Title: Rivals 18b
Author: Canisa
Pairing: various for now (13+6, 6+1, 5+2, meiran+5, 3+4/4+3, R+1), but leading to 1+2/2+1, my favorite paring! ^__^
Warning : shounen-ai, AU (no gundam!!!) a bit angst.
Note: Gundam Wing is not mine. I am writing this for my own enjoyment. No profit is being made.
Quick Summary
Heero's family held a grunge against Duo's because Duo's grandfather had indirectly caused his grandfather's death.
Heero started to open up to Duo little by little until Relena Peacecraft finally showed her presence, declaring to Duo that she was engaged to Heero.
Milliard/Zechs was injured in a car accident. Though he was saved by Treize (doctor), his guilty over Noin's death made him reach out to Heero. The Japanese youth recognized that between Duo and Milliard, the older man needed him more so than the young longhaired swimmer. Just as Heero was ready to make up his mind, Relena barged in……
Chapter 18b ----abandonment---
"Oniichan!!!" Relena cried out as soon as she stepped into the hospital room. Her usual composed gesture all gone in a flash as she saw the condition her brother was in. Even the sweet smile and the calculated eyes were replaced with a shocked and panic expression.
"Oniichan……" She hesitantly tumbled toward the bed but as soon as she discovered Heero's presence, rage over took her like a storm. She pointed her finger at her rival. "Get out!!!" She shouted. Her throat throbbed in pain as it has never experienced such abuse. "Get out!! You are not even a family member. You do not belong here!!" She shook with anger.
Things were not supposed to be like this.
She screamed inside her.
THIS was not supposed to happen!! Noin was supposed to tell Milliardo that Heero did not love him. Noin was supposed to be with her brother. She was not supposed to be dead. She was not supposed to make her brother need Heero Yuy even more!
Relena bit down her lips so hard that her teeth sank into her lips, tearing the tissue. Her madden eyes reserved only for the Japanese youth. "You do not belong here!!" She reinforced her points, her voice started to tremble.
But the Japanese youth only watched her with his usual blank expression.
And it drove her crazy. The fact that he did not even recognize her as a rival for her brother's affection only deepened her hatred toward him.
How could you compete with someone who did not even realize that there was a competition at all?!
"You do not belong here!!" She chanted.
Hatred was like a snowball rolling down the snowy mountaintop. It rolled and collected and grew, until it became so huge that it was able to destroy.
He should have died that night. He should have drown in the sea. He should have……
"He belongs here more so than you do."
Relena whirled around to meet her brother's calm composure. His reply had came out so calmly that it sliced through her heart with ease. "Oniichan…."
"You killed Noin."
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Duo Maxwell could literally feel his heart froze over. He was so tense that his muscles were now aching in pain.
It was just his goddamn luck. Duo knew that there was a reason why he hated lying. There was a reason why he always maintained the virtue of 'always telling the truth' to avoid this kind of situation. Duo supposed that at this point, Mr. Yuy would not care that it was HIS SON who lied and not Duo himself. The fact remained. Duo was a Maxwell. It did not matter who did the lying, Duo would always be a Maxwell.
"You are……."
The long-haired swimmer felt a slight shiver for he was still in his speedo swimsuit, topped with a light jacket. He took a good look at Mr. Yuy and all he could think was that he would not be able to see tomorrow's sunrise….. Duo glanced at the pool quickly and at a spur of moment, he thought about jumping into the water for he doubted that Mr. Yuy would waste his nice suit on him………
"You are ……Heero's friend?"
All the tension suddenly withered away as Duo did not find hostility in the tone. "Yeah…. I guess so…….." Duo strained a smile as he secretly prayed.
Could he be so lucky that Mr. Yuy did not make the connection and realize his true identity?
Mr. Yuy knotted his eyebrows together, the gold metal dangling between his fingers. "But I thought Heero said you are a basketball player……"
Duo wanted to dig and hide in a hole at this very moment. "Yeah… part time basketball and part time swimming ya know?" Duo let out a nervous laugh, the statement was a very stretched truth.
Mr. Yuy squinted his eyes slightly and Duo could tell that he was trying to remember something. Duo sincerely prayed that he would not remember.
