RADONA
Today was the day. The battle, the deaths. They would be today.
As everyone awoke I stared at Legolas, wondering if I would be able to do everything according to the plan. I would try, but would I succeed? And if he fought back… what then?
I got up. "We will reach Gondolin tonight if we make fair time," I said, trying to keep the nervousness out of my voice.
Aragorn nodded. "Then we must set off now."
About midday we reached the Kerlil cave. "We must cut through here if we wish to reach Gondolin by night fall," I said. None of them knew that my words sounded their doom.
Aragorn looked at the opening. "I see no light," he said. "This is a dead end."
"It is long and twists much," I said. That, at least, was true. "But I assure you that we will come out of the other side unharmed." That, however, was not.
"And how can we be sure you speak the truth?"
I wanted to cry. I wasn't speaking the truth. I was leading them into a trap, or at least trying to.
"Aragorn," I said. My voice cracked and I feared that now they knew everything. They knew I was working for the Kerlil! They were about to kill me!
I turned and ran away. Ten minutes later I stopped to rest and catch my breath, then saw Legolas racing after me. He caught up and sat down beside me.
~Are you alright?~ he asked.
I shook my head. This was all wrong! I wasn't supposed to feel for Legolas! My voice wasn't supposed to crack! He wasn't supposed to follow me!
~I need to clear my mind,~ I said.
~Are you alright?~ he repeated.
I felt tears well up in my eyes. ~Yes,~ I said. ~I… I'll be fine.~
He wrapped his arms around me and held me close. ~I don't know what this is all about, but after we reach Gondolin you can tell me all about it. But for now, we must go back. We do not have time to waste, I'm afraid.~
I wanted to tell him that we never would reach Gondolin, and to tell him to go and save himself. But that would only be a death sentence for me, as well. I needed to deliver 4 elves, and no less.
I sniffed. ~Yes.~
~I'm sorry we do not have time for this, but I give you my word we can talk about it later.~
Finally, my tears streamed down my face. I was going to kill him. Kill my Legolas.