Chapter 2 - No will
Ms Kenzy glared at her watch as if daring it to move. She watched the kids pour out of the school. Slowly the crowds grew smaller but Heero had not arrived yet. Suddenly she heard running footsteps. She spun around to see Heero racing down the street.
"Heero!" she called out.
Heero looked at her and turned away racing down the street. His heart thumped in his chest but he had to get away from Ms Kenzy. He wouldn't go to church with her. He turned the corner onto an alley and slowed down. He hadn't even realised which way he was running. He gazed up at the mansion. On the balcony a figure sat and armchair. Her blonde hair was blowing in the wind. Heero turned himself around and rushed away from her. He didn't want to see her. He could see he was tearing her apart. He was no longer the perfect soldier. He was just a speck of dirt on the streets. Relena didn't need him anymore. No one needed him since the day he was born. No one . . .
Relena sat in her armchair staring at the skies. Her mind wondered off somewhere distant. She recalled the first time she met Heero he had pointed a gun at her. He had later jumped off a tall building, landing without even a bruise. He had wanted to finish his life until Relena helped him realise he more important than he thought. Relena pulled her legs up to her chin and huddled in her armchair. Heero was the reason she was so depressed. She couldn't show him the light, and couldn't light a fire back in his heart.
"Heero," she whispered closing her eyes.
Duo wandered across the street holding his cross. There was no moon in the sky and the lamps barely provided enough light for him to know where he was going. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't throw out the cross. He just couldn't.
"Hey, ps . . . Want to buy some drugs from me?" asked a man with a beard. His clothes were torn and muddy.
Duo looked at the drugs. His hand reached out to look at the drug more carefully but then pulled away. He couldn't lose himself completely. Duo shook his head and walked away before the man could follow him. When did he lose the light in him? What had happened to make him turn away from everyone?
Duo stopped at an old shop. The sign was broken off and the glass was broken. An old green couch was lying on the ground. It would have to do for now. Duo lay down on the couch shivering in the cold. He rubbed his hands together to warm himself up. He looked at his palm. A scar ran across from the pinky to the thumb. He had gotten that while he was in Deathscythe. That was just a minor scar compared to the others like the one on his back. Why had his life turned so dramatically? He was happy wasn't he? What made him turn around. He knew it was his fault the other gundam pilots had fallen into depression. If he had kept cheering them they would have made it through the hard times, but he had failed.
A tear dropped down Duo's face. He had cried once when OZ destroyed the church he went to taking the priest and sister Helen. Now he was crying without knowing the reason. Only his heart asked for tears and grief. Why? He couldn't understand what had happened.
"Duo? Duo is that you?" asked a farmiliar voice. Duo looked up to see Hilde staring at him.
Hilde and the others had not lit out. They were just as they had been before. Happy and cheerful. He covered his face covering the fact that he was crying. He hadn't seen Hilde for almost 1 year now. He had changed much in that time.
Hilde jumped over the broken window and rushed up to Duo hugging him. He flinched as she touched him and pulled back away from her.
"Duo, what happened? I want to know everything," said Hilde pulling him close to her to warm him up.
"Relena sits on the balcony each day gazing at the sky. Heero doesn't eat unless someone gives him something, as if he forgets. Trowa covers all his emotions in a mask, but he has stopped talking completely. Quatre is being too kind to everyone, doing everything they want and nothing he wants. Wufei goes into trances and lies on the grass the whole day and its all my fault. Hilde, the Duo you know died a year ago. What you see now is not the Duo you knew."
Hilde looked at the cowering boy huddled up on the couch. His eyes were red from crying and he was gripping onto his cross tightly.
"Duo, you are coming with me. I don't care that you want to stay on this couch but I won't have you freezing yourself here," said Hilde forcing him to get up and to her car.
As she lay him down in the seat she saw he was blankly staring out the window. She was hoping he'd say something. A joke, say something to embarrass her, but he said nothing.
The car drove off into the night leaving a little cross lying on a dirty green couch.
"They say we are going on an excursion. Can you believe it? The second day of school and we are already going on an excursion," exclaimed Lucy.
Mike followed the girl onto the bus.
"So where are we going?" asked Mike as the bus started.
"I think we are going on an exhibition to see mobile suit dolls. Rumour goes that we will be able to go inside out our own risk since they are very old. I am going to go just for the risk of it all!" said Lucy excitedly.
Mike rolled his eyes but inside he felt concerned for his adopted sister. Mobile suits weren't toys and there was a big chance that it could collapse if you didn't follow the rules. It was like his sister to go somewhere she wasn't allowed.
