Promises Not Forgotten
- by eternallyyuna@aol.com
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Chapter 2 is here, which is the continuation of my attempt to write FFX fanfiction. Though it may seem slow I do have a few ideas in mind to bring into play later on :D Enjoy Chapter 2, Nostalgia!
"It was like I was dreaming. Dreaming I was stranded alone. Wishing for someone - anyone - to be with me."
Yuna's heart felt like it had been stabbed a million times. The purity of her love was torturing. She felt that there was no hope left. How could she believe in the existence of 'hope'? Everything she believed in was proven wrong. Her life around her was broken shards of glass cutting into her every moment of her life. She denied that her father's death was in vain and hoped that Tidus would come back.
"But he won't. And there's nothing you can do about it.." she said to herself in a mirror. Her face was covered in tears and she was clutching the sides of the dresser so hard that her knuckles were turning white. She was alone in her room. Alone. Left to deal with her problems all by herself. How lonely she felt. Trembling, she picked up a glass to drink some water. Her stomach was in a knot and all she could do was try to soothe herself.
The water in the glass quivered as she brought it to her lips. Her ruddy lips drank from the glass, almost forcing the fluid down. Yuna's grip around the glass tightened. Frustration was consuming her. Denial. Fear. Hate. Pain. An endless flood of emotions were drowning her in sorrow.
Yuna gave even a tighter grip. The glass was not used to this pressure. It then split between her two hands; the shards digging into them. Blood trickled down her now cut hands. Without even a flinch, she looked down. Her eyes had shed too many tears that night to cry anymore about this. She raised her hands towards her face, letting the shards slip out of her hands.
"Is.. this real?"
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Rikku had escorted Tidus into a nearby pub. She sipped out of a straw from a drink she had ordered while Tidus sat starting at her.
"You know.. Yuna will be happy to see you." Tidus froze. What could he say to her after however long it had been. He then asked, ignoring the statement:
"How long have I been gone...?"
"About 4 months... So what do you think you'll say to Yuna when you see her?" Rikku asked quizzically. She obviously wanted to talk about.. that. Tidus slid his fingers through his hair and smiled a bit.
"I dunno.. Whatever happens happens." That was his way of doing things. Rikku sipped on her drink a bit more and pushed it aside. She rolled her eyes when she faced Tidus again.
"Oh please! I know what goes on between you two!" Her spiral green eyes were twinkly with excitement. Tidus couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm.
"Well.. It will be nice to see her. But hasn't she already found someone else? I mean, 4 months is a long time and I don't want to interfere..." Tidus's voice trailed off. Rikku just shook her head and laughed.
"Are you kidding!? You are what she wants, Tidus. And you're a complete fool to think otherwise," Rikku exclaimed. She was so optimistic and helpful. Tidus felt extremely lucky for her guidance and assistance through this rebirth of some sorts.
"I suppose," he returned, blushing a bit. He couldn't help but feel a little embarassed.
"We'll take some chocobos to Luca and catch a boat to Besaid. She can't live in crowds or she's swarmed. You know people actually come up to her and ask for her hand in marriage!? And get this! They don't even know here!" Rikku continued on and on about what Tidus had missed for the past few months. Tidus tried to suck it all in as he felt slightly exhausted from all of the news.
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Yuna wrapped some pieces of cloth around her bleeding hands. She didn't feel the pain or feel bothered by the blood. It was merely a sensation of insane happiness. Hurting herself by herself was new to her. Everything else in the world had hurt her but herself. This was a liberating experience of some sort for her.
She sighed a bit as she finished fastening the cloth around her right hand. Strangely, cutting her hands open was a good feeling. Yuna felt almost entirely consumed by the idea of hurting herself more. It wouldn't make a difference - she had already suffered a thousand deaths.
The memories of Tidus were tearing her apart. His touch against her soft skin was like a soft breeze that was pushed away by reality. Maybe ending her life would end her suffering. She was prepared to die. When Sin was still around, her mind and body were ready for their end. She was sacrificing herself for the sake of others. Now all she wanted was to destroy her useless self for the pain the incident with Sin had left. There was no point in living.
Her life now consisted of a boringly repetitive cycle. And too much fame. More than she had had prior to the defeat of Sin. She had become accustomed to the few fans who wished her luck and a safe journey. But nothing like this. Besaid was the only place for her to be protected from it all.. up until a month ago.
"How could he leave me...? He.. he promised he wouldn't leave!" She slammed her fist down onto the dresser, "He promised..."
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Ooh, the drama. XD Actually, I like suspense so nyah. You'll just have to wait for the next chapter ^^; Thanks for the comments guys! They've inspired me!
