Escapades of Love
Chapter 3
The Desires and Insecurities of Our Lives
By MG
Don't own SM.
Okay, this is the next book in my series Book on Love. The series goes as
follows
When Memories Fail (Complete) (Present)
Escapades of Love: An Interlude (Now Complete)(Present)
Before the Love Was Lost (Not started yet) (Past)
Where the Love Began (Incomplete) (Past)
Escapades of Love: An Interlude 2 (Not started yet) (Present)
Love Continued Through Time (continuation of the above story)
"She's so small." He smiled as he lifted small lady out of her incubator
like crib and walked over to where Serena sat in a wheelchair nearby.
"I know." She smiled as she looked up at Small lady's small pink yellow
body wrapped up in a soft light green blanket that was lined with a blue
light hooked up to a long cord. "What did Ami say this blue light thing
would do again?"
"Get her normal color back---according to Ami Small Lady's too yellow."
"Oh." She paused. "Did—did she look that way when she came out?"
"Oddly, no." He replied. "But Ami said that the babies don't always look
yellow as soon as they come out." He paused. "And before you ask, Ami
has not okayed you to be walking yet." He chuckled as he rocked Small
lady in his arms, bright red eyes starring up at him.
"What does Ami know?" She crossed her arms, wincing at the pain she
felt. "I'm fit to be running down the hallway at least!"
"I know honey, but humor me and stay off your feet until Ami says
otherwise." He handed her the baby and then helped her to remove the
top of her gown.
"Whatever you say your highness." She mocked.
"Usagi…" He admonished.
"What?" She replied with a detached face as she looked up at him and
then down at Small lady once more.
"Promise me you won't overexert yourself." He began. "You gave us
enough of a scare already, if something else happens to you, I am sure
that the kingdom will fall to anyone whom comes up against it."
"Oh yes, we MUST protect the 'mighty' kingdom."
"Who says I was trying to protect the kingdom?" He smirked. "My thing is
that if anything happened to you, I'd let the kingdom fall cause I wouldn't
care." She sighed as she got Small Lady to latch onto her breast and
begin to suckle; she clenched her fingers in pain as she began to feel the
onslaught of her uterus contracting so that it would be back to normal
size again.
"I can't wait to have my body back." Small Lady quietly fed with closed
eyes; Serena placed her finger in her grasp. "I hate that someone has to
take my bath every morning, I hate that I can't take two steps by
myself—I can't even hug my own son!" She cried. Darien kneeled slowly
down on the floor next to her and wiped her tears with his thumbs; she
seemed to be prone to a lot of these mood swings lately. "Here Small lady
has to stay in this clinic because she was born to early and I can't even
take care of her…Selene, what kind of mother am I?"
"Hey sweetheart, don't cry---you'll be back on your feet before you know
it and you won't even remember being confined to this wheelchair."
"I hope so." She looked away.
"Besides, Ami says that your mood affects your milk…you could make
Small Lady get sick."
"I know, I know." She murmured, heaving in a great gasp of air.
"Hey, in a couple of days you'll begin your physical therapy…I'm sure
Michelle can get you back to normal in no time."
"Two weeks." She firmly replied.
"Usagi…don't you think-"
"I have advanced healing properties, I can be better in two weeks."
"You just broke your hip g'damnit!" He frustratingly replied.
"I'm not just some weak Earthling okay." She bit her lip when the words
came out. "I didn't mean that." He looked away.
"Yes you did." He sighed. "And hey, it's true, my planet is the weakest in
the solar system, in fact we have the least advanced everything..." He
paused and then continued firmly. "But that doesn't mean that I don't
know when a woman's in pain. And it doesn't mean that I don't know
when she's overexerting herself…I have always found your beliefs about
pain rather obscure. Your people believe that it is just a state of mind
that the body can conquer…that is good…but I also believe that it is
something that should be relieved in order for healing to take place. If
you overexert yourself now, Selene…what if something happens to you?"
"I have two weeks until it is time for me to train the four inners." She
looked down at Small lady. "I will be ready."
"Mmm." Darien moaned in contentment as he turned his head to the
side. "This is the best part of training." He smiled blissfully.
"I know what you mean." Jerrid groaned as his muscle tensed up a bit
before relaxing. He chuckled as he looked at the rapture on Darien's face
as the masseuse started work on some of the muscles in his back. He
watched, as Darien's smile grew distant. "What are you thinking about?"
He switched to Japanese, since the women massaging them were
Lunarian, they couldn't understand.
"I can't believe the life I used to live before this…" He paused. "On Earth,
in our previous timeline, I used to have sex with my masseuses."
"Don't let Usagi hear you saying that, cause then both of us will never be
allowed over here again." He chuckled. "It's so odd knowing what had
occurred and what people believe had occurred…it feels weird having
memories of both times."
"I know." Darien chuckled. "But it doesn't matter anyway, I'm not a free
man…I have one woman to please and I'm---satisfied---with that." He
sighed.
"Then why the sigh?" Jerrid queried.
"Cause I want her so much but I can't have her."
"Right…the whole just had a baby thing." He chuckled.
"No, the whole just had a baby thing and the whole hip broken thing,
and the can't even walk thing." He sighed. "And sometimes I have this
feeling that she's avoiding me…"
"How can a woman who can not even walk…avoid you?" He lifted a brow.
"That's just the thing…I don't know…it's like…when I ask to help her
with anything she always tells me that it's fine, or it's okay…or that she's
got it or that 'Naru' can help her."
"Maybe she just doesn't want to bother you too much…or maybe she
actually does have it and you're overexagerrating?" He paused. "I
remember when Regina had Helios…she told me that I was a pain in the
ass." He laughed.
"Overexagerrating or not, I would like to think that in my wife's time of
need that I can be the one to assist her and not always her servant." He
sighed. "It seems like every time I get to the room for the night she's
always already in bed."
"So…"
"For just once I'd like to believe that she needs me at least a little
bit…especially after what happened…I never should have gone for a walk
that day."
"That's where this is coming from." Jerrid lamented. "Really Darien, you
have to stop blaming yourself for Usagi's accident…she's fine now and so
is the baby…that's what's important."
"Perhaps…my other concern is that she may be pushing herself to do
what she is not capable of as of yet."
"As in…"
"She starts her therapy today…she wants to be able to walk in two
weeks."
Droplets of sweat slid down her back, soaking her white T-shirt, her face
scrunched haggardly, hair stringy and out of place as legs clad in track
pants struggled to keep her balance over the mat. Small burning red
hands gripped the two horizontally placed iron holding poles on either
side of her body, two inches away, with each step she whimpered in pain.
"It hurts." She cried as she took another wayward step on the mat below
her.
"I know it hurts Usagi…but if you want to walk again, we have to do
this." Michelle replied firmly, passing her hand through her short-
cropped blonde hair.
"Slave driver." Serena muttered as she paused for a moment to gather
her barings before continuing.
"Oh for Selene's sake, the bars are only four feet long! Are you telling me
you can't take five g'damn steps to get from one point to the next?" She
pressed.
"Look all right?" Serena huffed as she turned a red angry face towards
her. "You didn't break your hip four days ago only to have to give birth
afterwards followed by surgery with no pain medication so don't give me
this bullshit." She wasn't a cursing person, but the pain…
"First of all, you're the one who asked me to help you get back into shape
today. If you didn't think you could do it then you shouldn't have called
me down here. Secondly, stop handing 'me' the bullshit." She replied
with a rigid face. "You're an Eternal Soldier, a warrior whom believes
above all that pain is just a state of mind." She paused. "Act like it."
"Michelle that's enough, perhaps you should lay off her highness for
today." Galen interrupted when he came upon them in the training room
after Darien insisted that they stop by before a meeting that he needed to
attend. He wasn't going to say anything, but Darien had come in two
steps behind him with looks that could kill when he heard Michelle's
harsh words.
"No Galen." Serena replied as she took another step. "She's right…I've
been through much worse than this…I can do it."
"Are you sure Usagi? You don't have to-"
"G'damnit!" She screamed, interrupting Darien, not giving him the
chance to continue. "If anyone else takes one more step closer to me…"
She challenged before looking towards Michelle who stood at the other
side of the bars with a fierce look. The two men stood stock still as
Serena continued to walk on shaky legs, going the last few steps before
she reached the other side. When she made it, she collapsed onto the
mat with tears of pain in her eyes. Darien walked out of the room
infuriated, slamming the door behind him.
She sat still, breathing softly, as Naru dipped the sponge into the basin
before bringing it to her back, humming all the while. She was seated in
a tub of water with soft foam like material covering the hard porcelain
walls for the comfort as her servant helped her to take her bath. There
was a soft knock on the door before it creaked open.
"Your highness." Naru stopped what she was doing before standing up to
bow.
"Let's have none of that Naru." Darien replied. "I'm here on unofficial
business."
