of the satchel.
Some leather trousers, a blue T-shirt with the Nike symbol on it in the centre that was slightly ripped on one sleeve and a pair of silk blue boxers.
"Maybe I should buy some clothes," I say as I look at the clothes that are dirty on the floor at the side of my feet "Naa better not I was told this money was for Sunnydale only.. I have no idea why though, never needed money before"
Placing the money back in the satchel I bend down picking up my clothes and dump them in afterwards tieing it up.
I pull on my clothes fast though I have difficulty with the trousers.
"Must have put on some weight.. Damn trousers"
Making the bed quickly I grab my satchel and run out the door towards the stairs.
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Descending the stairs I scan the room with my eyes and ears but hear nothing, no one is awake yet.
Good makes it easier to leave
Before I make it to the door however I hear someone outside and soon a key is placed in the keyhole and is turned, the light floods into the reception and I raise my arm to see the unknown guest, but from her footsteps I should have guessed.
"Xan..der" Cordelia spurts out, her mouth slightly open and the light still shining around her frame from the open door behind her.
"Cordelia" I reply smiling "How's it been"
She turns to close the door before she makes a step forward and tries to slap me across the face; I grab her hand smiling at her.
"Sorry Cordy.. But I'm sensitive to been hit, it hurts" I release her hand and she rubs her wrist then looks up at me, I see a lone tear descend her left cheek.
"Xander what happened" she asks.
I suppose its story telling time
"Okay Cordy, come with me.. You see it all started on the day of Buffy's funeral..."
-------
"You could have called or something.. They were worried" She says a frown on her face after I had told her my story.
"I needed time"
Cordelia is sat in Angel's chair while I am sat in the same one I had the night before looking in her direction.
"I was worried"
"I can take care of myself.." I reply "I suppose it's time to change the subject.. I heard you have a significant other?"
Her face brightens up for the first time since she had seen me her eyes seem to drift as she looks my way and she had obviously missed my changing of the subject.
"Yea, he's great, Cameron"
"He better look after you.." I say warningly although from the look on her face she is oblivious to my tone.
"He does, very well"
"Well good"
I tap my fingers gently on the desk and scan the pictures finding the one of Angel with his kid.
Who'd have thought, 15 years ago they were inseparable now he has a kid with someone else.. Man if he'd just have fallen in love with someone else earlier
"I really missed you" she says out of the blue and I see a tear descend her cheek following the other one from earlier, I reach for her hand and squeeze it gently before standing up and pulling her around the desk into my hug.
"I missed you all too, I still do but I couldn't come back my life.. it revolved around something else after and still does.. I love you all.. Even Angel"
I hear a giggle from my shoulder and she pulls back and wipes her eyes with the back of her hand.
"Never thought I'd hear you say that" she says smiling.
"Me neither" I reply dryly "So any plans for today?"
"Well we have a research party planned this morning that's why I'm here so early and later on is pretty empty I might go shopping"
"Who does the fighting now that Angel's all human and stuff?"
"Mostly Wesley and Gunn, although Angel himself isn't soft"
"Wow.. Wesley" I say and smile
She rolls her eyes and smiles.
"So what's your life revolve around now.. If not us?"
"I suppose I could call it a job"
"Is it well paid?" she says
Same Cordy
"I knew you'd say that" I reply and smirk "It's a crap wage but I like the job"
She nods understandingly then looks around and finally back at me.
"What are you doing here anyway?" she asks
"Just passing through.. Angel let me stay"
"Passing through?.. Sunnydale?" she asks and I nod "I would have guessed"
"Yea well talking about Sunnydale I really must go.. Got to get there early"
I stand up and prepare to leave but she grabs my hand and I turn towards her.
"Don't leave yet.. Can we talk some more; you don't have to go this early do you? You could come shopping with me later" she pleads and gives me the puppy dog eyes that I mastered so long ago.
"Sure Cordy I can stay till a bit later.. Just a bit"
Just a bit.. Damn I'm such a softy
She smiles and we sit again, she decides to tell me all that had happened since I left and I listen to her rambling which makes me smile.
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"You see this shop it's good for snake skin shoes and bags and other stuff like that.. And this one is good for versace dresses"
Oh god.. I really should have declined
"Are you listening Xander?"
"Umm yea.. What were you saying"
We had left Angel's hotel just under an hour ago after I helped them find there demon in the books, right now Wes, Gunn and Angel were out trying to find it's nest.
