Memories- A song fic for Jordan
Disclaimer-I do not own any original Higher Ground Members, nor do I own the song HERO sung by Enrique Inglesias. But I do own all the other characters
For this, Jordan thinks about Matthew, his dad, and about his brother and sister and their life.
NOTE- You know writing the story's been hard lately, and I needed a break. And I heard this song and Jordan just came to me. The would you Die for the one you love, thing. And this is my first song fic so there. Oh and where does this take place? I think, right after he gets back from the hotel before being confronted by everyone.
Jordan laid down on his bed. Alone in the dorm there was no one to interrupt him. The world was tumbling down around him. He had told, how could he have told? He wondered what Daddy would think about him, what would it be like if he was there. Jordan longed for his touch, for his love.
*'Would you dance
If I asked you to dance?'*
For a moment Jordan closed his eyes, reflecting on a happier time. It must have been when Jordan had just turned 5. He was wearing Shorts and a t-shirt with Barney on it. Matthew was there grabbing Jordan by both Hands.
"Want to twirl Jordan?" his Daddy asked playfully, full of smiles. It was before he had gotten sick. Jordan laughed. Jordan's Dad Spun around
fast, and Jordan lifted off the ground.
"Daddy I'm flying." Jordan said happily.
*'Would you run
1 And never look back?'*
Jordan looked at His brother and Sister. Both with backpacks loaded.
"Do you guys have everything, cause we aren't coming back." He said. They were running away. Kendra had hit Hailey Jade last night and Jordan had nursed her, but He couldn't have them in danger. They had to run.
"Where are we going Jordan?" Hailey Jade asked innocently.
"We need to leave Hail." Jordan said kissing her forehead.
"But won't mommy and daddy be back soon?" Hailey jade asked worried. "Won't they be mad."
"We'll be okay Hail, I won't let them hurt you again baby, that's why we're leaving."
*'Would you cry
If you saw me cryin'
Would you save my soul tonight?'*
Jordan sat on his bed now, why had this happened to him. He had lost them all. Everyone he loved. Every one except Jamie… but she was so far away, even now. She had come to his fathers Funeral, and had always been there. But she didn't see him. Not after Kendra locked him in the car crying after she hit him. And then he pushed her away from him, when he needed her the most Why had God done this to him? What had he done?
*'Would you tremble
If I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?'*
Then Jamie came into his mind again.. His best friend, his safety, his salvation after all those long nights of beatings. The one he always felt safe with. The one he shared his first kiss with and loved so much, so much he had to hide his pain from her. Her face came into his mind.
"Jordan, Look at me." She said touching his cheek, moving his eyes to her.
"I love you, You're my best friend." She said.
"I love you to Jamie." He said to her, a smile spread on her face. She kissed him softly on the lips, and Jordan was surprised.
"You taste like a tic-tac." She whispered in his ear.
Jordan laughed, it tickled.
*'Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
For the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight.'*
Daddy had been sick for a while now. And Jordan knew he was getting worse, even if Daddy wasn't telling him he was. Jordan just knew. And it was making him sad. Jordan wondered what would happen if daddy left him. What would mommy do? Mommy was being mean lately. Jordan felt like crying.
But Jordan knew that daddy was sick, and was going to die soon the night he had had the nightmare. It had been a bad one, and in it an evil black thing had chased Jordan and he cried and cried for his daddy but no one came. When he woke up Jordan ran into daddy's room.
By this time Matthew had his own room, to sick to go up and down the stairs for dinner and sleep and everything. Jordan ran to his room and woke him up crying. Matthew didn't ask any questions. He just hugged his crying child, it took all his strength but Matthew held him.
Jordan snuggled into his dad, but Matthew started coughing, hard. And coughing up blood. "Jordan, Go…get…your…mommy…" Matthew said between coughing and gasps for breath.
"Daddy… Daddy are you okay?" Jordan cried.
