Disclaimer: Guess what? I still don't own them. :: gasps heard everywhere :: I know, I know, it breaks my heart too. Nevertheless, that's okay, I'll just keep writing these fics for you. :)

Summary: Welcome to the thoughts of Relena Darlain Peacecraft. You will begin to read her secret journal, but I won't give away the whole plot. You'll soon see. So just read, and I hope I sort of snagged your attention with that first misleading chapter.

A.N.: Hello everyone. This will be, let me see, I believe my fifth GW fic. And to think, I just started writing in November 2000. I'm very proud of myself. Umm.. go check out my other fic Breathless that I just put out. OH, and I hope you all had a great holiday season and Happy New Year!

Last Words: Chapter 6-by ~Crystal Delphina~
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June 22 - A.C. 198
The times change, and we all grow older, but I can't help feel nostalgia when I re-experience child hood memories. I haven't done anything like this since I was around 7, and I'm very happy I went again. I actually didn't think I'd enjoy it (but don't tell Catherine and Trowa that). I went to a circus.

They invited me when they came to the colony I was staying on, and requested to have lunch with me before hand.

Now, I admit that I don't get to see my friends very often, even though it may sound like it. Whenever they know we are going to be on the same colony though, they usually call me up, and unfortunately I often can't accept their offers. I like all these connections I have though. So I gladly accepted their offer, because I hadn't seen them in what seemed like year (and it quite possibly might have been a year since I last saw them, but I don't think so).

The lunch was quite enjoyable, and we had a good conversation, although Trowa remained quiet, only talking to put in his opinion. I learned that soon they would be taking over the circus, because the manager was going to be leaving to go live with his family. "The circus is my home and how I grew up. I don't think I could leave it for a long time." Catherine has managed to put her job and home together into something she loves. I'm impressed. And Trowa will always stick by her side.

The circus was superb though. I admit that I was slightly biting my nails when Cathy began to throw knifes at Trowa, even though I had full trust in her capabilities. And when Trowa started taming the lion I was at the edge of my seat (literally, I mean it is a dangerous animal you know). I really did feel like a little girl again.

I left them with great thanks for inviting me, and hugs promising I'd see them again soon. The holiday parties are only a season away. Journal, remind me to go to the circus once a year.

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Catherine smiled. She was glad she could help Relena relive childhood memories if only once. If she remembered correctly, Relena only came to the circus once more. The thought made her feel a bit sad, but she pushed the thought aside as she continued reading. She only had a bit more.

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Catherine,
This may be the last time I talk to you, and in a lot of ways, that makes me sad. I'm very sorry we never had a chance to become better friends, however, your hospitality to me is greatly appreciated. Your home is the circus, and I understand that, and I hope it brings you many years of joy.

Keep comforting Trowa the best way you know how. Your bond with Trowa is remarkable, and you've always been there for him. Continue to do so. Remember I also keep you in my heart. Once again I'm sorry; it is one of my few regrets.

Love,
Relena.

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Catherine also had that same regret. She wasn't as good of friends with Relena, much less all the others, as Hilde was or something, but she always welcomed her with open arms. She really hoped Relena didn't feel to bad about it though, because she knew Relena meant what she said. Relena was a kind and generous person, and you couldn't ignore the fact.

She headed back to the waiting room, and handed the journal over to Hilde who had been leaning on Duo.

She mumbled a 'thanks' before getting up and leaving. Catherine walked over to her still vacant seat. Nearly three hours had passed since they had all first arrived at that hospital, and they still had six people left. It was turning out to be a very long afternoon.

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Hilde made her way outside, sitting in a small back garden that the hospital owned. She couldn't stand hospitals, especially since her own injuries that took place during the White Fang incident. She gladly escaped out into the warm sun and sat down on a bench.

She read entry after entry in silence, except for the common noises of everyday life. No one else occupied the garden that she sat in, and she was happy for that.

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"I need food. Is anyone else hungry? I'll bring them back something." Sally stood up and stretched her arms a bit, feeling the circulation return back to her tired limbs.

"You know hospital food can kill right?" Noin added a small smirk to her comment, and Sally mockingly scowled at her.

"Shut up, I'm starving. I'll take anything right now."

"Just bring back a bunch of stuff. I'm sure it will get eaten." Duo slightly grinned up at Sally. Noin rose from her seat also.

"I'll come with you; I doubt you want to carry all that food by yourself." The two began to walk down the hall. The tension had lessened some at the light conversation, but it soon returned to silence as the two women left.

As was mentioned before, it was going to be a long afternoon.
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Sorry that this chapter was so short. I promise the next one will be longer. I mean, it's Hilde after all. ^_^