"Why are there so many rumours going around?" asked Mike angrily.
"Because there are so many gundam pilots! Rumour had it that."
"Shutup!" interrupted Mike.
Heero strolled into school ignoring Ms Kenzy. As soon as she saw him she grabbed onto his shoulder and pulled him around.
"Heero, we are going on an excursion," she said.
"Hn..."
"Why didn't you come yesterday?"
"..."
"If you ever change your mind I'll be waiting at the front gate."
"You won't give up 'til I go will you?"
"No."
Heero walked away from her in fury. Why was this teacher giving him so much strength. He hadn't argued for a while now. He just sulked and here he was screaming at Ms Kenzy.
The class piled into a bus and drove off as quickly as they came. Heero took a seat at the back of the bus putting his bag on the seat next to him. He gazed out the window as rain fell across the window.
Heero didn't even notice as the bus stopped and automatically walked off. The kids entered the museum and walked along the tall white halls. Silence. It was so beautiful. Suddenly he realised where they were going. A mobile suit lay on the ground in front of him. He shuddered and staggered back bumping into Ms Kenzy. She looked down at him as he quickly stood up.
"You don't have to go in there if you don't want to, but I think you should," said Ms Kenzy walking past him.
Heero looked at the other gundam pilots. They sat on a bench looking at the mobile suit in horror. He couldn't be like them. If he was completely like them he'd be lost. Heero took a brave step forward. Everyone's eyes were on him as he entered the mobile suit shakily. He thought 2 years ago would be the last time he would see a mobile suit. He was wrong and now he was entering one. As he walked in he felt the urge to run out as fast as he could. He had a feeling the mobile suit was going to stand up any time.
Lucy, realising Relena wasn't going in rushed towards a shaken Heero.
"Don't worry! The thing is pinned down and there is not pilot," exclaimed Lucy in her cheery voice.
Heero followed her slowly through the mobile suit. Finally they arrived in the control part. There were two seat and a screen with details on it. Heero shudderd as he felt a chill go down his spine. He turned to look at the next part.
Lucy stared at the no entrance sign. She couldn't believe it. She wanted to get into the chair and pretend to pilot the thing. She knew she had been a very childish girl but she felt she had to go there.
She looked to both sides and jumped inside the control section sitting on the chair. She looked around at all the buttons carefully.
"Lucy No!" screamed Mike.
Heero spun around to see Lucy in the control section. Suddenly the roof creaked. Heero raced over to Lucy and pushed her off the chair just seconds before the roof collapsed. Lucy screamed in shock but she was covered in a pile of metal. Suddenly she realised she wasn't the only one. Heero had covered her from the force of the metal and he was shaking as he tried to keep the metal on his back. He gasped for air. Suddenly another metal object collapsed blocking out any light that could have entered.
"Heero? Why did you save me?" asked Lucy.
Her mind raced and she could feel her heart beating fast pushing the blood around her body quickly.
"Your mind is fresh. It would be a shame if you died, while... me uh." Heero gasped for air. The metal was weighing him down heavily. He couldn't hear what was happening outside.
"Lucy listen to me very carefully. I want you to roll over on your stomache and don't get up," said Heero calmly.
Lucy obeyed suddenly wondering why he wasn't doing the same thing.
"Wait, what are you going to do?" asked Lucy.
Heero slowly got on his side making him a few centimetres taller than her in a lying position. He put his arm in front of her back and let go of the metal. Lucy screamed from the crash and she could feet Heero's hand on her back. He had stopped the impact to her again.
"Heero," she said softly.
There was no answer.
"Heero, talk to me!" she screamed.
She felt around in the darkness and suddenly put her hand in something liquidish. She blocked her mind from what it could be. No. it wasn't blood, it wasn't blood.
"Heero, please say something!" cried Lucy.
Suddenly Heero's hand became lighter and she realised someone was taking off the pile of metal. Some light peered in and she looked at her hand. It was covered in blood.
Mike watched as the workers slowly took the metal off. The pile was so huge and the metal was so heavy. He wiped the tears from his eyes. Boys don't cry. Ms Kenzy put an arm around his shoulder comforting him.
"She's not alive is she?" asked Mike sadly hoping Ms Kenzy wouldn't answer.
"Mike, I don't know. I don't think so." answered Ms Kenzy though her mind was on something else completely. Heero had jumped under before the metal fell. Did he really hate his life that much?
Finally the last bits of metal were taken off and a scared figure jumped out. Mike jumped back in fright. His sister was alive and there wasn't even a bruise. Suddenly she fell into tantrums and screams.
"Help him! Help him!" screamed Lucy.
