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Wild Child-Enya
Brothers In Arms-Joan Boaz
Adios-Enya
Lazy Day-Enya
Hunter-Dido
Break Away-Big Pig
It's A Sin-Pet Shop Boys
Silence Must Be Heard-Enigma
There Was A Boy-Micheal W. Smith
Kryptonite-Three Doors Down
Matter Of Time-Micheal W. Smith
Don't Give Up-Micheal W. Smith
May It Be-Enya
In Dreams-Edward Ross
Moonlight Dream-Anatalia
Forbidden Emotions-Anatalia
A Song To Sing
I never realized how lucky I was till my luck ran out. Maybe, it was never luck, but rather just good planning. I don't know, but all I know is something gave, and I landed on a duty hell-hole of a planet without a coin to my name. Only the jumpsuit I was wearing and my old blaster. The space port on this planet was teeming with the dredges of society. Not a group I really wanted to be near, but then again they were better than the imperials. I had been booted from the grimy freighter I had come on, with a curse and shove. I'd been on this dusty planet less that an hour, and I all ready hated it. Finally gathering what was left of my dignity I started into the city. The first thing would be to secure some credits and then a passage to a cleaner place. The first building that I came to looked like it hadn't been cleaned in the hundreds of years it had probably been standing. It was a gamblers den, the stink floating out onto the street. Coughing and gagging I walked past and headed for the second building. Down the row I went, they didn't get any better, just worse and worse. Finally, a low building with a harsh music coming from it proved to at least be a little cleaner. The music was loud enough to drowned out conversation on the street, I covered my ear and paused to weigh my options. When opportunity struck. The music fell silent and moments later a band of four aliens dropped at my feet. The owner of the dive murmured a curse then his gaze roamed the street. He saw me standing there, and cocked his head for a moment.
"Can you sing?" He asked and I smiled lightly.
"Of course."
"Good, then get in here." He took my arm and thrust me down a flight of dark steps and into a smoky room. He motioned to the stage and headed for the bar. I figured no one could do worse than that band, and I might even make a few credits off this place. My boots sounded dull and flat on the stage. I faced the crowd and tried to remember a catchy song, only one came to mind so I smiled and started in.
Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child
Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
To let it all go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child.
Cheers and whistled greeted the end and several coins slapped onto the stage. I licked my lips and gave a light grin to the crowd. Tapping my toe lightly on the stage I slipped into another song.
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands and always will be
Someday you'll return to your valleys and your farms
And no longer burn to be Brothers in Arms.
Through of these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I have witnessed the awesome rage
As the battle rage on
And though it hurt me so bad
You didn't desert me
My Brothers in Arms.
There are many different world
And a million different songs
But we have just one world
Why live in different ones?
Now the suns gone to hell and the moons riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
And it's written in the stars above
And every line in your heart
We're fools to make war on our Brothers in Arms.
The crowd exploded to it's feet with cheers and whistles. I took a sharp step back and gave a huge smile. My legs were tingling with exhaustion, and I felt dirty and scanky, but they were cheering all the same. The slightest flicker of a memory of another crowd in another time, cheering the same way. Then it slipped away and the crowd was roaring for another song. As exhausted as I was I raised my voice once again.
Here Am I
yet another good-bye!
he says Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why?
she won't break down and cry?
- she says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
One by One my leaves fall,
One by One my tales are told.
It's no lie
she is yearning to fly.
she says Adios, say Adios
and now you know why
he's a reason to sigh
- she says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
One by One my leaves fall,
One by One my tales are told.
My, Oh my!
she was aiming to high
he says Adios, say Adios,
and now you know why
there's no moon in her sky
- he says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
No Good-byes
for love brightens their eyes.
Don't say Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?
- Don't say Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
I had hoped that the crowd would take the hint and let me down off the stage. They did, but not with out plenty of cheering and whistling. I made my way down with the coins clenched in my fists, and smiled as people slapped my back in appreciation. I finally reached the bar, my shoulders stinging, and my knees knocking together. I hooked a stool beneath me and sagged down. The owner leaned against the bar across from me and let out a toothy grin.
"I'll trade ya, a room out back, and dinner if ya sing here from now on." I stuck out my hand with a grimace.
"Deal." He slapped it and nodded towards the other end of the bar. I swung off my stool and managed to make it to that end, he opened the bar and escorted me to a small back room, with a single bed and it's own fresher unit.
"Last singer slept here, she ended up paying for a back debt and leaving me with no help." I nodded and he dropped a plate of food onto a knee high table. "There's dinner, be done and back on that stage in one hour." I nodded and waited till he had left before diving into the food. It burned going down, but filled the empty belly and stopped my knees from shaking. I then explored the little room, it was dusty but clean. The fresher unit was clean and even had one threadbare towel. I returned to the bed and sat down to count my coins. Twenty-five credits for three songs wasn't bad, I tucked them into a little sack, and slipped it into my belt pouch. I cracked my back and stretched my long lean muscles. While touching my toes I saw the old trunk beneath the bed. Pulling it out I cracked the leather lid open with a grunt. Inside carefully folded was a jumpsuit of red with a flowing over coat of the same color. The woman who had worn this had been not much larger than me, I slipped into them and smoothed the cloth against my legs. It flattered the figure and cast an air of power to my lean frame. I let down my black hair from it's bun and shook out the long roll. It fell well down my back and rippled gently as I walked. Pulling my old boots back on and slipping my own belt on. I stood before the fresher mirror for the finally look. I had to smile and laugh at myself.