"Then I shall step out for your privacy."
"It's okay Naru, I'm sure it's nothing you can't stick around for…besides,
I just wanna get out of this bath as soon as possible before I turn into a
prune." Serena smiled.
"I could finish your bath." Darien interrupted. "And if she wants, Naru
could retire early for the night as I could help you with your dressings as
well."
"It's all right darling, I'm sure you had a long day…why don't you go to
the guest bathrooms so that you could get yourself ready for bed? Then
we'll both be done and we could talk." There was a lot to be said about
what happened earlier.
"Are you sure…if you're tired Naru..." Serena gave Naru a pleading look
so that he couldn't see.
"It's fine your highness…I am as awake as the night owl." Naru smiled as
Serena mouthed her a thank-you.
"Very well then…" Darien sighed, recognizing a dismissal when he heard
one. "I'll see you in bed sweetheart…Naru." He turned and left the room,
his haggard appearance not escaping Naru's eyes, nor the sound of
Serena suspiring when he had gone. She decided that she would have to
question her mistress about something that had been on her mind for
quiet sometime. She picked up the sponge and continued to finish the
bath before speaking.
"M'lady-"
"Usagi." Serena smiled as she turned towards her.
"Usagi." She began. "May I ask of you something?"
"Certainly."
"Why is it that every time your husband offers to assist you, you evade
him? I know that it is not my position to say…but I worry that it may be
distressing him." Serena sighed as she turned towards her childhood
friend.
"Enough of the formalities Naru really, we're alone now."
"Yes we are, and you're skirtin' around the question." Naru replied
seriously.
"I just know that he's had a long day and I want him to rest is all."
"Usagi?" Naru replied with the raise of her brow.
"What?"
"That is not the truth, you and I both know it." She sighed again as she
looked down into the water at her abdomen.
"He hasn't seen the scar yet." She murmured softly as she lay her head
down on the side of the tub, wincing at the pain she felt with that
movement. With her fingers she blindly caressed the long jagged
disfigurement that lay nestled horizontally over the lower section of her
abdomen. "It's so ugly…and I can't heal it Naru." She cried. "I tried to
heal it but I can't…and neither can Minako…no one can…I don't want
him to see it."
"Oh Usa."
"Maybe when I get better, when I can use my powers fully…"
"I don't think his highness would care about your scar Serena."
"Have you looked at it lately?" She replied with wide eyes. "It's big and
ugly and Selene Naru!" Water splashed to the floor when she hit her
hand down in it. "Do you know what Darien told me the other day? He
said that when he first saw me, he thought that I was the most beautiful
woman he had ever met…perfect in every way." She murmured.
"Well…not so perfect anymore…he's gonna take one look at this scar and
his perfect image will be destroyed."
"Do you really see your scar as a sign of imperfection…excuse me, but
the Usagi I knew a long time ago would have thought that was a vain
idea."
"Well she's gone…she's been replaced with a married woman with kids
and a husband whom adored her because her body was perfect." She
paused. "He's not going to want me when he sees this big ugly scar that I
have."
"Usa…" Naru sighed. "His highness is a man whom loves you very much,
eventually, in a couple of weeks, when you get well enough, even if you
can't heal it, you won't be able to deny his needs…what'll you do then?"
"I don't know Naru…I don't know."
"Well you look like a bitter old man, what's the matter with you?" Darien
looked up from his desk after he had finished signing a document to see
Malachite standing before him, Jedite standing to stare out the window.
As usual they had attempted to creep stealthily up on him. He ignored
his comment, bending back his head and moving to another document to
commence reading.
"Touché." He heard Jedite chuckle. "What's wrong Endy, sex life not all
it's cracked up to be?"
"Fuck off Jedite." He bit before signing the next document and moving on
to a new one.
"I guess you win the bet on that one Jed, I didn't think you could have
nailed it any closer." Malachite replied with a smile. "What's the matter
Endymion? I thought you guys would be doing the bunny hop around
the castle by now."
"Do the words disabled wife mean anything to you?" Darien replied in an
acid tone.
"Disabled huh?" Malachite arched his brow in confusion. "Wouldn't have
known with her starting to train the senshi and all."
Over twenty guards were stationed down the long hallway that led to a
single room with two large heavy oak doors and golden handles. All stood
still as was expected per protocol until they were relieved of duty. All
turned to their immediate right as if cracked by a whip at the sound of a
deep roaring voice.
"She's what???" The door suddenly cracked open fiercely and banged
against the wall. The guards turned immediately to look straight ahead
once more and inwardly cringed as they watched their king stride fiercely
down the hallway, his off the shoulder royal blue cape fluttering
somewhat behind him, knee high black boots clomping against the
marble floor, the Kings of Venus and Mars in his wake.
"Endymion, calm down." Malachite managed when he finally caught up
with him. Darien turned to give him a piercing look; he immediately
retracted his hand. "Her highness is very capable and can take care-"
"I am very well aware of what her 'highness' can and can not do." He
replied before turning down a hallway that would lead to the senshi
training grounds.
"Before we begin, I have to say that I was very disgusted with the way
you fought while we were at Viladi's underground layer. You should
never, ever fight out of pure emotion, it clouds your judgment, and
makes you unable to think clearly. Don't fight for pure love, or pure
hate." Serena continued as she walked around in front of the senshi,
using only a small metal rod for support. She sensed his presence only
moments before he entered, the doors to the training grounds opening
with a bang as they slammed against the walls.
"Everyone, get the fuck out!" Darien replied angrily when he entered the
room. He watched as most of the senshi began to rise from where they
had been seated on the floor mats before her and exit the room; Mars
hesitated at his tone. "I didn't ask Lady Mars, that's a fucking order." She
stood her ground between husband and wife, more stubborn than the
other senshi.
"It's okay Rei." Serena smiled, placing her hand on her shoulder. "Relax."
She slackened her stance before exiting the same way the other senshi
had before her.
"What the fuck are you doing?" He vented.
"Stop babying me, I am not a child that you can talk down to." She
crossed her arms over her chest in heated defiance.
"Selene! It's only been two fucking weeks Serena! Two g'damn FUCKING-"
"Watch your mouth." She interrupted sharply. "It isn't proper of a king to
speak with those words and I shall not have my children repeating
them."
"Stop talking to me as if I am a stranger."
"When you stop treating me like your child, I'll stop talking to you like a
stranger." He watched as she walked slowly away from him with
purposeful and steady movements to stand before the tall ceiling high
window; she let out a breath before leaning against it. This was one of
the reasons why he had married this woman; she was the only one whom
could handle him in moments like these. He sagged his shoulders; he
could never stay mad at her long.
"Why are you doing this?" He whispered, his voice strained.
"It's customary, it's tradition." She replied simply.
"I shall never be used to the customs and traditions of your people." He
sighed.
"My people are your people Endymion---you need to wake up and realize
that."
"Does that make my people your people?"
"Yes." She paused before looking at him. She was breathtaking; he
turned away. "That's what happens when two people get married."
"Then tell me wife," he began. "Why is it that I am constantly expected to
follow the customs and the traditions of your people, but you are never
willing to understand the beliefs of my own."
"It is one thing to take into consideration a belief, but a royal custom
must be followed."
"'Must' be?" He crossed his arms as he walked over to the window and
leant next to her. "Last time I checked, we were the ones who made royal
customs."
"Not like this…this is something that can not change Darien, it
supercedes you, and it supercedes me. You have to understand…I must
do this." She raised her hand to his cheek and he kissed her palm. "I
thought we discussed this---you agreed-"
"It still hurts." He whispered as he looked up to her with deep glazed
eyes, as if in a trance; she dropped her hand to her side and turned back
towards the window. "I still remember what it was like to see you in so
much pain and not be able to do anything---your screams." He shook his
head of the memory.
"I'm sorry you had to see that." She whispered.
"I should have stayed home that day." His voice was strained as he
whispered the words.
"Stop dwelling on moments in time that can not be changed...I do not
blame you, you know that…isn't that what matters?" She paused. "My
mother always told me that our trials only make us stronger." She placed
her hand over the warm glass and turned to look outside. "Every senshi
has to be trained to use her powers to protect her home planet, but she
must also be trained to be just as good without them...the inner senshi
have not attained that level as have I and the outers. We were trained by
my mother a long time ago when I was sixteen."
"Then why must you train them now?" He looked towards her and his
mind clouded. "Why not wait until Small Lady is sixteen?"
"Now is their time, when the children of the outers grow older and our
daughter is sixteen, the cycle for them will continue. Truly, the queens
should have been trained long ago, but things did not allow for that.
Though our time did change because of my union with myself, unlike
everything else that can be glossed over, becoming an Eternal Senshi is
something that surpasses time. Time can not give them that honor on a
silver platter without them doing the work." She could feel him walk
closer to her until they were breaths apart; she turned her head.
