Dedication: Dedicated to Queen Angel
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Beta-reader: just by me.. hope it isn't too bad:)
Lonely in my Heart
Part 8
1
* Magic Box *
* Buffy POV *
Tear's fell as the light shined upon Xander's face, but this time they were tears of happiness whereas in the past they were tears of disappointment, misery and an overwhelming sadness. Her mind was reeling with so many thoughts, so many questions.
Why did he leave?
Where did he go?
Why didn't he come back to see me
They were all muddled somewhere within her mind making her head spin as she looks upon Xander, She can't say that much about him as changed, he still has his good looks accompanied by his wonderfully unique goofy smile. But then there are his eyes, they show the biggest change because where once there was an innocence a purity even after all that had happened to him in Sunnydale now lies deep within wisdom and experience. Buffy's feet seem to move of there own accord as she propels herself forward into his arms.
* Faith POV*
As Xander stepped into the light Faith had actually gasped, here he stood, she thought for sure that he was dead and had only actually gone to look for him because of Buffy. But then here he stands his still goofy smile greeting them all, welcoming them without even a word. Faith had missed him somewhat but had helped Buffy to deal, she had been released from prison due to good behaviour and had come back to see her sister slayer in shambles. She came back to see her and she looked ill and seemed to never eat, she couldn't fight one vampire in that state let alone what the hell mouth produced. So Faith helped them.. Helped them all like they had once tried to her but she prevailed and actually got them back to a slight normality.
She had knew that long time ago when she lived in Sunnydale that if anything had of happened to Xander that none of them could cope and she was right, they didn't. They all became acquaintances and each of them fell into there own pit of despair and didn't even try to help the other.
Where the hell was he? We tried to find him for ages
Faith had used all the contacts she had acquired over the years to try and track him down yet they all turned up nothing. She had been all over the country with Buffy beating the crap out of demons to try and find him, yet they always turned up nothing.
He's still hot though
She noticed he had filled out slightly and his upper body seemed much more muscular than when she last remembered it and accompanied by legs to die for she would have jumped him now if she was her old self. She sees Buffy walk up into his waiting arms that he has open and Buffy sobs into his chest.
I guess she's happy then
A small smile graces Faith lips as she looks upon the scene before her.
* Spike's POV*
Wow I thought he was dog meat for sure
Spike had changed, for one thing he felt no compulsion to walk up and snap the neck of the boy he used to call droopy. He wasn't the same.. Well not totally, for some strange reason the demon's personality had rubbed off on him by the time he got his body back and he can even swear and everything. It seems also that now he has an affinity for writing poetry whereas at one point he sucked..
Must be the hideous view of my demon's experiences
Spike had gained his soul due to the Scooby gang, after Faith returned his chip had malfunctioned while fighting on patrol and he even had a plan and everything to kill them all, but he didn't count on any of them having a plan. It seemed Willow had already performed a spell on him so that if he hurt another living being his soul would be returned instantly, his demon never should have underestimated that red head.
So bala bing bala boom, we have one William AKA Spike in a vampire's body. The pain of returning was the most hideous experience of his life, all them faces one after the other screaming for him to stop.. Begging, pleading and then there was blood.. So much blood. He curled himself up into a ball in a corner of his crypt and was like that for days on end and then he noticed someone had stayed with him throughout.. Dawn.
She actually cared for him, she brought him blood when he couldn't talk to anyone else and gradually helped him back to fighting form and that's why he was what he was. A good guy, fighting for his redemption like the one Angel had claimed and he would do it for Dawn.
Spike sees Buffy walk up into Xander's arms and he can't help the gentle smile that places itself on his lips, for once he could see a smile on her face accompanied by sobs of happiness.
It has been so long since she has smiled.. She deserves some happiness
* Giles POV *
The long lost son is back Giles muses as he remembers a certain episode of passions.
Giles had come back just two years ago when he felt the need to live with his children once more, having originally left them for there own good he decided to come back for his own good. He hated to admit it but he needed them, there bantering made him smile and their undying loyalty to each other was the strongest he had ever seen.
When Xander had left he knew that it was over, he couldn't help the collapse and it hurt him so, he had to leave before the place took his sanity as well as his happiness. So he did.. It hurt him to do it but he actually left for greener if not more weather sodden pastures. Even Giles had tried to find him using his watcher connections but nothing came back, nothing. But here he stands and he looks very well.
More mature one might say
Giles had noticed the change in the eyes had Buffy had, an intelligence lies within that he can't even attempt to analyse. Them eyes tell more about his life with a simple look than an entire collection of books ever could, they show experience, wisdom, strength and cunningness. They show all the old traits that he would associate with Xander too except for a couple of differences because for one he was much more mature.