"So, what do you think?" I asked the mirror with a silly smile, turning I closed the trunk and gave it a shove beneath the bed again. I scooped up the plate and opened the door. I dropped the plate into the bustling kitchen and headed back towards the stage. The crowd had begun to change to the night group, but a few of the original few remained. They greeted my appearance with whistles. One of the nightly regulars let out a yell to the owner.
"Finally, get rid of that terrible band!" The owner tossed me a look of approval and glared at the owner of the yell. I chuckled to myself and taking a deep breath prepared to sing.
Lazy old day
rolling away
dreaming the day away
don't want to go
now that I'm in the flow
crazy amazing day.
One red balloon
floats to the moon
just let it fly away
I only know
that I'm longing to go
back to my lazy day
And how long it sings and how it sighs
And how it never stays
And how it rings and how it cries
And how it sails away...away...away...
I let the song fade and shifting gently on my feet I glanced out at the crowd. Every face was turned towards me shock and enthrallment had filled the room. Holding the people's attention I moved quickly into another song. The next four hours swept by, as I moved from song to song. Finally, I ran out of songs and of voice. I found myself coughing more that I was breathing. Thankfully, the audience had shrunk and most of them we're to drunk to notice. I made my way from the stage to the bar and slumped onto a stool. The owner set a glass of water before me and I let the liquid soothe my tired throat and parch my dry mouth. I managed to set the glass down and sat up a little straighter.
"I'm out of songs." I choked out, my voice cracking from the strain. I coughed and spoke again. "And voice."
"The crowds gone any ways, now you can sleep." I nodded and headed back for my room. Shedding the red suit and dropping into my old jumpsuit. I counted my new coins and added the totals together, 225 credits. I smiled and tucked the plump little bag into my belt and dropped into the bed fully clothed. Out of habit I checked my blaster and slipped it onto stun before tucking it beneath my pillow, and pulling the blanket up to my shoulders I passed out. I heard the creaking of old floorboards and without opening my eyes slip my hand silently up to my pillow and slid the blaster free. The person was at the foot of the bed, as I rolled and slapping the lights up brought the blaster to bear. It was a skinny woman with a greasy apron and silver hair pulled into a tight bun. She shrank back, fear clouding her lined face. I slowed my motions and sent the blaster back to it's holster.
"Sorry, old reflex."
"I-I'm Cara, he sent me to wake you. It's breakfast time, if you want any that is."
"I'm Roanoke, and I would love some breakfast." I said with a firm smile and with a light wave of my hand offered for her to leave the room first. She did so with a hurried stride and escaped down the dark hall towards the kitchen. I closed my door and followed at a firm stride, feeling much better for a nights sleep and descant food. The staff had formed up in the main room and we're eating a breakfast. I joined them and helped myself to the nameless tasteless food that was being served with a grimace. It heated the belly though, and gave energy to the limb. The rest of the staff avoided me, and gave me converted glances. They weren't sure what to think of this weapon toting woman. I just smiled when I caught someone's eye and hoped they didn't see it as threatening. Then the main doors thundered open and a huge slug came down with an escort of several strange aliens, and one man in dark armor. The owner smiled and bowed low.
"My lord, Jabba, what an unexpected surprise! What do I owe this honor too?"
"Your new singer, I want to hear her, now." The slug boomed and motioned towards the stage. The staff ran to clear tables and make a space for the slug and his henchmen. I got propelled onto the stage and the fear that crossed the owners face, made my knees start shaking again. Then I caught a glance from the man in armor, his t-shaped visor was facing me dead on. I could almost see a pair of glittering eyes behind that mask. I relaxed and took a deep breath. Strange enough only one song came to mind, and I let it flow, hoping for the best.
With one light on
In one room
I know your up
When I get home
With one small step upon the stair
I know your look when I get there
If you were a King up there on your throne
Would you be wise enough to let go
For this Queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
Wants to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go.
Unread book
Painful look
The tvs on the sound is down,
One long pause then you begin,
Oh, look what the cats brought in.
If you were a King up there on your throne
Would you be wise enough to let go
For this Queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
Wants to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go
Let me leave.
For the crown you've placed upon my head
Feels to heavy now
I don't know what to say to you
But I smile anyhow
And all the time I'm thinking, thinking
I want to be a hunter again
I want to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go.
I want to be a hunter again
I want to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go
Let me leave
Let me go.
I let the song die in the thick air and focus my gaze onto the staff and owner clustered in the back of the room. Their faces were a mix of awe and amazement. I let my gaze wander up to the huge slug. His red eyes were fixated on me, I shifted my feet and let my hand wander back to my blaster. The man in his armor shifted also tracking my every movement. I couldn't tell what he thought of the song, but something in his attitude changed. I felt as if he was recategorizing me from no-threat to very dangerous. It was an interesting feeling, one that made me pause in my motions and straightened sharply.
"You have heard me sing." I snapped out firmly and jumped down from the stage. Moving firmly back towards the owner and the staff.
"How much did you buy her for, Devor?" My hackles raised and I whirled with a snarl.
"I didn't buy her, Lord Jabba, she is an employ." Devor said quickly as I stepped forward. Reaching out he caught me by the arm. I twisted my arm from his grasp and stood seething.
"Well, then how much to buy out her contract? Name your price, my boy." Devor leaned closer and whispered in my ear.
"You'll be treated fairly there, I'm sorry, but if I don't sell, he'll just kill me and take you."
"You can't do this." I hissed, anger flushing my cheeks.
"10,000.00 Credits, Lord Jabba."