"I understand." He murmured against her lips. "I've missed you, you
know." Her heart skipped a beat; she knew what those words meant. Her
ears perked up when she heard the sound of crying outside the doors.
"Small Lady." She stepped away from him and walked to the doors. He
swallowed the lump in his throat at being so close to her before following
in her wake. When she opened the doors, Naru was standing there with
Small Lady in her arms.
"Honestly your highness, I do not know why you insist upon
breastfeeding on your own, I surely could send for a wetnurse to tend to
these matters." Naru replied as she handed her the wailing child, her
tone calming down almost immediately as she recognized her mother.
"I like that she only comes to me for nourishment. I like that I fulfill her."
Serena smiled as she cooed at her. "Shhh...don't cry." She rocked her in
her arms whilst humming a soft tune, before walking across the room
and sitting down in a chair. Both Darien and Naru followed her, Darien
taking a chair to sit across from her attentively.
"If you need anything." Serena shooed her away with a smile before
lifting her shirt and bra, pulling out her breast, and guiding it to Small
Lady's mouth.
"I will call you when I am finished." Naru left the two of them alone, the
sound of suckling echoing throughout the room.
"It's times like this that I feel so calm---I forget that there are
responsibilities outside these walls." Darien began as he looked over the
two. "It is also in times like these that I look and you and see you in a
different light," he paused to reach out a hand and place it on her cheek,
his thumb tracing her lips. She gasped as she parted them; there was a
deep passion in his eyes as he said those words---a deep desire. "More
beautiful than ever---and I can't believe that I almost lost you." There
was a knock on the door and he sighed. "And then there is always
someone there to pull me from my comfort zone." She heaved a deep
breath as he stood up and walked to the door, cracking it open slightly.
"Yes...tell him I will be in, in a moment." He closed the door slightly and
walked towards her. "I have a meeting to attend, but I will see you
tonight." He placed a light butterfly kiss on her lips. She shivered
inwardly as he left; there was a sure promise in his words. The time she
had dreaded had come.
"Okay," was all she could manage.
Under Naru's watchful eye, she carefully maneuvered herself into the tub
filled to the brim in water and suds until she was completely submerged.
She had rushed over to her room later that evening to take her bath a bit
early, she didn't want him to catch her there this time. She immediately
grabbed for the sponge and began to wipe herself down when she heard
the door open.
"Naru, you're dismissed." She froze when she heard those words; he was
early. Her husband was not going to take no for an answer tonight,
especially with the big show she had made about being able to train the
senshi; if she could do that, she was definitely capable of doing other
things. For the second time that day, Naru walked out the room to leave
the two of them alone. Serena didn't dare turn to look at him as she
heard the door close and lock followed by the sounds of the ruffling of
clothes as they fell to the floor.
"What...what are you doing here?" She tried to sound nonchalant, she
knew she was failing miserably.
"I'm sorry, am I lost? I thought this was my bathroom as well?" It was
more of a statement than a question.
"You know what I mean...I thought you had some more meetings to
attend." She amended.
"Funny thing, those meetings suddenly got canceled. As for what exactly
I'm doing here, I'm going to share a bath with my wife if that is alright
with you, it's a tradition that has continued since the dawn of time." He
paused. "If this is a new custom for your people, perhaps your people
should converse with my people." She could feel him stepping in behind
her, she moved up a bit to give him space. "It falls somewhere along that
custom of taking care of your wife when she is ill." She licked her lips
before turning to him; hopefully the suds would hide her from mid-waist
down. She heaved a deep breath for the second time as she looked at
him; she'd forgotten just how beautiful he was. "Selene, I have missed
you...come here." She moved slowly through the water to situate herself
between his legs, there was no mistaking his desire for her now. She
watched mutely as he reached for the sponge and dipped it in the water
before washing her down with it. He moved with slow, easy, and
tantalizing strokes, washing down her sides and then her front without
touching her. A moan escaped her lips and she closed her eyes. "Don't
close your eyes, I miss what they look like when we're together like this."
She opened them slowly before taking the sponge away from his hands.
"Let me." She whispered, she didn't want him to search for too long,
eventually he would find what she was trying to hide. She washed his
arms slowly and then trailed the sponge down his stomach. He lay back
against the edge, hungry eyes never tearing away from her.
"Please." He murmured huskily. With skillful hands she trailed over the
lower part of him; he threw his head back in rapture, his hands gripping
the rims of the tub, his knuckles turning white. She pleasured him for
some time before without warning he suddenly stilled her hands and
pulled her close to him. He cupped her face in his hand and kissed her,
his other hand cupping her backside and lifting her up before reaching
between them to maneuver his manhood until he was inside her, making
her whimper as he thrust deep within. "Are your people familiar with this
custom?" He whispered darkly against her ear
"Very familiar." She whispered back brokenly.
"I miss this most of all." He began. "Being so deep inside you that Selene
Usako; you make me so hot and bothered." His lips moved over her neck,
he groaned as she moved against him. "All I can think about is taking
you in our bed and making love to you over and over again."
"Darien." She whimpered. He caught her mouth and kissed her
repeatedly, moving with her until they were riding on a cloud so high
that she thought she would never come down.
"Let's go to bed." He whispered after they had rested for a moment. He
lifted her from over him and stood from the water, already stepping out.
"Do you need me to assist you?"
"No---I'm-I'm fine." Her lips quivered as she sat there for a while,
watching as he grabbed for a towel off the rack nearby, and wrapped it
around his waist. She quickly stood, making for a towel she had placed
on the other side of the tub, near the edge; she wrapped it around her
body just before he turned around, impulsively lifting her into his arms
right out of the tub. "I can walk." She squealed.
"I know, but I'd much rather carry you." He smiled as he walked into
their bedroom, making his way towards the bed. "I haven't done this in a
while." He deposited her on the bed, blocking her off with his arms when
she would have moved away. "Now what's wrong?" He inquired firmly.
"N-nothing…actually, I'm-I'm tired." She lied, looking towards his chest.
"Tired?" He moved her chin up with a finger so that she was facing him.
"I don't believe you."
"It's---it's been a long day." She murmured, her arm clutching the towel
around her body. "I-I have to get up early tomorrow." When she made an
attempt to arise he pushed her gently back down to the bed.
"You're stuttering." He pointed out.
"N-no, I'm not!" She replied fiercely, eyes glazing over.
"Speak to me, what's wrong?" He murmured. "Do…do you not find me
appealing…don't I please you…Usako?"
"There's nothing wrong with you." She shook her head vibrantly.
"Then help me to understand." He paused, looking away unsure. "Why
does my wife not want to make love to me?" He licked dry lips when she
gave no answer. "Selene knows that all I can think about all day,
everyday…is you. All I can think about is that moment when we can be
together. All I've been thinking about is what it would be like to make
love to you again…but ever since…ever since you had Small Lady…you
haven't shown any interest in that at all."
"I'm sorry…if that's what you think…but I-I really am tired." She lied
again, not knowing how to find a better answer.
"Tired?" He narrowed disbelieving eyes as he looked upon the way in
which she was clutching the towel to her body; his mind drew him wild
and for some reason he felt as if the source was beneath his eyes. She
followed his line of sight and knew almost at once what he was about to
do. He reached for the towel to pull it roughly from her grasp.
"N-no! Don't!" She cried. Her protective barrier was off her body in
seconds and she turned away from him, now sobbing uncontrollably into
the pillow beneath her head. His eyes softened when he saw the scar,
suddenly understanding what had been going on in their bedrooms for
months now, why she had been hiding from him. He traced the long soft
yet jagged scar with his finger before turning her face to look at him.
"Do you think I'm that vain, Usako?" When she said nothing he leant
over and began planting long lingering kisses all along it's length. "You'll
always be beautiful to me." He paused in between each kiss. "Because of
who you are…the way you care for my children, our children…I couldn't
find any woman more beautiful…more attractive…more sexy." She sat up
abruptly at his words, placing her fingers over lips when he became
alarmed.
"Do you mean that baby?" She whispered unsure, her lips trembling.
"Of course I mean that!" He murmured back adamantly. "You're the only
woman that I've ever-" He looked away and she stared at him in shock.
"Endymion?" She queried, unsure if what she was hearing was really
what she was hearing.
"It's easy to believe rumors---isn't it?" He replied.
"Darien…are you saying that I…that I'm your---all that time I thought"
"That I had been with women before you?" He paused. "Sometimes
knowing of the two timelines can be so confusing…I know that in that
time where we were separated and expected to find one another again,
that you were my first, but in between I had been with others…" He
paused. "In this timeline I have been with no other but you."
