Author notes: I don't own sailor moon. I never will. it belongs to lots of people that aren't me. so on with the story!
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Alone.
Locked in the torturous embrace of your own mind.
Sometimes.
The darkness reaches me in a way she never did before. I feel every part of her cold tendrils brush along my face, and she whispers in my ear, offering me freedom, a glimpse of reality, everything I do not have. She tortures me with stories of how very blue the sky is, how bright the stars are. But it is worse when she is gone. At least when she's here, I have someone to talk to. When she is gone, I remember all my battles, all the things that i did wrong. But try as I might, I can find no way that I could have won against the senshi. I don't remember why we fought, exactly. But I cling to my hate. it keeps my sanity. Or what's left of it.
All alone here, i've begun to notice things that escaped me before. I don't think Metallia notices them. They are the ghosts of youma, prisoners, former officers.... Something seemingly inexpliable calls them. They wander through the shadows, Not noticing one another. I don't think they notice each other, or even that they're dead. Serving the demon for eternity. At least I escaped that. Perhaps they aren't even there, and I am insane. I don't know.
A few days later, I saw Nephrite walking past me. But he looked... strange. he was a ghost, walking by, and he seemed to notice me. I so wanted to speak to someone, anyone, even Nephrite. I tried to speak, to attract his attention in some way, but he only smiled at me and continued walking. Leaving me alone with myself.
Weeks, later, I saw Zoicite. He looked like Nephrite had. Pale, see-through and seemingly happy. But he paused to speak to me! I asked him telepathicly where he was going, why he was so happy. He said that I could not know until the time was right. And he was happy because he was himself again, without metallia. He blew me a kiss and walked away.
The same thing was repeated with Kunzite a while later. He told me he was going to find Zoicite. To my surprise, later came a senshi I didn't know. She didn't even glance at me. Then came Sailor mercury. Then another unfamilliar one. Then sailor mars... And then... Endimion? That brought back unpleasant memories of the betrayal that we had commited, so long ago. It had seemed right at the time....
Then Miraculously, metallia was gone! I could not feel her influence anymore! Then... The most hated of all, Sailor Moon, was walking by. She seemed to notice I was there. She nodded and continued walking. Then a light, a bright pink(pink?) light consumed the room. All the Kings of heaven and senshi stood together and were taken by it. And I was left behind.
Alone again. In the Darkness, The deepness, the infinite night.
I think i'm going insane.
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Thank you to Rachael Vance for reviewing this for me. Does anybody actually read what I write? besides me?
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Alone.
Locked in the torturous embrace of your own mind.
Sometimes.
The darkness reaches me in a way she never did before. I feel every part of her cold tendrils brush along my face, and she whispers in my ear, offering me freedom, a glimpse of reality, everything I do not have. She tortures me with stories of how very blue the sky is, how bright the stars are. But it is worse when she is gone. At least when she's here, I have someone to talk to. When she is gone, I remember all my battles, all the things that i did wrong. But try as I might, I can find no way that I could have won against the senshi. I don't remember why we fought, exactly. But I cling to my hate. it keeps my sanity. Or what's left of it.
All alone here, i've begun to notice things that escaped me before. I don't think Metallia notices them. They are the ghosts of youma, prisoners, former officers.... Something seemingly inexpliable calls them. They wander through the shadows, Not noticing one another. I don't think they notice each other, or even that they're dead. Serving the demon for eternity. At least I escaped that. Perhaps they aren't even there, and I am insane. I don't know.
A few days later, I saw Nephrite walking past me. But he looked... strange. he was a ghost, walking by, and he seemed to notice me. I so wanted to speak to someone, anyone, even Nephrite. I tried to speak, to attract his attention in some way, but he only smiled at me and continued walking. Leaving me alone with myself.
Weeks, later, I saw Zoicite. He looked like Nephrite had. Pale, see-through and seemingly happy. But he paused to speak to me! I asked him telepathicly where he was going, why he was so happy. He said that I could not know until the time was right. And he was happy because he was himself again, without metallia. He blew me a kiss and walked away.
The same thing was repeated with Kunzite a while later. He told me he was going to find Zoicite. To my surprise, later came a senshi I didn't know. She didn't even glance at me. Then came Sailor mercury. Then another unfamilliar one. Then sailor mars... And then... Endimion? That brought back unpleasant memories of the betrayal that we had commited, so long ago. It had seemed right at the time....
Then Miraculously, metallia was gone! I could not feel her influence anymore! Then... The most hated of all, Sailor Moon, was walking by. She seemed to notice I was there. She nodded and continued walking. Then a light, a bright pink(pink?) light consumed the room. All the Kings of heaven and senshi stood together and were taken by it. And I was left behind.
Alone again. In the Darkness, The deepness, the infinite night.
I think i'm going insane.
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Thank you to Rachael Vance for reviewing this for me. Does anybody actually read what I write? besides me?