An utterly unimportant note. What, you don't trust me?!?
This whole thing was intended to be purely humor. But try reading through again, and you might notice double meanings, symbolisms, and generally all those things we hear so often in literature classes, that deeper strain of thought. I didn't realise this myself until I took it upon myself to read what I had written. Then I saw that my subconscious had been working away all the while. I thinks its most apparent in the previous chapter with Yuriko, or this chapter, so look out for it if you feel up to it, and only if you have recovered from sitting through 3 straight blocks of lit.
[Party of Five]
I had a dream last night. It was more of a recollection really. As in, it happened to me before in Junior High. I was running after a bus. I had to catch it, it was the last bus, or I would've to walk all the way home. I chased it for around two stops, all the way waving wildly, but the driver just didn't seem to notice. Then I finally got on as it stopped to let a passenger off at the third stop. Which was when I realised that it was the wrong bus. In cases such as these, one can never decide between laughing, crying, or threatening the bus driver with strangulation through your awful school tie and making him stop exactly outside your house.
The curious thing was, I haven't had a dream, or at least one that I can remember in the morning, for ages and ages. To be precise, the last time I had a dream was before receiving my posting to my High School. Actually that was more of a nightmare, but such things are best forgotten…
Anyway, I was pretty disappointed that time at not having gotten into my choice school, but now I am glad I ended up in Shohoku High…because there us Rukawa-kun to hanker after…
My life in junior High is nothing more than a blank spot to me. Back then I used to reflect on how empty my life was. I had nothing in Junior High. Now my life has something – Rukawa…(insert 3 hearts)
So I took on a new name, joined two friends, and became the Wa in the RuKaWa Brigade. I didn't think so much anymore about how empty or active my life was. I guess I subconsciously assumed it was full.
Now I don't know, I just don't know anymore… After I joined basketball, everything seems different. Like life just turned richer. Probably because of more activities. But lately – I think less and less of Rukawa, and more and more, I think I'm beginning to see so many other things in such a myriad of different colours.
Writing this down, I can see that I'm not being entirely honest with myself. Who am I kidding? I don't love Rukawa, I've never really loved him. I love basketball. But if I admitted that, I'd feel disloyal to the other two. I guess I chased after Rukawa like that bus, and now…I think it's the wrong bus. I'll never ever tell this to anyone, ever. I just have to continue being Wa. But yet, the new world I'm in…I don't want to give that up either.
My days are filled with so much now, we've had to cut down on some of our 'extra' activities, or to us, 'compulsory'. (that is, cheering Rukawa, mobbing Rukawa, drawing Rukawa and hearts, holding Rukawa meetings, beating up those who hate Rukawa (Sakuragi…we're watching…))
So we've made temporary, replacement leaders; dear good, devoted girls by the names of Ru2, Ka2, and Wa2. Now we three originals concentrate mainly on basketball. The drills do get fearfully boring at times, but it's just the feeling of exhilaration when you get a shot.
I think that out of all of us, Yuriko has made the most astounding improvement. She's a regular shootin', runnin', jumpin, machine. But she deserves it. She practices and conditions by herself everyday, and is always so humble and fearfully apologetic when learning from her mistakes.
There is a friendly rivalry between Matsui and I. It actually seems quite useless, you see, we fight to see who can make a certain person foul the most number of times during the game.
We start off with three points. If we make a foul ourselves, we minus one point. If we make the specified person foul, we gain a point. The score stands at Matsui – 7, I – 4. Argh! I'll beat her yet!
We've learned not to target Ayako though. She got really angry, hit us with her fan, and made us do loads of sit-ups. My stomach ached from the sit-ups and the silent laughter between Matsui and I. But she probably got mad because she was on our side during the game. Sheesh…talk about no sense of humor…
There goes the phone. I guess I'll close my diary and continue later. It's most likely Ru and Ka for our nightly chat.
[#] I forgot to add… what, you think I'm going to kill off the RuKaWa brigade? God save my soul. No way. My friend just gave me three beautiful erasers as a pre-easter present. I've named then Ru Ka and Wa. Isn't that precious?[#]