"Well…." Suddenly, to Duo's delight, the confusion on Mr. Yuy's face faded and instead he gave him a very encouragingly light smile. He put the gold medal around Duo's neck. "Congratulation, Duo. Your part time swimming was certainly top notch."
Duo smiled as Mr. Yuy gave him a pat on the back. The longhaired swimmer knew that he would see the sunrise tomorrow. And he would definitely savor it with Heero by his side…..
Now…. Where the fuck was that jerk?
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He could still remember the way the water stung his skin.
"You killed Noin."
Though it was so many years ago, Heero could still recollect the coldness of the sea. He could still remember the waves pounding at him without mercy.
"IT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN THAT WAY!!!"
But the strange thing was, Heero remembered that he was not afraid.
"You had manipulated her. You led to her death. And I was the medium."
He was not afraid of what would have become of him when he sunk beneath the waves for he had learned that death was only an inevitable end of a human's journey.
"SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU THAT HEERO DID NOT LOVE YOU!!! WHY DO YOU LOVE A MAN WHO COULD NOT RETURN THE FEELING!!"
His best teacher, his grandfather, had taught him that. Those old, lifeless vacant eyes had told him that no matter how much one cared, death was something that no one could escape from.
"Go, Relena. I don't want to see you."
The fact that you cared so much for that person would not prevent death's claim.
"WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SHUT ME AWAY? WHY DO YOU SEEK COMFORT IN HIM AND NOT ME? I AM YOUR SISTER!!! THE SAME BLOOD RUN THROUGH OUR VEINS!"
That's why Heero never bothered to interact with anyone but to live off his thirst for revenge for his grandfather. In some strange ironic sense, his desire to compete with Duo on every level had sustained and maintained his bare interest in the living.
"I am not like you, Relena. The same blood run in our bodies but I am not like you. I will never be like you. Father knows it. I will never be a diplomat like he wanted me to be."
But that rivalry with Duo was over now. And finally, for the first time, he came to realize that the same feeling, which he had for his grandfather so many years ago, had emerged again.
"Oniichan……"
Except, this time, the feeling was so much stronger than before.
"Can you understand living in a family and feel like an outcast and a failure? Have you ever seen Father's disappointed eyes when I could not even make a lively conversation with that goddamn son of some high political figure?"
The feeling grew with each passing day. It expanded without limit and boundary.
""Oniichan….."
The worship. The caring. The sacrifice. The affection.
"HOW CAN YOU UNDERSTAND WHEN IT COMES SO NATURALLY TO YOU?"
And this feeling made Heero shivered with fear.
"Oniichan….."
Because love also accompanied sorrow.
"How can you, oh the perfect Peacecraft, possibly understand how I feel? When I live constantly under the disappointment of Father and Mother? When I feel I am not even a Peacecraft?"
The end of the journey of love was the sense of abandonment.
"You are wrong… oniichan……"
His grandfather died despite his affection toward the old man.
"That's why I hate you, my beloved sister, when you are everything that I am supposed to be. And I hate you even more for trying to rub me of Heero…. when you pushed him off the yacht and had he almost drowned and then pretended like you saved him….. Why did you think I swim? Why did you think I practice so hard in the pool every day? God damn you, Relena."
Noin died against everyone's wish.
"BUT I DID NOT PUSH HIM!!! I SAVED HIM BECAUSE I KNOW HE IS EVERYTHING TO YOU!!! I love you, oniichan. Can't you see? Everything I did, I did to get your attention. You are my only brother….."
Because life came so fragile and cheap, what was to prevent from death to rip Duo away and subject him again to that awful feeling of abandonment? He had a chance to avoid all of these.
"Lies, Relena. Always lies."
He should have drowned that day and ended it all.
"It was all your fault!!!" The blonde haired girl suddenly turned, her eyes furiously staring at him. "You should have died that night!!! I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU DROWNED!!!"
Heero Yuy locked his eyes with the girl and really looked at the girl for the first time since she had stepped into the room. Her words imprinted in his mind, echoing his same words.
"Ninmu Ryogai." Heero gave the affirmative.
