Yami Ryuu, Shiro Tenshi
Neh, last chapter! Sumimasen, but I made it as long as I could! There'll be a teaser for the sequel at the end, so read the end notes! Usually you can skip em, unless ya wanna hear me incessantly babbling...
You'll see another side of Yami Bakura-koi here, a sweet and sad one. While I was pre-writing this in my spiral, I started tearing up.
Arigato everyone who has read the whole fic! Arigato! Aishiteru minna-chan!
Ok, LIME WARNING! Almost lemon, but not quite. It is sexual content, I guess, but they don't go all the way. Non-too-descriptive either.
Neh, if you are not touched at least a little by the different moods of this chapter, I will be surprised.
Ok, I'm watching the Ananda Lewis Show, and they're talking about gay parenting, and go them! It doesn't matter if you're straight or homosexual, you're still human. And do some of you notice how the word 'gay' is overused so much for just the wrong things? That's why I'm hesitant to use the word, because kids use it to describe something that's stupid, pointless, and other stuff these days.
I'm TRYING to make this the longest chapter, but it's hard to stretch it... and I'm wondering why I did this, but right after Yami Bakura's POV, there's a Seto POV with literally two sentences before it cuts to Bakura. Well, it is a kinda important two sentences that could ONLY be done in Seto's POV, and it NEEDED to be done right there, so I have an excuse.
Chapter 8-
Bakura's POV:
It was dark out, so I went to bed. I was kind of tired, even though it was earlier than my usual bedtime. I changed into my sleep clothes and sighed. Life had become such a dream. I was happy, Seto was happy, Mokuba was happy... it was all just wonderful. I was just in a really good mood. And no, I don't think it had anything to do with I getting laid a couple of nights prior to. It was Friday night.
I smiled with amusement at my own thoughts and started brushing out my hair. Seto was a dream, really –or possibly better. I loved him so, and he felt the same way. I was glad to have met him that day, though it was by chance.
He walked out of the gift store and came towards me. He just noticed that I was there.
"Hello Kaiba." I said.
I still called him by his surname then.
"What are you doing here?" He asked me coldly.
He was so cold then, so unlike now.
"I could very well ask you the same thing." I laughed, looking at the various animals. It was strange to see him there, maybe it had been fate. "I'm here because it's peaceful to come when there are no crowds and the animals are much more active. You?"
"I've been feeling stressed. Between work and life in general, I don't see much point in living."
His answer had scared me a little, but at least he didn't actually attempt suicide.
But things have gotten so much better now. I thought, setting my brush down. It's been bumpy, but it's better than it was.
But that's when I noticed the form in the mirror.
"You? What now?"
"Ryou." My Yami said. "I need to talk to Yami Ryuu, your Seto. I need to speak to him." He put an emphasis on the word 'need'.
"About what? Try and make him have sex with you?" I was getting a little angry, I admit, because he had caused me enough pain.
"No, it's not that this time. I-I just need to talk to him. Please Ryou, trust me. Please."
He said please, whoa. It must have been important, or else he was playing a mind game and wanted me to feel sorry for him. With the trust though, his credibility wasn't that high.
"Just tell me what you need to talk to him about."
He gave me a look, and then told me.
Seto's POV:
My God, another vibe. This sort I had felt too often, it was the type I got when Ryou's Yami was present.
Walking downstairs, I wasn't surprised to see... him, the demon, sitting on the couch where Ryou and I had watched a movie yesterday.
"What do you want? Didn't we settle this last time?" I snapped. I was sick and tired of his mind games and threats. Some of you may think that I was being mean to him, but... just think what pain he caused Ryou and I and you'll see why.
He looked over at me. I expected to see an evil glint in his eye, like there always was, but did not. On the contrary, there was a sense of sorrow and angst. "Seto..."
He called me by my first name. That surprised me a lot.
"My other self loves you, and you love him." He diverted his gaze to the floor.