"Go get your mother Jordan." Matthew gasped before he started coughing again.
Jordan started bolting out of the room, but as he did Matthew called to him. "Jordan I love you, always remember that." He said as he ceased coughing for a moment, it was the last clear thing he ever told Jordan.
After getting Mom the last thing Jordan knew was the ambulance coming, and guys taking daddy away. He had seen him at the hospital once, but it wasn't daddy anymore. It didn't look like him. 2 days later Matthew died.
Jordan whipped the tears out of his eyes. But another memory just came
*'I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.'*
Jordan hugged Hailey Jade and Dillion, trying to get them to stop crying. He should have gotten home sooner. It wouldn't have happened if he had gotten home sooner.
Jordan got home from school, he had had to stay late.. Something seemed not right. It was to quiet. Where were Dillion and Hailey Jade? He looked in the living room and the bathroom. Finally he found them in his room. Hailey Jade had been crying.
"What's wrong Hail. What happened?" Jordan asked urgently, scared.
"Daddy.... Daddy hit me." Hailey Jade cried.
"Wha....What?!?!" Jordan asked angrily hugging his sister so hard wanting to take all her pain away.
"Dad and mom got mad at her. Hailey I guess drew on Mom's portfolio and she told daddy to teach Hailey a lesson so she wouldn't do it again." Dillion said scared.
"When? When did this happen?" Jordan asked Dylan.
"I tried Jordan, I tried to make daddy and mommy stop and they wouldn't. And it was like 15 minutes ago and you weren't home yet. And... And... And..." Dillion said choking up.
Jordan tried to comfort his brother for a minute, hugging him "Shhh. Dillion it wasn't your fault, it wasn't your fault."
"Hailey Jade. Where did he hit you?" Jordan asked her.
"My back." Hailey said. "Jordan. It hurts."
"I know Hail. I know. Worry I'm here now and I'll never let them hurt you like that again okay. Now can you let me see your back?"
They could hit him all they wanted. But when they hit Hailey and Dillion, he couldn't stand for it, they were so… so innocent. So pure, and they didn't deserve that. They didn't. That's why he had gotten them out…
*'I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.'*
Jordan thought bitterly of the day they were taken away. It hurt so bad. Like he was being pulled apart. He had called the police to protect them, then hid, made them lie saying he wasn't there. That meant they were safe. And no one wanted Jordan anyway. No one wanted 3 kids in a foster home, and Jordan didn't want that for Hailey Jade and Dillion.
It hurt him, like a blow in the chest, the air knocked out of him when he saw them pulling away. They were supposed to stay together. He could protect them if they stayed together. But he needed to protect himself to, and that meant staying…
*'Would you swear
That you'll always be mine?'*
Jamie's face came in after that memory, why was she always popping up in it? All the time. But this time it was a sad memory. Right after he vowed never to come to her house again. She had told him that she would always love him. And Jordan had laughed. And she got mad. No one had said that since Dillion and Hailey Jade left. All the people that had said that to him had hurt him, left him, abandoned him, died even. And he couldn't have her leave him to, he needed her, and he needed her with him, but not as close. It was to scary.
*'Would you lie?
Would you rub in mind?
Have I gone to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well, I don't care you're here tonight.'*
And then it was all over. He was still back in Horizon. Still faced with the ultimate doom of his mom and Jackson. The call Peter would soon make. All the lies were unraveling, and he couldn't save himself. He had tried to cover it up, lies upon lies. To save himself. Why wasn't it working anymore. Everyone knew. Everyone. And they couldn't. He wanted… He wanted… Well Jordan didn't know anymore. He threw his pillow over his head and willed sleep to come, dreams didn't always come in sleep, the memories didn't flood back as vividly as they did when he was awake at times like this. They always came in times of distress when he was awake. At those times, unlike regular times, dreams were safe. He was safe in them, not like now… He finally fell asleep.
