Chapter 9
Two weeks since the attack and Nancy was almost recovered. Despite Bill's questions she continued to remain mystifid about her attacker.
But of course she knew who it was. She had known the momnt the pain and foggyness had left her head. But he would never know if she had her way.
But all thoughts of the rape were far from her mind now as in her arms was Bill. They were laughing and kissing then Nancy suddenly stopped and pulled away much to Bill's frastration.
"What's up?" He said sharply.
"Nothing...Well..Bill you do love me dont ya?"
" For God sake....Nancy what are we doing? I'm in your bed ain't I?!"
"So .. back to normal then? that means we can leave right? Go back to London?"
"Nope." he answered quickly and tryed to finish where he left off but one again she pushed him off.
"Nope? Why bloody not? there's nothing for you here...for us here...is there?"
"Look....I cant up and leave what about this deal with Thenardier? You want me to break it?!"
"Oh come off it! You could kill him with one hand tied behind your back!."
"Yeah and be hung for it"
"You sound like Fagin now. You know you could and we could leave!"She was desprate she hated it here knowing he was married....to her."there's something else ain't there?"
"Well I'm fond of Zelma shes a good kid"
Nancy's rage built up "Fond? Fond?! What the bloody hell does that mean?! You have to chose me or her. You can't have both."
"'Course I can. I'm Bill Sikes."
And with that he kissed her to shut her up and left Nancy feeling as miserable as ever.
3 months since the last attack and 3 months and 2 weeks since the first. He'd got her again when she was alone and drunk leaving Nancy thinking "why me?" It wasn't violent...she didn't dare move that time.
She had tried and tried to block him from her mind. Tried to gt rid of his image every time she closed her eyes. An attacker had never affected her like this before but then, an attacker had never left her pregnant before.
Ever since Nancy was young, well that is to say younger, she had wanted a baby, but ever since she was young Bill had been there and he didn't want any kids. His reasons were good enough. She remebered it like it was yesterday, the chat they had had over two years ago.
"Bill, wouldn't it be great to have kids?"
He looked at her as if she was insane...she couldn't see the look as she was washing up and he was preparing gear for the job but she could feel the look boring in to her back.
"Oh yeah bloody marverlous! Screaming at all hours, just like next doors lot, not having nough food for any of us, extra clothes, we'd need extra space, not to mention-"
She sighed and cut him off before he could continue "A simple 'No' would of done."
"Sorry Nance, but do you really wanna bring a kid into this? I was a kid in this, you were a kid in this, would you wish it on anyone given the choice?"
She laughed to cover up the heartache she felt inside "So Mr. Sikes does have a heart then"
He mumbled something incoherent to her then added "Besides if you had a kid I'd be out of here in a shot" With that he stood up called bullseye and left.
So all her life Nancy had had to choose between Bill and the chance of children. And everytime she fell pregnant she had made her choice by throwing herself down the stairs or going to see Old Sally the well known old maid where she would "deal" with your "problem". Untill now.
For now she didn't have Bill...not really but she did have a baby. A baby who refused to budge even though she had tried countless things that woman of her trade were taught.
The babys father didn't bother her. For it wasn't the pippins fault that its dad was a foul creature. Besides the foul creature wouldn't know of the babe. It would be just it and her alone but together.
A world without Bill.
Two weeks since the attack and Nancy was almost recovered. Despite Bill's questions she continued to remain mystifid about her attacker.
But of course she knew who it was. She had known the momnt the pain and foggyness had left her head. But he would never know if she had her way.
But all thoughts of the rape were far from her mind now as in her arms was Bill. They were laughing and kissing then Nancy suddenly stopped and pulled away much to Bill's frastration.
"What's up?" He said sharply.
"Nothing...Well..Bill you do love me dont ya?"
" For God sake....Nancy what are we doing? I'm in your bed ain't I?!"
"So .. back to normal then? that means we can leave right? Go back to London?"
"Nope." he answered quickly and tryed to finish where he left off but one again she pushed him off.
"Nope? Why bloody not? there's nothing for you here...for us here...is there?"
"Look....I cant up and leave what about this deal with Thenardier? You want me to break it?!"
"Oh come off it! You could kill him with one hand tied behind your back!."
"Yeah and be hung for it"
"You sound like Fagin now. You know you could and we could leave!"She was desprate she hated it here knowing he was married....to her."there's something else ain't there?"
"Well I'm fond of Zelma shes a good kid"
Nancy's rage built up "Fond? Fond?! What the bloody hell does that mean?! You have to chose me or her. You can't have both."
"'Course I can. I'm Bill Sikes."
And with that he kissed her to shut her up and left Nancy feeling as miserable as ever.
3 months since the last attack and 3 months and 2 weeks since the first. He'd got her again when she was alone and drunk leaving Nancy thinking "why me?" It wasn't violent...she didn't dare move that time.
She had tried and tried to block him from her mind. Tried to gt rid of his image every time she closed her eyes. An attacker had never affected her like this before but then, an attacker had never left her pregnant before.
Ever since Nancy was young, well that is to say younger, she had wanted a baby, but ever since she was young Bill had been there and he didn't want any kids. His reasons were good enough. She remebered it like it was yesterday, the chat they had had over two years ago.
"Bill, wouldn't it be great to have kids?"
He looked at her as if she was insane...she couldn't see the look as she was washing up and he was preparing gear for the job but she could feel the look boring in to her back.
"Oh yeah bloody marverlous! Screaming at all hours, just like next doors lot, not having nough food for any of us, extra clothes, we'd need extra space, not to mention-"
She sighed and cut him off before he could continue "A simple 'No' would of done."
"Sorry Nance, but do you really wanna bring a kid into this? I was a kid in this, you were a kid in this, would you wish it on anyone given the choice?"
She laughed to cover up the heartache she felt inside "So Mr. Sikes does have a heart then"
He mumbled something incoherent to her then added "Besides if you had a kid I'd be out of here in a shot" With that he stood up called bullseye and left.
So all her life Nancy had had to choose between Bill and the chance of children. And everytime she fell pregnant she had made her choice by throwing herself down the stairs or going to see Old Sally the well known old maid where she would "deal" with your "problem". Untill now.
For now she didn't have Bill...not really but she did have a baby. A baby who refused to budge even though she had tried countless things that woman of her trade were taught.
The babys father didn't bother her. For it wasn't the pippins fault that its dad was a foul creature. Besides the foul creature wouldn't know of the babe. It would be just it and her alone but together.
A world without Bill.