The workers rushed to take the bits of metal off where Lucy indicated until they pulled the last bit off. The workers gasped and staggered back. An emergency van had arrived and its wining stopped.
Mike ran up to his sister and hugged her.
"He protected me," said Lucy through sobs.
"First he held onto the weight, and I thought everything would be ok, and then he told me to lie on his stomache and next minute he puts his arm on my back and the metal falls," cried Lucy.
They pulled Heero out from the metal. His eyes were wide open and his lip was bleeding. His hands and legs were covered in cuts and bruises.
Lucy turned away and cried on Mike's shoulder. A few doctors rushed in and quickly attached things to him.
"He's breathing. Come on guys, we can still save him," screamed one of the doctors.
Lucy turned to watch the doctors as they checked his pulse and tried cleaning the cuts in his forehead. Finally two doctors arrived with a stretcher and he was placed on it and taken away.
"I hope he'll be ok," said Ms Kenzy.
"It was my fault! If I had obeyed rules then nothing would have happened. I see what Relena meant when she said that there is no point in rules since they are always broken," said Lucy.
"Yes, it was your fault, but Heero would do anything to kill himself."
"Why?"
"He has no will to live."
"Why did he save me?"
"I don't know. He is full of mystery you know."
Heero breathed in. Surprisingly he could breathe. He could hear a machine beeping next to him. His eyes flashed open and he looked around the room.
"Shit!" cursed Heero looking around.
"Thank goodness you are alive. Do you always swear when you wake up from a coma?" asked a farmiliar voice.
Heero pulled himself up shakily even though he didn't have much energy. He looked through blurred eyes to see a tall figure. It was Ms Kenzy.
"What are you doing here?" asked Heero angrily.
"I came to see how you were. I was concerned for you," answered Ms Kenzy.
"Was Lucy ok?"
"Yes"
"Good. Why didn't they let me die?"
"Because you are too important."
Heero turned his head stubbournly. What was the point of arguing with this teacher? The door opened and a nurse came in with a wheelchair. She rolled it over to the bed and smiled cheerfully at Heero. Heero turned his face away and her smile faded.
"Dr Po was right on track. She said you would wake up today and she said you could leave today. She said it was the best for you," said the nurse. "I'll leave you two."
Ms Kenzy nodded and smiled as the nurse left the room. Heero turned back and faced the wheelchair near the bed.
"How long have I been in a coma?" asked Heero.
"Only 48 hours luckily," answered Ms Kenzy.
"Shit! What is that?" asked Heero glaring at the wheelchair.
"You are very weak right now, and you can't walk so here is a wheelchair. I will take care of you for now ok?"
Heero looked at the wheelchair pushing away Ms Kenzy when she came to help. He was absolutely useless now. He should have died! If he was in a wheelchair he had no use whatsoever. He struggled into the wheelchair wincing with the pain.
Before he had hoped that maybe a war would give him a reason to exist but now he couldn't even fight! Ph, great Hero wasn't he! Heero pushed himself up from the chair and tried to walk. He took a step forward.
"No Heero!" screamed Ms Kenzy.
Heero couldn't feel the ground before him. He couldn't feel him pressing his foot against the ground. Suddenly his knees buckled and he collapsed. Ms Kenzy rushed towards him and helped him get back in the wheelchair.
"Heero, you have multiple fructures in your bones. You couldn't possible walk," said Ms Kenzy.
"Fractures? I'm even weaker than before! If I don't walk by tomorrow I will commit suicide," said Heero.
Ms Kenzy gasped in shock. Was Heero crazy? How could he walk by tomorrow with broken bones?
"He'll walk tomorrow," said Dr Po passing by as if knowing what Ms Kenzy was thinking about.
Ms Kenzy shook her head. Was it just her or was the whole world going mad in front of her eyes? She slowly crossed the hallways and out the building. Heero breathed in the fresh air and looked around. Nothing had changed while he was gone.
Ms Kenzy began pushing the chair across the pavement. Heero could feel people staring at him. He could feel their pity. He wanted none of it! Heero turned his head to see a few people looking at him in sadness.
"What? Look at you so called "Hero". Pitiful isn't it?" screamed Heero at the people.
They gasped and stopped looking at him quickly.
"Where are you taking me?" snapped Heero.
"A church," answered Ms Kenzy calmly.
"Damn you!"
Ms Kenzy stared at Heero. He was full of energy and she was glad. As long as she made him furious he wouldn't be so down in the dumps and maybe she would be able to get rid of his depression.