"I didn't think that I-I…" She bowed her head shyly, her fingers dawdling
as she drew mindless patterns on the bed sheets. "When I learned the
history of Earth as part of my lessons, I was told that---that most kings
or princes took many women to their bed before they married…that the
they…they used their position as---w-well" She stuttered, unable to say
completely what was on her mind
"Leverage, their position of power to have power over women? Well, I'm
telling you---" He began as he took her chin in the palm of her hand and
turned her head to face him. "That there has been no other woman…my
mother brought me up to respect them---not to toy with them…in the
previous timeline however, after I lost you, lost my memory of you…I'm
sorry---but I lost myself…that was why there had been others."
"I'm sorry as well…" She whispered guiltily. "I've shut you out when I
should have just told you what was wrong…and I'm sorry that I assumed
the worst in you." There was a moment of strained silence before he slid
off the bed and walked over to the nightstand next to it.
"I got you something." He opened the drawer and pulled out a flat black
velvet square box. "When I saw it, I knew that I wanted to see you in it."
He stood before her at the side of the bed and handed her the box,
watching for the expression on her face as she opened it; he wasn't
disappointed. She gasped; her mouth parted as she lifted the sparkling
blue diamond chain from it's nestled place in the box.
"It's beautiful." She smiled as she leaned over to kiss him on the cheek.
She unclasped it before handing it to him and turning around. "Put it on
for me." He chuckled as she lifted her hair out the way for him and tilted
her head forward.
"It's not a necklace Usako." He replied huskily into her ear as he fit the
chain snuggly around her abdomen so that it slid down right above her
hips. "And I want you to only wear it for me." He kissed her shoulder
before trailing light kisses all up and down her neck. "Selene, turn
around for me baby. I bet it makes you look so sexy." Smiling shyly she
turned around. He admired it on her with soft eyes and watched as with
her head bowed, she pulled at the towel wrapped tightly around his waist
and encircled her legs lightly around his hips. He grasped her by her rear
and squeezed before bringing her to the edge of the bed and in close
contact with him. His eyes glazed dangerously as she glowed a brilliant
white moments before lying back on the bed and raising her legs higher
so that they lay over his arms on either side of him. He arched his brow.
"This is new."
"As much as I love having your children, it's too soon right now." She
explained.
"That's not what I was talking about." He chuckled as he eased his way
in slowly, experimenting with this new position that they had never tried
before.
"Oh—the position?" She half smiled half moaned. "I-I got it from a
book…do you mind?"
"No." He shut his eyes tightly. "But I must remember to thank the gods
you know how to read." He groaned.
"It says that it---it will allow for a much deeper penetration---as well as
somewhat of a different feeling." She watched as he nearly choked when
he started pulling back; she had squeezed and pulled on him in a way
that he had never felt before.
"G'damnit! What the fuck was that!" He couldn't help but let the words
slip, his wife glaring at him before giggling slightly. "Sorry." He
apologized; he knew she didn't like him using those words, especially
when they were making love.
"It's okay…I know I alarmed you." She smiled, another moan escaping
her lips as he pushed back in slowly again. "It's called a kegel exercise."
"Sh-g'd-fu…oh Selene!" He curved his words this time, literally biting his
tongue as he pulled out of her again. "Kegel what?" She laughed.
"Ami told me about it…" She moaned. "For women---whom have
had…children…you basically learn…about how to contract…and
relax…the muscle." She paused with each movement. "It helps to
keep…our vaginal walls tight so…so that we can push good…with each
labor…Of course," she smiled when he groaned, his face a look of tight
repressed agony. "It has its unlabeled uses…the longer you hold it…the
tighter…you bec-"
"No shhhh-fu-g'd…Selene-----" He leaned forward quickly and kissed her,
deciding to do something else with their mouths other than talk. She
hugged him to her closely with her arms and legs as he lost control,
moving swiftly in her and shuddering his release. She wrapped her arms
tightly around his body as he continued to convulse. When he had
finished he lay his head next to hers on the bed, panting into her neck,
his body now damp and moist with sweat. "You are marvelous." He
commented huskily.
"I know." She giggled playfully as she pushed him back so that he lay
there with her atop him. She whispered in his ear. "I love you." She
murmured before kissing him there and pulling on his lobe with her
teeth and tongue. "And there's nothing I want more right now…than to
make love to you."
"I return the sentiments, really I do love…but give a man five minutes to
recuperate greedy woman!" He laughed.
"No!" She smiled triumphantly as she sat up in a straddling position.
"Kitten, you are surely a hellcat in bed."
"What do you expect? I'm married to a king with power, he has to get fed
energy from somewhere."
"You're right." His hand trailed over the chain that still lie over her waist.
"But for some reason this exchange seems to be taking more energy from
me than it is giving."
"But imagine my love! You'll feel very energetic, sated, and happy in the
morning!" Her eyes sparkled and he couldn't help but laugh at her
enthusiasm.
"Yeah, after a full day's rest…and I don't even have a full day to rest."
"Well…" She smiled leeringly as she leaned over to plant a kiss on his
jugular. "Like you said earlier, you're the king, don't you hold the power
to cancel a silly meeting." He groaned as she began moving her lips down
slowly, purposefully.
"I'll decide that tomorrow." He bit the side of his lips as she kissed each
nipple, nipping at it with her teeth, pulling it with her tongue before
moving lower still. He groaned, tilting his head back and gripping the
sheets. "I'm going to stop talking now, do not be alarmed, but please do
continue." She laughed before moving her hair aside so she could get a
good look at him. He was definitely male. With careful movements, she
began planting kisses all down his length. His body jerked in response;
with her mouth she took him in.
"Usako. Usako. Usako." He moaned her name in agonizing rapture as
she moved up and down in slowly silky movements. She released him
when she felt him begin to twitch; using her hands to support her, she
sat atop him and grabbed his manhood, positioning herself to slide atop
him. He grabbed her by the hips when she would have started to move.
"No kegels this time." He licked sweaty lips. "It makes me come without
you." She nodded her head in understanding and closed her eyes when
he was fully inside her and with vigilant movements began to move
smoothly. She moaned when he brought idle fingers up to caress her
breasts, all the while whispering her name. Their passion escalated with
their tempo; he flipped her onto her back, burying his face in her neck as
he dug harder and deeper into her. He held her head in his hands,
fingers plunged deep into her white diamond hair. She wrapped her legs
around his waist, clutching him tautly. The words 'Oh Selene', and 'yes'
filtered amongst them as he drove deep into her with long hard strokes.
Sweaty palms clinged to sweaty skin as she dug her fingers into his back
in efforts to bring him closer to her, her nails scrapping his skin. Her
cries grew in volume as he went faster and faster, his heart pounding in
is chest. He paused when she came, her cry of his name long and loud,
squeezing him for an eternity before he finally joined her. His body went
rigid; he squeezed his eyes tight as he experienced the longest orgasm he
ever had.
He collapsed onto the bed next to her, his body partially over hers, his
manhood still inside her as his chest heaved from lack of Oxygen; he
hadn't wanted to let go of contact just yet. His face was turned towards
her, and he could hear her hard breathing next to him; she kissed his
shoulder, tasting his salty skin.
"That was beautiful…beloved." She smiled.
"No, you're beautiful."
"Now I really am tired." She laughed, eyes twinkling in the dim light.
"Now I believe you." He smiled.
"You think the guards outside the doors could hear me?" She wondered.
"Probably." He laughed.
"Good." She smiled. "I want them to know how great their king is in bed."
"Usako!" He whispered in mock shock as he pinched her backside.
"What?" She giggled.
"You're something else." He whispered.
"I know."
"Amazing."
"Those aren't the words that I wanted to hear." He chuckled deeply.
"I love you."
"That's the words." She smiled. "But, I love you more."
"I love you the most."
"My love for you is bigger than the moon…no the Earth!" She challenged.
"The Galaxy." He laughed.
"The universe! Ha!" She smiled in triumph at getting the last word, but
then he spoke.
"My love for you spans time."
"No fair!" She whined and he chuckled, pulling her thigh up close to his
body so that it wrapped lightly around him, his eyes starting to drift; he
pulled himself from being inside her.
"All's fair in love and sex my love." She giggled at his comment, her eyes
drooping.
"That's not how the saying goes."
"It goes how I say it goes." He whispered, sighing with contentment.
"Says who?" She yawned.
"Says me."
"Since when do you have the final say?"
"Since I'm the king."
"Bully."
"Brat."
"I love you."
"I love you more."
"Let's not start that again."
"G'nite love."
"G'nite baby." She sighed before closing her eyes with finality and drifting
to the land of slumber.
The end…for now
Finally!!! Another story complete! I know that it feels like I left their lives
hanging in the air, but I have to go on to the next book in the series now.
The one entitled 'Before the Love Was Lost'. For those of you whom
remember my story Beginnings, this is the revision. Of course, don't take
that the fact that it is a revision for granted. As you have seen from all
the other revisions I have made with this story, I change and add a lot of
things.