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"Er. Mr. Yuy?" Duo called out as he chased after Mr. Yuy into the parking lot. The ceremony was over half an hour ago and Duo had to pack up his stuff really face and raced out to find Heero's father.
Mr. Yuy was ready to step into his Mercedes but heard the calling and turned.
"Do you, er, know where Heero was?" Duo asked, still trying to catch up with his breath.
"You have not heard?"
Duo's heart cringed. He had a bad feeling about this. All of the worst scenarios flashed in his mind.
"Heero is in the hospital, visiting Millard. There was an unfortunate traffic accident." After seemed like eternity, Mr. Yuy finally said.
Heero was okay……
Duo exhaled, relaxing visibly. "Thank you, Mr. Yuy. Do you know what hospital he went to?"
"The Colony Hospital." Mr. Yuy replied. "I am just on my way there, I can give you a lift if you'd like."
"That will be way cool, Mr. Yuy!…..I mean… if it's not too much trouble….." Duo blushed slightly as he realized that he was being just a little bit too eager.
Mr. Yuy only lifted the corner of his mouth slightly but said nothing. He motioned Duo to come sit in the passenger's seat.
Duo was delighted. He ran around the car. Just as he was opening the passenger door, he heard Quatre's calling. Duo turned around, spotting his friends across the parking lot. He waved, indicating that he had heard them. Duo noticed that Wufei had finally appeared. And Duo smirked as he saw Meiran walking next to him very closely. "Yo Wufie!!!" Duo's grin became wider as he shouted. "When are you going to mail out the wedding invitations?"
"God Damn you, Maxwell!!! Shut your big mouth!"
Duo laughed, even from far away, he could see how red Wufei's neck was. The past few days had been so intense that Duo almost forgot how fun it was to tease Wufei…….
"Maxwell?"
Smile froze on his face as Duo swirled around, facing the astonished Mr. Yuy. Duo could see that the friendly gesture was gone.
"Maxwell?"
This was not happening. Duo blinked, wishing that this were only a dream. How stupid was he to forget that Mr. Yuy was right there?!!! He could see that it had all clicked together in Mr. Yuy's mind.
"You are a Maxwell?!!"
Shit.
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TBC
Author: Canisa
Pairing: various for now (13+6, 6+1, 5+2, meiran+5, 3+4/4+3, R+1), but leading to 1+2/2+1, my favorite paring! ^__^
Warning : shounen-ai, AU (no gundam!!!) a bit angst.
Note: Gundam Wing is not mine. I am writing this for my own enjoyment. No profit is being made.
Quick Summary
Heero's family held a grunge against Duo's because Duo's grandfather had indirectly caused his grandfather's death.
Heero started to open up to Duo little by little until Relena Peacecraft finally showed her presence, declaring to Duo that she was engaged to Heero.
Milliard/Zechs was injured in a car accident. Though he was saved by Treize (doctor), his guilty over Noin's death made him reach out to Heero. The Japanese youth recognized that between Duo and Milliard, the older man needed him more so than the young longhaired swimmer. Just as Heero was ready to make up his mind, Relena barged in……
Chapter 18b ----abandonment---
"Oniichan!!!" Relena cried out as soon as she stepped into the hospital room. Her usual composed gesture all gone in a flash as she saw the condition her brother was in. Even the sweet smile and the calculated eyes were replaced with a shocked and panic expression.
"Oniichan……" She hesitantly tumbled toward the bed but as soon as she discovered Heero's presence, rage over took her like a storm. She pointed her finger at her rival. "Get out!!!" She shouted. Her throat throbbed in pain as it has never experienced such abuse. "Get out!! You are not even a family member. You do not belong here!!" She shook with anger.
Things were not supposed to be like this.
She screamed inside her.
THIS was not supposed to happen!! Noin was supposed to tell Milliardo that Heero did not love him. Noin was supposed to be with her brother. She was not supposed to be dead. She was not supposed to make her brother need Heero Yuy even more!
Relena bit down her lips so hard that her teeth sank into her lips, tearing the tissue. Her madden eyes reserved only for the Japanese youth. "You do not belong here!!" She reinforced her points, her voice started to tremble.
But the Japanese youth only watched her with his usual blank expression.