"Yeah, you just noticed?" What game was he playing at, pity? Sympathy?
"I've never felt love." He stated simply.
It was as plain as that. That simple phrase: obvious, yet so impacting. He had never been loved by anyone. Score points for sympathy.
I felt bad for ever yelling at him now, even though he did try to rape me and threaten to kill Ryou.
There was an extra shine in his eyes. A closer look showed not malice, but tears. Tears of pain and sorrow, true tears. Impossible.
"All this time, I did love you." The droplets went down his cheeks. Akutenshi, crying. Ironic and sad all the same. He had loved me, throughout all of this, even if he had hurt me. I don't know, it had to of been psychological, like maybe he just couldn't admit it or something.
"Ryou..." What else was there to call him?
He looked at me again as I sat next to him. He had the same look in his eyes as a child who had been raised on the streets to lie and steal, and had just been caught and realized that his actions were wrong. He now knew he had been wrong. It was a great transformation.
I was still a little mad at him, but everyone deserves pity of some sort, even demons.
I put my hand under his eye and wiped the tears away.
Yami Bakura's POV:
His hand was warm and his touch soft. I had expected harshness and cruelty, given how I had previously acted. But no, he countered viciousness with compassion. Why?
As I put a hand on his wrist, I couldn't help but to have a small smile. Yes, the demon of hate, smiling. There's a first time for everything.
I want to move in time with you
I want to breathe in rhyme with you
I want to feel the deepest kiss
And I want to know you feel like this
I really did love him, and desperately wanted him on a physical level. I guess I wasn't able to admit it to myself for a little while, just as lust. But I would never fully attain him, I knew. I was jealous of my other self; he truly had Seto's love. He was just so lucky... did he know how fortunate he was?
For
this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For just this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me
He moved his hand across my cheek to tuck some hair behind my ear. He did this often to... him.
I
want to feel your hand in mine
And I want to feel that rush in my spine
I want to wear the scent of you
And do all the things you want me to
I was expecting him to strike me, damn me to hell, anything but the course of actions he was taking. Maybe I would have enjoyed it if he hurt me, to feel the pain, but no.
For
this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For just this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me
He leaned over and kissed me.
I don't know whether it was from pity or otherwise; and little did I care. He was kissing me, without me threatening him, seducing him, or even making a move. How does the human brain work?
I
feel the danger, the separation
I want to take your invitation
This separation it's all around
I need this side of me
We didn't go all the way. That's probably a good thing; I would feel even worse for sharing this moment with my other half's love. But I did have time to wrap my arms around his neck, feel the skin of his chest against mine, have him shift his weight on top of me, obtain his love, even if it wasn't for that long. He gave me so much sensual pleasure. He pressed his lower body against me, grasped my arms, held me like a possession. I would be his possession, if only...
I
want to move in time with you
I want to breathe in rhyme with you
I want to stitch my clothes in sin
And in the dark
I want to find that door and go within
I was touched. I was Akutenshi, he loved Shiro Tenshi. He was Yami Ryuu, the angels' aman, lover. And he was my savior from insanity. I am evil, I am insane, I am loved, even if it is pity only.
For
this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For just this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me
I awoke with my head on the armrest, his head on my lower chest. Shiro Tenshi had not arisen back yet to reclaim what was his. I was glad. But now, I could live peacefully, locked in the darkness of the Ring. The pure, unfiltered darkness for eternity. I could stand it, because of his love.
I didn't know if I could move without waking him, and I didn't want to steal him from his sweet surrender of dreams. So I just lay there, thinking how fortunate I was for that one night. The only thing shed was my shirt, same with him, but I was still fortunate. Hopefully, no one reading this has lived shit enough to never have anyone love them. That's how it had been for me, until last night. Seto loved me, though probably not as much as my other self.
All of a sudden, Seto rolled over and- THUD!
"Ow..." I groaned, feeling automatic pity for him.