"It's a deal, Fett, bring her to my palace." Jabba then turned and slithered out, leaving only the man in armor left.
"You chose wisely, Devor."
"Maybe, I think time will tell that, Fett." Devor dropped my arm and turned away. I whirled and caught the back of his shirt.
"Who is that garbage ridden piece of slime!"
"Jabba the Hut, he controls this planet and owns basically everyone on it." Devor answered and pulling free headed back towards the bar. "Get your things, it looks as if that old room will be vacant again." I sagged and nodded slowly. I made my way slowly back to the old room and backed the few outfits that were in the trunk into an old knapsack that had been at the bottom, and shoved the trunk back under the bed again. I rolled to my feet and dusted off my knees, a cough summoned my attention to the door. Devor stood there a leather pouch bulging was in his hand. "This is your pay, you earned ever coin of it." He tossed it to me and I caught the bag firmly. It disappeared into my belt and I smiled lightly.
"Good-luck, Devor."
"Good-luck, um..."
"Roanoke."
"Good-luck, Roanoke." He said and with a nod disappeared. I took one last look at the room and swung the pack on. Returning to the main room and without a glance at Fett headed for the door. The sound of his boots followed me up the stairs and out onto the street. The second sun hadn't even risen, yet. The only thing on the street was a dirty animal. I stopped and glanced at the hazy blue sky. Fett stepped around me and swung up onto the animal. He offered me a hand, which I took and swung up behind him. The animal
stank and had an awful gate, that bounced us around. On the outskirts of town I called for a halt.
"Ugh, I can't take it anymore!" I swung down and sat down on the hard packed sand. Fett swung down and sat down taking a very deep breath.
"How long have you been here?"
"I got here, yesterday at about noon, it's hard to believe it's been less that a full day." I shook my head and tossed my hair over my shoulders.
"You could have sounded terrible, or even normal, and Jabba wouldn't have wanted you."
"No, I couldn't have, if Jabba is the big guy around here, then he's had people and probably records played over and over to him. He knew what I sounded like, it was just an act to fool Devor into selling out. Everything was just an act, even Devor, an act to gain the upper hand." I was musing mainly to myself, finally shaking the emotions that had draped themselves around my shoulders. I stood, and shaking the sand from myself took the smelly animals reins. "I used to ride horses...." I trailed off feeling drained of very energy as the memory of a young girl astride a lean horse raced across a green field flashed across my mind. I dropped to the sand with a gasp, and held my head as blinding pain echoed through my skull. I felt two strong arms support me as the memory drew forth others. A cascade of pictures flashed across my minds eye, they kept coming till I though my head would explode. Then it was all gone, leaving only the memories filed neatly away in the back of my head. I opened my eyes and gazed up into Fett's t-shaped visor. I took a deep breath and rolled to my feet. Taking up the reins again I swung aboard and settled neatly into the saddle. "Coming?" I asked, offering a hand to Fett. He cocked his head and swung up behind me. I clucked to the animal and it moved off at a much smoother gate. We covered the ground that was left between me and Jabba's palace just as the second sun had fully broke from it's grave in the horizon. Through the lower levels to Jabba's throne room I was led. Out onto that dusty stage, I stood, watching the crowd slowly swivel towards me. Fear knotted my stomach, I was thrust forward into the light. Gathering my breath and a bit of courage I cleared my throat and tried to drag a song up from my memories. Only that picture of the girl and her horse came up. Then slowly words came to me and this is what flowed out.
All my life I've wanted to fly,
Like the birds you see way up in the sky.
Making circles in the morning sun,
Flying high in the sky till the day is done.
I can't break away from this dream.
Like a child in her fantasy,
Punching holes in the walls of reality.
All my life I've wanted to fly,
But I don't have the wings and I wonder why?
I can't break away from this dream.
Oh well, my mama told me when I was young,
She said, stand tall girl your number one!
You can be what you want to be,
But you can't change the course of your destiny.
I can't break away from this dream.
One is one,
Two is two,
Black is black,
And white is white,
Just come out in the middle between day and night,
I can't break away from this dream!
Cheers and whistles answered the song and the crowd started stomping in time. I stepped back into the shadows as the band started up a dance tune. A lithe girl was suddenly at my elbow.
"Come, with me." She commanded and I slipped through the shadows after her. Through a dark series of tunnels to a cleaner series of rooms. Several girls we're spread through out the room. They all stood and stared at me.
"Whose the newie?" Snarled one as she approach with dark amber eyes and honey colored hair.
"I'm the new singer."
"Was that you we heard then?"
"Yes." She stepped back and stared venomously at me.
"At least you have a voice, even if you don't have any looks." She hissed and sat back on a couch. Another girl appeared and gave her a dark look.
"Amber, she's got better looks that you do, with that bleached hair." Amber snapped to her feet and snarled at the new girl. I slunk back a step and encountered another girl at my elbow. She stood on her tip-toes and whispered into my ear.
"Master Fett, would speak with you." I nodded and she led me out the door and down the stairs. Fett was waiting in a dimly light hall, the only door in the hall was at the end, a heavy wooden door. I noticed it mainly because of the carvings, they flickered through my mind reminding me vaguely of something I had seen someplace else. Fett nodded to the girl and she disappeared into the shadows.
"That is your room." He said, nodding to the door. I stepped past him and cracked the door open. The room was large and dusty, but not much better than my room back at Devor's. It also had it's own fresher station and the only real change was a desk in the corner. I dropped my knapsack on the bed and watched the cloud of dust rise. I shook my head and headed back out the door again. Fett was still leaning against the wall, casually watching a spider crawl along the floor. "Your blaster is of a make I've never seen." I paused and let my gaze wander towards the ceiling.