Ms Kenzy wheeled Heero into the church. A priest approached Ms Kenzy, then he saw Heero and nodded to Ms Kenzy. Ms Kenzy left the church and Heero cursed himself. How did he ever let this happen?
"You may call me father," said the priest.
"Over my dead body will I ever call you father," snapped Heero.
A few visitors turned to look at Heero. The priest laughed waving it off.
"Its not as a dad, it's a way you call a priest," said the priest.
"Then, I will call you priest," said Heero angrily.
The priest put his hands out in surrender and wheeled Heero close to where some other people were standing in front of a cross. A woman entered, bowed to the cross and went on her knees to pray.
"I'll leave you for 5 minutes. You do what you want to do," said the priest.
Heero nodded and looked at the woman who had just entered. She looked at him and smiled. She knew who he was and she didn't seem to look at the wheelchair. She moved back for him and took a chair gazing at him.
Heero wondered what this feeling was inside him. Ever since he entered the church he just couldn't feel upset. He didn't feet happy but he felt content like he did at war. What was this strange feeling? Heero slowly pulled himself up from the wheelchair. The woman suddenly looked very worried. He tried taking a step but again he couldn't feel the ground. This time he wouldn't worry about it. He took another step forward. All he needed to do was kneel now. He didn't know exactly what he was supposed to do. It was as if someone else was guiding him. Suddenly his knees buckled and he collapsed. The woman lept forward and caught him before he fell to the ground.
"You were on TV you know. You are even more famous than before. Everyone thinks your even more of a hero because you saved that girl's life," whispered the woman helping him get back in his chair.
"So I know your legs were fractured only two days ago and you can't walk," said the woman out loud.
Heero ignored her and got his breath back. He pulled himself out of the chair again. The woman sighed as she watched him move his leg again.
Ms Kenzy watched Heero as he tried to get up again from behind the curtain. The priest was next to her watching Heero attentively. He sighed as Heero collapsed again but this time he got onto his knees and watched as the other woman formed a cross with her finger on her chest. Ms Kenzy chuckled as Heero tried copying her.
"He is just like a little child learning something new. I believe my plan will work. He will have to choose later but I believe he will be able to choose the correct decision," said Ms Kenzy.
Heero drew a cross with his finger and got up again. He was surprised to feel the ground beneath him. He moved his foot shakily and walked backwards carefully and fell in his wheelchair.
The woman smiled and began praying. Heero watched her as she prayed. What was it that she was doing? What was praying?
Heero looked back. Something caught his eye. An american walked into the church and looked around. Suddenly the american gasped and backed away and rushed out of the church as fast as he could. Heero jumped up forgetting that his legs were in bad shape and ran out of the church. He could hear Ms Kenzy call after him but he had to call Duo back. He suddenly felt so ashamed to be in church. A church and worship was a weakness for a soldier. His feet hurt more as he took each step but he couldn't stop. He needed to find Duo.
Ms Kenzy watched Heero rush out of the church as if it was a miracle. She still couldn't believe he walked but he was running now! How did Dr Po know he was going to walk by tomorrow?
"I'll go get him. He will not be able to run for very long with his condition," said Ms Kenzy to the priest and rushed out of the chruch quickly.
"Heero, I am going to save you, so you can save the others," thought Ms Kenzy as she rushed across the streets.
Heero raced down the street. His knees were giving in and he could feel a sharp pain go through his legs each time he moved them. He was so weak! How could he give in to that church? He didn't know what the feeling was but now Duo knew he was weak. Why should he live anymore when he's lost all his dignity and pride? Heero ignored the pain shooting up his legs and raced on even though a strong wind began and drops of water began dripping from the sky.
Suddenly he noticed the figure stopping and waiting for Heero.
"Duo! Wait," screamed out Heero.
Duo watched Heero run towards him. He had seen him walk into that church. Ever since Duo left the cross on the couch he had a longing to get another one and Heero had seen him. He was weak! He gave into emotions and Heero hated people who gave into their emotions so quickly.
Heero stopped looking straight into Duo's eyes. He was breathless and only then did Duo realise both Heero's legs were broken.
"Heero, I am so sorry for making you run all that way. Heero, I am a weakling. Please kill me and end my misery," said Duo.
Heero stood in shock. Duo felt the same way as Heero and now he wanted to die. Heero knew exactly what he meant. Duo handed Heero a gun from his pocket.
"Please," said Duo.
"One for one," answered Heero pulling out his gun.
Duo nodded sadly and took Heero's gun. The boys stood a couple of metres away from eachother and aimed their guns.
"It's a shame, you would make such a great guy," said Duo sadly taking off the safety on the gun.
"Ready?" asked Heero.