He sat up, sleepy still. "Ow." He rubbed his head. "There are reasons I usually don't sleep on couches."
Yes, he rolled off the couch. I laughed a little, then stood. I offered him a hand to help him up, and he took it.
"Uh, thanks for last night. I mean, I really had never been loved before. It was different, really. Ryou is really lucky, you know that?"
"Akutenshi." He hugged me again. I loved that name, it contradicted, yet described me in a sense. I didn't know about the 'angel' part though.
"Angel? No, I don't think so. I'm no angel. That's a little too poetic."
He smiled and shook his head. "Maybe you and Ryou are closer than you think." He said with a shrug.
"Huh?" I looked at him confusedly.
"He said the same thing, about calling him an angel being too poetic. But no, both of you are. Both of you are so innocent in my eyes, even you, Akutenshi."
I shook my head. "I am far from innocent. I have killed, tortured, taunted, and so many other things. I have very little innocence left, and that's..." I felt my face go very hot, "what I was trying to get you to take from me."
There was a painful silence.
Yami? Ryou asked.
Yes Ryou, hold on a second. I paused. You really are lucky to have his love, you know?
Yes, I do. He laughed.
I gave Seto one more hug around the neck. "I must go now, Ryou wishes to come back."
He gave me a serious look. "You are going to come back someday, right?"
I lowered my eyes and let a tear fall. "Aishiteru. Sayonara, Yami Ryuu."
Seto's POV:
It was a very long time until I saw Akutenshi again. But that's another story, and right now we must continue our tale.
Bakura's POV:
I came back into being. I don't know, my other self seemed resolved. I don't know what he and Seto did, but Seto had a slightly sorrowed look in his eyes.
My other self had told me that he wanted to tell Seto he was sorry for everything and ask forgiveness, and to tell Seto that he loved him...
"Just tell me what you need to talk to him about."
He gave me a look, then told me.
"I need to tell him how I feel. I need to tell him that... that I'm sorry, to plead for forgiveness, to tell him that- that I love him too."
"What?" I was shocked to hear his words, were they sincere? Or did he really just want to hurt Seto? Did he know the difference between love and lust?
"Yes! I love him! I admit it! I really do. I-I don't know why. I didn't recognize it at first... but I do! So please Ryou, let me tell him. Allow me to."
I was a little worried. I mean, Seto was mine, and yet my Yami was me. What should I do?
"Ok, I'll let you."
He was silent. "Thank you."
"Seto?" I asked.
"Yes?" He asked, looking down at me.
"He really did love you."
"I know. And... I don't know. I love you, and I love him too, but... I'm just confused. You two are the same, yet are different. You really are more alike than you thought."
"Yes, we both love you."
"I hope you don't take it hard that I love him too."
"Not at all, we are one and the same. But... you two didn't... did you?"
He laughed, then hugged me tightly. I felt safe in his embrace. "No, no. I did kind of start kissing him, but we didn't go all the way."
"Good." I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck. "Cause I want some of you all for myself." I kissed him lightly a couple of times. Then, I picked up his shirt and put it on. It was warm, yet light and loose- loose on me at least. Seto had a slightly larger build, a good build. The mental picture made me flush. "You know, this is really comfortable. I know why you wear it."
"Ok, give me my shirt." He stuck his hand out. "No one messes with the cool shirt, not even you." He cocked a smirk, telling me that he was joking. But, just to make sure...
I got a wide grin and shook my head, grabbing onto the loose sleeves.
"I'll take it off you." He narrowed his eyes, but they had a light in them that said that he was very interested in playing this little game. Good, I wanted him to be interested in my game.
I stuck out my tongue and ran. Laughing, I ran around the corner. I heard Seto running and laughing behind me.
"Come on, give me my shirt!"
I was considering stopping and letting him crash into me, but no, that might hurt. So, I made my way upstairs and into my bedroom. I dived into the bed and enclosed myself in the covers, like a little kid playing hide-and-seek.