*I can be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can't take my breath away*
THE END… I know, so very corney
Disclaimer-I do not own any original Higher Ground Members, nor do I own the song HERO sung by Enrique Inglesias. But I do own all the other characters
For this, Jordan thinks about Matthew, his dad, and about his brother and sister and their life.
NOTE- You know writing the story's been hard lately, and I needed a break. And I heard this song and Jordan just came to me. The would you Die for the one you love, thing. And this is my first song fic so there. Oh and where does this take place? I think, right after he gets back from the hotel before being confronted by everyone.
Jordan laid down on his bed. Alone in the dorm there was no one to interrupt him. The world was tumbling down around him. He had told, how could he have told? He wondered what Daddy would think about him, what would it be like if he was there. Jordan longed for his touch, for his love.
*'Would you dance
If I asked you to dance?'*
For a moment Jordan closed his eyes, reflecting on a happier time. It must have been when Jordan had just turned 5. He was wearing Shorts and a t-shirt with Barney on it. Matthew was there grabbing Jordan by both Hands.
"Want to twirl Jordan?" his Daddy asked playfully, full of smiles. It was before he had gotten sick. Jordan laughed. Jordan's Dad Spun around
fast, and Jordan lifted off the ground.
"Daddy I'm flying." Jordan said happily.
*'Would you run
1 And never look back?'*
Jordan looked at His brother and Sister. Both with backpacks loaded.
"Do you guys have everything, cause we aren't coming back." He said. They were running away. Kendra had hit Hailey Jade last night and Jordan had nursed her, but He couldn't have them in danger. They had to run.
"Where are we going Jordan?" Hailey Jade asked innocently.
"We need to leave Hail." Jordan said kissing her forehead.
"But won't mommy and daddy be back soon?" Hailey jade asked worried. "Won't they be mad."
"We'll be okay Hail, I won't let them hurt you again baby, that's why we're leaving."
*'Would you cry
If you saw me cryin'
Would you save my soul tonight?'*
Jordan sat on his bed now, why had this happened to him. He had lost them all. Everyone he loved. Every one except Jamie… but she was so far away, even now. She had come to his fathers Funeral, and had always been there. But she didn't see him. Not after Kendra locked him in the car crying after she hit him. And then he pushed her away from him, when he needed her the most Why had God done this to him? What had he done?
*'Would you tremble
If I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?'*
Then Jamie came into his mind again.. His best friend, his safety, his salvation after all those long nights of beatings. The one he always felt safe with. The one he shared his first kiss with and loved so much, so much he had to hide his pain from her. Her face came into his mind.
"Jordan, Look at me." She said touching his cheek, moving his eyes to her.
"I love you, You're my best friend." She said.
"I love you to Jamie." He said to her, a smile spread on her face. She kissed him softly on the lips, and Jordan was surprised.
"You taste like a tic-tac." She whispered in his ear.
Jordan laughed, it tickled.
*'Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
For the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight.'*
Daddy had been sick for a while now. And Jordan knew he was getting worse, even if Daddy wasn't telling him he was. Jordan just knew. And it was making him sad. Jordan wondered what would happen if daddy left him. What would mommy do? Mommy was being mean lately. Jordan felt like crying.
But Jordan knew that daddy was sick, and was going to die soon the night he had had the nightmare. It had been a bad one, and in it an evil black thing had chased Jordan and he cried and cried for his daddy but no one came. When he woke up Jordan ran into daddy's room.
By this time Matthew had his own room, to sick to go up and down the stairs for dinner and sleep and everything. Jordan ran to his room and woke him up crying. Matthew didn't ask any questions. He just hugged his crying child, it took all his strength but Matthew held him.
Jordan snuggled into his dad, but Matthew started coughing, hard. And coughing up blood. "Jordan, Go…get…your…mommy…" Matthew said between coughing and gasps for breath.
"Daddy… Daddy are you okay?" Jordan cried.
"Go get your mother Jordan." Matthew gasped before he started coughing again.