"Yeah," said Duo.
Ms Kenzy glared at her watch as if daring it to move. She watched the kids pour out of the school. Slowly the crowds grew smaller but Heero had not arrived yet. Suddenly she heard running footsteps. She spun around to see Heero racing down the street.
"Heero!" she called out.
Heero looked at her and turned away racing down the street. His heart thumped in his chest but he had to get away from Ms Kenzy. He wouldn't go to church with her. He turned the corner onto an alley and slowed down. He hadn't even realised which way he was running. He gazed up at the mansion. On the balcony a figure sat and armchair. Her blonde hair was blowing in the wind. Heero turned himself around and rushed away from her. He didn't want to see her. He could see he was tearing her apart. He was no longer the perfect soldier. He was just a speck of dirt on the streets. Relena didn't need him anymore. No one needed him since the day he was born. No one . . .
Relena sat in her armchair staring at the skies. Her mind wondered off somewhere distant. She recalled the first time she met Heero he had pointed a gun at her. He had later jumped off a tall building, landing without even a bruise. He had wanted to finish his life until Relena helped him realise he more important than he thought. Relena pulled her legs up to her chin and huddled in her armchair. Heero was the reason she was so depressed. She couldn't show him the light, and couldn't light a fire back in his heart.
"Heero," she whispered closing her eyes.
Duo wandered across the street holding his cross. There was no moon in the sky and the lamps barely provided enough light for him to know where he was going. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't throw out the cross. He just couldn't.
"Hey, ps . . . Want to buy some drugs from me?" asked a man with a beard. His clothes were torn and muddy.
Duo looked at the drugs. His hand reached out to look at the drug more carefully but then pulled away. He couldn't lose himself completely. Duo shook his head and walked away before the man could follow him. When did he lose the light in him? What had happened to make him turn away from everyone?
Duo stopped at an old shop. The sign was broken off and the glass was broken. An old green couch was lying on the ground. It would have to do for now. Duo lay down on the couch shivering in the cold. He rubbed his hands together to warm himself up. He looked at his palm. A scar ran across from the pinky to the thumb. He had gotten that while he was in Deathscythe. That was just a minor scar compared to the others like the one on his back. Why had his life turned so dramatically? He was happy wasn't he? What made him turn around. He knew it was his fault the other gundam pilots had fallen into depression. If he had kept cheering them they would have made it through the hard times, but he had failed.
A tear dropped down Duo's face. He had cried once when OZ destroyed the church he went to taking the priest and sister Helen. Now he was crying without knowing the reason. Only his heart asked for tears and grief. Why? He couldn't understand what had happened.
"Duo? Duo is that you?" asked a farmiliar voice. Duo looked up to see Hilde staring at him.
Hilde and the others had not lit out. They were just as they had been before. Happy and cheerful. He covered his face covering the fact that he was crying. He hadn't seen Hilde for almost 1 year now. He had changed much in that time.
Hilde jumped over the broken window and rushed up to Duo hugging him. He flinched as she touched him and pulled back away from her.
"Duo, what happened? I want to know everything," said Hilde pulling him close to her to warm him up.
"Relena sits on the balcony each day gazing at the sky. Heero doesn't eat unless someone gives him something, as if he forgets. Trowa covers all his emotions in a mask, but he has stopped talking completely. Quatre is being too kind to everyone, doing everything they want and nothing he wants. Wufei goes into trances and lies on the grass the whole day and its all my fault. Hilde, the Duo you know died a year ago. What you see now is not the Duo you knew."
Hilde looked at the cowering boy huddled up on the couch. His eyes were red from crying and he was gripping onto his cross tightly.
"Duo, you are coming with me. I don't care that you want to stay on this couch but I won't have you freezing yourself here," said Hilde forcing him to get up and to her car.
As she lay him down in the seat she saw he was blankly staring out the window. She was hoping he'd say something. A joke, say something to embarrass her, but he said nothing.
The car drove off into the night leaving a little cross lying on a dirty green couch.
"They say we are going on an excursion. Can you believe it? The second day of school and we are already going on an excursion," exclaimed Lucy.
Mike followed the girl onto the bus.
"So where are we going?" asked Mike as the bus started.
"I think we are going on an exhibition to see mobile suit dolls. Rumour goes that we will be able to go inside out our own risk since they are very old. I am going to go just for the risk of it all!" said Lucy excitedly.
Mike rolled his eyes but inside he felt concerned for his adopted sister. Mobile suits weren't toys and there was a big chance that it could collapse if you didn't follow the rules. It was like his sister to go somewhere she wasn't allowed.