Mg
Tell me whatcha think. ;0)
Chapter 3
The Desires and Insecurities of Our Lives
By MG
Don't own SM.
Okay, this is the next book in my series Book on Love. The series goes as
follows
When Memories Fail (Complete) (Present)
Escapades of Love: An Interlude (Now Complete)(Present)
Before the Love Was Lost (Not started yet) (Past)
Where the Love Began (Incomplete) (Past)
Escapades of Love: An Interlude 2 (Not started yet) (Present)
Love Continued Through Time (continuation of the above story)
"She's so small." He smiled as he lifted small lady out of her incubator
like crib and walked over to where Serena sat in a wheelchair nearby.
"I know." She smiled as she looked up at Small lady's small pink yellow
body wrapped up in a soft light green blanket that was lined with a blue
light hooked up to a long cord. "What did Ami say this blue light thing
would do again?"
"Get her normal color back---according to Ami Small Lady's too yellow."
"Oh." She paused. "Did—did she look that way when she came out?"
"Oddly, no." He replied. "But Ami said that the babies don't always look
yellow as soon as they come out." He paused. "And before you ask, Ami
has not okayed you to be walking yet." He chuckled as he rocked Small
lady in his arms, bright red eyes starring up at him.
"What does Ami know?" She crossed her arms, wincing at the pain she
felt. "I'm fit to be running down the hallway at least!"
"I know honey, but humor me and stay off your feet until Ami says
otherwise." He handed her the baby and then helped her to remove the
top of her gown.
"Whatever you say your highness." She mocked.
"Usagi…" He admonished.
"What?" She replied with a detached face as she looked up at him and
then down at Small lady once more.
"Promise me you won't overexert yourself." He began. "You gave us
enough of a scare already, if something else happens to you, I am sure
that the kingdom will fall to anyone whom comes up against it."
"Oh yes, we MUST protect the 'mighty' kingdom."
"Who says I was trying to protect the kingdom?" He smirked. "My thing is
that if anything happened to you, I'd let the kingdom fall cause I wouldn't
care." She sighed as she got Small Lady to latch onto her breast and
begin to suckle; she clenched her fingers in pain as she began to feel the
onslaught of her uterus contracting so that it would be back to normal
size again.
"I can't wait to have my body back." Small Lady quietly fed with closed
eyes; Serena placed her finger in her grasp. "I hate that someone has to
take my bath every morning, I hate that I can't take two steps by
myself—I can't even hug my own son!" She cried. Darien kneeled slowly
down on the floor next to her and wiped her tears with his thumbs; she
seemed to be prone to a lot of these mood swings lately. "Here Small lady
has to stay in this clinic because she was born to early and I can't even
take care of her…Selene, what kind of mother am I?"
"Hey sweetheart, don't cry---you'll be back on your feet before you know
it and you won't even remember being confined to this wheelchair."
"I hope so." She looked away.
"Besides, Ami says that your mood affects your milk…you could make
Small Lady get sick."
"I know, I know." She murmured, heaving in a great gasp of air.
"Hey, in a couple of days you'll begin your physical therapy…I'm sure
Michelle can get you back to normal in no time."
"Two weeks." She firmly replied.
"Usagi…don't you think-"
"I have advanced healing properties, I can be better in two weeks."
"You just broke your hip g'damnit!" He frustratingly replied.
"I'm not just some weak Earthling okay." She bit her lip when the words
came out. "I didn't mean that." He looked away.
"Yes you did." He sighed. "And hey, it's true, my planet is the weakest in
the solar system, in fact we have the least advanced everything..." He
paused and then continued firmly. "But that doesn't mean that I don't
know when a woman's in pain. And it doesn't mean that I don't know
when she's overexerting herself…I have always found your beliefs about
pain rather obscure. Your people believe that it is just a state of mind
that the body can conquer…that is good…but I also believe that it is
something that should be relieved in order for healing to take place. If
you overexert yourself now, Selene…what if something happens to you?"
"I have two weeks until it is time for me to train the four inners." She
looked down at Small lady. "I will be ready."
"Mmm." Darien moaned in contentment as he turned his head to the
side. "This is the best part of training." He smiled blissfully.
"I know what you mean." Jerrid groaned as his muscle tensed up a bit
before relaxing. He chuckled as he looked at the rapture on Darien's face
as the masseuse started work on some of the muscles in his back. He
watched, as Darien's smile grew distant. "What are you thinking about?"
He switched to Japanese, since the women massaging them were
Lunarian, they couldn't understand.
"I can't believe the life I used to live before this…" He paused. "On Earth,
in our previous timeline, I used to have sex with my masseuses."
"Don't let Usagi hear you saying that, cause then both of us will never be
allowed over here again." He chuckled. "It's so odd knowing what had
occurred and what people believe had occurred…it feels weird having
memories of both times."
"I know." Darien chuckled. "But it doesn't matter anyway, I'm not a free
man…I have one woman to please and I'm---satisfied---with that." He
sighed.
"Then why the sigh?" Jerrid queried.
"Cause I want her so much but I can't have her."
"Right…the whole just had a baby thing." He chuckled.
"No, the whole just had a baby thing and the whole hip broken thing,
and the can't even walk thing." He sighed. "And sometimes I have this
feeling that she's avoiding me…"
"How can a woman who can not even walk…avoid you?" He lifted a brow.
"That's just the thing…I don't know…it's like…when I ask to help her
with anything she always tells me that it's fine, or it's okay…or that she's
got it or that 'Naru' can help her."
"Maybe she just doesn't want to bother you too much…or maybe she
actually does have it and you're overexagerrating?" He paused. "I
remember when Regina had Helios…she told me that I was a pain in the
ass." He laughed.
"Overexagerrating or not, I would like to think that in my wife's time of
need that I can be the one to assist her and not always her servant." He
sighed. "It seems like every time I get to the room for the night she's
always already in bed."
"So…"
"For just once I'd like to believe that she needs me at least a little
bit…especially after what happened…I never should have gone for a walk
that day."
"That's where this is coming from." Jerrid lamented. "Really Darien, you
have to stop blaming yourself for Usagi's accident…she's fine now and so
is the baby…that's what's important."
"Perhaps…my other concern is that she may be pushing herself to do
what she is not capable of as of yet."
"As in…"
"She starts her therapy today…she wants to be able to walk in two
weeks."
Droplets of sweat slid down her back, soaking her white T-shirt, her face
scrunched haggardly, hair stringy and out of place as legs clad in track
pants struggled to keep her balance over the mat. Small burning red
hands gripped the two horizontally placed iron holding poles on either
side of her body, two inches away, with each step she whimpered in pain.
"It hurts." She cried as she took another wayward step on the mat below
her.
"I know it hurts Usagi…but if you want to walk again, we have to do
this." Michelle replied firmly, passing her hand through her short-
cropped blonde hair.
"Slave driver." Serena muttered as she paused for a moment to gather
her barings before continuing.
"Oh for Selene's sake, the bars are only four feet long! Are you telling me
you can't take five g'damn steps to get from one point to the next?" She
pressed.
"Look all right?" Serena huffed as she turned a red angry face towards
her. "You didn't break your hip four days ago only to have to give birth
afterwards followed by surgery with no pain medication so don't give me
this bullshit." She wasn't a cursing person, but the pain…
"First of all, you're the one who asked me to help you get back into shape
today. If you didn't think you could do it then you shouldn't have called
me down here. Secondly, stop handing 'me' the bullshit." She replied
with a rigid face. "You're an Eternal Soldier, a warrior whom believes
above all that pain is just a state of mind." She paused. "Act like it."
"Michelle that's enough, perhaps you should lay off her highness for
today." Galen interrupted when he came upon them in the training room
after Darien insisted that they stop by before a meeting that he needed to
attend. He wasn't going to say anything, but Darien had come in two
steps behind him with looks that could kill when he heard Michelle's
harsh words.
"No Galen." Serena replied as she took another step. "She's right…I've
been through much worse than this…I can do it."
"Are you sure Usagi? You don't have to-"
"G'damnit!" She screamed, interrupting Darien, not giving him the
chance to continue. "If anyone else takes one more step closer to me…"
She challenged before looking towards Michelle who stood at the other
side of the bars with a fierce look. The two men stood stock still as
Serena continued to walk on shaky legs, going the last few steps before
she reached the other side. When she made it, she collapsed onto the
mat with tears of pain in her eyes. Darien walked out of the room
infuriated, slamming the door behind him.
She sat still, breathing softly, as Naru dipped the sponge into the basin
before bringing it to her back, humming all the while. She was seated in
a tub of water with soft foam like material covering the hard porcelain
walls for the comfort as her servant helped her to take her bath. There
was a soft knock on the door before it creaked open.
"Your highness." Naru stopped what she was doing before standing up to
bow.
"Let's have none of that Naru." Darien replied. "I'm here on unofficial
business."