"I have no idea where I got it, it's just always been with me."
"It's been converted to take a standard powercell." He added tossing me a little black box. "I'd keep it fully charged." He said finally before vanishing into the shadows. I shrugged off the icy cold feeling that crept through my spine. Opening the box I saw the charger, and had to smile. It was silly, but I had a strange feeling that this was more than the warning his words had been. It was telling me to be careful, and very watchful. Closing the wood door I noticed the lock, flipping it I plugged in the charger and started charging my old blaster. Shaking the dust from the blankets and finally taking a broom to the floor had the room in descant shape. I hung my few jumpsuit in the small closet and started the fresher charging. I figured that I'd have to perform tonight, so I sat cross legged on my bed and started dredging up songs to sing. I had a good twenty planned when a knock at my door summoned me from my revere. I snapped up my blaster and after flipping back the lock, open the door a crack. A serving girl was standing in the light before my door shaking with fear.
"Yes?" I asked, opening the door slightly more. She handed me a tray of food and in a shaking voice.
"After you have eaten, Lord Jabba says you must sing."
"Very well, I will be up very soon."
"Do you know the way?" She asked in a slightly awed voice.
"Yes." I said with a light smile and shut the door firmly on any more questions. I ate quickly, the food was greasy and hot. It gave me energy and that was all the counted. I dressed in a midnight blue and silver jumpsuit with a flowing overrobe of silver and midnight blue. I twirled and laughed at the motion of the robe. Brushing my hair out and adding my boots and belt to the outfit. I slipped my blaster into it's holster and after one last look left the room. Following the hall back to the throne room wasn't hard, but getting to the stage was. Finally, I managed my way through the press of aliens and humans. Standing on the stage with the light casting down upon me. I felt excitement building in my body. I straightened and lifting my voice I began.
Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child
Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
To let it all go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child.
Memories of that first night in Devor's flooded back and with a light smile I jumped into my next song.
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands and always will be
Someday you'll return to your valleys and your farms
And no longer burn to be Brothers in Arms.
Through of these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I have witnessed the awesome rage
As the battle rage on
And though it hurt me so bad
You didn't desert me
My Brothers in Arms.
There are many different world
And a million different songs
But we have just one world
Why live in different ones?
Now the suns gone to hell and the moons riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
And it's written in the stars above
And every line in your heart
We're fools to make war on our Brothers in Arms.
The crowd was swaying in time to my voice as I paused, they broke in wild cheering and whistling. I selected a guitar from one of the band members and started in to my next song.
When I look back upon my life its always with a sense of shame. I've always been the one to blame. For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've ever been, every where I'm going to
It's a sin
At school they taught me how to be so pure in thought and word and deed they didn't quiet succeed. For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've ever been, every where I'm going to
It's a sin
Father, forgive me I tried not to do it. Turn over a new leaf, then tore right through it. What ever you taught me I didn't believe it.
Father, you fought me cause I didn't care and I still don't understand. So I look back upon my life forever with a sense of shame I've always been the one to blame.
For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've
ever been,
every where I'm going to
It's a sin
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
Pausing to catch my breath and select another song. The crowd was roaring with energy and life. These dark faces upturned were drinking in my music, like flowers opening to the sun.
Read between the lines,
Words are just vibrations,
Don't ignore
Here desire
Pay attention
Your playing with fire
Silence must be heard,
Noise should be observed
The time has come to learn that silence must be heard!
Or times will burn
Friendly cards will turn
Because silence has the right to be heard
If you could talk to your watch
For what they they have to say
Words with out a meaning
They are fading away
Silence must be heard
Noise should be observed
The time has come to learn that silence must be heard!
Or times will burn
Friendly cards will turn
Because silence has the right to be heard!
Exhaustion was knocking at my knees, but I started into another song driving away my own emotions and letting the soul of the songs fill me.
Another question in me
One for the powers that be
It's got me thrown
And so I put on my poker face
And try to figure it out
This undeniable doubt
A common occurrence
Feeling so out of place
Guarded and cynical
Now can't help but wonder
How my heart evolved into a
Rock beating inside of me
So I reel
Such a stoic ordeal
Where's that feeling that I don't feel
There was a boy
Who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child
He would believe without a reason
Without a trace,
He disappeared into the void
And I've been searching for the missing person
Under a lavender moon
So many thoughts consume me
Who dimmed that glowing light
That once burned so bright in me
Is this a radical phase
A problematical age
That keeps me running
From all that I used to be
Is there a way to return
Is there a way to unlearn
That carnal knowledge
That's chipping away at my soul
I've been gone a little too long
Will I ever find my way home
There was a boy
Who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child
He would believe without a reason
Without a trace,
He disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for the missing person
He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel in in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately
But I've been searching for that missing person.
I paused to take both a deep breath and a drink of water. Taking a larger guitar from a rack, I pulled a stool underneath myself and strummed my way into a song that would end my evening.
Well, I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind.
I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time.
As I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon.
I feel there is nothing I can do.
I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon,
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind what happens now and then as long as you'll be my friend at the end.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman mind.
You call me strong,
You call me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep.
You took for granted all the times,
I never let you down.
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead.
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman mind.
I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon,
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind what happens now and then as long as you'll be my friend at the end.
