Disclaimer: Guess what? I still don't own them. :: gasps heard everywhere :: I know, I know, it breaks my heart too. Nevertheless, that's okay, I'll just keep writing these fics for you. :)

Hello everyone. This will be, let me see, I believe my fifth GW fic. And to think, I just started writing in November 2000. I'm very proud of myself. Well, let me warn you know. This will turn angst very shortly, like next chapter, so don't be fooled. If you're expecting one of my happy sappy fics (though of course, I don't think any of mine are that sappy) don't look here. Yes there will be fluff at the end but let me explain this fic to you a bit. Welcome to the thoughts of Relena Dorlain Peacecraft. In a few short chapters, you will begin to read her secret journal, but I won't give away the whole plot. You'll soon see. So just read, and I hope I sort of snagged your attention with that first misleading chapter. Damn, I basically told you the plot again. Oh well. On with the story. I'm sure you'll still enjoy it either way. Oh, and with the voting, most of you voted for option number three, so here you go.

Last Words: Chapter 3-by ~Crystal Delphina~
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"How is she?" Duo asked the obviously tired Heero. He had stayed by Relena's side since she had came into the emergency room, and had surgery. That had been 3 days ago.

"They said they did what they could, but it is only a matter of time until her body just gives out. She's still unconscious." He replied wearily. He didn't even seem to be there, just a shell that responded when talked to.

~Flashback~

"RELENA!!!" Heero rushed to her side, just able to hear her say his name before she slipped into unconsciousness. He looked around desperately at his surroundings, trying to find the shooter. He looked up to the roof, and there sat the fool grinning like an idiot.

Heero quickly pulled out his gun, shot once, and then turned back towards Relena knowing that he had successfully killed the man who tried to take her life.

Automatically ripping his shirt, he began to try to put pressure on the small wound. Luckily, it looked as if the bullet had gone straight through. He pulled out his cell phone and called 911.

He seemed to ignore the screaming, confusion, and the people running around in terror and shock. All that mattered was to get her to the hospital, and make sure she stayed stable until she got there.

~ End Flashback ~

"Has she woken up at all?" Hilde asked with tears in her eyes. She had checked in at the hospital with Duo and they spent hours here during shifts. As soon as everyone had been contacted, the pilots each took shifts to wait with Heero. They frankly didn't trust him on his own.

"Yes, she woke up for about an hour last night, and asked to see Noin. Noin was in there for two minutes before exiting the room in tears, but she seemed to be on a mission. She came back 10 minutes later and went right back into the room. While she was gone, I sat with Relena, and she assured me everything will turn out fine..." Heero quietly spoke the answer keeping his eyes on her room. The doctors were currently in there, and as soon as they left, he would go back to keep his vigil.

~Flashback~

He had made the ambulance officials let him ride inside along with Relena. The ride had only take five minutes since the hospital was so close, but as each second pounded away, he knew that it was just ticking down her living time. The ride seemed to take an hour.

"We have a critical liner here. She needs immediate surgery. Bullet wound to the right side of the abdomen." The doctor said while pushing Heero out of the way. He looked on in sheer devastation, as he knew there was nothing else he could do for her.

He silently walked to a chair and sat down with heaviness set in his heart. He began calling everyone that needed to be notified.

He called Zechs first. It was only proper that he found out from Heero before hearing it on the news. It was only a matter of time until the media started to flock to St. Anne's hospital.

~End Flashback~

"Heero, please go lie down and sleep, or let us get you something to eat. What support can you be to her if she sees you so wasted?" Duo asked his friend. He sat by his side with his hand on his shoulder, urging Heero to just revive himself in any small way. "Hilde, would you please go get a sandwich out of the vending machine? Here's some money." Duo said while handing her a five dollar bill. She nodded her head and walked off down the hall.

"Heero, snap out of this now. We all know how much you care about Relena, but you need to rest. We will wake you immediately if anything happens. Everyone's coming to visit this afternoon, and we need you to rest. You don't want to look like a wreck in front of all of them do you? Please Heero. Just eat the sandwich, then go sleep." Duo pleaded with his friend.

Heero nodded aimlessly, acting as if he was a child being reprimanded. Even his body had to give out at sometime after not sleeping for more then 48 hours.

Hilde came back with a sandwich and water and handed the provisions to Heero. He took them quietly and slowly chewed the food, digesting it into his empty stomach. As soon as he was finished, Duo escorted him to a room that the hospital had open that he could sleep on one of the gurneys, after Duo had begged with the staff.

Heero tossed himself on the bed, and tried to stay awake, but sleep quickly grabbed him. The hours slipped away as the sun rose towards the afternoon.

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"How is she?" Dorothy asked Hilde as she rushed in ahead of everyone else. All of the girls had red eyes and not even Wufei marked it as a weak aspect. He kept quiet like everyone else as Hilde gave the report. Duo walked off to go awaken the slumbering Heero.

"Did you have trouble getting in? The media seems to only have slacked off a bit since when Duo and I came in."

"Well they swarmed as soon as they saw Mr. Peacecraft, and Mr. Winner, and soon recognized the rest of us. The hospital staff let us in with no trouble however." Dorothy said with as much as she could manage of a smile, which was only a small curving of her lips.

As soon as Duo returned with a rumpled Heero beside him, Noin cleared her throat from behind everyone.

She looked towards the ground and quietly stated not daring to look in anyone's eyes. "I have a message from Relena."

Everyone immediately stopped talking and looked towards her as she produced a leather bound notebook from out of her purse.

"Last night, when I talked to her, she asked me to run to her apartment and get this for her. It's her journal. I brought it back to her and she wrote in it for 45 minutes before she passed out again. However, before she did, she told me that each of us was to read this in turn that she has marked in front. There are further instructions in the back, but you'll get there. You have to read this quickly though, cause we all have to finish it the next 48 hours. If your interested, like I was, it only took me 3 hours to read it. She said I was to go first. Sally, she marked you as next...." Noin said presenting the book to Sally who stood there speechless and surprised.

Everyone just looked on as she accepted it, and walked down the hall towards the cafeteria where she began to read about what Relena had written in the past couple of years...

So there you guys go. Hope you enjoyed. Now, onto the blackmail. If you read my fics every so often, you know that there is a system that goes along with it. In my very first fic, I demanded that if I didn't get at least 10 reviews a chapter, I wouldn't go on. Well ya know what? That is just plain cruel. Especially when about 90% of you guys don't even bother to ever write a review after reading a fic. I mean, I know I sure don't. Nevertheless, I'm going to try one more time. However, I only want at least five reviews this time. I mean I love encouragement, because I personally think I suck, so if you want this fic to continue, review me. Go right ahead and say that I suck, because it will only improve my writing, but you have to give a reason why. Like I'm not including enough detail or something. Okay you have been warned. Okay, I admit that this fic kinda rushes through but.... I think this will work. OH, and I'll get right to work on my other fic "Once So Long Ago". Bye my faithful (hopefully reviewing) readers! ;-) Ciao! ~Crystal Delphina~

P.S. This chapter is a birthday present (pretty lame present huh?) for Mameha-sama, along with the next chapter of Dark Force. If you haven't read Dark Force yet, go check it out along with Once So Long Ago. Sorry Mameha, I thought I did have the next chap of OSLA done, but it turned out I didn't. I hope this is okay.