Chapter 15
Another 6 months had past and Nancy was doing the usual chores about the house for the day when there came a knock at the door.
Thinking it was Nicholas and that he had forgotten his key she smiled to herself and went to open the door.
The smile faded the moment the door opened and she was confronted by Bill.
His face broke out in a smile and he reached out for her.
She didn't smile. Despite the joy her heart felt at just seeing him again.
""I found ya! I dunno where you got to gal but by God I'm pleased to see you!"
Well….you'd best come in hadn't you.
"Well I gotta say you've done well for yourself." He said looking round at the smart and tidy room the she and Nicholas owned.
"Bill…Bill you can't do this."
Confussion crossed his face. Had he not searched high and low for high all over France for her for almost a year? And now she was saying she didn't want him? What was wrong with her?
"Do what?"
"This! Just turn up as if you have never been gone and nothing has changed because it has."
He laughed so that was it she thought things had changed between them. She continued speaking as he moved towards her.
"For a start you're married." She started to back away from him she knew if he touched her she would succumb to the need to be in his arms.
"No I ain't I left didn't I to find you."
"But you are still married. So am I!"
He stopped dead in his tracks.
"See things have changed. Just coz you ain't with me didn't mean me life stopped." She sat on the bed and he sat down next to her.
Nicholas was home early. He was glad that he was he loved spending time with Nancy. He came to the door and noticed it was open. H heard her voice. Then he heard a mans voice. He stopped next to the door out of site of the people inside.
"Well who is he?"
"His name is Nicholas. He is lovely so caring and he has been so good to me Bill"
At the sound of his name and her description Nicholas smiled but at the sound of the other mans his heart sunk.
"Sounds like a good bloke. So you love him do you?"
"No" She said the answer so flat so honest.
Nicholas's heart then broke. He had been so sure, how could he have been so blind?!
"But you love me don't you Nance? So what's stopping you from coming with me? We could leave go back to England to London"
"No I can't"
"But you don't love him!" He shouted at her and Nancy flinched.
"But what right have I got to break his heart?! None! I have no right! It isn't fair on him after all he has done some repayment!"
She was screaming at him the anger, love and hate she felt towards him, Nicholas and herself poured out.
Nicholas heard none of it though. The only thought that was going round in his head was that she didn't love him. The whole time she had lied.
Nicholas was bought back to reality and carried on listening.
"Nance" Bill said in a calm voice although he didn't feel calm at all "Nance I couldn't bare to lose ya. It would drive me mad to think you shared another blokes bed."
"And how do you think I felt Bill when I found out about you and that girl? You lost me right then and there. No" she shook her head more to convince herself then to emphisize her point o Bill "No I can't leave, I won't leave I have given myself to him in church and I will honor my vows. He deserves to be happy."
"And what about you? Don't you deserve to be happy?"
"It would seem fate don't want me to be don't it? Goodbye Bill. Don't come back. Ever."
He couldn't believe what she was saying. He would be back. He would change her mind.
"That's it then? No hug? Not even any tears?"
"I don't have any tears left to cry. You caused too many" He let out a sigh and she turned away towards the window and with that he left. Nancy was feeling dead inside
Nicholas's feelings matched Nancy's. Bill left striding past him not even seeing Nicholas in the doorway. So this was the other man who held her heart so he could not reach it.
He would never let her know he had heard her confession.
Another 6 months had past and Nancy was doing the usual chores about the house for the day when there came a knock at the door.
Thinking it was Nicholas and that he had forgotten his key she smiled to herself and went to open the door.
The smile faded the moment the door opened and she was confronted by Bill.
His face broke out in a smile and he reached out for her.
She didn't smile. Despite the joy her heart felt at just seeing him again.
""I found ya! I dunno where you got to gal but by God I'm pleased to see you!"
Well….you'd best come in hadn't you.
"Well I gotta say you've done well for yourself." He said looking round at the smart and tidy room the she and Nicholas owned.
"Bill…Bill you can't do this."
Confussion crossed his face. Had he not searched high and low for high all over France for her for almost a year? And now she was saying she didn't want him? What was wrong with her?
"Do what?"
"This! Just turn up as if you have never been gone and nothing has changed because it has."
He laughed so that was it she thought things had changed between them. She continued speaking as he moved towards her.
"For a start you're married." She started to back away from him she knew if he touched her she would succumb to the need to be in his arms.
"No I ain't I left didn't I to find you."
"But you are still married. So am I!"
He stopped dead in his tracks.
"See things have changed. Just coz you ain't with me didn't mean me life stopped." She sat on the bed and he sat down next to her.
Nicholas was home early. He was glad that he was he loved spending time with Nancy. He came to the door and noticed it was open. H heard her voice. Then he heard a mans voice. He stopped next to the door out of site of the people inside.
"Well who is he?"
"His name is Nicholas. He is lovely so caring and he has been so good to me Bill"
At the sound of his name and her description Nicholas smiled but at the sound of the other mans his heart sunk.
"Sounds like a good bloke. So you love him do you?"
"No" She said the answer so flat so honest.
Nicholas's heart then broke. He had been so sure, how could he have been so blind?!
"But you love me don't you Nance? So what's stopping you from coming with me? We could leave go back to England to London"
"No I can't"
"But you don't love him!" He shouted at her and Nancy flinched.
"But what right have I got to break his heart?! None! I have no right! It isn't fair on him after all he has done some repayment!"
She was screaming at him the anger, love and hate she felt towards him, Nicholas and herself poured out.
Nicholas heard none of it though. The only thought that was going round in his head was that she didn't love him. The whole time she had lied.
Nicholas was bought back to reality and carried on listening.
"Nance" Bill said in a calm voice although he didn't feel calm at all "Nance I couldn't bare to lose ya. It would drive me mad to think you shared another blokes bed."
"And how do you think I felt Bill when I found out about you and that girl? You lost me right then and there. No" she shook her head more to convince herself then to emphisize her point o Bill "No I can't leave, I won't leave I have given myself to him in church and I will honor my vows. He deserves to be happy."
"And what about you? Don't you deserve to be happy?"
"It would seem fate don't want me to be don't it? Goodbye Bill. Don't come back. Ever."
He couldn't believe what she was saying. He would be back. He would change her mind.
"That's it then? No hug? Not even any tears?"
"I don't have any tears left to cry. You caused too many" He let out a sigh and she turned away towards the window and with that he left. Nancy was feeling dead inside
Nicholas's feelings matched Nancy's. Bill left striding past him not even seeing Nicholas in the doorway. So this was the other man who held her heart so he could not reach it.
He would never let her know he had heard her confession.