Wild Child-Enya
Brothers In Arms-Joan Boaz
Adios-Enya
Lazy Day-Enya
Hunter-Dido
Break Away-Big Pig
It's A Sin-Pet Shop Boys
Silence Must Be Heard-Enigma
There Was A Boy-Micheal W. Smith
Kryptonite-Three Doors Down
Matter Of Time-Micheal W. Smith
Don't Give Up-Micheal W. Smith
May It Be-Enya
In Dreams-Edward Ross
Moonlight Dream-Anatalia
Forbidden Emotions-Anatalia
A Song To Sing
I never realized how lucky I was till my luck ran out. Maybe, it was never luck, but rather just good planning. I don't know, but all I know is something gave, and I landed on a duty hell-hole of a planet without a coin to my name. Only the jumpsuit I was wearing and my old blaster. The space port on this planet was teeming with the dredges of society. Not a group I really wanted to be near, but then again they were better than the imperials. I had been booted from the grimy freighter I had come on, with a curse and shove. I'd been on this dusty planet less that an hour, and I all ready hated it. Finally gathering what was left of my dignity I started into the city. The first thing would be to secure some credits and then a passage to a cleaner place. The first building that I came to looked like it hadn't been cleaned in the hundreds of years it had probably been standing. It was a gamblers den, the stink floating out onto the street. Coughing and gagging I walked past and headed for the second building. Down the row I went, they didn't get any better, just worse and worse. Finally, a low building with a harsh music coming from it proved to at least be a little cleaner. The music was loud enough to drowned out conversation on the street, I covered my ear and paused to weigh my options. When opportunity struck. The music fell silent and moments later a band of four aliens dropped at my feet. The owner of the dive murmured a curse then his gaze roamed the street. He saw me standing there, and cocked his head for a moment.
"Can you sing?" He asked and I smiled lightly.
"Of course."
"Good, then get in here." He took my arm and thrust me down a flight of dark steps and into a smoky room. He motioned to the stage and headed for the bar. I figured no one could do worse than that band, and I might even make a few credits off this place. My boots sounded dull and flat on the stage. I faced the crowd and tried to remember a catchy song, only one came to mind so I smiled and started in.
Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child
Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
To let it all go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child.
Cheers and whistled greeted the end and several coins slapped onto the stage. I licked my lips and gave a light grin to the crowd. Tapping my toe lightly on the stage I slipped into another song.
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands and always will be
Someday you'll return to your valleys and your farms
And no longer burn to be Brothers in Arms.
Through of these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I have witnessed the awesome rage
As the battle rage on
And though it hurt me so bad
You didn't desert me
My Brothers in Arms.
There are many different world
And a million different songs
But we have just one world
Why live in different ones?
Now the suns gone to hell and the moons riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
And it's written in the stars above
And every line in your heart
We're fools to make war on our Brothers in Arms.
The crowd exploded to it's feet with cheers and whistles. I took a sharp step back and gave a huge smile. My legs were tingling with exhaustion, and I felt dirty and scanky, but they were cheering all the same. The slightest flicker of a memory of another crowd in another time, cheering the same way. Then it slipped away and the crowd was roaring for another song. As exhausted as I was I raised my voice once again.
Here Am I
yet another good-bye!
he says Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why?
she won't break down and cry?
- she says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
One by One my leaves fall,
One by One my tales are told.
It's no lie
she is yearning to fly.
she says Adios, say Adios
and now you know why
he's a reason to sigh
- she says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
One by One my leaves fall,
One by One my tales are told.
My, Oh my!
she was aiming to high
he says Adios, say Adios,
and now you know why
there's no moon in her sky
- he says Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
No Good-byes
for love brightens their eyes.
Don't say Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?
- Don't say Adios, say Adios, Good-bye.
I had hoped that the crowd would take the hint and let me down off the stage. They did, but not with out plenty of cheering and whistling. I made my way down with the coins clenched in my fists, and smiled as people slapped my back in appreciation. I finally reached the bar, my shoulders stinging, and my knees knocking together. I hooked a stool beneath me and sagged down. The owner leaned against the bar across from me and let out a toothy grin.
"I'll trade ya, a room out back, and dinner if ya sing here from now on." I stuck out my hand with a grimace.
"Deal." He slapped it and nodded towards the other end of the bar. I swung off my stool and managed to make it to that end, he opened the bar and escorted me to a small back room, with a single bed and it's own fresher unit.
"Last singer slept here, she ended up paying for a back debt and leaving me with no help." I nodded and he dropped a plate of food onto a knee high table. "There's dinner, be done and back on that stage in one hour." I nodded and waited till he had left before diving into the food. It burned going down, but filled the empty belly and stopped my knees from shaking. I then explored the little room, it was dusty but clean. The fresher unit was clean and even had one threadbare towel. I returned to the bed and sat down to count my coins. Twenty-five credits for three songs wasn't bad, I tucked them into a little sack, and slipped it into my belt pouch. I cracked my back and stretched my long lean muscles. While touching my toes I saw the old trunk beneath the bed. Pulling it out I cracked the leather lid open with a grunt. Inside carefully folded was a jumpsuit of red with a flowing over coat of the same color. The woman who had worn this had been not much larger than me, I slipped into them and smoothed the cloth against my legs. It flattered the figure and cast an air of power to my lean frame. I let down my black hair from it's bun and shook out the long roll. It fell well down my back and rippled gently as I walked. Pulling my old boots back on and slipping my own belt on. I stood before the fresher mirror for the finally look. I had to smile and laugh at myself.
"So, what do you think?" I asked the mirror with a silly smile, turning I closed the trunk and gave it a shove beneath the bed again. I scooped up the plate and opened the door. I dropped the plate into the bustling kitchen and headed back towards the stage. The crowd had begun to change to the night group, but a few of the original few remained. They greeted my appearance with whistles. One of the nightly regulars let out a yell to the owner.