"Why are there so many rumours going around?" asked Mike angrily.
"Because there are so many gundam pilots! Rumour had it that."
"Shutup!" interrupted Mike.
Heero strolled into school ignoring Ms Kenzy. As soon as she saw him she grabbed onto his shoulder and pulled him around.
"Heero, we are going on an excursion," she said.
"Hn..."
"Why didn't you come yesterday?"
"..."
"If you ever change your mind I'll be waiting at the front gate."
"You won't give up 'til I go will you?"
"No."
Heero walked away from her in fury. Why was this teacher giving him so much strength. He hadn't argued for a while now. He just sulked and here he was screaming at Ms Kenzy.
The class piled into a bus and drove off as quickly as they came. Heero took a seat at the back of the bus putting his bag on the seat next to him. He gazed out the window as rain fell across the window.
Heero didn't even notice as the bus stopped and automatically walked off. The kids entered the museum and walked along the tall white halls. Silence. It was so beautiful. Suddenly he realised where they were going. A mobile suit lay on the ground in front of him. He shuddered and staggered back bumping into Ms Kenzy. She looked down at him as he quickly stood up.
"You don't have to go in there if you don't want to, but I think you should," said Ms Kenzy walking past him.
Heero looked at the other gundam pilots. They sat on a bench looking at the mobile suit in horror. He couldn't be like them. If he was completely like them he'd be lost. Heero took a brave step forward. Everyone's eyes were on him as he entered the mobile suit shakily. He thought 2 years ago would be the last time he would see a mobile suit. He was wrong and now he was entering one. As he walked in he felt the urge to run out as fast as he could. He had a feeling the mobile suit was going to stand up any time.
Lucy, realising Relena wasn't going in rushed towards a shaken Heero.
"Don't worry! The thing is pinned down and there is not pilot," exclaimed Lucy in her cheery voice.
Heero followed her slowly through the mobile suit. Finally they arrived in the control part. There were two seat and a screen with details on it. Heero shudderd as he felt a chill go down his spine. He turned to look at the next part.
Lucy stared at the no entrance sign. She couldn't believe it. She wanted to get into the chair and pretend to pilot the thing. She knew she had been a very childish girl but she felt she had to go there.
She looked to both sides and jumped inside the control section sitting on the chair. She looked around at all the buttons carefully.
"Lucy No!" screamed Mike.
Heero spun around to see Lucy in the control section. Suddenly the roof creaked. Heero raced over to Lucy and pushed her off the chair just seconds before the roof collapsed. Lucy screamed in shock but she was covered in a pile of metal. Suddenly she realised she wasn't the only one. Heero had covered her from the force of the metal and he was shaking as he tried to keep the metal on his back. He gasped for air. Suddenly another metal object collapsed blocking out any light that could have entered.
"Heero? Why did you save me?" asked Lucy.
Her mind raced and she could feel her heart beating fast pushing the blood around her body quickly.
"Your mind is fresh. It would be a shame if you died, while... me uh." Heero gasped for air. The metal was weighing him down heavily. He couldn't hear what was happening outside.
"Lucy listen to me very carefully. I want you to roll over on your stomache and don't get up," said Heero calmly.
Lucy obeyed suddenly wondering why he wasn't doing the same thing.
"Wait, what are you going to do?" asked Lucy.
Heero slowly got on his side making him a few centimetres taller than her in a lying position. He put his arm in front of her back and let go of the metal. Lucy screamed from the crash and she could feet Heero's hand on her back. He had stopped the impact to her again.
"Heero," she said softly.
There was no answer.
"Heero, talk to me!" she screamed.
She felt around in the darkness and suddenly put her hand in something liquidish. She blocked her mind from what it could be. No. it wasn't blood, it wasn't blood.
"Heero, please say something!" cried Lucy.
Suddenly Heero's hand became lighter and she realised someone was taking off the pile of metal. Some light peered in and she looked at her hand. It was covered in blood.
Mike watched as the workers slowly took the metal off. The pile was so huge and the metal was so heavy. He wiped the tears from his eyes. Boys don't cry. Ms Kenzy put an arm around his shoulder comforting him.
"She's not alive is she?" asked Mike sadly hoping Ms Kenzy wouldn't answer.
"Mike, I don't know. I don't think so." answered Ms Kenzy though her mind was on something else completely. Heero had jumped under before the metal fell. Did he really hate his life that much?
Finally the last bits of metal were taken off and a scared figure jumped out. Mike jumped back in fright. His sister was alive and there wasn't even a bruise. Suddenly she fell into tantrums and screams.
"Help him! Help him!" screamed Lucy.