And it drove her crazy. The fact that he did not even recognize her as a rival for her brother's affection only deepened her hatred toward him.
How could you compete with someone who did not even realize that there was a competition at all?!
"You do not belong here!!" She chanted.
Hatred was like a snowball rolling down the snowy mountaintop. It rolled and collected and grew, until it became so huge that it was able to destroy.
He should have died that night. He should have drown in the sea. He should have……
"He belongs here more so than you do."
Relena whirled around to meet her brother's calm composure. His reply had came out so calmly that it sliced through her heart with ease. "Oniichan…."
"You killed Noin."
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Duo Maxwell could literally feel his heart froze over. He was so tense that his muscles were now aching in pain.
It was just his goddamn luck. Duo knew that there was a reason why he hated lying. There was a reason why he always maintained the virtue of 'always telling the truth' to avoid this kind of situation. Duo supposed that at this point, Mr. Yuy would not care that it was HIS SON who lied and not Duo himself. The fact remained. Duo was a Maxwell. It did not matter who did the lying, Duo would always be a Maxwell.
"You are……."
The long-haired swimmer felt a slight shiver for he was still in his speedo swimsuit, topped with a light jacket. He took a good look at Mr. Yuy and all he could think was that he would not be able to see tomorrow's sunrise….. Duo glanced at the pool quickly and at a spur of moment, he thought about jumping into the water for he doubted that Mr. Yuy would waste his nice suit on him………
"You are ……Heero's friend?"
All the tension suddenly withered away as Duo did not find hostility in the tone. "Yeah…. I guess so…….." Duo strained a smile as he secretly prayed.
Could he be so lucky that Mr. Yuy did not make the connection and realize his true identity?
Mr. Yuy knotted his eyebrows together, the gold metal dangling between his fingers. "But I thought Heero said you are a basketball player……"
Duo wanted to dig and hide in a hole at this very moment. "Yeah… part time basketball and part time swimming ya know?" Duo let out a nervous laugh, the statement was a very stretched truth.
Mr. Yuy squinted his eyes slightly and Duo could tell that he was trying to remember something. Duo sincerely prayed that he would not remember.
"Well…." Suddenly, to Duo's delight, the confusion on Mr. Yuy's face faded and instead he gave him a very encouragingly light smile. He put the gold medal around Duo's neck. "Congratulation, Duo. Your part time swimming was certainly top notch."
Duo smiled as Mr. Yuy gave him a pat on the back. The longhaired swimmer knew that he would see the sunrise tomorrow. And he would definitely savor it with Heero by his side…..
Now…. Where the fuck was that jerk?
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He could still remember the way the water stung his skin.
"You killed Noin."
Though it was so many years ago, Heero could still recollect the coldness of the sea. He could still remember the waves pounding at him without mercy.
"IT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN THAT WAY!!!"
But the strange thing was, Heero remembered that he was not afraid.
"You had manipulated her. You led to her death. And I was the medium."
He was not afraid of what would have become of him when he sunk beneath the waves for he had learned that death was only an inevitable end of a human's journey.
"SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU THAT HEERO DID NOT LOVE YOU!!! WHY DO YOU LOVE A MAN WHO COULD NOT RETURN THE FEELING!!"
His best teacher, his grandfather, had taught him that. Those old, lifeless vacant eyes had told him that no matter how much one cared, death was something that no one could escape from.
"Go, Relena. I don't want to see you."
The fact that you cared so much for that person would not prevent death's claim.
"WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SHUT ME AWAY? WHY DO YOU SEEK COMFORT IN HIM AND NOT ME? I AM YOUR SISTER!!! THE SAME BLOOD RUN THROUGH OUR VEINS!"
That's why Heero never bothered to interact with anyone but to live off his thirst for revenge for his grandfather. In some strange ironic sense, his desire to compete with Duo on every level had sustained and maintained his bare interest in the living.
"I am not like you, Relena. The same blood run in our bodies but I am not like you. I will never be like you. Father knows it. I will never be a diplomat like he wanted me to be."
But that rivalry with Duo was over now. And finally, for the first time, he came to realize that the same feeling, which he had for his grandfather so many years ago, had emerged again.
"Oniichan……"
Except, this time, the feeling was so much stronger than before.
