THE FIFTH SENSE
Chapter 4 - "Smell As Sweet"
well I wonder what it's like to be a rainmaker
I wonder what it's like to know that I made the rain
well I wonder what it's like to be a superhero
I wonder where I'd go if I could fly around downtown, yeah
boy I bet my friends would all be stunned
they're stunned
freedom what did you hope to learn about here
if I was someone else would this all fall apart
strange where were you when we started this gig
I wish the real world would just stop hassling me
yeah me
There's a smell that only comes just after the rain. I remember how when I was a child I would wait for that smell, and when I had smelled it then all was right with the world.
There are things I regret about my life, but as I look back over it I wonder if- given the chance- I would change them. All things work together, if not for good, then in spite of evil. I miss Africa- oh Goddess I miss it! But the things I have learned here, have done here, have made me a stronger person. Have made others stronger, if I can believe that I could have such an effect on other people. And yet... how can I not believe it? I see the shining faces turned toward me in my classroom, eager to find out about the world and to learn everything about why they are the way they are. Why... Isn't that the question? Always the question...
I think Logan understands me better than most. It's there in him, too- that longing to be somewhere else. Somewhere... less contained. More... raw. When I look in his eyes I see the desert in my own reflected in the taiga- the untamed trees and the darkness that haunts them. It must be harder for him, being so close, yet so far away. But a stronger feeling exists, the one that keeps us here. A need to be a part of something bigger and to be able to look others in the eye and know that they understand.
Why? Always the question... But the answer is not as out of reach as it may seem at times. Even without my powers, if I had been born a "normal" child, I would have a great sense of responsibility toward my fellow people. And with this responsibility comes a certain amount of self sacrifice. It's not the powers that make the hero, but rather the reverse. A hero takes whatever power they are given and uses it to make someone else's life better. My heart may yearn for Africa but I know my place is here, fighting to make the world a better place for the people of the future. There is a freedom that comes from such sacrifice, and a gain that cannot be expressed. I have learned to control my powers for the good of all, and I have met friends that I cannot imagine having lived my life without.
Rain in my village was always a welcome event- a signal for joy and of the continuation of life. I have become a rainmaker myself in more than one way- I bring water to the earth and happiness to young faces.
So now whenever I wake in the morning the air has the scent of the earth
after the rain, and all I can do is smile.
please don't change
please don't break
Oh the only thing
seems to work at all is you
please don't change
at all from me to you
and you to me
yeah