"Then I shall step out for your privacy."
"It's okay Naru, I'm sure it's nothing you can't stick around for…besides,
I just wanna get out of this bath as soon as possible before I turn into a
prune." Serena smiled.
"I could finish your bath." Darien interrupted. "And if she wants, Naru
could retire early for the night as I could help you with your dressings as
well."
"It's all right darling, I'm sure you had a long day…why don't you go to
the guest bathrooms so that you could get yourself ready for bed? Then
we'll both be done and we could talk." There was a lot to be said about
what happened earlier.
"Are you sure…if you're tired Naru..." Serena gave Naru a pleading look
so that he couldn't see.
"It's fine your highness…I am as awake as the night owl." Naru smiled as
Serena mouthed her a thank-you.
"Very well then…" Darien sighed, recognizing a dismissal when he heard
one. "I'll see you in bed sweetheart…Naru." He turned and left the room,
his haggard appearance not escaping Naru's eyes, nor the sound of
Serena suspiring when he had gone. She decided that she would have to
question her mistress about something that had been on her mind for
quiet sometime. She picked up the sponge and continued to finish the
bath before speaking.
"M'lady-"
"Usagi." Serena smiled as she turned towards her.
"Usagi." She began. "May I ask of you something?"
"Certainly."
"Why is it that every time your husband offers to assist you, you evade
him? I know that it is not my position to say…but I worry that it may be
distressing him." Serena sighed as she turned towards her childhood
friend.
"Enough of the formalities Naru really, we're alone now."
"Yes we are, and you're skirtin' around the question." Naru replied
seriously.
"I just know that he's had a long day and I want him to rest is all."
"Usagi?" Naru replied with the raise of her brow.
"What?"
"That is not the truth, you and I both know it." She sighed again as she
looked down into the water at her abdomen.
"He hasn't seen the scar yet." She murmured softly as she lay her head
down on the side of the tub, wincing at the pain she felt with that
movement. With her fingers she blindly caressed the long jagged
disfigurement that lay nestled horizontally over the lower section of her
abdomen. "It's so ugly…and I can't heal it Naru." She cried. "I tried to
heal it but I can't…and neither can Minako…no one can…I don't want
him to see it."
"Oh Usa."
"Maybe when I get better, when I can use my powers fully…"
"I don't think his highness would care about your scar Serena."
"Have you looked at it lately?" She replied with wide eyes. "It's big and
ugly and Selene Naru!" Water splashed to the floor when she hit her
hand down in it. "Do you know what Darien told me the other day? He
said that when he first saw me, he thought that I was the most beautiful
woman he had ever met…perfect in every way." She murmured.
"Well…not so perfect anymore…he's gonna take one look at this scar and
his perfect image will be destroyed."
"Do you really see your scar as a sign of imperfection…excuse me, but
the Usagi I knew a long time ago would have thought that was a vain
idea."
"Well she's gone…she's been replaced with a married woman with kids
and a husband whom adored her because her body was perfect." She
paused. "He's not going to want me when he sees this big ugly scar that I
have."
"Usa…" Naru sighed. "His highness is a man whom loves you very much,
eventually, in a couple of weeks, when you get well enough, even if you
can't heal it, you won't be able to deny his needs…what'll you do then?"
"I don't know Naru…I don't know."
"Well you look like a bitter old man, what's the matter with you?" Darien
looked up from his desk after he had finished signing a document to see
Malachite standing before him, Jedite standing to stare out the window.
As usual they had attempted to creep stealthily up on him. He ignored
his comment, bending back his head and moving to another document to
commence reading.
"Touché." He heard Jedite chuckle. "What's wrong Endy, sex life not all
it's cracked up to be?"
"Fuck off Jedite." He bit before signing the next document and moving on
to a new one.
"I guess you win the bet on that one Jed, I didn't think you could have
nailed it any closer." Malachite replied with a smile. "What's the matter
Endymion? I thought you guys would be doing the bunny hop around
the castle by now."
"Do the words disabled wife mean anything to you?" Darien replied in an
acid tone.
"Disabled huh?" Malachite arched his brow in confusion. "Wouldn't have
known with her starting to train the senshi and all."
Over twenty guards were stationed down the long hallway that led to a
single room with two large heavy oak doors and golden handles. All stood
still as was expected per protocol until they were relieved of duty. All
turned to their immediate right as if cracked by a whip at the sound of a
deep roaring voice.
"She's what???" The door suddenly cracked open fiercely and banged
against the wall. The guards turned immediately to look straight ahead
once more and inwardly cringed as they watched their king stride fiercely
down the hallway, his off the shoulder royal blue cape fluttering
somewhat behind him, knee high black boots clomping against the
marble floor, the Kings of Venus and Mars in his wake.
"Endymion, calm down." Malachite managed when he finally caught up
with him. Darien turned to give him a piercing look; he immediately
retracted his hand. "Her highness is very capable and can take care-"
"I am very well aware of what her 'highness' can and can not do." He
replied before turning down a hallway that would lead to the senshi
training grounds.
"Before we begin, I have to say that I was very disgusted with the way
you fought while we were at Viladi's underground layer. You should
never, ever fight out of pure emotion, it clouds your judgment, and
makes you unable to think clearly. Don't fight for pure love, or pure
hate." Serena continued as she walked around in front of the senshi,
using only a small metal rod for support. She sensed his presence only
moments before he entered, the doors to the training grounds opening
with a bang as they slammed against the walls.
"Everyone, get the fuck out!" Darien replied angrily when he entered the
room. He watched as most of the senshi began to rise from where they
had been seated on the floor mats before her and exit the room; Mars
hesitated at his tone. "I didn't ask Lady Mars, that's a fucking order." She
stood her ground between husband and wife, more stubborn than the
other senshi.
"It's okay Rei." Serena smiled, placing her hand on her shoulder. "Relax."
She slackened her stance before exiting the same way the other senshi
had before her.
"What the fuck are you doing?" He vented.
"Stop babying me, I am not a child that you can talk down to." She
crossed her arms over her chest in heated defiance.
"Selene! It's only been two fucking weeks Serena! Two g'damn FUCKING-"
"Watch your mouth." She interrupted sharply. "It isn't proper of a king to
speak with those words and I shall not have my children repeating
them."
"Stop talking to me as if I am a stranger."
"When you stop treating me like your child, I'll stop talking to you like a
stranger." He watched as she walked slowly away from him with
purposeful and steady movements to stand before the tall ceiling high
window; she let out a breath before leaning against it. This was one of
the reasons why he had married this woman; she was the only one whom
could handle him in moments like these. He sagged his shoulders; he
could never stay mad at her long.
"Why are you doing this?" He whispered, his voice strained.
"It's customary, it's tradition." She replied simply.
"I shall never be used to the customs and traditions of your people." He
sighed.
"My people are your people Endymion---you need to wake up and realize
that."
"Does that make my people your people?"
"Yes." She paused before looking at him. She was breathtaking; he
turned away. "That's what happens when two people get married."
"Then tell me wife," he began. "Why is it that I am constantly expected to
follow the customs and the traditions of your people, but you are never
willing to understand the beliefs of my own."
"It is one thing to take into consideration a belief, but a royal custom
must be followed."
"'Must' be?" He crossed his arms as he walked over to the window and
leant next to her. "Last time I checked, we were the ones who made royal
customs."
"Not like this…this is something that can not change Darien, it
supercedes you, and it supercedes me. You have to understand…I must
do this." She raised her hand to his cheek and he kissed her palm. "I
thought we discussed this---you agreed-"
"It still hurts." He whispered as he looked up to her with deep glazed
eyes, as if in a trance; she dropped her hand to her side and turned back
towards the window. "I still remember what it was like to see you in so
much pain and not be able to do anything---your screams." He shook his
head of the memory.
"I'm sorry you had to see that." She whispered.
"I should have stayed home that day." His voice was strained as he
whispered the words.
"Stop dwelling on moments in time that can not be changed...I do not
blame you, you know that…isn't that what matters?" She paused. "My
mother always told me that our trials only make us stronger." She placed
her hand over the warm glass and turned to look outside. "Every senshi
has to be trained to use her powers to protect her home planet, but she
must also be trained to be just as good without them...the inner senshi
have not attained that level as have I and the outers. We were trained by
my mother a long time ago when I was sixteen."
"Then why must you train them now?" He looked towards her and his
mind clouded. "Why not wait until Small Lady is sixteen?"
"Now is their time, when the children of the outers grow older and our
daughter is sixteen, the cycle for them will continue. Truly, the queens
should have been trained long ago, but things did not allow for that.
Though our time did change because of my union with myself, unlike
everything else that can be glossed over, becoming an Eternal Senshi is
something that surpasses time. Time can not give them that honor on a
silver platter without them doing the work." She could feel him walk
closer to her until they were breaths apart; she turned her head.