Man wish I was with them.. Kicking some demon booty would be good right about now
I hear the sound of skateboard wheels making its way down the path towards us, turning my head slightly I look at the person.
He is about 18 years old with baggy clothes and has dread locks in his hair, he is headed for us and his eyes remain on Cordelia's Handbag.
When he is about to grab her bag and make off with it I place my arm out making him hit it and fall to the floor with a grunt of pain, leaning down I pull him up and slam him into the wall making him let out another grunt.
I see Cordelia's open mouthed expression and smile at her.
Turning back I see the guy looking at me in fear.
"Okay.. This can go two ways" I whisper as I lean closer "I let you go and you go hand yourself in to that Security guard over there" I point to a big burly guy in a uniform "Or I let you go and you try to attack me with that knife in your pocket in which case I'll break both your arms"
I release the man and turn to grab Cordelia's hand, I hear him reaching for his pocket.
Big mistake
I turn quickly intercepting the stabbing arm and twist violently hearing the bone snap as I press him back hard against the wall, he lunges at me with his other arm but I grab that also inflicting the same damage on it.
"What happened here.." A security guard says as walks up and looks at the man on the floor.
"He tried to steal my friends purse.. I wouldn't let him"
"I'll have to take some statements"
"Sorry" I reply "but I don't have time for statements"
Stepping forward I try to walk off but he intercepts me.
"Then you'll make time," he says, he looks me up and down then grins smugly.
Stupid mistake fat donut eating freak
"LOOK.." I would have said more but Cordelia touched my arm and interrupted me.
"We'd really love to officer.. But we need to get to the hospital, can't we give you our names and addresses and you can get back to us?"
He looks at Cordelia and nearly drools on his shoes as she grins at him, he nods his head and she writes our names and addresses on a piece of paper and hands it to him then we walk off.
"Nice work" I whisper to Cordy as we make our way out of the area.
"I know"
"What now?"
"The perfume shops"
I groan
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We had gone through all the shops and I can't even count how many things she had bought, I sit here surrounded by bags as she has walked off to yet another store.
"Okay.. Her boyfriends rich" I mumble and straighten up as I see her approach with a bag in hand.
"What now.. What haven't you got?"
"Ermm Dinner"
That statement makes me straighten up and I smile at her as she deposits a bigmac in my hand and a coke in the other one.
"You're the best Cordy" I mumble as I take a bite from the burger.
"Don't I know it" she replies and takes a sip of coffee from a Styrofoam cup.
I eat the burger quickly ever so often taking sips of coke from my cup, finishing quickly I turn to see Cordy looking at me.
"What.. do I got a booger?"
She smiles.
"No.. it's just unique"
"What is?"
"How you eat.. simply Xander!
"Should I take that as a compliment?"
"I would" she replies and stands up "Right.. now to get all this home"
"What on? A truck?"
"Funny.. No a Taxi should do"
"Mega sized taxi" I reply in a whisper and smile when she looks at me suspiciously.
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We managed to get all her stuff safely home in a Taxi, most of it piled on top, I was told to watch make sure nothing fell off, I did. For a bit anyway.
We are now sat in Angel's, Cordelia is in the kitchen making something, Wes is in front of me, Gunn is sat at the side and Kate is sat in the chair with the baby on her lap.
"So.." I say breaking the silence "Fighting Wes.. how's that going for you?"
"Good good"
I nod in response then turn to Gunn "you?"
"Hmm okay I guess"
"Good" I reply, raising my arm I look at my watch 2:30 PM.
Whatever happened to going early?
I hear Cordelia return from the kitchen and she has two cups in her hands, I stand up and shake my head.
"I must go.. got to be there for the rai.. something"
She nods and I can see tears threatening to fall.
"Hey don't worry" I assure her "I'll visit you on my way back"
"Your.. Not staying permanently?"
"No.. Why?"
"I just thought.."
"Well no I have other stuff.. now I really must go"
"okay.." she leans in and gives me a peck on the cheek then backs of and smiles.
Shaking all the guys hands and giving Kate a kiss, I head out of the door, satchel in hand and jump on my bike.
"Sunnydale.. I just hope they don't have as much influence as Cordelia.. Or I'm screwed"
I'm screwed
I turn the key letting the engine roar into life and pull free from the curb headed out of LA, towards Sunnydale, towards destiny?