The workers rushed to take the bits of metal off where Lucy indicated until they pulled the last bit off. The workers gasped and staggered back. An emergency van had arrived and its wining stopped.
Mike ran up to his sister and hugged her.
"He protected me," said Lucy through sobs.
"First he held onto the weight, and I thought everything would be ok, and then he told me to lie on his stomache and next minute he puts his arm on my back and the metal falls," cried Lucy.
They pulled Heero out from the metal. His eyes were wide open and his lip was bleeding. His hands and legs were covered in cuts and bruises.
Lucy turned away and cried on Mike's shoulder. A few doctors rushed in and quickly attached things to him.
"He's breathing. Come on guys, we can still save him," screamed one of the doctors.
Lucy turned to watch the doctors as they checked his pulse and tried cleaning the cuts in his forehead. Finally two doctors arrived with a stretcher and he was placed on it and taken away.
"I hope he'll be ok," said Ms Kenzy.
"It was my fault! If I had obeyed rules then nothing would have happened. I see what Relena meant when she said that there is no point in rules since they are always broken," said Lucy.
"Yes, it was your fault, but Heero would do anything to kill himself."
"Why?"
"He has no will to live."
"Why did he save me?"
"I don't know. He is full of mystery you know."
Heero breathed in. Surprisingly he could breathe. He could hear a machine beeping next to him. His eyes flashed open and he looked around the room.
"Shit!" cursed Heero looking around.
"Thank goodness you are alive. Do you always swear when you wake up from a coma?" asked a farmiliar voice.
Heero pulled himself up shakily even though he didn't have much energy. He looked through blurred eyes to see a tall figure. It was Ms Kenzy.
"What are you doing here?" asked Heero angrily.
"I came to see how you were. I was concerned for you," answered Ms Kenzy.
"Was Lucy ok?"
"Yes"
"Good. Why didn't they let me die?"
"Because you are too important."
Heero turned his head stubbournly. What was the point of arguing with this teacher? The door opened and a nurse came in with a wheelchair. She rolled it over to the bed and smiled cheerfully at Heero. Heero turned his face away and her smile faded.
"Dr Po was right on track. She said you would wake up today and she said you could leave today. She said it was the best for you," said the nurse. "I'll leave you two."
Ms Kenzy nodded and smiled as the nurse left the room. Heero turned back and faced the wheelchair near the bed.
"How long have I been in a coma?" asked Heero.
"Only 48 hours luckily," answered Ms Kenzy.
"Shit! What is that?" asked Heero glaring at the wheelchair.
"You are very weak right now, and you can't walk so here is a wheelchair. I will take care of you for now ok?"
Heero looked at the wheelchair pushing away Ms Kenzy when she came to help. He was absolutely useless now. He should have died! If he was in a wheelchair he had no use whatsoever. He struggled into the wheelchair wincing with the pain.
Before he had hoped that maybe a war would give him a reason to exist but now he couldn't even fight! Ph, great Hero wasn't he! Heero pushed himself up from the chair and tried to walk. He took a step forward.
"No Heero!" screamed Ms Kenzy.
Heero couldn't feel the ground before him. He couldn't feel him pressing his foot against the ground. Suddenly his knees buckled and he collapsed. Ms Kenzy rushed towards him and helped him get back in the wheelchair.
"Heero, you have multiple fructures in your bones. You couldn't possible walk," said Ms Kenzy.
"Fractures? I'm even weaker than before! If I don't walk by tomorrow I will commit suicide," said Heero.
Ms Kenzy gasped in shock. Was Heero crazy? How could he walk by tomorrow with broken bones?
"He'll walk tomorrow," said Dr Po passing by as if knowing what Ms Kenzy was thinking about.
Ms Kenzy shook her head. Was it just her or was the whole world going mad in front of her eyes? She slowly crossed the hallways and out the building. Heero breathed in the fresh air and looked around. Nothing had changed while he was gone.
Ms Kenzy began pushing the chair across the pavement. Heero could feel people staring at him. He could feel their pity. He wanted none of it! Heero turned his head to see a few people looking at him in sadness.
"What? Look at you so called "Hero". Pitiful isn't it?" screamed Heero at the people.
They gasped and stopped looking at him quickly.
"Where are you taking me?" snapped Heero.
"A church," answered Ms Kenzy calmly.
"Damn you!"
Ms Kenzy stared at Heero. He was full of energy and she was glad. As long as she made him furious he wouldn't be so down in the dumps and maybe she would be able to get rid of his depression.
Ms Kenzy wheeled Heero into the church. A priest approached Ms Kenzy, then he saw Heero and nodded to Ms Kenzy. Ms Kenzy left the church and Heero cursed himself. How did he ever let this happen?