"I understand." He murmured against her lips. "I've missed you, you
know." Her heart skipped a beat; she knew what those words meant. Her
ears perked up when she heard the sound of crying outside the doors.
"Small Lady." She stepped away from him and walked to the doors. He
swallowed the lump in his throat at being so close to her before following
in her wake. When she opened the doors, Naru was standing there with
Small Lady in her arms.
"Honestly your highness, I do not know why you insist upon
breastfeeding on your own, I surely could send for a wetnurse to tend to
these matters." Naru replied as she handed her the wailing child, her
tone calming down almost immediately as she recognized her mother.
"I like that she only comes to me for nourishment. I like that I fulfill her."
Serena smiled as she cooed at her. "Shhh...don't cry." She rocked her in
her arms whilst humming a soft tune, before walking across the room
and sitting down in a chair. Both Darien and Naru followed her, Darien
taking a chair to sit across from her attentively.
"If you need anything." Serena shooed her away with a smile before
lifting her shirt and bra, pulling out her breast, and guiding it to Small
Lady's mouth.
"I will call you when I am finished." Naru left the two of them alone, the
sound of suckling echoing throughout the room.
"It's times like this that I feel so calm---I forget that there are
responsibilities outside these walls." Darien began as he looked over the
two. "It is also in times like these that I look and you and see you in a
different light," he paused to reach out a hand and place it on her cheek,
his thumb tracing her lips. She gasped as she parted them; there was a
deep passion in his eyes as he said those words---a deep desire. "More
beautiful than ever---and I can't believe that I almost lost you." There
was a knock on the door and he sighed. "And then there is always
someone there to pull me from my comfort zone." She heaved a deep
breath as he stood up and walked to the door, cracking it open slightly.
"Yes...tell him I will be in, in a moment." He closed the door slightly and
walked towards her. "I have a meeting to attend, but I will see you
tonight." He placed a light butterfly kiss on her lips. She shivered
inwardly as he left; there was a sure promise in his words. The time she
had dreaded had come.
"Okay," was all she could manage.
Under Naru's watchful eye, she carefully maneuvered herself into the tub
filled to the brim in water and suds until she was completely submerged.
She had rushed over to her room later that evening to take her bath a bit
early, she didn't want him to catch her there this time. She immediately
grabbed for the sponge and began to wipe herself down when she heard
the door open.
"Naru, you're dismissed." She froze when she heard those words; he was
early. Her husband was not going to take no for an answer tonight,
especially with the big show she had made about being able to train the
senshi; if she could do that, she was definitely capable of doing other
things. For the second time that day, Naru walked out the room to leave
the two of them alone. Serena didn't dare turn to look at him as she
heard the door close and lock followed by the sounds of the ruffling of
clothes as they fell to the floor.
"What...what are you doing here?" She tried to sound nonchalant, she
knew she was failing miserably.
"I'm sorry, am I lost? I thought this was my bathroom as well?" It was
more of a statement than a question.
"You know what I mean...I thought you had some more meetings to
attend." She amended.
"Funny thing, those meetings suddenly got canceled. As for what exactly
I'm doing here, I'm going to share a bath with my wife if that is alright
with you, it's a tradition that has continued since the dawn of time." He
paused. "If this is a new custom for your people, perhaps your people
should converse with my people." She could feel him stepping in behind
her, she moved up a bit to give him space. "It falls somewhere along that
custom of taking care of your wife when she is ill." She licked her lips
before turning to him; hopefully the suds would hide her from mid-waist
down. She heaved a deep breath for the second time as she looked at
him; she'd forgotten just how beautiful he was. "Selene, I have missed
you...come here." She moved slowly through the water to situate herself
between his legs, there was no mistaking his desire for her now. She
watched mutely as he reached for the sponge and dipped it in the water
before washing her down with it. He moved with slow, easy, and
tantalizing strokes, washing down her sides and then her front without
touching her. A moan escaped her lips and she closed her eyes. "Don't
close your eyes, I miss what they look like when we're together like this."
She opened them slowly before taking the sponge away from his hands.
"Let me." She whispered, she didn't want him to search for too long,
eventually he would find what she was trying to hide. She washed his
arms slowly and then trailed the sponge down his stomach. He lay back
against the edge, hungry eyes never tearing away from her.
"Please." He murmured huskily. With skillful hands she trailed over the
lower part of him; he threw his head back in rapture, his hands gripping
the rims of the tub, his knuckles turning white. She pleasured him for
some time before without warning he suddenly stilled her hands and
pulled her close to him. He cupped her face in his hand and kissed her,
his other hand cupping her backside and lifting her up before reaching
between them to maneuver his manhood until he was inside her, making
her whimper as he thrust deep within. "Are your people familiar with this
custom?" He whispered darkly against her ear
"Very familiar." She whispered back brokenly.
"I miss this most of all." He began. "Being so deep inside you that Selene
Usako; you make me so hot and bothered." His lips moved over her neck,
he groaned as she moved against him. "All I can think about is taking
you in our bed and making love to you over and over again."
"Darien." She whimpered. He caught her mouth and kissed her
repeatedly, moving with her until they were riding on a cloud so high
that she thought she would never come down.
"Let's go to bed." He whispered after they had rested for a moment. He
lifted her from over him and stood from the water, already stepping out.
"Do you need me to assist you?"
"No---I'm-I'm fine." Her lips quivered as she sat there for a while,
watching as he grabbed for a towel off the rack nearby, and wrapped it
around his waist. She quickly stood, making for a towel she had placed
on the other side of the tub, near the edge; she wrapped it around her
body just before he turned around, impulsively lifting her into his arms
right out of the tub. "I can walk." She squealed.
"I know, but I'd much rather carry you." He smiled as he walked into
their bedroom, making his way towards the bed. "I haven't done this in a
while." He deposited her on the bed, blocking her off with his arms when
she would have moved away. "Now what's wrong?" He inquired firmly.
"N-nothing…actually, I'm-I'm tired." She lied, looking towards his chest.
"Tired?" He moved her chin up with a finger so that she was facing him.
"I don't believe you."
"It's---it's been a long day." She murmured, her arm clutching the towel
around her body. "I-I have to get up early tomorrow." When she made an
attempt to arise he pushed her gently back down to the bed.
"You're stuttering." He pointed out.
"N-no, I'm not!" She replied fiercely, eyes glazing over.
"Speak to me, what's wrong?" He murmured. "Do…do you not find me
appealing…don't I please you…Usako?"
"There's nothing wrong with you." She shook her head vibrantly.
"Then help me to understand." He paused, looking away unsure. "Why
does my wife not want to make love to me?" He licked dry lips when she
gave no answer. "Selene knows that all I can think about all day,
everyday…is you. All I can think about is that moment when we can be
together. All I've been thinking about is what it would be like to make
love to you again…but ever since…ever since you had Small Lady…you
haven't shown any interest in that at all."
"I'm sorry…if that's what you think…but I-I really am tired." She lied
again, not knowing how to find a better answer.
"Tired?" He narrowed disbelieving eyes as he looked upon the way in
which she was clutching the towel to her body; his mind drew him wild
and for some reason he felt as if the source was beneath his eyes. She
followed his line of sight and knew almost at once what he was about to
do. He reached for the towel to pull it roughly from her grasp.
"N-no! Don't!" She cried. Her protective barrier was off her body in
seconds and she turned away from him, now sobbing uncontrollably into
the pillow beneath her head. His eyes softened when he saw the scar,
suddenly understanding what had been going on in their bedrooms for
months now, why she had been hiding from him. He traced the long soft
yet jagged scar with his finger before turning her face to look at him.
"Do you think I'm that vain, Usako?" When she said nothing he leant
over and began planting long lingering kisses all along it's length. "You'll
always be beautiful to me." He paused in between each kiss. "Because of
who you are…the way you care for my children, our children…I couldn't
find any woman more beautiful…more attractive…more sexy." She sat up
abruptly at his words, placing her fingers over lips when he became
alarmed.
"Do you mean that baby?" She whispered unsure, her lips trembling.
"Of course I mean that!" He murmured back adamantly. "You're the only
woman that I've ever-" He looked away and she stared at him in shock.
"Endymion?" She queried, unsure if what she was hearing was really
what she was hearing.
"It's easy to believe rumors---isn't it?" He replied.
"Darien…are you saying that I…that I'm your---all that time I thought"
"That I had been with women before you?" He paused. "Sometimes
knowing of the two timelines can be so confusing…I know that in that
time where we were separated and expected to find one another again,
that you were my first, but in between I had been with others…" He
paused. "In this timeline I have been with no other but you."