Giles smiles as he looks upon Xander and sees Buffy walk into his arms.
Finally.. She's home
* Dawn's POV *
Oh my god.. It's him
The crush she had on him so long ago allowed her to remember every single detail about him right down to his shoe size, Dawn brushes her hair back slightly and her heart races at the sight of him.
Get a hold of yourself girl..
It seemed that the crush had resurfaced in force and made her accidentally look his body over appreciatively.
Oh. He has nice hands.. Oh and that smile.. And that ass.
Dawn can remember all the things he had done for her, all the little hugs to tell her she was loved, all the talks to her she was appreciated. She can also remember one over thing, his undying love for Buffy. Dawn always knew, even when he was going out with Anya she could tell, he held one gaze for Buffy and another gaze for everyone else. It was like they were in this perfect little bubble when there eyes met and no one could break it, god knows she had tried a few times in the past just to get him to see her and her adolescent hormone induced approach to tell him he's hot.
Then Dawn sees Buffy walk into his arms and she smiles.
Back where she belongs
* Anya's POV *
Anya was confused, he was here standing there, but wasn't he supposed to be dead? Did he come back like Buffy?
Anya just hasn't changed, she is more human and not as tactless, she had learnt to be more human when she was on her road trip after Xander had ran away to parts unknown. Met a guy that seemed to treat her right and they were happy for a while and he taught her things, like how to be nice because that is what he was although she knew and he knew they weren't in love and they broke up after a happy few years.
It was just in good fun.
Aren't I supposed to be mad at him for running out on me?
She knows she is but as soon as Buffy walked into his arms she knew it wasn't her place to be mad.
* Xander's POV *
Xander had to stare he couldn't help it, she was just so beautiful to him, her looks were dazzling, her hair frames her face perfectly and the light shines off her eyes. Last night was nice but nothing beats seeing Buffy in the day when her beauty can be truly seen in the light where she's supposed to be.
God..
His heart is beating ten to the dozen.
THUMPETY THUMP
THUMPETY THUMP
His eyes meet hers with a gently gaze and he smiles toward her. Her feet propel her toward him and he opens his arms.
THUMPETY THUMP
THUMPETY THUMP
She sobs into his chest and he rests his chin on her head before leaning down and whispering in her ear.
"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry for leaving you"
Disclaimer: I own nada.
Beta-reader: just by me.. hope it isn't too bad:)
Lonely in my Heart
Part 8
1
* Magic Box *
* Buffy POV *
Tear's fell as the light shined upon Xander's face, but this time they were tears of happiness whereas in the past they were tears of disappointment, misery and an overwhelming sadness. Her mind was reeling with so many thoughts, so many questions.
Why did he leave?
Where did he go?
Why didn't he come back to see me
They were all muddled somewhere within her mind making her head spin as she looks upon Xander, She can't say that much about him as changed, he still has his good looks accompanied by his wonderfully unique goofy smile. But then there are his eyes, they show the biggest change because where once there was an innocence a purity even after all that had happened to him in Sunnydale now lies deep within wisdom and experience. Buffy's feet seem to move of there own accord as she propels herself forward into his arms.
* Faith POV*
As Xander stepped into the light Faith had actually gasped, here he stood, she thought for sure that he was dead and had only actually gone to look for him because of Buffy. But then here he stands his still goofy smile greeting them all, welcoming them without even a word. Faith had missed him somewhat but had helped Buffy to deal, she had been released from prison due to good behaviour and had come back to see her sister slayer in shambles. She came back to see her and she looked ill and seemed to never eat, she couldn't fight one vampire in that state let alone what the hell mouth produced. So Faith helped them.. Helped them all like they had once tried to her but she prevailed and actually got them back to a slight normality.
She had knew that long time ago when she lived in Sunnydale that if anything had of happened to Xander that none of them could cope and she was right, they didn't. They all became acquaintances and each of them fell into there own pit of despair and didn't even try to help the other.
Where the hell was he? We tried to find him for ages
Faith had used all the contacts she had acquired over the years to try and track him down yet they all turned up nothing. She had been all over the country with Buffy beating the crap out of demons to try and find him, yet they always turned up nothing.
He's still hot though
She noticed he had filled out slightly and his upper body seemed much more muscular than when she last remembered it and accompanied by legs to die for she would have jumped him now if she was her old self. She sees Buffy walk up into his waiting arms that he has open and Buffy sobs into his chest.
I guess she's happy then
A small smile graces Faith lips as she looks upon the scene before her.