"Finally, get rid of that terrible band!" The owner tossed me a look of approval and glared at the owner of the yell. I chuckled to myself and taking a deep breath prepared to sing.
Lazy old day
rolling away
dreaming the day away
don't want to go
now that I'm in the flow
crazy amazing day.
One red balloon
floats to the moon
just let it fly away
I only know
that I'm longing to go
back to my lazy day
And how long it sings and how it sighs
And how it never stays
And how it rings and how it cries
And how it sails away...away...away...
I let the song fade and shifting gently on my feet I glanced out at the crowd. Every face was turned towards me shock and enthrallment had filled the room. Holding the people's attention I moved quickly into another song. The next four hours swept by, as I moved from song to song. Finally, I ran out of songs and of voice. I found myself coughing more that I was breathing. Thankfully, the audience had shrunk and most of them we're to drunk to notice. I made my way from the stage to the bar and slumped onto a stool. The owner set a glass of water before me and I let the liquid soothe my tired throat and parch my dry mouth. I managed to set the glass down and sat up a little straighter.
"I'm out of songs." I choked out, my voice cracking from the strain. I coughed and spoke again. "And voice."
"The crowds gone any ways, now you can sleep." I nodded and headed back for my room. Shedding the red suit and dropping into my old jumpsuit. I counted my new coins and added the totals together, 225 credits. I smiled and tucked the plump little bag into my belt and dropped into the bed fully clothed. Out of habit I checked my blaster and slipped it onto stun before tucking it beneath my pillow, and pulling the blanket up to my shoulders I passed out. I heard the creaking of old floorboards and without opening my eyes slip my hand silently up to my pillow and slid the blaster free. The person was at the foot of the bed, as I rolled and slapping the lights up brought the blaster to bear. It was a skinny woman with a greasy apron and silver hair pulled into a tight bun. She shrank back, fear clouding her lined face. I slowed my motions and sent the blaster back to it's holster.
"Sorry, old reflex."
"I-I'm Cara, he sent me to wake you. It's breakfast time, if you want any that is."
"I'm Roanoke, and I would love some breakfast." I said with a firm smile and with a light wave of my hand offered for her to leave the room first. She did so with a hurried stride and escaped down the dark hall towards the kitchen. I closed my door and followed at a firm stride, feeling much better for a nights sleep and descant food. The staff had formed up in the main room and we're eating a breakfast. I joined them and helped myself to the nameless tasteless food that was being served with a grimace. It heated the belly though, and gave energy to the limb. The rest of the staff avoided me, and gave me converted glances. They weren't sure what to think of this weapon toting woman. I just smiled when I caught someone's eye and hoped they didn't see it as threatening. Then the main doors thundered open and a huge slug came down with an escort of several strange aliens, and one man in dark armor. The owner smiled and bowed low.
"My lord, Jabba, what an unexpected surprise! What do I owe this honor too?"
"Your new singer, I want to hear her, now." The slug boomed and motioned towards the stage. The staff ran to clear tables and make a space for the slug and his henchmen. I got propelled onto the stage and the fear that crossed the owners face, made my knees start shaking again. Then I caught a glance from the man in armor, his t-shaped visor was facing me dead on. I could almost see a pair of glittering eyes behind that mask. I relaxed and took a deep breath. Strange enough only one song came to mind, and I let it flow, hoping for the best.
With one light on
In one room
I know your up
When I get home
With one small step upon the stair
I know your look when I get there
If you were a King up there on your throne
Would you be wise enough to let go
For this Queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
Wants to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go.
Unread book
Painful look
The tvs on the sound is down,
One long pause then you begin,
Oh, look what the cats brought in.
If you were a King up there on your throne
Would you be wise enough to let go
For this Queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
Wants to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go
Let me leave.
For the crown you've placed upon my head
Feels to heavy now
I don't know what to say to you
But I smile anyhow
And all the time I'm thinking, thinking
I want to be a hunter again
I want to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go.
I want to be a hunter again
I want to see the world alone again
To take a chance on life again
So let me go
Let me leave
Let me go.
I let the song die in the thick air and focus my gaze onto the staff and owner clustered in the back of the room. Their faces were a mix of awe and amazement. I let my gaze wander up to the huge slug. His red eyes were fixated on me, I shifted my feet and let my hand wander back to my blaster. The man in his armor shifted also tracking my every movement. I couldn't tell what he thought of the song, but something in his attitude changed. I felt as if he was recategorizing me from no-threat to very dangerous. It was an interesting feeling, one that made me pause in my motions and straightened sharply.
"You have heard me sing." I snapped out firmly and jumped down from the stage. Moving firmly back towards the owner and the staff.
"How much did you buy her for, Devor?" My hackles raised and I whirled with a snarl.
"I didn't buy her, Lord Jabba, she is an employ." Devor said quickly as I stepped forward. Reaching out he caught me by the arm. I twisted my arm from his grasp and stood seething.
"Well, then how much to buy out her contract? Name your price, my boy." Devor leaned closer and whispered in my ear.
"You'll be treated fairly there, I'm sorry, but if I don't sell, he'll just kill me and take you."
"You can't do this." I hissed, anger flushing my cheeks.
"10,000.00 Credits, Lord Jabba."
"It's a deal, Fett, bring her to my palace." Jabba then turned and slithered out, leaving only the man in armor left.
"You chose wisely, Devor."