I felt Seto climb on after me. "Come on..." He started tickling my ribs.
"Ok! Ok, stop! I give!" I was laughing so hard that I was heating up and tears were forming. He ripped the covers off of me and pulled the shirt off. We were both laughing and tearing up.
But then we noticed how he was mounted over me and flushed. His hands were on either side of my head.
"Aw, just come here." I lifted myself up and pulled him into a deep kiss.
I let out a breath as he just released himself and landed on top if me. He then started on my neck.
"Come on, that's enough now." I sighed, though I wouldn't mind continuing. But, if we got too involved... "Mokuba's going to be up soon, and you know how he got last time after the movie."
Seto mumbled something under his breath and slowly rolled off of me. He lay there on his back, staring up at the ceiling. "Yeah, I remember." He got a sudden seductive smirk as he turned his eyes to me. "He has to sleep sometime. Tonight then?"
I sat up and put a hand on his chest. "Whatever you want, Yami Ryuu."
"Mm... you know, that can be taken so very wrongly."
"Maybe that's how I wanted you to take it." I slowly traced my finger from his neck to his pants line.
"You know, I never thought of you as one to make perverted jokes and try to entice me into doing various sexual activities."
"Who's trying?" I kissed him, then got up and put on a clean shirt.
I admit it wasn't like myself; but hey. May as well have a little fun with life, and I could tell he enjoyed it.
It was later in the day. I had gone to take a shower. Walking past Seto's room, I heard him and Mokuba talking.
"Are you sure you want to, Seto?" Mokuba asked.
"That's kind of what I'm asking you." He sounded so unsure, why? And what about? But I didn't feel as if I should interrupt.
"I think you should, but that's my personal thought. I mean, he probably would agree. And hey, I'm all for it. No one's stopping you."
"I'm wondering how everyone else will react as well."
"Do their opinions matter about what you do? That never stopped you with anything before. Plus hey, you already ordered it, so are you going to waste it for nothing?"
"That is true. Thanks Mokuba." I heard Seto get up and come towards the door. I ran quietly to my room and started making my bed, just anything to make it seem like I had not overheard anything.
"What were they talking about?" I whispered to myself.
There was a knock on my doorframe. "Ryou?"
"Yes?" I thought I had been caught, but no.
"Mokuba and I need to run off somewhere. Can I leave you here alone for about an hour?"
I still wondered why, but decided not to ask. "Sure."
"Ok, because there's something I really need to pick up. I'll grab some dinner on the way home, ok? So you don't have to cook anything." Smiling, he then added: "Not like you could anyway."
I got an immature frown and walked up to him. "You know Seto, I control if you get anything tonight. Remember earlier?" I purred in his ear a little. I know I was acting so unlike myself, but I thought it funny to tempt him. And I really do think he enjoyed being tempted, and I would do anything to please him.
"Mm..." He nodded and took some time to envisage what I said. If it had been anyone else imagining that, I would have slapped them. "Never mind, I take it back, you're a great cook. See you in a little while."
I shook my head and laughed, and then waved, going back to whatever I was doing.
I heard the car pull out a few minutes later.
Ok Bakura, I told myself, this is a mystery, but maybe you should wait to find the answers.
Seto and Mokuba came home an hour and a half later, bearing Japanese take-out food. I looked to see if I could see what they had initially gone out to get, but couldn't see anything. What was it?
Mokuba had a smirk on his face and Seto seemed rather quiet and flushed. I looked at them both confusedly.
"What are you two hiding?"
"Nothing." Seto answered quickly, just as Mokuba opened his mouth to say something.
"Ok, now what were you going to say, Mokuba?" I asked in a voice that was too syrupy sweet for even me.
"Actually, I was going to say 'nothing' as well."
"You two are hiding something, I can tell quite clearly. As for what, I guess it'd be best for me to wait and find out, right?"