- by eternallyyuna@aol.com
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Chapter 2 is here, which is the continuation of my attempt to write FFX fanfiction. Though it may seem slow I do have a few ideas in mind to bring into play later on :D Enjoy Chapter 2, Nostalgia!
"It was like I was dreaming. Dreaming I was stranded alone. Wishing for someone - anyone - to be with me."
Yuna's heart felt like it had been stabbed a million times. The purity of her love was torturing. She felt that there was no hope left. How could she believe in the existence of 'hope'? Everything she believed in was proven wrong. Her life around her was broken shards of glass cutting into her every moment of her life. She denied that her father's death was in vain and hoped that Tidus would come back.
"But he won't. And there's nothing you can do about it.." she said to herself in a mirror. Her face was covered in tears and she was clutching the sides of the dresser so hard that her knuckles were turning white. She was alone in her room. Alone. Left to deal with her problems all by herself. How lonely she felt. Trembling, she picked up a glass to drink some water. Her stomach was in a knot and all she could do was try to soothe herself.
The water in the glass quivered as she brought it to her lips. Her ruddy lips drank from the glass, almost forcing the fluid down. Yuna's grip around the glass tightened. Frustration was consuming her. Denial. Fear. Hate. Pain. An endless flood of emotions were drowning her in sorrow.
Yuna gave even a tighter grip. The glass was not used to this pressure. It then split between her two hands; the shards digging into them. Blood trickled down her now cut hands. Without even a flinch, she looked down. Her eyes had shed too many tears that night to cry anymore about this. She raised her hands towards her face, letting the shards slip out of her hands.
"Is.. this real?"
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Rikku had escorted Tidus into a nearby pub. She sipped out of a straw from a drink she had ordered while Tidus sat starting at her.
"You know.. Yuna will be happy to see you." Tidus froze. What could he say to her after however long it had been. He then asked, ignoring the statement:
"How long have I been gone...?"
"About 4 months... So what do you think you'll say to Yuna when you see her?" Rikku asked quizzically. She obviously wanted to talk about.. that. Tidus slid his fingers through his hair and smiled a bit.
"I dunno.. Whatever happens happens." That was his way of doing things. Rikku sipped on her drink a bit more and pushed it aside. She rolled her eyes when she faced Tidus again.
"Oh please! I know what goes on between you two!" Her spiral green eyes were twinkly with excitement. Tidus couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm.
"Well.. It will be nice to see her. But hasn't she already found someone else? I mean, 4 months is a long time and I don't want to interfere..." Tidus's voice trailed off. Rikku just shook her head and laughed.
"Are you kidding!? You are what she wants, Tidus. And you're a complete fool to think otherwise," Rikku exclaimed. She was so optimistic and helpful. Tidus felt extremely lucky for her guidance and assistance through this rebirth of some sorts.
"I suppose," he returned, blushing a bit. He couldn't help but feel a little embarassed.
"We'll take some chocobos to Luca and catch a boat to Besaid. She can't live in crowds or she's swarmed. You know people actually come up to her and ask for her hand in marriage!? And get this! They don't even know here!" Rikku continued on and on about what Tidus had missed for the past few months. Tidus tried to suck it all in as he felt slightly exhausted from all of the news.
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Yuna wrapped some pieces of cloth around her bleeding hands. She didn't feel the pain or feel bothered by the blood. It was merely a sensation of insane happiness. Hurting herself by herself was new to her. Everything else in the world had hurt her but herself. This was a liberating experience of some sort for her.
She sighed a bit as she finished fastening the cloth around her right hand. Strangely, cutting her hands open was a good feeling. Yuna felt almost entirely consumed by the idea of hurting herself more. It wouldn't make a difference - she had already suffered a thousand deaths.
The memories of Tidus were tearing her apart. His touch against her soft skin was like a soft breeze that was pushed away by reality. Maybe ending her life would end her suffering. She was prepared to die. When Sin was still around, her mind and body were ready for their end. She was sacrificing herself for the sake of others. Now all she wanted was to destroy her useless self for the pain the incident with Sin had left. There was no point in living.
Her life now consisted of a boringly repetitive cycle. And too much fame. More than she had had prior to the defeat of Sin. She had become accustomed to the few fans who wished her luck and a safe journey. But nothing like this. Besaid was the only place for her to be protected from it all.. up until a month ago.
"How could he leave me...? He.. he promised he wouldn't leave!" She slammed her fist down onto the dresser, "He promised..."
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Ooh, the drama. XD Actually, I like suspense so nyah. You'll just have to wait for the next chapter ^^; Thanks for the comments guys! They've inspired me!