"Maybe, I think time will tell that, Fett." Devor dropped my arm and turned away. I whirled and caught the back of his shirt.
"Who is that garbage ridden piece of slime!"
"Jabba the Hut, he controls this planet and owns basically everyone on it." Devor answered and pulling free headed back towards the bar. "Get your things, it looks as if that old room will be vacant again." I sagged and nodded slowly. I made my way slowly back to the old room and backed the few outfits that were in the trunk into an old knapsack that had been at the bottom, and shoved the trunk back under the bed again. I rolled to my feet and dusted off my knees, a cough summoned my attention to the door. Devor stood there a leather pouch bulging was in his hand. "This is your pay, you earned ever coin of it." He tossed it to me and I caught the bag firmly. It disappeared into my belt and I smiled lightly.
"Good-luck, Devor."
"Good-luck, um..."
"Roanoke."
"Good-luck, Roanoke." He said and with a nod disappeared. I took one last look at the room and swung the pack on. Returning to the main room and without a glance at Fett headed for the door. The sound of his boots followed me up the stairs and out onto the street. The second sun hadn't even risen, yet. The only thing on the street was a dirty animal. I stopped and glanced at the hazy blue sky. Fett stepped around me and swung up onto the animal. He offered me a hand, which I took and swung up behind him. The animal
stank and had an awful gate, that bounced us around. On the outskirts of town I called for a halt.
"Ugh, I can't take it anymore!" I swung down and sat down on the hard packed sand. Fett swung down and sat down taking a very deep breath.
"How long have you been here?"
"I got here, yesterday at about noon, it's hard to believe it's been less that a full day." I shook my head and tossed my hair over my shoulders.
"You could have sounded terrible, or even normal, and Jabba wouldn't have wanted you."
"No, I couldn't have, if Jabba is the big guy around here, then he's had people and probably records played over and over to him. He knew what I sounded like, it was just an act to fool Devor into selling out. Everything was just an act, even Devor, an act to gain the upper hand." I was musing mainly to myself, finally shaking the emotions that had draped themselves around my shoulders. I stood, and shaking the sand from myself took the smelly animals reins. "I used to ride horses...." I trailed off feeling drained of very energy as the memory of a young girl astride a lean horse raced across a green field flashed across my mind. I dropped to the sand with a gasp, and held my head as blinding pain echoed through my skull. I felt two strong arms support me as the memory drew forth others. A cascade of pictures flashed across my minds eye, they kept coming till I though my head would explode. Then it was all gone, leaving only the memories filed neatly away in the back of my head. I opened my eyes and gazed up into Fett's t-shaped visor. I took a deep breath and rolled to my feet. Taking up the reins again I swung aboard and settled neatly into the saddle. "Coming?" I asked, offering a hand to Fett. He cocked his head and swung up behind me. I clucked to the animal and it moved off at a much smoother gate. We covered the ground that was left between me and Jabba's palace just as the second sun had fully broke from it's grave in the horizon. Through the lower levels to Jabba's throne room I was led. Out onto that dusty stage, I stood, watching the crowd slowly swivel towards me. Fear knotted my stomach, I was thrust forward into the light. Gathering my breath and a bit of courage I cleared my throat and tried to drag a song up from my memories. Only that picture of the girl and her horse came up. Then slowly words came to me and this is what flowed out.
All my life I've wanted to fly,
Like the birds you see way up in the sky.
Making circles in the morning sun,
Flying high in the sky till the day is done.
I can't break away from this dream.
Like a child in her fantasy,
Punching holes in the walls of reality.
All my life I've wanted to fly,
But I don't have the wings and I wonder why?
I can't break away from this dream.
Oh well, my mama told me when I was young,
She said, stand tall girl your number one!
You can be what you want to be,
But you can't change the course of your destiny.
I can't break away from this dream.
One is one,
Two is two,
Black is black,
And white is white,
Just come out in the middle between day and night,
I can't break away from this dream!
Cheers and whistles answered the song and the crowd started stomping in time. I stepped back into the shadows as the band started up a dance tune. A lithe girl was suddenly at my elbow.
"Come, with me." She commanded and I slipped through the shadows after her. Through a dark series of tunnels to a cleaner series of rooms. Several girls we're spread through out the room. They all stood and stared at me.
"Whose the newie?" Snarled one as she approach with dark amber eyes and honey colored hair.
"I'm the new singer."
"Was that you we heard then?"
"Yes." She stepped back and stared venomously at me.
"At least you have a voice, even if you don't have any looks." She hissed and sat back on a couch. Another girl appeared and gave her a dark look.
"Amber, she's got better looks that you do, with that bleached hair." Amber snapped to her feet and snarled at the new girl. I slunk back a step and encountered another girl at my elbow. She stood on her tip-toes and whispered into my ear.
"Master Fett, would speak with you." I nodded and she led me out the door and down the stairs. Fett was waiting in a dimly light hall, the only door in the hall was at the end, a heavy wooden door. I noticed it mainly because of the carvings, they flickered through my mind reminding me vaguely of something I had seen someplace else. Fett nodded to the girl and she disappeared into the shadows.
"That is your room." He said, nodding to the door. I stepped past him and cracked the door open. The room was large and dusty, but not much better than my room back at Devor's. It also had it's own fresher station and the only real change was a desk in the corner. I dropped my knapsack on the bed and watched the cloud of dust rise. I shook my head and headed back out the door again. Fett was still leaning against the wall, casually watching a spider crawl along the floor. "Your blaster is of a make I've never seen." I paused and let my gaze wander towards the ceiling.
