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Chapter 9
Joey walked into her room and sat on the bed. She turned to where Jen had just walked through the door. 'Do you enjoy trying to embarrass me,' Joey asked.
'Joey, I'm just trying to give you and Dawson a push in the right direction.' Jen said.
'Maybe Dawson and I being together isn't the right direction,' Joey muttered.
'Do you love him?'
'Jen!'
'It's a simple question Joey, yes or no?' Jen said looking Joey in the eye. 'Yes or No?' she asked again.
'Yes. Are you happy now? Yes I love him; I never stopped loving him. The whole thing with Pacey, it was just me projecting my feelings for Dawson onto someone else because I was too scared to admit even to myself that I still loved him. By the time I realised what I was doing it was too late. It's too late, he doesn't want anything more than friendship. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to my happiness. I blame my life, but I do a pretty good job of sabotaging my happiness myself,' Joey trailed off exhausted after her outburst.
'Joey, if you think Dawson doesn't still love you, you don't know him as well as you think you do,' Jen said.
'Maybe I do realise that Jen,' Joey said in a low voice. 'And maybe that scares me more than anything else.'
'Why?' Jen interrupted. 'I don't get why that would scare you?'
Joey looked at her. 'Because after everything we've been through, Jack, my dad, Eve, Pacey, he still loves me. I've hurt him more that I ever meant to and he still loves me…..'
'Joey that in my opinion isn't something to be scared of. Even after all you've been through he still loves you. That's something to treasure. Joey, your best friend in the world loves you and you love him back. I don't know what could be better than that,' she looked at Joey. 'So are you going to talk to him?'
'Um…' Joey didn't answer.
'Just tell him what you told me,' Jen suggested.
'I don't know Jen. Everything is really nice at the moment. I don't want to ruin that.'
'Well I hope everything is still so nice in 3 days….'
'What?' Joey asked.
'Mr McPhee is taking Jack and I, Andie and Pacey and Grams away for a few days, so it's just going to be you and Dawson,' Jen explained.
'And Harm and Mac,' Joey pointed out.
'Something tells me you may not be seeing much of them for the next few days,' Jen grinned. 'So it'll just be you and Dawson. Perfect opportunity I'd say.'
'Maybe. We should go back out. The rest of the group will be wondering where we are,' Joey said standing and walking towards the door.
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Joey and Jen walk back into the kitchen to find Harm and Mac sitting at the table while the others ate pancakes.
'Mac are you ok?' Jen asked sitting.
'Fine,' she replied.
Harm got up and left the room. He returned a few minutes later with his and Mac's kickboxing gear. Handing her the stuff, he asked. 'Do you want to go outside and release some anger?'
'Are you willing to be my kicking bag?'
'If it will help,' he replied as they walked outside.
'Well we better go, if we want to finish packing,' said Andie standing.
'But I haven't finished eating,' complained Pacey.
'Pacey, we have to go,' Jen told him taking his plate. 'Now get up!'
'Ok, ok. I'm coming.'
'Where are you guys going?' asked Dawson puzzled.
'Joey will fill you in,' Jen said as the four of them walked out. Waving goodbye to Harm and Mac, they got into Andie's Saab.
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to be continued…….
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Chapter 9
Joey walked into her room and sat on the bed. She turned to where Jen had just walked through the door. 'Do you enjoy trying to embarrass me,' Joey asked.
'Joey, I'm just trying to give you and Dawson a push in the right direction.' Jen said.
'Maybe Dawson and I being together isn't the right direction,' Joey muttered.
'Do you love him?'
'Jen!'
'It's a simple question Joey, yes or no?' Jen said looking Joey in the eye. 'Yes or No?' she asked again.
'Yes. Are you happy now? Yes I love him; I never stopped loving him. The whole thing with Pacey, it was just me projecting my feelings for Dawson onto someone else because I was too scared to admit even to myself that I still loved him. By the time I realised what I was doing it was too late. It's too late, he doesn't want anything more than friendship. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to my happiness. I blame my life, but I do a pretty good job of sabotaging my happiness myself,' Joey trailed off exhausted after her outburst.
'Joey, if you think Dawson doesn't still love you, you don't know him as well as you think you do,' Jen said.
'Maybe I do realise that Jen,' Joey said in a low voice. 'And maybe that scares me more than anything else.'
'Why?' Jen interrupted. 'I don't get why that would scare you?'
Joey looked at her. 'Because after everything we've been through, Jack, my dad, Eve, Pacey, he still loves me. I've hurt him more that I ever meant to and he still loves me…..'
'Joey that in my opinion isn't something to be scared of. Even after all you've been through he still loves you. That's something to treasure. Joey, your best friend in the world loves you and you love him back. I don't know what could be better than that,' she looked at Joey. 'So are you going to talk to him?'
'Um…' Joey didn't answer.
'Just tell him what you told me,' Jen suggested.
'I don't know Jen. Everything is really nice at the moment. I don't want to ruin that.'
'Well I hope everything is still so nice in 3 days….'
'What?' Joey asked.
'Mr McPhee is taking Jack and I, Andie and Pacey and Grams away for a few days, so it's just going to be you and Dawson,' Jen explained.
'And Harm and Mac,' Joey pointed out.
'Something tells me you may not be seeing much of them for the next few days,' Jen grinned. 'So it'll just be you and Dawson. Perfect opportunity I'd say.'
'Maybe. We should go back out. The rest of the group will be wondering where we are,' Joey said standing and walking towards the door.
* * * * *
Joey and Jen walk back into the kitchen to find Harm and Mac sitting at the table while the others ate pancakes.
'Mac are you ok?' Jen asked sitting.
'Fine,' she replied.
Harm got up and left the room. He returned a few minutes later with his and Mac's kickboxing gear. Handing her the stuff, he asked. 'Do you want to go outside and release some anger?'
'Are you willing to be my kicking bag?'
'If it will help,' he replied as they walked outside.
'Well we better go, if we want to finish packing,' said Andie standing.
'But I haven't finished eating,' complained Pacey.
'Pacey, we have to go,' Jen told him taking his plate. 'Now get up!'
'Ok, ok. I'm coming.'
'Where are you guys going?' asked Dawson puzzled.
'Joey will fill you in,' Jen said as the four of them walked out. Waving goodbye to Harm and Mac, they got into Andie's Saab.
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to be continued…….