Seto nodded very quickly, nervously, so unlike himself.
Later that night, I was laying down next to Seto on his bed. We both felt drained, our energy having been spent moments ago. We'd need to wash the sheets again.
"Seto, why can't I know what you went to get this afternoon? I mean, how hard can it be to tell me?" I put my hand on his shoulder and rubbed my cheek against his chest. He was covered in sweat, but as was I, so I didn't care.
He wrapped his arms tightly around me. "You'll find out in time, Ryou, my love. You'll find out in time."
"Soon?"
"Soon." He affirmed.
"I am your love?" I knew I was; I just wanted to hear his answer. I love the way he answers.
"My love, my heart, my hopes and dreams. Mine. My angel."
I cuddled up closer against him. He really was a poet, and it gave him a sense of sweetness, a side of him that no one else had ever seen, meant only for me. I don't know if he really liked it, but it made him seem so virtuous, divine. I fell asleep, a smile on my face.
Seto's POV:
I didn't want to keep it a secret from him, but I had to. It wasn't the time yet. It truly would be soon, but not yet.
He was my angel, my beautiful Shiro Tenshi. I know I obsess over that name a lot, but he really is.
~A week later~
Ryou, Yugi, Jounouchi, Honda, Anzu, Mokuba, and I went to the zoo where Ryou and I had that fateful meeting. They still didn't know our secret, but that would change momentarily. I was going to have to be the one to tell them, I was going to have to be the one to break the defenses.
We made our way to the Tiger Walk, the most secluded area in the zoo. After hiking for a few minutes and seeing the White Bengal Tigers, I stopped suddenly and looked around. Besides our group, there was no one. Good.
"Seto?" Ryou asked, stopping a few feet from me.
"Hay Kaiba, what's wrong?" Honda turned back, as did everyone else.
Mokuba gave me a significant look. He knew what I was going to say and do. He nodded slightly, just so only I would see. He's actually the one who suggested coming and inviting everyone with us.
I cleared my throat. "Ok, I don't know how many illegal things I've done in my life-"
Jounouchi coughed violently, on purpose. Anzu and Honda both hit him.
"-and I don't know if this is illegal or not in this day and age." I walked to Ryou. Taking my hand from my coat pocket, I handed the contents to him. His mouth dropped open and he looked up at me, flushing.
"What? What is it?" Jounouchi asked impatiently.
"Ryou, will you..."
Before I could say anymore, he flung himself at me, wrapped his arms around my neck, and kissed me.
"W-whoa, hey! When did this start?" Jounouchi stammered as Ryou slid off of me and put the ring on his finger.
Yugi and Mokuba started clapping. Yugi had seen it coming and Mokuba...? He of course knew. That's what we had been talking about when Ryou had overhead us conversing. Whether I should propose to Ryou or not.
Anzu put a hand on each of our shoulders. "Congratulations."
Honda and Jounouchi stared stupidly.
"Wow. S-so you two are engaged now?" Honda asked.
Ryou nodded in reply as I pulled him close. He rested his head on my chest. I shouldn't have had to ask if it was right, I was just so happy whenever near him.
"So that answers my question." Jounouchi stated, hitting the side of his fist down onto his hand.
"Which question?" Yugi asked. "You have had so many."
"'Why was Kaiba helping Bakura?' I always knew there was another reason besides that he just wanted to be nice. Though, I do admit that I thought that there was some other type of reason." He clapped his hand down –rather hard- on my shoulder. "So why didn't you two tell us that you had feelings for each other? There was no reason to hide it."
Ryou and I looked at each other, then the group, and then each other again.
We burst out laughing.
And possibly unseen to everyone else but I, was Yami Yugi. He winked, then gave me a thumbs-up. I nodded back, and held my angel close.
We got married. It was small and private, with very few people there. Nice and quiet.
In Wildwolf's 1994 Student dictionary, the word 'marry' is defined as: 'to unite (a couple) as husband and wife'. They best have re-defined it in later versions.