* Spike's POV*
Wow I thought he was dog meat for sure
Spike had changed, for one thing he felt no compulsion to walk up and snap the neck of the boy he used to call droopy. He wasn't the same.. Well not totally, for some strange reason the demon's personality had rubbed off on him by the time he got his body back and he can even swear and everything. It seems also that now he has an affinity for writing poetry whereas at one point he sucked..
Must be the hideous view of my demon's experiences
Spike had gained his soul due to the Scooby gang, after Faith returned his chip had malfunctioned while fighting on patrol and he even had a plan and everything to kill them all, but he didn't count on any of them having a plan. It seemed Willow had already performed a spell on him so that if he hurt another living being his soul would be returned instantly, his demon never should have underestimated that red head.
So bala bing bala boom, we have one William AKA Spike in a vampire's body. The pain of returning was the most hideous experience of his life, all them faces one after the other screaming for him to stop.. Begging, pleading and then there was blood.. So much blood. He curled himself up into a ball in a corner of his crypt and was like that for days on end and then he noticed someone had stayed with him throughout.. Dawn.
She actually cared for him, she brought him blood when he couldn't talk to anyone else and gradually helped him back to fighting form and that's why he was what he was. A good guy, fighting for his redemption like the one Angel had claimed and he would do it for Dawn.
Spike sees Buffy walk up into Xander's arms and he can't help the gentle smile that places itself on his lips, for once he could see a smile on her face accompanied by sobs of happiness.
It has been so long since she has smiled.. She deserves some happiness
* Giles POV *
The long lost son is back Giles muses as he remembers a certain episode of passions.
Giles had come back just two years ago when he felt the need to live with his children once more, having originally left them for there own good he decided to come back for his own good. He hated to admit it but he needed them, there bantering made him smile and their undying loyalty to each other was the strongest he had ever seen.
When Xander had left he knew that it was over, he couldn't help the collapse and it hurt him so, he had to leave before the place took his sanity as well as his happiness. So he did.. It hurt him to do it but he actually left for greener if not more weather sodden pastures. Even Giles had tried to find him using his watcher connections but nothing came back, nothing. But here he stands and he looks very well.
More mature one might say
Giles had noticed the change in the eyes had Buffy had, an intelligence lies within that he can't even attempt to analyse. Them eyes tell more about his life with a simple look than an entire collection of books ever could, they show experience, wisdom, strength and cunningness. They show all the old traits that he would associate with Xander too except for a couple of differences because for one he was much more mature.
Giles smiles as he looks upon Xander and sees Buffy walk into his arms.
Finally.. She's home
* Dawn's POV *
Oh my god.. It's him
The crush she had on him so long ago allowed her to remember every single detail about him right down to his shoe size, Dawn brushes her hair back slightly and her heart races at the sight of him.
Get a hold of yourself girl..
It seemed that the crush had resurfaced in force and made her accidentally look his body over appreciatively.
Oh. He has nice hands.. Oh and that smile.. And that ass.
Dawn can remember all the things he had done for her, all the little hugs to tell her she was loved, all the talks to her she was appreciated. She can also remember one over thing, his undying love for Buffy. Dawn always knew, even when he was going out with Anya she could tell, he held one gaze for Buffy and another gaze for everyone else. It was like they were in this perfect little bubble when there eyes met and no one could break it, god knows she had tried a few times in the past just to get him to see her and her adolescent hormone induced approach to tell him he's hot.
Then Dawn sees Buffy walk into his arms and she smiles.
Back where she belongs
* Anya's POV *
Anya was confused, he was here standing there, but wasn't he supposed to be dead? Did he come back like Buffy?
Anya just hasn't changed, she is more human and not as tactless, she had learnt to be more human when she was on her road trip after Xander had ran away to parts unknown. Met a guy that seemed to treat her right and they were happy for a while and he taught her things, like how to be nice because that is what he was although she knew and he knew they weren't in love and they broke up after a happy few years.
It was just in good fun.
Aren't I supposed to be mad at him for running out on me?
She knows she is but as soon as Buffy walked into his arms she knew it wasn't her place to be mad.
* Xander's POV *
Xander had to stare he couldn't help it, she was just so beautiful to him, her looks were dazzling, her hair frames her face perfectly and the light shines off her eyes. Last night was nice but nothing beats seeing Buffy in the day when her beauty can be truly seen in the light where she's supposed to be.
God..
His heart is beating ten to the dozen.
THUMPETY THUMP
THUMPETY THUMP
His eyes meet hers with a gently gaze and he smiles toward her. Her feet propel her toward him and he opens his arms.
THUMPETY THUMP
THUMPETY THUMP
She sobs into his chest and he rests his chin on her head before leaning down and whispering in her ear.
"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry for leaving you"