"You may call me father," said the priest.
"Over my dead body will I ever call you father," snapped Heero.
A few visitors turned to look at Heero. The priest laughed waving it off.
"Its not as a dad, it's a way you call a priest," said the priest.
"Then, I will call you priest," said Heero angrily.
The priest put his hands out in surrender and wheeled Heero close to where some other people were standing in front of a cross. A woman entered, bowed to the cross and went on her knees to pray.
"I'll leave you for 5 minutes. You do what you want to do," said the priest.
Heero nodded and looked at the woman who had just entered. She looked at him and smiled. She knew who he was and she didn't seem to look at the wheelchair. She moved back for him and took a chair gazing at him.
Heero wondered what this feeling was inside him. Ever since he entered the church he just couldn't feel upset. He didn't feet happy but he felt content like he did at war. What was this strange feeling? Heero slowly pulled himself up from the wheelchair. The woman suddenly looked very worried. He tried taking a step but again he couldn't feel the ground. This time he wouldn't worry about it. He took another step forward. All he needed to do was kneel now. He didn't know exactly what he was supposed to do. It was as if someone else was guiding him. Suddenly his knees buckled and he collapsed. The woman lept forward and caught him before he fell to the ground.
"You were on TV you know. You are even more famous than before. Everyone thinks your even more of a hero because you saved that girl's life," whispered the woman helping him get back in his chair.
"So I know your legs were fractured only two days ago and you can't walk," said the woman out loud.
Heero ignored her and got his breath back. He pulled himself out of the chair again. The woman sighed as she watched him move his leg again.
Ms Kenzy watched Heero as he tried to get up again from behind the curtain. The priest was next to her watching Heero attentively. He sighed as Heero collapsed again but this time he got onto his knees and watched as the other woman formed a cross with her finger on her chest. Ms Kenzy chuckled as Heero tried copying her.
"He is just like a little child learning something new. I believe my plan will work. He will have to choose later but I believe he will be able to choose the correct decision," said Ms Kenzy.
Heero drew a cross with his finger and got up again. He was surprised to feel the ground beneath him. He moved his foot shakily and walked backwards carefully and fell in his wheelchair.
The woman smiled and began praying. Heero watched her as she prayed. What was it that she was doing? What was praying?
Heero looked back. Something caught his eye. An american walked into the church and looked around. Suddenly the american gasped and backed away and rushed out of the church as fast as he could. Heero jumped up forgetting that his legs were in bad shape and ran out of the church. He could hear Ms Kenzy call after him but he had to call Duo back. He suddenly felt so ashamed to be in church. A church and worship was a weakness for a soldier. His feet hurt more as he took each step but he couldn't stop. He needed to find Duo.
Ms Kenzy watched Heero rush out of the church as if it was a miracle. She still couldn't believe he walked but he was running now! How did Dr Po know he was going to walk by tomorrow?
"I'll go get him. He will not be able to run for very long with his condition," said Ms Kenzy to the priest and rushed out of the chruch quickly.
"Heero, I am going to save you, so you can save the others," thought Ms Kenzy as she rushed across the streets.
Heero raced down the street. His knees were giving in and he could feel a sharp pain go through his legs each time he moved them. He was so weak! How could he give in to that church? He didn't know what the feeling was but now Duo knew he was weak. Why should he live anymore when he's lost all his dignity and pride? Heero ignored the pain shooting up his legs and raced on even though a strong wind began and drops of water began dripping from the sky.
Suddenly he noticed the figure stopping and waiting for Heero.
"Duo! Wait," screamed out Heero.
Duo watched Heero run towards him. He had seen him walk into that church. Ever since Duo left the cross on the couch he had a longing to get another one and Heero had seen him. He was weak! He gave into emotions and Heero hated people who gave into their emotions so quickly.
Heero stopped looking straight into Duo's eyes. He was breathless and only then did Duo realise both Heero's legs were broken.
"Heero, I am so sorry for making you run all that way. Heero, I am a weakling. Please kill me and end my misery," said Duo.
Heero stood in shock. Duo felt the same way as Heero and now he wanted to die. Heero knew exactly what he meant. Duo handed Heero a gun from his pocket.
"Please," said Duo.
"One for one," answered Heero pulling out his gun.
Duo nodded sadly and took Heero's gun. The boys stood a couple of metres away from eachother and aimed their guns.
"It's a shame, you would make such a great guy," said Duo sadly taking off the safety on the gun.
"Ready?" asked Heero.
"Yeah," said Duo.