Life is an adventure, and so far, I've lived it to the fullest as I could.
And now, I thank you for keeping up with this tale, and I bid you farewell.
-Seto Kaiba
Songs of the Chapter:
Like a Prayer
Victoria Beckham
Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
I hear your voice; it's like an angel sighing
I have no choice, I hear your voice
Feels like flying
I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
Like a child you whisper softly to me
You're in control just like a child
Now I'm dancing
It's like a dream, no end and no beginning
You're here with me, it's like a dream
Let the choir sing
When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there
Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me
You are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like prayer
No choice
Your voice can take me there
Just like a prayer
I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me
Just like a prayer
I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me
Breath
Faith Hill
I can feel the magic floating in the air,
Being with you gets me that way.
I watch the sunlight dance across your
Face and I've never been this swept away.
All my thoughts seem to settle
On the breeze,
When I'm lying wrapped in your arms.
The whole world just fades away,
The only thing I hear is
The beating of your heart.
Cause i can feel you breathe,
It's washing over me and
Suddenly I'm melting into you.
There's nothing left to prove,
Baby all we need is just to be.
Caught up in the touch,
The slow and steady rush.
Baby, isn't that the way that
Loves supposed to be?
I can feel you breathe.
Just breathe.
In a way I know my heart is waking up,
As all the walls come tumbling down
Closer than I've ever felt before and
I know and you know
There's no need for words right now
Cause i can feel you breathe,
It's washing over me and
Suddenly I'm melting into you.
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be.
Caught up in the touch,
The slow and steady rush,
Baby, isn't that the way that
Loves supposed to be?
I can feel you breathe,
Just breathe.
Caught up in the touch,
The slow and steady rush,
Baby, isn't that the way that
Love's supposed to be?
I can feel you breathe.
Just breathe.
I can feel the magic floating in the air.
Being with you gets me that way
You Do What You Have To Do
Sarah McLachlan
What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
And now, a teaser to the sequel of 'Yami Ryuu, Shiro Tenshi', called 'Akutenshi'.
"I-I know, b-" He cut me off with a finger to my lips.
"Seto, because I do truly love you, I will tell you how you can save him. It will be dangerous and possibly life-threatening, I warn you."
I looked straight at him, eye to eye.
"Tell me."
A smirk came upon his lips...
Neh, makes ya wanna read, huh? Now, who's missing? Who's talking? Find out in 'Akutenshi'. If you leave your email with your review, I'll tell you when I post it.
So, how was it? If you REALLY like it, then you CAN recommend it to other people. I dunno, I think you people's praise has gone to my head.
Ooh, Yami Bakura-koi... he is so hot... I'm typing this on Tuesday; and Tuesday's episode is the one with Yami Bakura-koi versus Yami Yugi-kun. Aw, JOUNOUCHI!!! **cries** He gave his life up for the cause...! And yes, these chapters take forever to dove-tail, mostly cause of the inserted songs and stuffs. I don't usually have the lyrics I want, so I have to search the net, and I'm grounded, and I'm not allowed on the Internet for long amounts of time, and blah.
Minna-chan, thanks for your support, you don't know how much it means to me. Support gives me the strength to continue writing, especially since this fic series I REALLY enjoyed writing in the first place. If no one read it, then I'd probably be much slower on writing and just leave it half done like all my other fics. Actually, this'll probably be the first fic series (first fic and sequel) that I'll complete. There was my Pokemon fic and my Digimon one that I finished, but they had a conjoined sequel that I just kinda stopped on. But hey, I'm glad that I'm continuing this one. Again, thank you.
Amby-chan, Ka-chan, arigato gozaimasu. I love you both, really. Now both of you have at least started reading my fic, and hopefully it's at least half as addictive as Everworld. That is an addictive series. But I hope you two are willing to BETA my sequel, cause you two are the BEST EVER! **huggles**