TAKE ME OVER…..
She sat there; in front of her new T.V. only this time was different. This time she was just watching, not living. She saw blond hair, dark hair, red hair and finally brown.
She watched it all, long into the night, discovering her life from where she had positioned herself….
….behind the camera.
No more. She smiled. She had let sadness take her over. She paused the tape in a scene where Sakura and Li were fighting together. She stared at it a moment and then turned to the window. On the ledge of the window, once hidden from view was a picture. A blue eyed, black haired boy smiled out of the frame. She bent down to it.
"I let them take me over." She breathed in.
"I let them drown me out." She breathed out.
"I let myself let them." She closed her eyes.
"I lived behind a camera."
…I cut myself open….
"I cared for them because they were who I was."
…I watched myself bleed….
"If they were hurt, I was hurt."
…I jumped out the window….
"If they were sad, I was sad."
…hoping this was the end…
"If they were happy, I smiled."
…I hurt myself…
"But I didn't know what I was smiling about."
…I hurt others…
"It was there life."
…blood…
"Not mine."
…pain…
"It could never be mine."
…breaking bones, torn veins, starved body, cold water…
"But I let myself think it was."
…brown eyes looking in concern, so much like blue ones long gone…
"No longer."
…green eyes, staring back at me, happy when I was happy, smiling just for me…
"She knew. She knew but never told me."
…putting up with what I made her do, made her wear, made her pose…
"Why"
"Because that's what friends are for." Startled Madison turned around. Sakura was there, looking at the screen. She grabbed the remote and pressed fastforward. She waited and then paused it at a scene where Li was looking directly at the camera. Then she turned to look at her friend.
"Who is he looking at Madison?" She couldn't answer, could only stare.
"I knew you were behind the camera. I also knew that you didn't want to be there." She looked directly into Madison's eyes.
"I knew you were in there somewhere. Someone had to make those costumes. Someone had to hold us together." She stepped forward.
"Now that someone has a name." She smiled. "Madison."
Madison could only stare and then flung herself at her friend crying into Sakura's shoulder.
"Keep the movies." Madison looked at her in shock.
"What?"
"Keep them."
"Why?" Sakura smiled.
"So then you will be reminded that no one can ever take you over again." They both turned to the screen and Madison smiled as she finally noticed the little smile on Li's face, directed at her.
"I'll have to figure out what I truly feel for him." Sakura held her.
"You know what, Madison." She turned to her friend, her wide-eyed innocent expression on her face. She looked so cute that Madison couldn't help but smile.
"What Sakura?"
"This reminds me of a song I heard once from my brother. He had been in a bad mood and had played it. I think it was by Savage Garden? Yep it was!"
"What about it?"
"The chorus."
"Tell me it."
"Okay but I am not singing it."
'Break me, shake me, hate me,
Take me over,
And when the madness stops,
You'll be alone..'
Sakura looked thoughtful for a moment.
"I'd only change the last line." Madison looked at her.
"Why?"
"Because the madness has stopped, but you are not alone and never will be." Madison smiled and hugged her again. Stepping back she then drew her friend over to the window and grabbed the picture. She smiled at it a moment and then handed it to Sakura.
"This is my brother." Sakura's head whipped up.
"I never knew." Madison smiled.
"He died. But he is still around, and I know that we will always be together."
"Could you tell me about him?"
"Sure."
"He's my guardian Angel."
-Thank you to my brother Lee. You helped me through the hardest times of my life and while at times I may hate you, I will always love you.-
She sat there; in front of her new T.V. only this time was different. This time she was just watching, not living. She saw blond hair, dark hair, red hair and finally brown.
She watched it all, long into the night, discovering her life from where she had positioned herself….
….behind the camera.
No more. She smiled. She had let sadness take her over. She paused the tape in a scene where Sakura and Li were fighting together. She stared at it a moment and then turned to the window. On the ledge of the window, once hidden from view was a picture. A blue eyed, black haired boy smiled out of the frame. She bent down to it.
"I let them take me over." She breathed in.
"I let them drown me out." She breathed out.
"I let myself let them." She closed her eyes.
"I lived behind a camera."
…I cut myself open….
"I cared for them because they were who I was."
…I watched myself bleed….
"If they were hurt, I was hurt."
…I jumped out the window….
"If they were sad, I was sad."
…hoping this was the end…
"If they were happy, I smiled."
…I hurt myself…
"But I didn't know what I was smiling about."
…I hurt others…
"It was there life."
…blood…
"Not mine."
…pain…
"It could never be mine."
…breaking bones, torn veins, starved body, cold water…
"But I let myself think it was."
…brown eyes looking in concern, so much like blue ones long gone…
"No longer."
…green eyes, staring back at me, happy when I was happy, smiling just for me…
"She knew. She knew but never told me."
…putting up with what I made her do, made her wear, made her pose…
"Why"
"Because that's what friends are for." Startled Madison turned around. Sakura was there, looking at the screen. She grabbed the remote and pressed fastforward. She waited and then paused it at a scene where Li was looking directly at the camera. Then she turned to look at her friend.
"Who is he looking at Madison?" She couldn't answer, could only stare.
"I knew you were behind the camera. I also knew that you didn't want to be there." She looked directly into Madison's eyes.
"I knew you were in there somewhere. Someone had to make those costumes. Someone had to hold us together." She stepped forward.
"Now that someone has a name." She smiled. "Madison."
Madison could only stare and then flung herself at her friend crying into Sakura's shoulder.
"Keep the movies." Madison looked at her in shock.
"What?"
"Keep them."
"Why?" Sakura smiled.
"So then you will be reminded that no one can ever take you over again." They both turned to the screen and Madison smiled as she finally noticed the little smile on Li's face, directed at her.
"I'll have to figure out what I truly feel for him." Sakura held her.
"You know what, Madison." She turned to her friend, her wide-eyed innocent expression on her face. She looked so cute that Madison couldn't help but smile.
"What Sakura?"
"This reminds me of a song I heard once from my brother. He had been in a bad mood and had played it. I think it was by Savage Garden? Yep it was!"
"What about it?"
"The chorus."
"Tell me it."
"Okay but I am not singing it."
'Break me, shake me, hate me,
Take me over,
And when the madness stops,
You'll be alone..'
Sakura looked thoughtful for a moment.
"I'd only change the last line." Madison looked at her.
"Why?"
"Because the madness has stopped, but you are not alone and never will be." Madison smiled and hugged her again. Stepping back she then drew her friend over to the window and grabbed the picture. She smiled at it a moment and then handed it to Sakura.
"This is my brother." Sakura's head whipped up.
"I never knew." Madison smiled.
"He died. But he is still around, and I know that we will always be together."
"Could you tell me about him?"
"Sure."
"He's my guardian Angel."
-Thank you to my brother Lee. You helped me through the hardest times of my life and while at times I may hate you, I will always love you.-