"I have no idea where I got it, it's just always been with me."
"It's been converted to take a standard powercell." He added tossing me a little black box. "I'd keep it fully charged." He said finally before vanishing into the shadows. I shrugged off the icy cold feeling that crept through my spine. Opening the box I saw the charger, and had to smile. It was silly, but I had a strange feeling that this was more than the warning his words had been. It was telling me to be careful, and very watchful. Closing the wood door I noticed the lock, flipping it I plugged in the charger and started charging my old blaster. Shaking the dust from the blankets and finally taking a broom to the floor had the room in descant shape. I hung my few jumpsuit in the small closet and started the fresher charging. I figured that I'd have to perform tonight, so I sat cross legged on my bed and started dredging up songs to sing. I had a good twenty planned when a knock at my door summoned me from my revere. I snapped up my blaster and after flipping back the lock, open the door a crack. A serving girl was standing in the light before my door shaking with fear.
"Yes?" I asked, opening the door slightly more. She handed me a tray of food and in a shaking voice.
"After you have eaten, Lord Jabba says you must sing."
"Very well, I will be up very soon."
"Do you know the way?" She asked in a slightly awed voice.
"Yes." I said with a light smile and shut the door firmly on any more questions. I ate quickly, the food was greasy and hot. It gave me energy and that was all the counted. I dressed in a midnight blue and silver jumpsuit with a flowing overrobe of silver and midnight blue. I twirled and laughed at the motion of the robe. Brushing my hair out and adding my boots and belt to the outfit. I slipped my blaster into it's holster and after one last look left the room. Following the hall back to the throne room wasn't hard, but getting to the stage was. Finally, I managed my way through the press of aliens and humans. Standing on the stage with the light casting down upon me. I felt excitement building in my body. I straightened and lifting my voice I began.
Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child
Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on.
Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
To let it all go on and on.
What a day
What a day to take to
What a way
What a way
To make it through
What a day
What a day to take to
A wild child.
Memories of that first night in Devor's flooded back and with a light smile I jumped into my next song.
These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands and always will be
Someday you'll return to your valleys and your farms
And no longer burn to be Brothers in Arms.
Through of these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I have witnessed the awesome rage
As the battle rage on
And though it hurt me so bad
You didn't desert me
My Brothers in Arms.
There are many different world
And a million different songs
But we have just one world
Why live in different ones?
Now the suns gone to hell and the moons riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
And it's written in the stars above
And every line in your heart
We're fools to make war on our Brothers in Arms.
The crowd was swaying in time to my voice as I paused, they broke in wild cheering and whistling. I selected a guitar from one of the band members and started in to my next song.
When I look back upon my life its always with a sense of shame. I've always been the one to blame. For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've ever been, every where I'm going to
It's a sin
At school they taught me how to be so pure in thought and word and deed they didn't quiet succeed. For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've ever been, every where I'm going to
It's a sin
Father, forgive me I tried not to do it. Turn over a new leaf, then tore right through it. What ever you taught me I didn't believe it.
Father, you fought me cause I didn't care and I still don't understand. So I look back upon my life forever with a sense of shame I've always been the one to blame.
For everything I long to do no matter where or when or who has one thing in common too.
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've ever done, everything I ever do, every place I've
ever been,
every where I'm going to
It's a sin
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
Its a-its a-its a-it's a sin
Pausing to catch my breath and select another song. The crowd was roaring with energy and life. These dark faces upturned were drinking in my music, like flowers opening to the sun.
Read between the lines,
Words are just vibrations,
Don't ignore
Here desire
Pay attention
Your playing with fire
Silence must be heard,
Noise should be observed
The time has come to learn that silence must be heard!
Or times will burn
Friendly cards will turn
Because silence has the right to be heard
If you could talk to your watch
For what they they have to say
Words with out a meaning
They are fading away
Silence must be heard
Noise should be observed
The time has come to learn that silence must be heard!
Or times will burn
Friendly cards will turn
Because silence has the right to be heard!
Exhaustion was knocking at my knees, but I started into another song driving away my own emotions and letting the soul of the songs fill me.
Another question in me
One for the powers that be
It's got me thrown
And so I put on my poker face
And try to figure it out
This undeniable doubt
A common occurrence
Feeling so out of place
Guarded and cynical
Now can't help but wonder
How my heart evolved into a
Rock beating inside of me
So I reel
Such a stoic ordeal
Where's that feeling that I don't feel
There was a boy
Who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child
He would believe without a reason
Without a trace,
He disappeared into the void
And I've been searching for the missing person
Under a lavender moon
So many thoughts consume me
Who dimmed that glowing light
That once burned so bright in me
Is this a radical phase
A problematical age
That keeps me running
From all that I used to be
Is there a way to return
Is there a way to unlearn
That carnal knowledge
That's chipping away at my soul
I've been gone a little too long
Will I ever find my way home
There was a boy
Who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child
He would believe without a reason
Without a trace,
He disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for the missing person
He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel in in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately
But I've been searching for that missing person.
I paused to take both a deep breath and a drink of water. Taking a larger guitar from a rack, I pulled a stool underneath myself and strummed my way into a song that would end my evening.
Well, I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind.
I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time.
As I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon.
I feel there is nothing I can do.
I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon,
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind what happens now and then as long as you'll be my friend at the end.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman mind.
You call me strong,
You call me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep.
You took for granted all the times,
I never let you down.
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead.
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman mind.
I watched the world float through the dark side of the moon,
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind what happens now and then as long as you'll be my friend at the end.