"Can you understand living in a family and feel like an outcast and a failure? Have you ever seen Father's disappointed eyes when I could not even make a lively conversation with that goddamn son of some high political figure?"
The feeling grew with each passing day. It expanded without limit and boundary.
""Oniichan….."
The worship. The caring. The sacrifice. The affection.
"HOW CAN YOU UNDERSTAND WHEN IT COMES SO NATURALLY TO YOU?"
And this feeling made Heero shivered with fear.
"Oniichan….."
Because love also accompanied sorrow.
"How can you, oh the perfect Peacecraft, possibly understand how I feel? When I live constantly under the disappointment of Father and Mother? When I feel I am not even a Peacecraft?"
The end of the journey of love was the sense of abandonment.
"You are wrong… oniichan……"
His grandfather died despite his affection toward the old man.
"That's why I hate you, my beloved sister, when you are everything that I am supposed to be. And I hate you even more for trying to rub me of Heero…. when you pushed him off the yacht and had he almost drowned and then pretended like you saved him….. Why did you think I swim? Why did you think I practice so hard in the pool every day? God damn you, Relena."
Noin died against everyone's wish.
"BUT I DID NOT PUSH HIM!!! I SAVED HIM BECAUSE I KNOW HE IS EVERYTHING TO YOU!!! I love you, oniichan. Can't you see? Everything I did, I did to get your attention. You are my only brother….."
Because life came so fragile and cheap, what was to prevent from death to rip Duo away and subject him again to that awful feeling of abandonment? He had a chance to avoid all of these.
"Lies, Relena. Always lies."
He should have drowned that day and ended it all.
"It was all your fault!!!" The blonde haired girl suddenly turned, her eyes furiously staring at him. "You should have died that night!!! I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU DROWNED!!!"
Heero Yuy locked his eyes with the girl and really looked at the girl for the first time since she had stepped into the room. Her words imprinted in his mind, echoing his same words.
"Ninmu Ryogai." Heero gave the affirmative.
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"Er. Mr. Yuy?" Duo called out as he chased after Mr. Yuy into the parking lot. The ceremony was over half an hour ago and Duo had to pack up his stuff really face and raced out to find Heero's father.
Mr. Yuy was ready to step into his Mercedes but heard the calling and turned.
"Do you, er, know where Heero was?" Duo asked, still trying to catch up with his breath.
"You have not heard?"
Duo's heart cringed. He had a bad feeling about this. All of the worst scenarios flashed in his mind.
"Heero is in the hospital, visiting Millard. There was an unfortunate traffic accident." After seemed like eternity, Mr. Yuy finally said.
Heero was okay……
Duo exhaled, relaxing visibly. "Thank you, Mr. Yuy. Do you know what hospital he went to?"
"The Colony Hospital." Mr. Yuy replied. "I am just on my way there, I can give you a lift if you'd like."
"That will be way cool, Mr. Yuy!…..I mean… if it's not too much trouble….." Duo blushed slightly as he realized that he was being just a little bit too eager.
Mr. Yuy only lifted the corner of his mouth slightly but said nothing. He motioned Duo to come sit in the passenger's seat.
Duo was delighted. He ran around the car. Just as he was opening the passenger door, he heard Quatre's calling. Duo turned around, spotting his friends across the parking lot. He waved, indicating that he had heard them. Duo noticed that Wufei had finally appeared. And Duo smirked as he saw Meiran walking next to him very closely. "Yo Wufie!!!" Duo's grin became wider as he shouted. "When are you going to mail out the wedding invitations?"
"God Damn you, Maxwell!!! Shut your big mouth!"
Duo laughed, even from far away, he could see how red Wufei's neck was. The past few days had been so intense that Duo almost forgot how fun it was to tease Wufei…….
"Maxwell?"
Smile froze on his face as Duo swirled around, facing the astonished Mr. Yuy. Duo could see that the friendly gesture was gone.
"Maxwell?"
This was not happening. Duo blinked, wishing that this were only a dream. How stupid was he to forget that Mr. Yuy was right there?!!! He could see that it had all clicked together in Mr. Yuy's mind.
"You are a Maxwell?!!"
Shit.
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TBC