Sorry For the HORRIBLE delay on my chapters... It's going slow, i know... But i just don't know how i want to end this. any suggestions? Yea... I'm also going to try updating more often. And I'm just hoping you all haven't lost total faith in me and forgotten my story.... thanks for reading and please review
Dying Roses: Pure Love
I don't know much about love, my whole life spent behind cold bars and stark white hallways. I had few glimpses of the real world until now. Now I know what love is. I love Max, no, not your typical love. I see her and want to protect her. But, it only comes out as obnoxious remarks and insensitive teases. I love her like a brother would, like Ben would have.
They thought I didn't see the looks they gave each other, the small, almost undistinguishable sighs they released every time they were apart. I noticed, I saw the love in their eyes.
The world is an unfair place to be, one of the worst. Living, breathing, loving, benefits and disadvantages, all at once. I've always known Alive isn't the best state to be in, and I've accepted it. Things are unfair; it's just the way it is. But for once I wish it weren't so. Some things need to work out; some loves need to never be extinguished.
The monotonous beep fills the hospital room and I look at all of us holding vigil at Max's bedside. Original Cindy, Sketchy, Bling, Herbal, Me, Logan, most of all Logan. He stands there holding her hand and crying. I wonder why he doesn't excuse himself to cry alone. But I suppose that's what love is, letting go of insecurities and not caring about everyone else. It's about Logan letting down his defenses and letting everyone see him cry just to be with Max. She's been gone for so long, I've almost forgotten what it was like to be with them together.
The pure love that once filled the room as their eyes met has been dampened with years of loneliness, thousands of heartbreaks, hurt looks, heavy hearts, and unspoken love. I feel myself losing hope just thinking about it. I'm not an unfeeling monster, but it's so much easier to pretend not to care.
If one thing in the world needed to work out, it's this. It's seeing him cry over her. It's listening to her heart beat, probably in sync with his. It's having them together.
End note: so the Plan was... I was just going to skip straight To max's funeral. And have like a paragraph from everyone... Logan, alec, joshua, normal, OC.... But I look at the idea now... but it gives the whole m/l thing i had in the beginning... no real closure... ya know? so... if anyone wants to tell me what they want me to have happen.. then GREAT!