"I didn't think that I-I…" She bowed her head shyly, her fingers dawdling
as she drew mindless patterns on the bed sheets. "When I learned the
history of Earth as part of my lessons, I was told that---that most kings
or princes took many women to their bed before they married…that the
they…they used their position as---w-well" She stuttered, unable to say
completely what was on her mind
"Leverage, their position of power to have power over women? Well, I'm
telling you---" He began as he took her chin in the palm of her hand and
turned her head to face him. "That there has been no other woman…my
mother brought me up to respect them---not to toy with them…in the
previous timeline however, after I lost you, lost my memory of you…I'm
sorry---but I lost myself…that was why there had been others."
"I'm sorry as well…" She whispered guiltily. "I've shut you out when I
should have just told you what was wrong…and I'm sorry that I assumed
the worst in you." There was a moment of strained silence before he slid
off the bed and walked over to the nightstand next to it.
"I got you something." He opened the drawer and pulled out a flat black
velvet square box. "When I saw it, I knew that I wanted to see you in it."
He stood before her at the side of the bed and handed her the box,
watching for the expression on her face as she opened it; he wasn't
disappointed. She gasped; her mouth parted as she lifted the sparkling
blue diamond chain from it's nestled place in the box.
"It's beautiful." She smiled as she leaned over to kiss him on the cheek.
She unclasped it before handing it to him and turning around. "Put it on
for me." He chuckled as she lifted her hair out the way for him and tilted
her head forward.
"It's not a necklace Usako." He replied huskily into her ear as he fit the
chain snuggly around her abdomen so that it slid down right above her
hips. "And I want you to only wear it for me." He kissed her shoulder
before trailing light kisses all up and down her neck. "Selene, turn
around for me baby. I bet it makes you look so sexy." Smiling shyly she
turned around. He admired it on her with soft eyes and watched as with
her head bowed, she pulled at the towel wrapped tightly around his waist
and encircled her legs lightly around his hips. He grasped her by her rear
and squeezed before bringing her to the edge of the bed and in close
contact with him. His eyes glazed dangerously as she glowed a brilliant
white moments before lying back on the bed and raising her legs higher
so that they lay over his arms on either side of him. He arched his brow.
"This is new."
"As much as I love having your children, it's too soon right now." She
explained.
"That's not what I was talking about." He chuckled as he eased his way
in slowly, experimenting with this new position that they had never tried
before.
"Oh—the position?" She half smiled half moaned. "I-I got it from a
book…do you mind?"
"No." He shut his eyes tightly. "But I must remember to thank the gods
you know how to read." He groaned.
"It says that it---it will allow for a much deeper penetration---as well as
somewhat of a different feeling." She watched as he nearly choked when
he started pulling back; she had squeezed and pulled on him in a way
that he had never felt before.
"G'damnit! What the fuck was that!" He couldn't help but let the words
slip, his wife glaring at him before giggling slightly. "Sorry." He
apologized; he knew she didn't like him using those words, especially
when they were making love.
"It's okay…I know I alarmed you." She smiled, another moan escaping
her lips as he pushed back in slowly again. "It's called a kegel exercise."
"Sh-g'd-fu…oh Selene!" He curved his words this time, literally biting his
tongue as he pulled out of her again. "Kegel what?" She laughed.
"Ami told me about it…" She moaned. "For women---whom have
had…children…you basically learn…about how to contract…and
relax…the muscle." She paused with each movement. "It helps to
keep…our vaginal walls tight so…so that we can push good…with each
labor…Of course," she smiled when he groaned, his face a look of tight
repressed agony. "It has its unlabeled uses…the longer you hold it…the
tighter…you bec-"
"No shhhh-fu-g'd…Selene-----" He leaned forward quickly and kissed her,
deciding to do something else with their mouths other than talk. She
hugged him to her closely with her arms and legs as he lost control,
moving swiftly in her and shuddering his release. She wrapped her arms
tightly around his body as he continued to convulse. When he had
finished he lay his head next to hers on the bed, panting into her neck,
his body now damp and moist with sweat. "You are marvelous." He
commented huskily.
"I know." She giggled playfully as she pushed him back so that he lay
there with her atop him. She whispered in his ear. "I love you." She
murmured before kissing him there and pulling on his lobe with her
teeth and tongue. "And there's nothing I want more right now…than to
make love to you."
"I return the sentiments, really I do love…but give a man five minutes to
recuperate greedy woman!" He laughed.
"No!" She smiled triumphantly as she sat up in a straddling position.
"Kitten, you are surely a hellcat in bed."
"What do you expect? I'm married to a king with power, he has to get fed
energy from somewhere."
"You're right." His hand trailed over the chain that still lie over her waist.
"But for some reason this exchange seems to be taking more energy from
me than it is giving."
"But imagine my love! You'll feel very energetic, sated, and happy in the
morning!" Her eyes sparkled and he couldn't help but laugh at her
enthusiasm.
"Yeah, after a full day's rest…and I don't even have a full day to rest."
"Well…" She smiled leeringly as she leaned over to plant a kiss on his
jugular. "Like you said earlier, you're the king, don't you hold the power
to cancel a silly meeting." He groaned as she began moving her lips down
slowly, purposefully.
"I'll decide that tomorrow." He bit the side of his lips as she kissed each
nipple, nipping at it with her teeth, pulling it with her tongue before
moving lower still. He groaned, tilting his head back and gripping the
sheets. "I'm going to stop talking now, do not be alarmed, but please do
continue." She laughed before moving her hair aside so she could get a
good look at him. He was definitely male. With careful movements, she
began planting kisses all down his length. His body jerked in response;
with her mouth she took him in.
"Usako. Usako. Usako." He moaned her name in agonizing rapture as
she moved up and down in slowly silky movements. She released him
when she felt him begin to twitch; using her hands to support her, she
sat atop him and grabbed his manhood, positioning herself to slide atop
him. He grabbed her by the hips when she would have started to move.
"No kegels this time." He licked sweaty lips. "It makes me come without
you." She nodded her head in understanding and closed her eyes when
he was fully inside her and with vigilant movements began to move
smoothly. She moaned when he brought idle fingers up to caress her
breasts, all the while whispering her name. Their passion escalated with
their tempo; he flipped her onto her back, burying his face in her neck as
he dug harder and deeper into her. He held her head in his hands,
fingers plunged deep into her white diamond hair. She wrapped her legs
around his waist, clutching him tautly. The words 'Oh Selene', and 'yes'
filtered amongst them as he drove deep into her with long hard strokes.
Sweaty palms clinged to sweaty skin as she dug her fingers into his back
in efforts to bring him closer to her, her nails scrapping his skin. Her
cries grew in volume as he went faster and faster, his heart pounding in
is chest. He paused when she came, her cry of his name long and loud,
squeezing him for an eternity before he finally joined her. His body went
rigid; he squeezed his eyes tight as he experienced the longest orgasm he
ever had.
He collapsed onto the bed next to her, his body partially over hers, his
manhood still inside her as his chest heaved from lack of Oxygen; he
hadn't wanted to let go of contact just yet. His face was turned towards
her, and he could hear her hard breathing next to him; she kissed his
shoulder, tasting his salty skin.
"That was beautiful…beloved." She smiled.
"No, you're beautiful."
"Now I really am tired." She laughed, eyes twinkling in the dim light.
"Now I believe you." He smiled.
"You think the guards outside the doors could hear me?" She wondered.
"Probably." He laughed.
"Good." She smiled. "I want them to know how great their king is in bed."
"Usako!" He whispered in mock shock as he pinched her backside.
"What?" She giggled.
"You're something else." He whispered.
"I know."
"Amazing."
"Those aren't the words that I wanted to hear." He chuckled deeply.
"I love you."
"That's the words." She smiled. "But, I love you more."
"I love you the most."
"My love for you is bigger than the moon…no the Earth!" She challenged.
"The Galaxy." He laughed.
"The universe! Ha!" She smiled in triumph at getting the last word, but
then he spoke.
"My love for you spans time."
"No fair!" She whined and he chuckled, pulling her thigh up close to his
body so that it wrapped lightly around him, his eyes starting to drift; he
pulled himself from being inside her.
"All's fair in love and sex my love." She giggled at his comment, her eyes
drooping.
"That's not how the saying goes."
"It goes how I say it goes." He whispered, sighing with contentment.
"Says who?" She yawned.
"Says me."
"Since when do you have the final say?"
"Since I'm the king."
"Bully."
"Brat."
"I love you."
"I love you more."
"Let's not start that again."
"G'nite love."
"G'nite baby." She sighed before closing her eyes with finality and drifting
to the land of slumber.
The end…for now
Finally!!! Another story complete! I know that it feels like I left their lives
hanging in the air, but I have to go on to the next book in the series now.
The one entitled 'Before the Love Was Lost'. For those of you whom
remember my story Beginnings, this is the revision. Of course, don't take
that the fact that it is a revision for granted. As you have seen from all
the other revisions I have made with this story, I change and add a lot of
things.
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Tell me whatcha think. ;0)