Jordan started bolting out of the room, but as he did Matthew called to him. "Jordan I love you, always remember that." He said as he ceased coughing for a moment, it was the last clear thing he ever told Jordan.
After getting Mom the last thing Jordan knew was the ambulance coming, and guys taking daddy away. He had seen him at the hospital once, but it wasn't daddy anymore. It didn't look like him. 2 days later Matthew died.
Jordan whipped the tears out of his eyes. But another memory just came
*'I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.'*
Jordan hugged Hailey Jade and Dillion, trying to get them to stop crying. He should have gotten home sooner. It wouldn't have happened if he had gotten home sooner.
Jordan got home from school, he had had to stay late.. Something seemed not right. It was to quiet. Where were Dillion and Hailey Jade? He looked in the living room and the bathroom. Finally he found them in his room. Hailey Jade had been crying.
"What's wrong Hail. What happened?" Jordan asked urgently, scared.
"Daddy.... Daddy hit me." Hailey Jade cried.
"Wha....What?!?!" Jordan asked angrily hugging his sister so hard wanting to take all her pain away.
"Dad and mom got mad at her. Hailey I guess drew on Mom's portfolio and she told daddy to teach Hailey a lesson so she wouldn't do it again." Dillion said scared.
"When? When did this happen?" Jordan asked Dylan.
"I tried Jordan, I tried to make daddy and mommy stop and they wouldn't. And it was like 15 minutes ago and you weren't home yet. And... And... And..." Dillion said choking up.
Jordan tried to comfort his brother for a minute, hugging him "Shhh. Dillion it wasn't your fault, it wasn't your fault."
"Hailey Jade. Where did he hit you?" Jordan asked her.
"My back." Hailey said. "Jordan. It hurts."
"I know Hail. I know. Worry I'm here now and I'll never let them hurt you like that again okay. Now can you let me see your back?"
They could hit him all they wanted. But when they hit Hailey and Dillion, he couldn't stand for it, they were so… so innocent. So pure, and they didn't deserve that. They didn't. That's why he had gotten them out…
*'I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.'*
Jordan thought bitterly of the day they were taken away. It hurt so bad. Like he was being pulled apart. He had called the police to protect them, then hid, made them lie saying he wasn't there. That meant they were safe. And no one wanted Jordan anyway. No one wanted 3 kids in a foster home, and Jordan didn't want that for Hailey Jade and Dillion.
It hurt him, like a blow in the chest, the air knocked out of him when he saw them pulling away. They were supposed to stay together. He could protect them if they stayed together. But he needed to protect himself to, and that meant staying…
*'Would you swear
That you'll always be mine?'*
Jamie's face came in after that memory, why was she always popping up in it? All the time. But this time it was a sad memory. Right after he vowed never to come to her house again. She had told him that she would always love him. And Jordan had laughed. And she got mad. No one had said that since Dillion and Hailey Jade left. All the people that had said that to him had hurt him, left him, abandoned him, died even. And he couldn't have her leave him to, he needed her, and he needed her with him, but not as close. It was to scary.
*'Would you lie?
Would you rub in mind?
Have I gone to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well, I don't care you're here tonight.'*
And then it was all over. He was still back in Horizon. Still faced with the ultimate doom of his mom and Jackson. The call Peter would soon make. All the lies were unraveling, and he couldn't save himself. He had tried to cover it up, lies upon lies. To save himself. Why wasn't it working anymore. Everyone knew. Everyone. And they couldn't. He wanted… He wanted… Well Jordan didn't know anymore. He threw his pillow over his head and willed sleep to come, dreams didn't always come in sleep, the memories didn't flood back as vividly as they did when he was awake at times like this. They always came in times of distress when he was awake. At those times, unlike regular times, dreams were safe. He was safe in them, not like now… He finally fell asleep.
*I can be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can't take my breath away*
THE END… I know, so very corney